"Why, certainly . . . so I"ve heard . . . at the Castle! . . . Monsieur Langouve is already rehearsing the chorus! . . . they"re celebrating the retaking of the Ardennes!"
Hmm . . . you don"t say so . . ."
"Yes . . . yes! . . . all the amba.s.sadors! . . a big celebration! . . ."
"Ah! . . . Ah?"
"Monsieur Langouve . . ."
He"s deep in a kind of revery . . . he"s dreaming . . . he sees . . . his wife doesn"t see . . .
"Hector . . . really?"
She speaks up . . . she hadn"t heard . . . I watch him closely . . . yes, there is a glazed look in his eyes . . . could they have knocked him a little silly in the brushwood brigade? . . . hit him a little too hard? . . . could be . . . I wondered . . . I asked his wife . . .
"Oh, they hit us so terribly, Doctor! . . . and the things they called us!"
It was the "lazy" that stuck in her craw . . . that kept her in tears . . . but him? I couldn"t help wondering . . .
"Hard on the head?"
"Very hard!"
She started sobbing again . . . the one thing in his mind was the Celebration . . . the Celebration for his benefit! . . . and "Concert master" . . . the "Retaking of the Ardennes!"
"Then you will, Doctor? Concert master? You will? I only hope that Monsieur de Brinon . . ."
"Why, of course, Monsieur Delaunys . . . Consider yourself concert master . . ."
I gesture to his wife that it was all settled . . . she should stop wailing! . . . he certainly seemed strange . . . ragged, disheveled, that glazed look, yet in spite of everything a certain dignity . . . in his tied-up, molded rags . . . the bad part was his discolored moustache, faded from "Nubian" to tallow . . .and his torn wig . . . it wasn"t only his scalp that had suffered! . . . they"d dusted the whole man! . . .
"Oh, strictly a chamber orchestra . . . you get the idea, Doctor? . . . but what splendid works! . . . you"ll hear Mozart!. . . Debussy! . . . Faure!. . . oh, I knew Faure well! . . . we weren"t the first to play his music . . . . but almost! . . . almost! . . . am I right, sweetheart?"
"Oh yes! . . . oh yes!"
"And Florent Schmidt too! . . . without boasting, I can say that we played all the young composers on the Boulevard de Strasbourg! . . . Did you know Monsieur Ha.s.s, Doctor? our pianist? . . . another First Prize!"
"Of course, Monsieur Delaunys!"
"Monsieur Touche was the soul of kindness! you know that, Doctor! . . . he wanted me to be concert master! . . . in 1900! . . . even then! . . . of course I declined! . . . I declined! . . . I was too young . . . I refused Monsieur Touche but with Monsieur Langouve yes, I accept! . . . I"ve made up my mind . . . I can"t wait any longer! . . . the opportunity presents itself? I"ll take it! not that I haven"t always wanted it! . . . yes, I admit it! . . . but would you have expected me to rush? never! calculation? certainly not! . . . but the question of maturity, Doctor? . . . I wasn"t mature, but now I am! you"ll hear me! ah, Doctor, Madame Celine will be on the program too! she"ll dance! she will, won"t she? . . . we"ve taken the liberty! . . . an old dance . . . a chaconne . . . and two other dances . . . romantic . . . we"ll accompany her! . . . you"ll let her?"
His wife looked at me, to see what I was thinking . . . I motioned her not to say anything . . . that it was his head . . . his head . . . he really did seem to have a glazed look, but his words weren"t those of a lunatic . . . only maybe a little surprising . . . this Celebration at the Castle! . . .
But one thing was sure . . . I could see that if he went up to Raumnitz and started talking about the Ardennes and the Celebration and the concert, Aisha would escort him out . . . he"d join the others . . . it couldn"t fail! . . . he wasn"t a bad sort . . . maybe the best way, as long as I was going, wouldbe to take them to the Castle and try to find them a place to sleep . . . see if Brinon would take them in . . . anyway, I could try . . . maybe Madame Mitre could do something . . . Maybe they could use musicians in the Castle . . . because here at the Lowen Lowen they"d end up in Room 36 . . . without a doubt! . . . upstairs and down in two seconds flat! . . . they"d end up in Room 36 . . . without a doubt! . . . upstairs and down in two seconds flat! . . .
Madame Mitre would understand . . . a good deal better than Brinon . . .
Retaking of the Ardennes . . . Celebration of Rundstedt"s Triumph? . . . where had he got that? . . . from Monsieur Langouve? . . . the conductor? . . . Langouve was a little touched, but not that bad . . . or in p.i.s.sen? . . . the brushwood commando? . . . they hadn"t just clouted his noodle, they"d started a jamboree in it! . . . celebrations! . . . apotheosis!
I motion his wife to come along, they should follow me . . . I motion to Lili, too . . . "You"ll start rehearsing," I tell her . . .
The main thing, when people have a screw loose, is not to thwart them . . . act as if everything were perfectly natural . . . no opposition! . . . same with animals! . . . no surprises! . . . everything is just fine . . . perfectly natural . . . same with incisions, injections, scalpels . . . "perfectly natural" . . . oh, but watch your step! . . . a quarter of a milligram too much or too little . . . and all h.e.l.l breaks loose! . . . the Devil and his cauldron! . . . the emotions boil over! the patient jumps off the operating table with his belly wide open, dragging his guts . . . carrying everything away . . . scalpels, mask, balloon flask, compresses! . . . wide open! . . . and all your fault! . . . same in your love life: how often you see your lovesick little sweetheart turn into a homicidal maniac! "s.e.x-fiend, rapist, monster!" You can"t get over it! so docile, and now this arrogant rage! . . . a touch too heavy somewhere! . . . nevermind . . .
Suppose you"re a king . . . your people eat, drink, go to church, and leave you alone . . . all of a sudden fireworks on all sides! . . . they knock over your Bastille . . . and wipe out your regime! . . . Pont-Neuf, Grand Army, and all! you"vesaid one little word too many! all it takes to break that "perfectly natural" charm! . . .
Without boasting, I can say that I watched my step . . . not a faux pas! I led them away as if it were the most natural thing in the world . . . Delaunys, his wife and Lili . . . we left the Lowen Lowen in plain sight of the in plain sight of the shuppo shuppo . . . . . . Raumnitz befehl! Raumnitz befehl! hush hush! . . . he salutes . . . okay! . . . direct to the Castle! we take the elevator . . . first Madame Mitre . . . actually she"s the one that counts . . . I explain the case . . . the two of them are at the door, waiting for me . . . Madame Mitre understands right away . . . "You know how it is, Doctor, the Amba.s.sador right now!" hush hush! . . . he salutes . . . okay! . . . direct to the Castle! we take the elevator . . . first Madame Mitre . . . actually she"s the one that counts . . . I explain the case . . . the two of them are at the door, waiting for me . . . Madame Mitre understands right away . . . "You know how it is, Doctor, the Amba.s.sador right now!"
It was always "the Amba.s.sador right now" for one reason or another! This was a particularly bad time, his wife nee Ulmann had just phoned from Constance that he should do this . . . do that . . . oh, Madame nee Ulmann was a power! the story was that she was opposed to her husband"s policies . . . pure hok.u.m, according to Pellepoix who knew them well, they bickered for the gallery, but they both belonged to the "Great Conspiracy!" . . . possible . . . but in the end one thing is sure, he was drilled, she wasn"t . . .
I"ve told you, Brinon was always perfectly regular with me . . . not cordial, no! . . . but regular . . . he might have been put out with me for not having "superb morale," for not writing in La France La France that Boche victory was around the corner . . . for speaking very freely . . . not playing the game . . . what game was he playing? I never found out! . . . the fact remains that he never asked me any questions . . . he could have . . . I was a doctor and that"s that! . . . oh, I practiced all right! I knew every pa.s.sage, every blind alley and attic in that Hohenzollern fortress! bringing the good word to this one and that one . . . Subject of politics, Brinon left me alone . . . that"s unusual! . . . mostly the bigshots in the double game aren"t satisfied unless you wave your arms and really get yourself hooked . . . occasionally we exchanged a few words on the subject of letters from Berlin, from the Chancellery . . . mentioning medicine . . . and things I had said at one time or another . . . that Boche victory was around the corner . . . for speaking very freely . . . not playing the game . . . what game was he playing? I never found out! . . . the fact remains that he never asked me any questions . . . he could have . . . I was a doctor and that"s that! . . . oh, I practiced all right! I knew every pa.s.sage, every blind alley and attic in that Hohenzollern fortress! bringing the good word to this one and that one . . . Subject of politics, Brinon left me alone . . . that"s unusual! . . . mostly the bigshots in the double game aren"t satisfied unless you wave your arms and really get yourself hooked . . . occasionally we exchanged a few words on the subject of letters from Berlin, from the Chancellery . . . mentioning medicine . . . and things I had said at one time or another . . .
"What do you think, Monsieur de Brinon?"
"Nothing . . . I"m reading you the letters from Berlin . . . that"s all. . ."
As Bonnard said, Brinon was a cave animal . . . gloomy and secretive . . . you couldn"t get anything out of him . . . all the same, six months hefore the end, I went to see him about some ointment . . . sulphur and mercury . . . "Oh, Doctor, come along in six months it will all be over" . . . I didn"t ask him which way . . . he never said anything about anything.
Anyway, with my raggedy Delaunys, it wasn"t exactly the right time . . .
"What do you want of the Amba.s.sador, Doctor?"
To let them stay in the Castle, because if they go back to the Lowen Lowen you know von Raumnitz? . . ." you know von Raumnitz? . . ."
Of course she knew him . . . and his little ways . . . I didn"t go into details . . . neither did she . . . she knew all about it . . .
I dive right in . . . bull by the horns . . .
"I"ll take them up to the music room . . . they"ll behave . . . I vouch for them . . . they"ll rehea.r.s.e . . . I"ll bed them down . . . they won"t move . . . they"ll sleep up there . . . Lili will bring them their Stam Stam . . . Lili dances up there . . . I"ll tell the servants, I"ll tell Bridoux, I"ll tell everybody it"s for the big Celebration . . . all right? . . ." . . . Lili dances up there . . . I"ll tell the servants, I"ll tell Bridoux, I"ll tell everybody it"s for the big Celebration . . . all right? . . ."
Madame Mitre hadn"t heard . . .
"What big celebration?"
"Oh, it"s his idea . . . the banquet for the "Retaking of the Ardennes!""
Madame Mitre doesn"t get it . . . she looks at me . . . have I gone off my rocker too?
"No, Madame Mitre . . . no . . . that"s the pretext! . . . My mind"s all right, but he believes in this Celebration! he"s dead sure . . . and sure that he"ll be promoted to concert master . . . it"s his dream . . . Monsieur Langouve has promised him . . .. you understand?"
She begins to catch on . . .
"But listen to me, Madame Mitre . . . if I take them back to the Lowen Lowen . . ." . . ."
Oh, she understands that . . .
"You know how they were treated in Cissen? beaten to a pulp . . . so you see . . . he isn"t quite right . . . concussion! . . . at his age! . . . just take a look at his head! . . ."
"Oh, Doctor, I believe you . . . very well, I"ll tell Monsieur de Brinon there"s an orchestra rehearsing . . . for a benefit performance . . ."
"Fine . . . certainly . . . thank you, Madame Mitre! . . . hardly anybody goes up there . . . n.o.body but Bridoux . . . and the servants . . . it"s too cold . . . if anybody asks, I"ll say: it"s the retaking of the Ardennes . . . the big celebration . . . good-by, Madame Mitre . . ."
So I climb my people up to the seventh floor, Delaunys, his wife, Lili . . . Delaunys and his wife are scratching even worse than we are . . . they"d reinforced their scabies out there . . . I"ve seen plenty of scabies, but the insects they brought back from the camp and the brush! . . . real flesh plows! . . . galloping scabies! . . . in addition to their bruises and blotches, they were living Chinese puzzles, checkerboards of scabies "Haven"t you any ointment, Doctor?"
"No, but we"ll have some soon, Madame!"
I comfort her . . . I don"t want them to stop scratching, to stand still and think . . . the idea was to keep them moving . . . get them up those stairs . . . We made it! . . . here we are! the s.p.a.cious concert hall . . . "Hall of Neptune" they called it . . .
"Oh, very nice! oh, splendid!"
They keep exclaiming . . . he"s delighted . . .
"And excellent acoustics, I hope?"
"Admirable, Monsieur Delaunys!"
Indeed, the Hohenzollern princes hadn"t stinted . . . the hall was a good six hundred feet long, all draped in pink and gray brocade . . . and down there on the stage at the end the porphyry statue of Neptune . . . brandishing his trident! . . . terrific! . . . standing in an enormous sh.e.l.l . . . alabaster and granite . . .
I"ve got it! . . . the idea came to me instantly!
"How about it, Delaunys? . . . Monsieur de Brinon hasgiven his permission . . . you won"t have to go out . . . you"ll sleep in the sh.e.l.l! . . . over there! both of you! . . . you see? . . . no need to go out! . . . they"d pick you up and send you to Cissen! . . . they"d take you back! . . . I"ll bring you blankets! . . . n.o.body"ll see you! . . . you"ll be a lot better off than at the Fidelis! Fidelis! . . ." . . ."
They were only too glad to believe me . . .
"Certainly, Doctor! Certainly!"
"And you"ll bring us some ointment?"
"Oh yes, Madame . . . tomorrow morning!"
So that"s the story . . .
Just then Bridoux comes through! . . . General Bridoux in his boots and spurs! . . . resplendent! . . . he crossed the hall from end to end at lunchtime . . . to the ministers" table . . . one two! one! two! . . . every day at the stroke of noon! and every day at the stroke of noon he made the same observation . . . "Get out of here!" He couldn"t stand seeing Lili dance in this hall! so closed-in! . . . not brutal but authoritarian! . . . outside she had the terraces! and what terraces! . . . the air, the view of the whole valley! . . . Minister of War and cavalry general! . . . "Get out of here!" . . .
As for him, he had escaped from Berlin . . . "Get out of here!" from the Russians . . . later escaped from the Val de Grace from the Fifis . . . "Get out of here!" . . . and ended up in Madrid . . . "Get out of here!" . . . That"s life in a nutsh.e.l.l . . .
One thing anyway, I had found a place for the Delaunys . . . they spent about a month in Neptune"s sh.e.l.l . . . Lili brought them their Stam Stam . . . they slept in blankets she brought from the . . . they slept in blankets she brought from the Lowen Lowen . . . they got along fine with Bridoux . . . they went out on the terraces to please him . . . Later on things happened . . . a lot of things . . . I"ll tell you. . . . they got along fine with Bridoux . . . they went out on the terraces to please him . . . Later on things happened . . . a lot of things . . . I"ll tell you.
I leave Lili at work . . . rehearsing her dances with the Delaunys, her pieces for the Celebration . . . its no joke any more . . . all "perfectly natural"! . . . chaconnes, pa.s.se-pieds, rigadoons! . . . after a while we got very serious about it . . . don"t tip the kettle . . . don"t let the devils out! the "Retaking of the Ardennes"? Certainly! all the amba.s.sadors will be there! . . . of course! the triumph of Rundstedt"s army? Oh la la! triumph is putting it mildly!
As for amba.s.sadors, only one . . . the j.a.panese . . . and a single consul, the Italian . . . maybe in a pinch the one from Vichy . . . who"d escaped from Dresden? . . . and the German Amba.s.sador? Hoffmann? . . . accredited to Brinon . . . Otto Abetz still gave little "surprise parties" now and then . . . oh, all very harmless and innocent . . . Without prejudging the future but taking the past into account, the Chancellery of the Greater Reich had worked out a certain mode of existence for the French in Siegmaringen, neither absolutely fict.i.tious nor absolutely real . . . a fict.i.tious status, half way between quarantine and operetta, elaborated by Monsieur Sixte, our great legal expert at the Foreign Ministry in Berlin, who had drawn on every possible precedent: the Revocation of the Edicts, the Palatinate, the Huguenots, the War of the Spanish Succession . . . finally we were granted the "conditional, exceptional, and precarious" status of "refugees in a French enclave" . . . Visible marks of our status were our stamps (portrait of Petain), his Milice Milice in uniform, and our unfurled flag on high! and our clarion reveille! . . . but our "exceptional enclave" was itself an enclave in Prus...o...b..den territory . . . and watch yourself! this territory itself was an enclave in South Wurttemberg! Just to give you an idea . . . The total unity ofGermany dates from Hitler and not so very unified at that! for instance: there were trains going from Germany to Switzerland that crossed the border ten times, the same one, in fifteen minutes . . . in uniform, and our unfurled flag on high! and our clarion reveille! . . . but our "exceptional enclave" was itself an enclave in Prus...o...b..den territory . . . and watch yourself! this territory itself was an enclave in South Wurttemberg! Just to give you an idea . . . The total unity ofGermany dates from Hitler and not so very unified at that! for instance: there were trains going from Germany to Switzerland that crossed the border ten times, the same one, in fifteen minutes . . . lander lander, loops, hamlets, riverbeds . . . h.e.l.l . . . I go on and on . . .
One way or another, we were short on amba.s.sadors for this celebration . . . make do with j.a.pan? . . . of course we could invite Abetz . . . as amba.s.sador of what? . . . Abetz went around in a wood-burning car . . . you were always running into him . . . three hundred yards: breakdown . . . another three hundred yards: another breakdown! . . . his big noggin slashed and battered! . . . bubbling with ideas, all of them wrong . . . everybody in Paris knew Abetz, I didn"t know him very well . . . no sympathy . . . really nothing to say to each other . . . practically any time you saw him he was surrounded by "clients" . . . courtiers . . . courtier-clients from every Court! . . . the same ones or their brothers! you can drop in on Mendes . . . Churchill, Na.s.ser, or Khrushchev . . . always the same people or their brothers! Versailles, Kremlin, Vel d"Hiv, Auction Rooms . . . Laval! de Gaulle! . . . you"ll see . . . gray eminences, punks, shady characters, Academists or Third Estate, pluri-s.e.xuals, rigorists or proxenetists, eaters of hosts or piddle-bread, you"ll find them forever sybilline, reborn from century to century! . . . that"s the continuity of Power! . . . you"re looking for some little poison? . . . some doc.u.ment? . . . that big chandelier? . . . or that little dressing table? . . . that rolypoly groom? . . . yours! . . . one wink, and it"s fixed! . . . On his return from Clichy (Dagobert"s court) Agobert, bishop of Lyons, already (632) complained that the Court was a sink! a den of thieves and wh.o.r.es! . . . Agobert of Lyons! . . . he should come back in 3060 . . . thieves and wh.o.r.es! h.e.l.l find the same! Don"t doubt it . . . Groom-Eminences and Court hookers!
I"m taking you away from Siegmaringen . . . my head"s a puzzle! . . . I was telling you about the street in Siegmaringen . . . shuppos shuppos . . . but not just . . . but not just shuppos! shuppos! . . . soldiers of every rank and branch of service . . . chucked out of the station . . . the wounded of disbanded regiments . . . units of Swabian, Magyar, Saxon divisions cut to pieces in Russia . . . cadres from G.o.d knows where . . . officers of Balkan armies looking for their generals . . . flummoxed . . . same as you could see right here during the big Schelde-Bayonne "sh.e.l.lac steeplechase" . . . addled colonels . . . Soubises without lanterns . . . you saw them outside shop windows staring in, as if they were looking for somebody inside . . . pretending . . . Abetz in his woodburner stopped every three hundred yards . . . he couldn"t have failed to notice that Adolf"s army was in a very bad way . . . Abetz never spoke to me . . . I saw him go by, he didn"t see me . . . if his car had broken down, he looked in some other direction . . . okay! . . . and then one morning he stopped me . . . . . . soldiers of every rank and branch of service . . . chucked out of the station . . . the wounded of disbanded regiments . . . units of Swabian, Magyar, Saxon divisions cut to pieces in Russia . . . cadres from G.o.d knows where . . . officers of Balkan armies looking for their generals . . . flummoxed . . . same as you could see right here during the big Schelde-Bayonne "sh.e.l.lac steeplechase" . . . addled colonels . . . Soubises without lanterns . . . you saw them outside shop windows staring in, as if they were looking for somebody inside . . . pretending . . . Abetz in his woodburner stopped every three hundred yards . . . he couldn"t have failed to notice that Adolf"s army was in a very bad way . . . Abetz never spoke to me . . . I saw him go by, he didn"t see me . . . if his car had broken down, he looked in some other direction . . . okay! . . . and then one morning he stopped me . . .
"Doctor, please . . . would you come to the Castle tomorrow evening? . . . dinner with me and Hoffmann? nothing formal! just ourselves . . ."
"Certainly, Monsieur Abetz?
I was in no position to hem and haw . . . at the appointed hour, eight o"clock, I was in the Castle . . . Abetz"s dining room . . . a maitre d"hotel takes me somewhere else, the other wing, the other end of the Castle . . . corridors! . . . corridors! . . . "never be where you"re supposed to be! . . ." another little dining room . . . there could always be a bomb under the table! especially since the attempt on Hitler"s life! . . . precautions! well, here we are! the other little dining room . . . attractive . . . porcelain knick-knacks all over . . . Dresden . . . statuettes, vases . . . menu"s less attractive! . . . I see, it"s on my account . . . the "special Spartan menu!" I see, I see! . . . they knew about my malicious tongue, my evil mind! Hoffmann and Abetz wouldn"t touch this menu, they"d wait till I was gone! he"d heard the stories that were going around among the villeins, about the delicacies they piled in . . . the Ministers, Botschafters and Generals . . . behind their thick walls! the feasts! morning! noon! and night! legs of lamb! hams! caviar! souffles! . . . and the cellars full of champagne! . . . I could see they were showing me the perfect Spartan menu! . . . No need for me to open my mouth! . . . Abetz had his monologue all ready . . . the storyof his "resistance" . . . the way he"d taken the swastika flag down from his emba.s.sy on the rue de Lille! . . . oh, the rue de LI"lle was a bad street for them! . . . I thought, I listened, I didn"t say a word . . . rue de Lille, the same street as Rene! . . . Rene-the-Racist! Rene stayed put! . . . they were sacked, booted out! . . . I know Rene! . . . he tore up eight orders not to prosecute me . . .
There at the table I looked at Abetz, he was playing with his napkin . . . well-fed, clean-shaven . . . he"d eat again when I left . . . and not exactly what they were serving me! radishes without b.u.t.ter, porridge without milk! . . . he was perorating for me to listen and repeat . . . that"s what he"d invited me for! . . . they serve us a slice of sausage, one slice each . . . in that case, h.e.l.l, let"s have some fun at least! . . . I dive in . . .
"What will you do, Monsieur Abetz, when Leclerc"s army gets here? right here in Siegmaringen! . . . in the Castle?"
My question doesn"t faze them . . . neither Hoffmann nor him, they"d thought about it . . .
"We have men in the Black Forest, Monsieur Celine! utterly devoted! our Brown underground! . . . got away from your Fifis on the rue de Lille! . . . it"ll be ten times easier here! . . . a bad moment, that"s all! but you"ll come with us, Celine!"
"Oh, certainly, Monsieur Abetz!"
As long as this was a diplomatic lunch, I had to say my piece . . . it was on my stomach . . . even worse than the radishes!
"See here, Monsieur Abetz, see here! . . . there"s a slight difference! . . . which you pretend not to see! . . . you, Abetz . . . even one hundred percent defeated, crushed, occupied by forty-nine victor powers . . . by G.o.d, the Devil, and the Apostles . . . you"ll still be the loyal, dutiful German, honor and fatherland! defeated but legitimate! while a d.a.m.n fool like me will always be a stinking filthy traitor, fit to be hanged! . . . a disgrace to my brothers and the Fifis! . . . first tree! . . . you"ll admit there"s a difference, Monsieur Abetz?"
"Oh, you"re exaggerating, Celine! you always exaggerate! about everything! victory is in the palm of our hands, Celine! . . . the secret weapon! . . . you"ve heard? . . . no? . . . but let"s suppose Celine, let"s look at it from your point of view! . . . defeatism! all right, we"re defeated! there! if that"s what you want! . . . some vestige of National Socialism will always remain! our ideas will regain their vigor! . . . their full vigor! . . . we have sowed, Celine! sowed! sowed blood! . . . ideas! . . . love!"
The sound of his voice made him ecstatic . . .
"Not at all, Abetz! not at all! . . . you"ll see! . . . History is written by the victors! . . . your History will be a dilly!"
The flunkey pa.s.ses the radishes around again . . . gives me another slice of sausage . . .
"All the same, Monsieur Celine . . . listen to me! . . . I know France . . . you know, everybody knows . . . that I taught drawing in France . . . and not only in Paris . . . in the North . . . in the East . . . and in Provence . . . I did thousands of portraits . . . men and women! Frenchmen! . . . Frenchwomen! . . . and on the faces of those French men and women . . . of the common people! . . . mark my words, Celine . . . I"ve seen an expression . . . an honest, beautiful expression . . . of really sincere . . . really profound . . . friendship! not only for me! for Germany! a very real affection, Celine! . . . for Europe! . . . that"s what you must try to understand, Celine!"
Comfort makes people soft in the head, that"s how I felt about it . . . they were both beaming! . . . Hoffmann too, across the table . . . it wasn"t the libations! nothing but water on the table . . . it was words . . . words! I really had no answer . . . now it was the Stam Stam . . . still the . . . still the Stam Stam . . . but a special . . . but a special Stam Stam with real carrots, real turnips and, I think, real b.u.t.ter . . . with real carrots, real turnips and, I think, real b.u.t.ter . . .
"Yes, Monsieur l"Amba.s.sadeur!"
Abetz wasn"t the barbarian type . . . no . . . nothing to be afraid of like Raumnitz! . . . he hadn"t been spanked! . . . not yet! . . . but even so . . . even so . . . better not go too far . . . I"d said enough . . . the affection of the French people? Okay . . . "Shoot the works, kid!" I heartily approve . . .
"Oh, you"re right, Abetz!"
That does it! I"ve started him up again! I"m in for it! . . . the New Europe! and his pet project, his great work as soon as we return to Paris, the super-colossal bronze statue of Charlemagne at the end of the Avenue de la Defense!
"You see, Celine? . . . the Aachen-La Defense axis!"
"Of course I see, Monsieur Abetz! I was born at the Rampe du Pont!"
"Then you see!"
I could see Charlemagne and his valiant knights . . . Goebbels as Roland . . .
"Oh, you"re so right!"
"You see! You see! two thousand years of history . . ."