Don’t care is a good punishment
Proverbs say: Remember what should be remembered, and forget what should be forgotten.
But we often: Remember the forgotten, forget what should be remembered.
Cen Shi called again. Xiao He He is not surprised but still refused him with just 2 words. She is not showing any att.i.tude, but suddenly she had additional workload that she need to get back to work on.
Later Cen Shi called again for the fourth time. He He knew that she cannot escape it anymore so decided to take an early break. She agreed to meet him on Friday night to meet at “Pavillion Road.”
The venue is chosen by He He so of course Cen Shi understand her intentions. Such a place with no festive images name, plain decorations but somehow the business is surprisingly good, showing the submissiveness of He He.
Haven’t met for so many years, Cen Shi still have not changed much. Just looking so much more mature adding to his attractiveness.
Xiao He He compares his changes in her heart and feels that it is a great change. Without any meaning to complain but with a calm and peaceful hear, discover his bright spot, showing how broad-minded she has become.
“He He, you have become more beautiful now.” Cen Shi said, with appreciative eyes just like a mild amiable big brother.
Xiao He He did not quite know what to say, thought for a long time and said: “Cen Shi, you are more handsome now,” she finished with a hallow laugh or two.
Such a bad opening, the atmosphere the night becomes very awkward. Xiao He He is not a person with a good communication skills, does not know how to deal with the scene and becomes more and more uncomfortable. She counted the layer of the lights, researched the waitress and waiter style of dressing and even memories half of the items on the menu but did not listen clearly to what Cen Shi is saying. To a certain degress, Cen Shi said words with a question mark only, He He asked: “ah?”
Cen Shi maintaining his full patience and grace, slowly asked: “He He, you still hate me. I…….”
“No” Xiao He He rebound and quickly repair the situation. “Cen Shi, your ‘sorry’ is not necessary and you have said it before. Resentment is derived from strong emotion. Towards you, the affections are not that deep.”
Cen Shi is very frustrated in his heart. He looked at Xiao He He who is sitting opposite of him. She looked at him just as intense. In a blink of an eye, the thought drifted. He clearly remembers that she is 25 years old, obviously pa.s.sed the youth. But her facial features and small yet exquisite body is still refreshing and simple. Yet occasionally with a light touch, will always jump with remarks, just like how it was before.
Back then he felt that she is like a cat, curled up quietly, half-squint and lazy. When bullied by people, she show her indifference like there is no care in her world. But if anyone crossed her bottom line, she will immediately exposed her sharp claws and teething, therefore showing them some colors.
Thinking back to the past, his heart felt a little warm. Even though sitting across him, Xiao He He turned away from looking at him. She is so good, at least she did not forget him. Although she only took him as her mentor, not minding the past, he felt more frustrated at the moment. But he understands that as a woman, she is no longer the Xiao He He that he knew.
In the bathroom, Xiao He He looked at herself in the mirror. Just after dinner, Cen Shi was about to pay the bill, she left her meal on the table and turned away to the toilet to wash her face. She had washed it several times. This is because, with the water on her face, even she herself cannot tell if there are any flow of tears.
She has return to couldn’t care less temperament. In front of Cen Shi, she never had any care. Although others take her as a joke, obviously a Cinderella but pretending to be a princess, it is something that she cannot change.
He He’s childhood and teenage years are actually nice, calm and happy. Although her father gad dedicated his life in the line of duty, her mother’s entire life is dedicated to the same cause. Because both her parents are orphans, she does not have any other relatives in the world. But this was never her concern.
Zheng Xie has a large family. In addition to Zheng Xie’s mother, Aunty Qian also regards her as her own child. Zheng Xie’s stern father, for her is exceptionally tender. Even Zheng Xie’s strict and tough aunty and uncles are very friendly to her. To the extend, those teachers and students in her university years are friendly. This is because He He has a patience, calm and lovely smile. She is pretty although not stunning, performance neither good nor bad, she never post as a threat to anyone.
He He knows that such caring and friendliness, is not entirely because of her own.
Zheng Xie family treat her well only because Zheng Xie is the family’s previous son. Because of the poor health of Aunty Qian, she treats her very well. Teachers and students treats her well because there is a n.o.ble family backing her up and also because she has a very admirable father and a great scientist mother.
While this is the fact, she actually had no real friends that she is able to talk to as friend. Her position is a little embarra.s.sing. Although she is an ordinary girl, people treat her as a princess hence do not want to be her close friends. Those girls with good family also treated her as an outcast.
Her closest friends are those guy friends of Zheng Xie whom are 4 to 5 years older than her. Because they rarely have little sister, they loved and took great care of her.
Thus in Xiao He He’s childhood and youth, she had been happy although slightly lonely. As Zheng Xie’s shadow, she was happy.
He He would not because of this, would deliberately make herself look like a hedgehog nor deliberately took advantage of other’s goodwill. She is not regarded as a spoilt brad that forgets who she really was.
When she was 15 years old, Zheng Xie’s girlfriend back then slapped her in her face and said: “Xiao He He, you don’t think you are a swan, you are just lucky that you could step on the body of your father and rely on your mother’s reputation. Your happiness are in exchange of Zheng Xie’s pain. If you are on your own, you are nothing.”
Such vicious words, she was not even sad. But many days later, she vaguely became aware of “Mother’s reputation” meaning. She was very angry but her mother lightly said: “Mouth belongs to others, we can’t stop them. We can take control of ourselves and choose not to care about them.”
Without knowing who was also present that day and relayed the incident to Zheng Xie, he broke off with the woman a few days later despite her crying for a long time. Later, occasionally when their path cross, she would stared at Xiao He He with poisonous eyes.
He He does not have enemy. She is able to temporary remain calm and tolerate while taking a step backward. She thinks that there is a need to be tolerance and withdrawal in order not to provoke bigger trouble. So her enemy are mostly because of Zheng Xie.
Xiao He He do not care that she is just a small shadow and accessories as it does not mean that she is not capable of doing it herself. For her entrance examination when she accidentally ended up with a very good score, finally persistently choose a university far away from home. Here, she can be herself. Like or dislike, she is Xiao He He, who she actually is.
Then she met Cen Shi. She thought she had finally made it in the small world of love becoming a true heroine. She did not expect that it simple a farce only. Her image and status ended up worse than the past 18 years, adding more embarra.s.sment.
He He stayed for a long time in the bathroom. Cen Shi did not hara.s.s her so she thought that he would have left. She saw her puffy eyes and drop a few drops of eyes drops taken from her bag. She hardly goes outside for work and the company does not have strict requirement on make-up. But there are times when she need to go out and see clients, so she put a bag of cosmetics in her bag. She applied heavy foundation and lipstick, thick eyeliner and even draw a large circle. This way, when she goes out, no one will look her way.
He He bypa.s.ses the maze-like corridors into the main hall to leave. She saw a familiar figure. The look of the back is very common, usually she will detour when she see it. But at the moment she is feeling very vulnerable, so when she saw him, there is a kind of foreign feeling of excitement of seeing her love ones.
He He feels a little nauseous when these words and pictures flashes through her mind, felt a little chilled.
Zheng Xie is sitting with a beautiful lady at a table for 2 person. From He He’s point of view, the lady look very beautiful with a beauty that was born upright, n.o.bly clothed, with a fine look. Cutting into the steak, she had a charming and graceful smile. Her delicate lips spoke, smile and talked although she could not hear, represent a feeling of n.o.bel.
This woman style and moves are impeccable. If she goes for the election of Miss Asia, even if each judge removed the highest points and goes to the lowest point, the rest of the contestant will still lose.
Zheng Xie will always get the best of these kind of beauty. Her colleagues always complain that even if they walked about 8 hours in the streets will still not able to find even half of a medium beauty.
Xiao He He sit a few meters away from them in the leisure corner reading a magazine while secretly observing them. The peeping and evil feeling slightly offset before she lost. In a better mood, she is curious about the women that coexistent in Zheng Xie’s life.
She found that Zheng Xie is sitting straight and is very gentleman, can also see that he is very gentle and polite at the moment. But she knew that Zheng Xie is very impatient because from time to time, he will secretly hand down and knocked the chair while looking upwards.
Zheng Xie small gesture are well hidden and is barely noticeable, however it cannot hide from her. He was clearly impatience through the performance while the woman wanted to come across general etiquette for a perfect performance. He has reached his patience limit but it is something that he had to endure.
Xiao He he chucked in her heart and is in a very good mood. Unexpectedly the beautiful lady turned around and realized that she had been secretly watched. She glared straight and gave He He a supercilious cold eyes that is glowing with poison. This reminded her of Zheng Xie’s previous girlfriend.
He He rapidly observed Zheng Xie. Oh, no wonder, Zheng Xie was bending down to pick up something for the lady. Zheng Xie got straight up and the beautiful lady naturally restored her elegant look.
Xiao He He mood swing is very big this evening. The direct consequence is that she suddenly wanted play a big heart. She decided, after knowing each other for a lifetime, this time, there is no need for Zheng Xie to ask her, she will actively does her duty for him and clear the unqualified women out of the scene.
Xiao He He uses the magazine to block her face and pulled out a small mirror to observe her makeup. Not bad and stared wildly. So the eyes will have a little graceful tears.
Then she quickly walked to them at the table, one hand pointing unsteadily across Zheng Xie’s beauty with a look and tone towards Zheng Xie: “A Xie, who is she to you? Say it clearly!”