CHAPTER XVI
After this Cecilia no longer avoided Lamberti; on the contrary, she sought opportunities of seeing him and of talking with him, for she was sure that she had gained some sort of new strength which could protect her against her imagination, till all her old illusions should vanish in the clear light of daily familiarity. For some time she did not dream of Lamberti, she believed that the spell was broken, and her fear of meeting him diminished quickly.
She made her mother ask him to dinner, but he wrote an excuse and did not come. Then she complained to Guido, and Guido reproached his friend.
"They really wish to know you better," he said. "If the Contessina ever felt for you quite the same antipathy which you felt for her, she has got over it. I think you ought to try to do as much. Will you?"
The invitation was renewed for another day, and Lamberti accepted it. In the evening, in order to give his friend a chance of talking with Cecilia, Guido sat down by the Countess, and began to discuss matters connected with the wedding. It would have been contrary to all established custom that the marriage should take place without a contract, and that alone was a subject about which much could be said.
Guido insisted that Cecilia should remain sole mistress of her fortune, and the Countess would naturally have made no objection, but the Princess had told her, and had repeated more than once, that she expected Cecilia to bring her husband a dowry of at least a million of francs. Baron Goldbirn thought this too much, but the Countess was willing to consent, because she feared that the Princess would make trouble at the last minute if she did not. Cecilia had of course never discussed the matter with the Princess, but she was altogether of the latter"s opinion, and told her mother so. The obstacle lay in Guido"s refusal to accept a penny of his future wife"s fortune, and on this point the whole obstinacy of his father"s race was roused. The Countess could manifestly not threaten to break off the engagement because Guido would not accept the dowry, but on the other hand she greatly feared Guido"s aunt. So there was ample matter for discussion whenever the subject was broached.
It was a hot evening, and all the curtains were drawn back before the open windows, only the blinds being closed. Cecilia and Lamberti gravitated, as it were, to the farther end of the room. A piano stood near the window there.
"Do you play?" Lamberti asked, looking at the instrument.
He thought that she did. All young girls are supposed to have talent for music.
"No," Cecilia answered. "I have no accomplishments. Do you play the piano?"
"Only by ear. I do not know a note of music."
"Play me something. Will you? But I suppose the piano is out of tune, for n.o.body ever uses it since we stopped dancing."
Lamberti touched the keys, standing, and struck a few soft chords.
"No," he said. "It is not badly out of tune. But if I play, it will be the end of our acquaintance."
"Perhaps it may be the beginning," Cecilia answered, and their eyes met for a moment.
"If it amuses you, I will try," said Lamberti, looking away, and sitting down before the keys. "You must be easily pleased if you can listen to me," he added, laughing, as he struck a few chords again.
Cecilia sat down in a low chair between him and the window, at the left of the key-board. Her mother glanced at Lamberti with a little surprise, and then went on talking with Guido.
Lamberti began to play a favourite waltz, not loud, but with a good deal of spirit and a perfect sense of time. Cecilia had often danced to the tune in the spring, and liked it. He broke off suddenly, and made slow chords again.
"Have you forgotten the rest?" Cecilia asked.
"No. I was thinking of something else. Did you ever hear this?"
He played an old Sicilian melody with one hand, and then took it up in a second part, and then a third, that made strange minor harmonies.
"I never heard that," Cecilia said, as he looked at her. "I like it. It must be very ancient. Play it again."
By way of answer, he began to sing the old song, accompanying himself with the same old harmonies. He had no particular voice, and it was more like humming than singing, so far as the tone was concerned, but he p.r.o.nounced every word distinctly, and imitated the peculiar intonation of the southern people to perfection.
"Do you understand?" he asked, when he came to the end.
"Not a word." Cecilia asked, "Is it Arabic? It sounds like it."
"No. It is our own beloved Italian," laughed Lamberti, "only it is the Sicilian dialect. If that sort of thing amuses you, I can go on for hours."
Many Italians have the facility he possessed, and the good memory for both words and music, and he had unconsciously developed what talent he had, in places where time was long and there was nothing to do. He changed the key and hummed a little Arab melody from the desert.
Cecilia sat quite still and watched the outline of his head against the light. It was an energetic head, but the face was not a cruel one, and this evening she had not seen what she called the ruthless look in his eyes. She was not at all afraid of him now, nor would she have been even if they had been quite alone in the room. She almost wished to tell him so, and then smiled at the thought.
So this was the reality of the vision that had haunted her dreams and had caused her such unutterable suffering until she had found strength to break the habit of her imagination. The reality was not at all terrible. She could imagine the man roused to action, fighting for his life, single-handed against many, as she had been told that he had fought. He looked both brave and strong. But she could not imagine that she should ever have cause to be afraid of him again. There he sat, beside her, humming s.n.a.t.c.hes of songs he remembered from his many voyages, his hands moving not at all gracefully over the keys; he was evidently a very simple and good-natured man, willing to do anything that could amuse her, without the slightest affectation. He was just the kind of friend for Guido, and it was her duty to like Guido"s friend. It would not be hard, now that she had got out of the labyrinth of absurd illusions that had made it impossible. She resolutely put aside the recollection of that afternoon at the Villa Madama. It belonged to the cla.s.s of things about which she was determined never to think again.
"Arise and conquer!" She had come back to her real self, and had overcome.
He stopped singing, but his hands still lay on the keys and he struck occasional chords; and he turned his face half towards her, and spoke in an undertone.
"I am very sorry if I offended you by not coming more often to your house," he said. "Guido told me. I thought perhaps you would understand why I did not come."
Cecilia looked at him and was silent for a moment, but she felt very strong and sure of herself.
"Signor Lamberti," she said presently, "I want to ask you to do something--for me."
There was a little emphasis on the last word. He turned quite towards her now, but he still made chords on the instrument, for he knew that the Countess had extraordinary ears. His impulse was to tell her that he would do anything she asked of him, no matter how hard it might be; but he controlled it.
"Certainly," he answered. "What is it?"
"Forget that we met in the Forum, and forget what we said to each other at the garden party. Will you? It was all a coincidence, of course, but I behaved very foolishly, and I do not like to think that you remember it. Will you try and forget it all?"
"I will try," Lamberti answered, looking down at the keys. "At all events, I can promise never to remind you of it, as I did just now."
"That is what I meant," Cecilia said. "Let us never remind each other of it. Of course we cannot really forget, in our own selves, but we can begin again from the beginning, this evening, as if it had never happened. We can be real friends, as we ought to be."
"Can we?" Lamberti asked the question in a doubtful tone, and glanced uneasily at her.
"I can, if you can," she answered courageously, "and I mean to be."
"Then I can, too," Lamberti said, but his lips shut tightly as if he regretted the words as soon as they were spoken.
"It will be easy, now," Cecilia went on. "It will be much easier because----" She stopped.
"Why will it be so much easier?" Lamberti asked, looking down again.
"We were not going to speak of those things again," Cecilia said. "We had better not begin."
"I only ask that one question. Tell me why it will be easier now. It may help me to forget."
"It will be easier--because I do not dream of you any more--I mean of the man who is like you." She was blushing faintly, but she knew that he would not look at her, and she was sitting in the shadow.
"On what day did you stop dreaming?" he asked, between two chords.
"It was last week. Let me see. It was a Wednesday. On Wednesday night I did not dream." He nodded gravely over the keys, as if he had expected the answer.
"Did you ever read anything about telepathy?" he asked. "I did not dream of you on Wednesday night either. It seemed to me that I tried to find you and could not."