THE HOWLING MAN.
by Charles Beaumont ---------------------------.
The Germany of that time was a land of valleys and mountains and swift dark rivers, a green and fertile land where everything grew tall and straight out of the earth. There was no other country like it.
Stepping across the border from Belgium, where the rain-caped, mustached guards saluted, grinning, like operetta soldiers, you entered a different world entirely. Here the gra.s.s became as rich and smooth as velvet; deep, thick woods appeared; the air itself, which had been heavy with the French perfume of wines and sauces, changed: the clean, fresh smell of lakes and pines and boulders came into your lungs.
You stood a moment, then, at the border, watching the circling hawks above and wondering, a little fearfully, how such a thing could happen. In less than a minute you had pa.s.sed from a musty, ancient room, through an invisible door, into a kingdom of winds and light. Unbelievable! But there, at your heels, clearly in view, is Belgium, like all the rest of Europe, a faded tapestry from some forgotten mansion.
In that time, before I had heard of St. Wulfran"s, of the wretch who clawed the stones of a locked cell, wailing in the midnight hours, or of the daft Brothers and their mad Abbot, I had strong legsand a mind on its last search, and I preferred to be alone. A while and I"ll come back to this spot. We will ride and feel the sickness, fall, and hover on the edge of death, together. But I am not a writer, only one who loves wild, unhousebroken words; I must have a real beginning.
Paris beckoned in my youth. I heeded, for the reason most young men just out of college heed, although they would never admit it: to lie with mysterious beautiful women. A solid, traditional upbringing among the corseted ruins of Boston had succeeded, as such upbringings generally do, in honing the urge to a keen edge. My nightly dreams of beaded bagnios and dusky writhing houris, skilled beyond imagining, reached, finally, the unbearable stage beyond which lies either madness or respectibility.
Fancying neither, I managed to convince my parents that a year abroad would add exactly the right amount of seasoning to my maturity, like a dash of curry in an otherwise bland, if not altogether tasteless, chowder. I"m afraid that Father caught the hot glint in my eye, but he was kind. Describing, in detail, and with immense effect, the hideous consequences of profligacy, telling of men he knew who"d gone to Europe, innocently, and fallen into dissolutions so profound they"d not been heard of since, he begged me at all times to remember that I was an Ellington and turned roe loose. Paris, of course, was enchanting and terrifying, as a jungle must be to a zoo-born monkey. Out of respect to the honored dead, and Dad, I did a quick trot through the Tuileries, the Louvre, and down the Champs Elysees to the Arc de Triomphe; then, with the fall of night, I cannoned off to Montmartre and the Rue Pigalle, embarking on the Grand Adventure. Synoptically, it did not prove to be so grand as I"d imagined; nor was it, after the fourth week, so terribly adventurous. Still: important to what followed, for what followed doubtless wouldn"t have but for the sweet complaisant girls.
Boston"s Straights and Narrows don"t, I fear, prepare one--except psychologically--for the Wild Life. My health broke in due course and, as my thirst had been well and truly slaked, I was not awfully discontent to sink back into the contemplative coc.o.o.n to which I was, apparently, more suited. Abed for a month I lay, in celibate silence and almost total inactivity. Then, no doubt as a final gesture of rebellion, I got my idea--got? or had my concentrated sins received it, like a signal from a failing tower?--and I made my strange, un-Ellingtonian decision. I would explore Europe. But not as tourist, safe and fat in his fat, safe bus, insulated against the beauty and the ugliness of changing cultures by a pane of gla.s.s and a room at the Englishspeaking hotel. No. I would go like an unprotected wind, a seven-league-booted leaf, a nestless bird, and I would see this dark strange land with the vision of a boy on the last legs of his dreams. I would go by bicycle, poor and lonely and questing--as poor and lonely and questing, anyway, as one can be with a hundred thousand in the bank and a partnership in Ellington, Carruthers & Blake waiting.
So it was. New England blood and muscles wilted on that first day"s pumping, but New England spirit toughened as the miles dropped back. Like an ant crawling over a once lovely, now decayed and somewhat seedy d.u.c.h.ess, I rode over the body of Europe. I dined at restaurants where boar"s heads hung, all vicious-tusked and blind; I slept at country inns and breathed the musty age, and sometimes girls came to the door and knocked and asked if I had everything I needed ("Well ...") and they were better than the girls in Paris, though I can"t imagine why. No matter. Out of France I pedaled, into Belgium, out, and to the place of cows and forest, mountains, brooks and laughing people: Germany. (I"ve rhapsodized on purpose for I feel it"s quite important to remember how completely Paradisical the land was then, at that time.) I looked odd, standing there. The border guard asked what was loose with me, I answered Nothing--grateful for the German, and the French, Miss Finch had drummed into me--and set off along the smallest, darkest path. I serpentined through forests, cities, towns, villages, and always I followed its least likely appendages. Unreasonably, I pedaled as if toward a destination: into the Moselle Valley country, up into the desolate hills of emerald.
By a ferry, fallen to desuetude, the reptile drew me through a bosky wood. The trees closed in at once. I drank the fragrant air and pumped and kept on pumping, but a heat began to grow inside my body. My head began to ache. I felt weak. Two more miles and I was obliged to stop, for perspiration filmed my skin. You know the signs of pneumonia: a sapping of the strength, a trembling, flashes of heat and of cold; visions. I lay in the bed of damp leaves for a time. At last a village came to view. Athirteenth-century village, gray and narrow-streeted, cobbled to the hidden store fronts. A number of old people in peasant costumes looked up as I b.u.mped along and I recall one ancient tallow-colored fellow--nothing more. Only the weakness, like acid, burning off my nerves and muscles. And an intervening blackness to pillow my fall.
I awoke to the smells of urine and hay. The fever had pa.s.sed, but my arms and legs lay heavy as logs, my head throbbed horribly, and there was an empty shoveledout hole inside my stomach somewhere. For a while I did not move or open my eyes. Breathing was a major effort. But consciousness came, eventually.
I was in a tiny room. The walls and ceiling were of rough gray stone, the single gla.s.sless window was arch-shaped, the floor was uncombed dirt. My bed was not a bed at all but a blanket thrown across a disorderly pile of crinkly straw. Beside me, a crude table; upon it, a pitcher; beneath it, a bucket. Next to the table, a stool. And seated there, asleep, his tonsured head adangle from an Everest of robe, a monk.
I must have groaned, for the shorn pate bobbed up precipitately. Two silver trails gleamed down the corners of the suddenly exposed mouth, which drooped into a frown. The slumbrous eyes blinked.
"It is G.o.d"s infinite mercy," sighed the gnomelike little man. "You have recovered."
"Not as yet," I told him. Unsuccessfully, I tried to remember what had happened; then I asked questions.
"I am Brother Christophorus. This is the Abbey of St. Wulfran"s. The Burgemeister of Schwartzhof, Herr Barth, brought you to us nine days ago. Father Jerome said that you would die and he sent me to watch, for I have never seen a man die, and Father Jerome holds that it is beneficial for a Brother to have seen a man die. But now I suppose that you will not die." He shook his head ruefully.
"Your disappointment," I said, "cuts me to the quick. However, don"t abandon hope. The way I feel now, it"s touch and go."
"No," said Brother Christophorus sadly. "You will get well. It will take time. But you will get well."
"Such ingrat.i.tude, and after all you"ve done. How can I express my apologies?"
He blinked again. With the innocence of a child, he said, "I beg your pardon?"
"Nothing." I grumbled about blankets, a fire, some food to eat, and then slipped back into the well of sleep. A fever dream of forests full of giant two-headed beasts came, then the sound of screaming.
I awoke. The scream shrilled on--Klaxon-loud, high, cutting, like a cry for help.
"What is that sound?" I asked.
The monk smiled. "Sound? I hear no sound," he said.
It stopped. I nodded. "Dreaming. Probably I"ll hear a good deal more before I"m through. I shouldn"t have left Paris in such poor condition."
"No," he said. "You shouldn"t have left Paris."
Kindly now, resigned to my recovery, Brother Christophorus became attentive to a fault.
Nurselike, he spooned thick soups into me, applied compresses, chanted soothing prayers, and emptied the bucket out the window. Time pa.s.sed slowly. As I fought the sickness, the dreams grew less vivid--but the nightly cries did not diminish. They were as full of terror and loneliness as before, strong, real in my ears. I tried to shut them out, but they would not be shut out. Still, how could they be strong and real except in my vanishing delirium? Brother Christophorus did not hear them. I watched him closely when the sunlight faded to the gray of dusk and the screams began, but he was deaf to them--if they existed. If they existed!
"Be still, my son. It is the fever that makes you hear these noises. That is quite natural. Is that not quite natural? Sleep."
"But the fever is gone! I"m sitting up now. Listen! Do you mean to tell me you don"t hear _that?_"
"I hear only you, my son."
The screams, that fourteenth night, continued until dawn. They were totally unlike any sounds in my experience. Impossible to believe they could be uttered and sustained by a human, yet they did notseem to be animal. I listened, there in the gloom, my hands balled into fists, and knew, suddenly, that one of two things must be true. Either someone or something was making these ghastly sounds, and Brother Christophorus was lying, or--I was going mad. Hearing-voices mad, climbing-walls and frothing mad. I"d have to find the answer: that I knew. And by myself.
I listened with a new ear to the howls. Razoring under the door, they rose to operatic pitch, subsided, resumed, like the cries of a surly, hysterical child. To test their reality, I hummed beneath my breath, I covered my head with a blanketing, scratched at the straw, coughed. No difference. The quality of substance, of existence, was there. I tried, then, to localize the screams; and, on the fifteenth night, felt sure that they were coming from a spot not far along the hall.
"_The sounds that maniacs hear seem quite real to them_."
I know. I know!
The monk was by my side, he had not left it from the start, keeping steady vigil even through Matins. He joined his tremulous soprano to the distant chants, and prayed excessively. But nothing could tempt him away. The food we ate was brought to us, as were all other needs. I"d see the Abbot, Father Jerome, once I was recovered. Meanwhile.
"I"m feeling better, Brother. Perhaps you"d care to show me the grounds. I"ve seen nothing of St.
Wulfran"s except this little room."
"There is only this little room multiplied. Ours is a rigorous order. The Franciscans, now, they permit themselves esthetic pleasure; we do not. It is, for us, a luxury. We have a single, most unusual job.
There is nothing to see."
"But surely the Abbey is very old."
"Yes, that is true."
"As an antiquarian--"
"Mr. Ellington--"
"What is it you don"t want me to see? What are you afraid of, Brother?"
"Mr. Ellington? I do not have the authority to grant your request. When you are well enough to leave, Father Jerome will no doubt be happy to accommodate you."
"Will he also be happy to explain the screams I"ve heard each night since I"ve been here?"
"Rest, my son. Rest."
The unholy, hackle-raising shriek burst loose and bounded off the hard stone walls. Brother Christophorus crossed himself, apropos of nothing, and sat like an ancient Indian on the weary stool. I knew he liked me. Especially, perhaps. We"d got along quite well in all our talks, but this--_verboten_.
I closed my eyes. I counted to three hundred. I opened my eyes.
The good monk was asleep. I blasphemed, softly, but he did not stir, so I swung my legs over the side of the straw bed and made my way across the dirt floor to the heavy door. I rested there a time, in the candleless dark, listening to the howls; then, with Bostonian discretion, raised the bolt. The rusted hinges creaked, but Brother Christophorus was deep in celestial marble: his head drooped low upon his chest.
Panting, weak as a landlocked fish, I stumbled out into the corridor. The screams became impossibly loud. I put my hands to my ears, instinctively, and wondered how anyone could sleep with such a furor going on. It _was_ a furor. In my mind? No. Real. The monastery shook with these shrill cries. You could feel their realness with your teeth.
I pa.s.sed a Brother"s cell and listened, then another; then I paused. A thick door, made of oak or pine, was locked before me. Behind it were the screams.
A chill went through me on the edge of those unutterable shrieks of hopeless, helpless anguish, and for a moment I considered turning back--not to my room, not to my bed of straw, but back into the open world. But duty held me. I took a breath and walked up to the narrow bar-crossed window and looked in.
A man was in the cell. On all fours, circling like a beast, his head thrown back, a man. The moonlight showed his face. It cannot be described--not, at least, by me. A man past death might look like this, a victim of the Inquisition rack, the stake, the pincers: not a human in the third decade of thetwentieth century, surely. I had never seen such suffering within two eyes, such lost, mad suffering.
Naked, he crawled about the dirt, cried, leaped up to his feet and clawed the hard stone walls in fury.
Then he saw me.
The screaming ceased. He huddled, blinking, in the corner of his cell. And then, as though unsure of what he saw, he walked right to the door.
In German, hissing: "Who are you?"
"David Ellington," I said. "Are you locked in? Why have they locked you in?"
He shook his head.
"Be still, be still. You are not German?"
"No."
I told him how I came to be at St. Wulfran"s.
"Ah!" Trembling, his h.o.r.n.y fingers closing on the bars, the naked man said: "Listen to me, we have only moments. They are mad. You hear? All mad. I was in the village, lying with my woman, when their crazy Abbot burst into the house and hit me with his heavy cross. I woke up here. They flogged me.
I asked for food, they would not give it to me. They took my clothes. They threw me in this filthy room.
They locked the door."
"Why?"
"Why?" He moaned. "I wish I knew. That"s been the worst of it. Five years imprisoned, beaten, tortured, starved, and not a reason given, not a word to guess from--Mr. Ellington! I have sinned, but who has not? With my woman, quietly, alone with my woman, my love. And this G.o.d-drunk lunatic, Jerome, cannot stand it. Help me!"
His breath splashed on my face. I took a backward step and tried to think. I couldn"t quite believe that in this century a thing so frightening could happen. Yet, the Abbey was secluded, above the world, timeless. What could not transpire here, secretly?
"I"ll speak to the Abbot."
"No! I tell you, he"s the maddest of them all. Say nothing to him."
"Then how can I help you?"
He pressed his mouth against the bars. "In one way only. Around Jerome"s neck, there is a key.
It fits this lock. If--"
"Mr. Ellington!"
I turned and faced a fierce El Greco painting of a man. White-bearded, prow-nosed, regal as an Emperor beneath the gray peaked robe, he came out of the darkness. "Mr. Ellington, I did not know that you were well enough to walk. Come with me, please."
The naked man began to weep hysterically. I felt a grip of steel about my arm. Through corridors, past snore-filled cells, the echoes of the weeping dying, we continued to a room.
"I must ask you to leave St. Wulfran"s," the Abbot said. "We lack the proper facilities for care of the ill. Arrangements will be made in Schwartzhof--"
"One moment," I said. "While it"s probably true that Brother Christophorus"s ministrations saved my life--and certainly true that I owe you all a debt of grat.i.tude--I"ve got to ask for an explanation of that man in the cell."
"What man?" the Abbot said softly.
"The one we just left, the one who"s screamed all night long every night."
"No man has been screaming, Mr. Ellington."
Feeling suddenly very weak, I sat down and rested a few breaths" worth. Then I said, "Father Jerome--you are he? I am not necessarily an irreligious person, but neither could I be considered particularly religious. I know nothing of monasteries, what is permitted, what isn"t. But I seriously doubt you have the authority to imprison a man against his will."
"This is quite true. We have no such authority."
"Then why have you done so?"
The Abbot looked at me steadily. In a firm, inflexible voice, he said: "No man has been imprisoned at St. Wulfran"s.""He claims otherwise."
"Who claims otherwise?"
"The man in the cell at the end of the corridor."
"There is no man in the cell at the end of the corridor."
"I was talking with him!"
"You were talking with no man."
The conviction in his voice shocked me into momentary silence. I gripped the arms of the chair.
"You are ill, Mr. Ellington," the bearded holy man said. "You have suffered from delirium. You have heard and seen things which do not exist."
"That"s true," I said. "But the man in the cell--whose voice I can hear now!--is not one of those things."
The Abbot shrugged. "Dreams can seem very real, my son."
I glanced at the leather thong about his turkey-gobbler neck, all but hidden beneath the beard.
"Honest men make unconvincing liars," I lied convincingly. "Brother Christophorus has a way of looking at the floor whenever he denies the cries in the night. You look at me, but your voice loses its command.