I stood silently on the old veranda of my house. The air is cold but soothing in my skin. I stare at the skies filled with stars. After my parents died and left me a small amount of monetary pay every month and this old house, my habit every night is to stare up in the sky every evening as long as it is not raining.With me becoming a full-fledged magician after the event last time, I am now becoming unsure of my decisions. With the world becoming so chaotic, now this hidden things that are hidden in the public"s eye. Being involved in this weird events are not something I like to do and before I became one of the magicians, I was just a normal NEET. Although I was translating novels online, that was barely called a job. Its more like a pastime being paid by people.
Although they said that becoming a magician was indeed my destiny, I was sure that our family were never involved in any kind of witchcraft or sorcery or whatever magical whodunits it was. All I knew is that, my mother and father are both the last people in my lineage and the house were the only thing that are being pa.s.sed down to generations to generations. They only have a sort of normal job and everyday, they work in the morning, and take care of me in the evening. Until they died, I don"t know what caused them to die, I have forgotten whatever events transpired during their deaths and somehow, whenever I try recalling the memory of that time, my head hurts and then, my memory will only come blank, nothing else.
I stare back into the constellation of Orion in which, can be seen clearly whenever I wanted to look up in the sky. My mother and father would always let me see the stars before I sleep and they keep on telling me stories about the constellations and stuff. Back then, I really enjoy their company and I was just as thankful because even though they can"t take care of me in the morning, they always had time to deal with my needs. I didn"t realize that I really missed them. They died when I was just 7 years old and no one comforted me. Besides, I work by myself, manage by myself and let myself go to school by myself.
I am always alone, being held in school doesn"t help my loneliness but instead, almost drove me to suicide. Being bullied everyday, being beaten up by bullies, and also, being isolated to my peers. They also mocked me every family day since I am the only one who has no parents. Thinking about it, every single school life memory that I remembered are all painful. I might be called a spartan already for being able to survive that for how many years of everyday bullying that started since I was middle school until I reached high school. I did not formally drop out yet and still have a contact with my teachers. They understand my situation and let me take special tests and pa.s.s them so that I can still graduate. They consider me as one of the best students if not for the circ.u.mstances. Therefore, to avoid me having a grim and pointless future, they allowed me to stay at home and only call me whenever its time to take a test.
Tomorrow would be the day I will meet the Council of Magicians and get my own Magician Insignia. I was thrilled but nervous at the same time, during that battle against that flaming guy, I was quite sure that I was about to die, I just didn"t remember how I did it and took the monster core level 4 in my hands before pa.s.sing out. If I become a magician with the insignia, doesn"t that marks my fate of not going to be able to live a quiet and simple life? I might be living to kill and hunt monsters to ensure the safety of the world and at the same time, cover everything that happened and hide the existence of real magicians and monsters. Its a very big role and Moonlight has given me the decision to continue becoming a magician or return to my normal life. If I pick the former, of course, I will continue to learn and use magic, being helped by the people in the chatgroup. But if I choose the latter, then I will be kicked out on the chatgroup and I will be forgetting everything that I was involved in the magical world, Itazura will be stripped away from me even though she was my familiar.
The decision was extremely hard, but I am quite amused of the possibility that having the world of magic will be amusing even with the danger. Just as I was thinking on what to do, someone snuggles besides me. I look of whoever it was and saw that it was Itazura who was snuggling me. She was even dragging the blanket and started to sleep while snuggling on me. I smiled on this act. This is one of the things I do in the past with my parents. Whenever I get scared, I usually drag my blanket and rush towards my mother and father and snuggle at them. After they died, I snuggle alone and endure the fears until I get to become immune to it. Looking at Itazura I was reminded on my young self.
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I stroke her head and steeled my feelings before I stare back into the Orion constellation. I will accept and gain the insignia of the Magicians. What will happen to me once I gain the insignia though? Moonlight is so secretive about it, and I can"t announce it to the chatgroup either since Moonlight didn"t allow me to ask. I just needed to find it out on my own. Tomorrow is a big day. I sighed and carried Itazura who is sleeping back to her bed.
"...so heavy..."