It was the beginning of vacation when Mr. Davis, a friend of my father, came to see us, and asked to let me go home with him. I was much pleased with the thought of going out of town. The journey was delightful, and when we reached Mr. Davis" house everything looked as if I were going to have a fine time. Fred Davis, a boy about my own age, took me cordially by the hand, and all the family soon seemed like old friends. "This is going to be a vacation worth having," I said to myself several times during the evening, as we all played games, told riddles, and laughed and chatted merrily as could be.
At last Mrs. Davis said it was almost bedtime. Then I expected family prayers, but we were very soon directed to our chambers. How strange it seemed to me, for I had never before been in a household without the family altar. "Come," said Fred, "mother says you and I are going to be bedfellows," and I followed him up two pair of stairs to a nice little chamber which he called his room; and he opened a drawer and showed me a box, and boat, and knives, and powder-horn, and all his treasures, and told me a world of new things about what the boys did there. He undressed first and jumped into bed. I was much longer about it, for a new set of thoughts began to rise in my mind.
When my mother put my portmanteau into my hand, just before the coach started, she said tenderly, in a low tone, "Remember, Robert, that you are a Christian boy." I knew very well what that meant, and I had now just come to a point of time when her words were to be minded. At home I was taught the duties of a Christian child; abroad I must not neglect them, and one of these was evening prayer. From a very little boy I had been in the habit of kneeling and asking the forgiveness of G.o.d, for Jesus" sake, acknowledging his mercies, and seeking his protection and blessing.
"Why don"t you come to bed, Robert?" cried Fred. "What are you sitting there for?" I was afraid to pray, and afraid not to pray. It seemed that I could not kneel down and pray before Fred. What would he say?
Would he not laugh? The fear of Fred made me a coward. Yet I could not lie down on a prayerless bed. If I needed the protection of my heavenly Father at home, how much more abroad. I wished many wishes; that I had slept alone, that Fred would go to sleep, or something else, I hardly knew what. But Fred would not go to sleep.
Perhaps struggles like these take place in the bosom of every one when he leaves home and begins to act for himself, and on his decision may depend his character for time, and for eternity. With me the struggle was severe. At last, to Fred"s cry, "Come, boy, come to bed," I mustered courage to say, "I will kneel down and pray first; that is always my custom." "Pray?" said Fred, turning himself over on his pillow, and saying no more. His propriety of conduct made me ashamed.
Here I had long been afraid of him, and yet when he knew my wishes he was quiet and left me to myself. How thankful I was that duty and conscience triumphed.
That settled my future course. It gave me strength for time to come. I believe that the decision of the "Christian boy," by G.o.d"s blessing, made me the Christian man; for in after years I was thrown amid trials and temptations which must have drawn me away from G.o.d and from virtue, had it not been for my settled habit of secret prayer.
Let every boy who has pious parents, read and think about this. You have been trained in Christian duties and principles. When you go from home do not leave them behind you. Carry them with you and stand by them, and then in weakness and temptation, by G.o.d"s help, they will stand by you. Take a manly stand on the side of your G.o.d and Saviour, of your father"s G.o.d. It is by abandoning their Christian birthright that so many boys go astray, and grow up to be young men dishonoring parents, without hope and without G.o.d in the world.
Yes, we are boys, always playing with tongue or with pen, And I sometimes have asked, shall we ever be men?
Will we always be youthful, and laughing and gay, Till the last dear companions drop smiling away?
Then here"s to our boyhood, its gold and its gray, The stars of its winter, the dews of its May.
And when we have done with our life-lasting toys, Dear Father, take care of thy children, the boys.
--_Oliver Wendell Holmes._
SUSIE"S PRAYER
It was a half-holiday. The children were gathered on the green and a right merry time they were having.
"Come, girls and boys," called out Ned Graham, "let"s play hunt the squirrel."
All a.s.sented eagerly, and a large circle was formed with Ned Graham for leader, because he was the largest.
"Come, Susie," said one of the boys, to a little girl who stood on one side, and seemed to shrink from joining them.
"Oh, never mind _her_!" said Ned, with a little toss of his head, "she"s n.o.body, anyhow. Her father drinks."
A quick flush crept over the child"s pale face as she heard the cruel, thoughtless words.
She was very sensitive, and the arrow had touched her heart in its tenderest place.
Her father _was_ a drunkard, she knew, but to be taunted with it before so many was more than she could bear; and with great sobs heaving from her bosom, and hot tears filling her eyes, she turned and ran away from the playground.
Her mother was sitting by the window when she reached home, and the tearful face of the little girl told that something had happened to disturb her.
"What is the matter, Susie?" she asked, kindly.
"Oh mother," Susie said, with the tears dropping down her cheeks, as she hid her face in her mother"s lap, "Ned Graham said such a cruel thing about me," and here the sobs choked her voice so that she could hardly speak; "He said that I wasn"t anybody, and that father drinks."
"My poor little girl," Mrs. Ellet said, very sadly. There were tears in her eyes, too.
Such taunts as this were nothing new.
"Oh, mother," Susie said, as she lifted her face, wet with tears, from her mother"s lap, "I can"t bear to have them say so, and just as if _I_ had done something wicked. I wish father wouldn"t drink! Do you suppose he"ll ever leave it off?"
"I hope so," Mrs. Ellet answered, as she kissed Susie"s face where the tears clung like drops of dew on a rose. "I pray that he may break off the habit, and I can do nothing but pray, and leave the rest to G.o.d."
That night Mr. Ellet came home to supper, as usual. He was a hard-working man, and a good neighbor. So everybody said, but he had the habit of intemperance so firmly fixed upon him that everybody thought he would end his days in the drunkard"s grave. Susie kissed him when he came through the gate, as she always did, but there was something in her face that went to his heart--a look so sad, and full of touching sorrow for one so young as she!
"What ails my little girl?" he asked as he patted her curly head.
"I can"t tell you, father," she answered, slowly.
"Why?" he asked.
"Because it would make you feel bad." Susie replied.
"I guess not," he said, as they walked up to the door together. "What is it, Susie?"
"Oh, father," and Susie burst into tears again as the memory of Ned Graham"s words came up freshly in her mind, "I wish you wouldn"t drink any more, for the boys and girls don"t like to play with me, "cause you do."
Mr. Ellet made no reply. But something stirred in his heart that made him ashamed of himself; ashamed that he was the cause of so much sorrow and misery. After supper he took his hat, and Mrs. Ellet knew only too well where he was going.
At first he had resolved to stay at home that evening, but the force of habit was so strong that he could not resist, and he yielded, promising himself that he would not drink more than once or twice.
Susie had left the table before he had finished his supper, and as he pa.s.sed the great clump of lilacs by the path, on his way to the gate, he heard her voice and stopped to listen to what she was saying.
"Oh, good Jesus, please don"t let father drink any more. Make him just as he used to be when I was a baby, and then the boys and girls can"t call me a drunkard"s child, or say such bad things about me. Please, dear Jesus, for mother"s sake and mine."
Susie"s father listened to her simple prayer with a great lump swelling in his throat.
And when it was ended he went up to her, and knelt down by her side, and put his arm around her, oh, so lovingly!
"G.o.d in Heaven," he said, very solemnly, "I promise to-night, never to touch another drop of liquor as long as I live. Give me strength to keep my pledge, and help me to be a better man."
"Oh, father," Susie cried, her arms about his neck, and her head upon his breast, "I"m _so_ glad! I shan"t care about anything they say to me now, for I know you won"t be a drunkard any more."
"G.o.d helping me, I will be a _man_!" he answered, as, taking Susie by the hand he went back into the house where his wife was sitting with the old patient look of sorrow on her face.--the look that had become so habitual.
I cannot tell you of the joy and thanksgiving that went up from that hearthstone that night. I wish I could, but it was too deep a joy which filled the hearts of Susie and her mother to be described.
Was not Susie"s prayer answered?
There is never a day so dreary, But G.o.d can make it bright.
And unto the soul that trusts him He giveth songs in the night.