There was a little natural feeling visible through the ultra-humility of the girl"s manner, and when she took out a coa.r.s.e but elaborately laced pocket-handkerchief, and wept upon it abundantly, Christian"s heart melted.
"I am very sorry for you--very sorry indeed; but what can I do? Will you tell me candidly, are you engaged to this gentleman?"
"No, not exactly; but I am sure I shall be by-and-by."
"He is your lover, then? he ought to be, if, as Let.i.tia says, you go walking together every evening."
"Well, and if I do, it"s n.o.body"s business but my own, I suppose; and it"s very hard it should lose me my situation."
So it was. Mrs. Grey remembered her own "young days," as she now called them--remembered them with pity rather than shame; for she had done nothing wrong. She had deceived no one, only been herself deceived--in a very harmless fashion, just because, in her foolish, innocent heart, which knew nothing of the world and the world"s wiles, she thought no man would ever be so mean, so cowardly, as to tell a girl he loved her unless he meant it in the true, n.o.ble, knightly way--a lover
"Who loved one woman, and who clave to her"
--clave once and forever. A vague tenderness hung about those days yet, enough to make her cast the halo of her sympathy over even commonplace Susan Bennett.
"Will you give me your confidence? Who is this friend of yours, and why does he not at once ask you for his wife? Perhaps he is poor and can not afford to marry?"
"Oh. dear me! I"m not so stupid as to think of a poor man, Bless you!
he has a t.i.tle and an estate too. If I get him I shall make a splendid marriage."
Christian recoiled. Her sympathy was altogether thrown away. There evidently was not a point in common between foolish Christian Oakley, taking dreamy twilight saunters under the apple-trees--not alone; looking up to her companion as something between Sir Launcelot and the Angel Gabriel--and this girl, carrying on a clandestine flirtation, which she hoped would--and was determined to make--end in a marriage, with a young man much above her own station, and just because he was so. As for loving him in the sense that Christian had understood love, Miss Bennett was utterly incapable of it. She never thought of love at all--only of matrimony.
Still, the facts of the case boded ill. A wealthy young n.o.bleman, and a pretty, but coa.r.s.e and half-educated shopkeeper"s daughter--no good could come of the acquaintance--perhaps fatal harm. Once more Christian thought she would try to conquer her disgust, and win the girl to better things.
"I do not wish to intrude--no third person has a right to intrude upon these affairs; but I wish I could be of any service. You must perceive, Miss Bennett, that your proceedings are not quite right--not quite safe.
Are you sure you know enough about this gentleman? How long have you been acquainted with him? He probably belongs to the University."
Miss Bennnett laughed. "Not he--at least not now. He got into a sc.r.a.pe and left it, and has only been back here a week; but I have found out where his estate is, and all about him. He has the prettiest property, and is perfectly independent, and a baronet likewise. Only think"--and the girl, recovering her spirits, tossed her handsome head, and spread out her showy, tawdry gown--"only think of being called "Lady!"--Lady Uniacke."
Had Miss Bennett been less occupied in admiring herself in the mirrors she must have seen the start Mrs. Grey gave--for the moment only, however--and then she spoke.
"Sir Edwin Uniacke"s character here is well known. He is a bad man.
For you to keep up any acquaintance with him is positive madness."
"Not in the least; I know perfectly what I am about, and can take care of myself, thank you. He has sown his wild oats, and got a t.i.tle and estate, which makes a very great difference. Besides, I hope I"m as sharp as he. I shall not let myself down, no fear. I"ll make him make me Lady Uniacke."
Christian"s pity changed into something very like disgust. Many a poor, seduced girl would have appeared to her less guilty, less degraded than this girl, who, knowing all a man"s antecedents, which she evidently did--bad as he was, set herself deliberately to marry him--a well-planned, mercenary marriage, by which she might raise herself out of her low station into a higher, and escape from the drudgery of labor into ease and splendor.
And yet is not the same thing done every day in society by charming young ladies, aided and abetted by most prudent, respectable, and decorous fathers and mothers? Let these, who think themselves so sinless, cast the first stone at Susan Bennett.
But to Christian, who had never been in society, and did not know the ways of it, the sensation conveyed was one of absolute repulsion. She rose.
"I fear, Miss Bennett, that if we continued this conversation forever we should never agree. It only proves to me more and more the impossibility of your remaining my daughter"s governess. Allow me to pay you, and then let us part at once."
But the look of actual dismay which came over the girl"s face once more made her pause.
"You send me away with no recommendation--and I shall never get another situation--and I have hardly a thing to put on--and I"m in debt awfully. You are cruel to me, Mrs. Grey--you that have been a governess yourself." And she burst into a pa.s.sion of hysterical crying.
"What can I do?" said Christian sadly. "I can not keep you----I dare not. And it is equally true that I dare not recommend you. If I could find any thing else--not with children--something you really could do, and which would take you away from this town--"
"I"d go any where----do any thing to get my bread, for it comes to that.
If I went home and told father this--if he found out why I had lost my situation, he"d turn me out of doors. And except this check, which is owed nearly all, I haven"t one halfpenny--I really haven"t. Mrs. Grey.
It"s all very well for you to talk--you in your fine house and comfortable clothes; but you don"t know what it is to be shabby, cold, miserable. You don"t know what it is to be in dread of starving."
"I do," said Christian, solemnly. It was true.
The shudder which came over her at thought of these remembered days obliterated every feeling about the girl except the desire to help her, blameworthy though she was, in some way that could not possibly injure any one else.
Suddenly she recollected that Mrs. Ferguson was in great need of some one to take care of Mr. Ferguson"s old blind mother, who lived forty miles distant from Avonsbridge. If she spoke to her about Miss Bennett, and explained, without any special particulars, that, though unfit to be trusted with children, she might do well enough with an old woman in a quiet village, Mrs. Ferguson, whose kind-heartedness was endless, might send her there at once.
"Will you go? and I will tell n.o.body my reasons for dismissing you,"
said Christian, as earnestly as if she had been asking instead of conferring a favor. Her kindness touched even that bold, hard nature.
"You are very good to me; and perhaps I don"t deserve it."
"Try to deserve it. If I get this situation for you, will you make me one promise?"
"A dozen,"
"One is enough--that you will give up Sir Edwin Uniacke."
"How do you mean?"
"Don"t meet him, don"t write to him--don"t hold any communication with him for three months. If he wants you, let him come and ask you like an honest man."
Miss Bennett shook her head. "He"s a baronet, you know."
"No matter. An honest man and an honest woman are perfectly equal, even though one is a baronet and the other a daily governess. And, if love is worth any thing, it will last three months; if worth nothing, it had better go."
But even while she was speaking--plain truths which she believed with her whole heart--Christian felt, in this case, the bitter satire of her words.
Susan Bennett only smiled at them in a vague, uncomprehending way.
"Would you have trusted your lover--that means Dr. Grey, I suppose-- for three months?"
Mrs. Grey did not reply. But her heart leaped to think how well she knew the answer. No need to speak of it, though. It would be almost profanity to talk to this women, who knew about as much of it as an African fetish-worshipper knows of the Eternal--of that love which counts fidelity not by months and years; which, though it has its root in mortal life, stretches out safely and fearlessly into the life everlasting.
"Well, I"ll go, and perhaps my going away will bring him to the point,"
was the fond resolution of Miss Susan Bennett.
Mrs. Grey, infinitely relieved, wrote the requisite letters and dismissed her, determined to call that day and explain as much of the matter to honest Mrs. Ferguson as might put the girl in a safe position, where she would have a chance of turning out well, or, at least, better than if she had remained at Avonsbridge.
Then Christian had time to think of herself. Here was Sir Edwin Uniacke--this daring, unscrupulous man, close at her very doors; meeting her at evening parties; making acquaintance with her children, for t.i.tia had told her how kind the gentleman was, and how politely he had inquired after her "new mamma."
Of vanity, either to be wounded or flattered, Christian had absolutely none. And she had never read French novels. It no more occurred to her that Sir Edwin would come and make love to her, now she was Dr.
Grey"s wife, than that she herself should have any feeling--except pity-- in knowing of his love-affair with Miss Bennett. She was wholly and absolutely indifferent with regard to him and all things concerning him.
Even the events of last night and this morning were powerless to cast more than a momentary gravity over her countenance--gone the instant she heard her husband calling her from his open study door.
"I wanted to hear how you managed Miss Bennett, you wise woman. Is it a lover?"