ERFURT, _August_, 1503.
Martin Luther is recovered! The Almighty, the Blessed Mother, and all the saints be praised.
The good old priest"s words have also brought some especial comfort to me. If it could only be possible that those troubles and cares which have weighed so heavily on Else"s early life and mine, are not the rod of anger, but the cross laid on those G.o.d loveth! But who can tell? For Else, at least, I will try to believe this.
The world is wide in these days, with the great New World opened by the Spanish mariners beyond the Atlantic, and the n.o.ble Old World opened to students through the sacred fountains of the ancient cla.s.sics, once more unsealed by the revived study of the ancient languages; and this new discovery of printing, which will, my father thinks, diffuse the newly unsealed fountains of ancient wisdom in countless channels among high and low.
These are glorious times to live in. So much already unfolded to us! And who knows what beyond? For it seems as if the hearts of men everywhere were beating high with expectation; as if, in these days, nothing were too great to antic.i.p.ate, or too good to believe.
It is well to encounter our dragons at the threshold of life; instead of at the end of the race--at the threshold of death; therefore, I may well be content. In this wide and ever widening world, there must be some career for me and mine. What will it be?
And what will Martin Luther"s be? Much is expected from him. Famous every one at the University says he must be. On what field will he win his laurels? Will they be laurels or palms?
When I hear him in the debates of the students, all waiting for his opinions, and applauding his eloquent words, I see the laurel already among his black hair, wreathing his ma.s.sive, homely forehead. But when I remember the debate which I know there is within him, the anxious fervency of his devotions, his struggle of conscience, his distress at any omission of duty, and watch the deep melancholy look which there is sometimes in his dark eyes, I think not of the tales of the heroes, but of the legends of the saints, and wonder in what victory over the old dragon he will win his palm.
But the bells are sounding for compline, and I must not miss the sacred hour.
III.
Else"s Chronicle.
EISENACH, 1504.
I cannot say that things have prospered much with us since Fritz left.
The lumber-room itself is changed. The piles of old books are much reduced, because we have been obliged to p.a.w.n many of them for food.
Some even of the father"s beautiful models have had to be sold. It went terribly to his heart. But it paid our debts.
Our grandmother has grown a little querulous at times lately. And I am so tempted to be cross sometimes. The boys eat so much and wear out their clothes so fast. Indeed, I cannot see that poverty makes any of us better, except it be my mother, who needed improvement least of all.
_September_, 1504.
The father has actually brought a new inmate into the house, a little girl, called Eva von Schonberg, a distant cousin of our mother.
Last week he told us she was coming, very abruptly. I think he was rather afraid of what our grandmother would say, for we all know it is not of the least use to come round her with soft speeches. She always sees what you are aiming at, and with her keen eyes cuts straight through all your circ.u.mlocutions, and obliges you to descend direct on your point, with more rapidity than grace.
Accordingly, he said, quite suddenly, one day at dinner,--
"I forgot to tell you, little mother, I have just had a letter from your relations in Bohemia. Your great-uncle is dead. His son, you know, died before him. A little orphan girl is left with no one to take care of her. I have desired them to send her to us. I could do no less. It was an act, not of charity, but of the plainest duty. And besides," he added, apologetically, "in the end it may make our fortunes. There is property somewhere in the family, if we could get it; and this little Eva is the descendant of the eldest branch. Indeed, I do not know but that she may bring many valuable family heirlooms with her."
These last observations he addressed especially to my grandmother, hoping thereby to make it clear to her that the act was one of the deepest worldly wisdom. Then turning to the mother, he concluded,--
"Little mother, thou wilt find a place for the orphan in thy heart, and Heaven will no doubt bless us for it."
"No doubt about the room in my daughter"s heart!" murmured our grandmother; "the question, as I read it, is not about hearts, but about larders and wardrobes. And, certainly," she added, not very pleasantly, "there is room enough there for any family jewels the young heiress may bring."
As usual, the mother came to the rescue.
"Dear grandmother," she said, "Heaven, no doubt, will repay us; and besides, you know, we may now venture on a little more expense, since we are out of debt."
"There is no doubt, I suppose," retorted our grandmother, "about Heaven repaying you; but there seems to me a good deal of doubt whether it will be in current coin."
Then, I suppose fearing the effect of so doubtful a sentiment on the children, she added rather querulously, but in a gentler tone,--
"Let the little creature come. Room may be made for her soon in one way or another. The old creep out at the church-yard gate, while the young bound in at the front door."
And in a few days little Eva came; but, unfortunately without the family jewels. But the saints forbid I should grow mercenary or miserly, and grudge the orphan her crust!
And who could help welcoming little Eva? As she lies on my bed asleep, with her golden hair on the pillow, and the long lashes shading her cheek, flushed with sleep and resting on her dimpled white hand, who could wish her away? And when I put out the lamp (as I must very soon) and lie down beside her, she will half awake, just to nestle into my heart, and murmur in her sleep, "Sweet cousin Else!" And I shall no more be able to wish her gone than my guardian angel. Indeed I think she is something like one.
She is not quite ten years old; but being an only child, and always brought up with older people, she has a quiet, considerate way, and a quaint, thoughtful gravity, which sits with a strange charm on her bright, innocent, child-like face.
At first she seemed a little afraid of our children, especially the boys, and crept about everywhere by the side of my mother, to whom she gave her confidence from the beginning. She did not so immediately take to our grandmother, who was not very warm in her reception; but the second evening after her arrival, she deliberately took her little stool up to our grandmother"s side, and seating herself at her feet, laid her two little, soft hands on the dear, thin, old hands, and said,--
"You must love me, for I shall love you very much. You are like my great-aunt who died."
And, strange to say, our grandmother seemed quite flattered; and ever since they have been close friends. Indeed she commands us all, and there is not one in the house who does not seem to think her notice a favour. I wonder if Fritz would feel the same!
Our father lets her sit in his printing-room when he is making experiments, which none of us ever dared to do. She perches herself on the window-sill, and watches him as if she understood it all, and he talks to her as if he thought she did.
Then she has a wonderful way of telling the legends of the saints to the children. When our grandmother tells them, I think of the saints as heroes and warriors. When I try to relate the sacred stories to the little ones, I am afraid I make them too much like fairy tales. But when little Eva is speaking about St. Agnes or St. Catherine, her voice becomes soft and deep, like church music; and her face grave and beautiful, like one of the child-angels in the pictures; and her eyes as if they saw into heaven. I wish Fritz could hear her. I think she must be just what the saints were when they were little children, except for that strange, quiet way she has of making every one do what she likes.
If our St. Elizabeth had resembled our little Eva in that, I scarcely think the Landgravine-mother would have ventured to have been so cruel to her. Perhaps it is little Eva who is to be the saint among us; and by helping her we may best please G.o.d, and be admitted at last to some humble place in heaven.
EISENACH, _December_.
It is a great comfort that Fritz writes in such good spirits. He seems full of hope as to his prospects, and already he has obtained a place in some excellent inst.i.tution, where, he says, he lives like a cardinal, and is quite above wanting a.s.sistance from any one. This is very encouraging. Martin Luther, also, is on the way to be quite a great man, Fritz says. It is difficult to imagine this; he looked so much like any one else, and we are all so completely at home with him, and he talks in such a simple, familiar way to us all--not in learned words, or about difficult, abstruse subjects, like the other wise men I know. Certainly it always interests us all to hear him, but one can understand all he says--even I can; so that it is not easy to think of him as a philosopher and a great man. I suppose wise men must be like the saints: one can only see what they are when they are at some distance from us.
What kind of great man will Martin Luther be, I wonder? As great as our burgomaster, or as Master Trebonius? Perhaps even greater than these; as great, even, as the Elector"s secretary, who came to see our father about his inventions. But it is a great comfort to think of it, especially on Fritz"s account; for I am sure Martin will never forget old friends.
I cannot quite comprehend Eva"s religion. It seems to make her happy. I do not think she is afraid of G.o.d, or even of confession. She seems to enjoy going to church as if it were a holiday in the woods; and the name of Jesus seems not terrible, but dear to her, as the name of the sweet Mother of G.o.d is to me. This is very difficult to understand. I think she is not even very much afraid of the judgment-day; and this is the reason why I think so:--The other night, when we were both awakened by an awful thunder-storm, I hid my face under the clothes, in order not to see the flashes, until I heard the children crying in the next room, and rose of course, to soothe them, because our mother had been very tired that day, and was, I trusted, asleep. When I had sung and talked to the little ones, and sat by them till they were asleep, I returned to our room, trembling in every limb; but I found Eva kneeling by the bed-side, with her crucifix pressed to her bosom, looking as calm and happy as if the lightning flashes had been morning sunbeams.
She rose from her knees when I entered; and when I was once more safely in bed, with my arm around her, and the storm had lulled a little, I said,--
"Eva, are you not afraid of the lightning?"
"I think it might hurt us, Cousin Else," she said; "and that was the reason I was praying to G.o.d."
"But, Eva," I said, "supposing the thunder should be the archangel"s voice! I always think every thunder-storm may be the beginning of the day of wrath--the dreadful judgment-day. What should you do then?"
She was silent a little, and then she said,--
"I think I should take my crucifix and pray, and try to ask the Lord Christ to remember that he died on the cross for us once. I think he would take pity on us if we did. Besides, Cousin Else," she added, after a pause, "I have a sentence which always comforts me. My father taught it me when I was a very little girl, in the prison, before he died. I could not remember it all, but this part I have never forgotten: "_G.o.d so loved the world, that he gave his only Son._" There was more, which I forgot; but that bit I always remembered, because I was my father"s only child, and he loved me so dearly. I do not quite know all it means; but I know they are G.o.d"s words, but I feel sure that it means that G.o.d loves us very much, and that he is in some way like my father."