"All of it?" Lucas said. His tone brought her gaze back up to his and she felt another twist of heat and awareness flare inside her. She knew he was not talking about the smugglers now but of their encounter later by the churchyard.
"Yes," she said, ignoring the hot pulse of response deep inside her. "Try."
She waited a moment and saw a rueful smile touch Lucas"s lips.
"I suppose my memory can be adaptable," he said.
"Good," Christina said. "Then adapt it. Excuse me, Mr. Ross," she added. "I am meeting with Mr. Bevan shortly."
Lucas nodded. "Of course. Thank you for sparing me the time, Lady Christina. I will start work on the grotto at once."
"Should you require anything else, I am sure that Mr. Bevan will be able to help you," Christina said. "As Mr. Hemmings is unable to supervise your work at present, I shall ask Mr. Bevan to-"
"Keep an eye on me?" Lucas c.o.c.ked a brow. "In case I abscond with the sh.e.l.ls and the statuary?"
"Be available to help you," Christina corrected. Her voice was so starchy it positively crackled. She could see that he found her stiffness amusing, but she did not dare be any other way with him. She was afraid she was already transparent to him, her attraction to him all too obvious.
"I had not imagined that you would supervise my work yourself," Lucas said drily.
"It is Mr. Bevan"s job to oversee all aspects of the work of the estate," Christina said, "and besides, I would not expect-" She stopped abruptly.
"You would not expect to show any interest in a humble gardener," Lucas finished. "Quite so."
Christina was stung by the unfairness of that when her father did not give a d.a.m.n and it was her efforts that kept the estate together. "I hope I take an equal interest in the work and welfare of everyone at Kilmory," she said coldly.
"I am sure that you do," Lucas said. His tone was only a shade short of disrespect.
Christina"s control snapped. "Really, Mr. Ross, you are insolent! You are fortunate to have a job at Kilmory at all. I did not want you here, and it was only through my father"s interference that you were able to stay-" She broke off, horrified at having been provoked into the indiscretion of criticizing the duke in front of Lucas Ross.
"I am aware that you did not want me here," Lucas said. He shifted slightly. "And I wonder why-apart from the awkwardness of my knowing that you are a whisky smuggler-you want to be rid of me."
His gaze captured hers again, and the hot flicker in his eyes seemed to steal her breath. It was impossible to admit that there was a part of her-a very large part-that had wanted him gone for her own peace of mind. d.a.m.n the whisky smuggling; she wanted rid of him because of the way he was looking at her now and the way that made her feel. She could not be attracted to a servant over a half dozen years her junior. It was outrageous. It was wrong. She did not want it.
She took a breath to steady her erratic pulse. "I am not in the habit of giving my servants grounds to blackmail me, Mr. Ross," she said coldly. "And since that was precisely what you tried to do to gain a job, is it any wonder I don"t trust you?"
Lucas smiled, his teeth a flash of white in his tanned face. "When you put it like that," he said, "I can see your point."
"Thank you," Christina said shortly.
"But you can trust me." Lucas had turned aside. She could not see his face. "I work for Kilmory now."
"I"m gratified to hear it," Christina said drily. "If you try to blackmail me again I will sack you. And d.a.m.n the consequences."
This time he did look at her. There was admiration in his eyes and something else that for a second looked oddly like regret. The silence rippled between them. "If I make the same mistake twice," Lucas said softly, "I will deserve it."
A clatter of hooves in the courtyard outside reminded Christina that they could be interrupted at any moment. It was time she ended this before it went any further.
"Good day, Mr. Ross," she said. She spun on her heel to leave and in doing so her shawl caught on a loose nail sticking out from the wall. There was an unpleasant ripping sound.
"Wait a moment." Lucas had moved quickly to her side, reaching to free the delicate material before she could damage it further. "You"re trapped."
For a second she felt so overwhelmed by his physical proximity that she almost tore the shawl from the nail simply to escape. With the greatest effort of will she squashed the feeling down and stood still whilst Lucas"s dexterous fingers worked to slide the delicate material free. There was something disturbing about watching his hands, strong and brown; she felt another wave of heat engulf her and fixed her gaze on his chest instead.
It seemed to take forever to unhook the shawl. Christina"s heart beat a fierce tattoo in her chest. The atmosphere in the tight confines of the room had thickened further and felt as oppressive as a thundery day. She did not dare look up into Lucas"s intent dark eyes.
"Thank you," she said, and it came out as a whisper.
He stood back. "My pleasure, ma"am." His voice was very smooth. It seemed to vibrate deep inside her.
Christina pulled the shawl tight about her even though it was a warm day, and she almost ran through the doorway into the courtyard. Once in the fresh air she turned her face up to the sun and took several long, deep steadying breaths. She felt as though she had run a mile. She was shaking. And yet nothing had happened.
LUCAS STOOD IN the doorway of the drawing office and watched Christina walk away. She moved with an innate dignity and elegance, unhurried, as though those long, turbulent moments between them had never occurred. Yet he knew how much it had shaken her. He had seen the pulse drum its frantic beat in the hollow of her throat. He had seen her hands tremble. He had felt the same irresistible pull of attraction that she had.
It was disconcerting to be so drawn to a woman whilst simultaneously suspecting her of involvement in his brother"s murder. The most disconcerting thing about it was that his intuition told him she was innocent. Since he was a man who operated on evidence, not emotion, this was more irritating than rea.s.suring. He had no reason to exonerate her and every reason to mistrust her. Her professed hatred of violence fascinated him. She had saved his life but he wondered if she had failed to save Peter"s and that was why she was now revolted by brutality. He did not know, but he was going to find out.
He waited until she was out of sight, then turned back into the drawing office, closing the door behind him, searching quickly and neatly through the drawers and cupboards. He found endless drawings and designs that paid tribute to the duke"s extravagant plans and wild flights of imagination, but nothing that related either to Peter or to the whisky smuggling. He had not expected it, but he was starting to feel frustrated by his lack of progress. In the past week he had caught not a whisper about Peter"s murder. Later that evening he planned to search for the sea cave where the smugglers had held him on the first night. It was dangerous, but he would be a great deal more careful this time.
Lachlan and Angus MacMorlan were handing their horses over to one of the grooms as Lucas closed the door of the drawing office behind him and started to walk across the yard. It was the first time Lucas had seen Lachlan, who rumor had it was usually so addled with drink that he seldom got out of bed before the afternoon. Lachlan possessed the good looks that were such a distinct feature of the MacMorlan family, but his eyes were bloodshot and his gait unsteady. Angus was a big, fleshy man with an air of superiority and a long nose that seemed perfectly engineered to look down. Neither man thanked the groom nor acknowledged Lucas"s presence with a single word or look. The groom caught Lucas"s glance and rolled his eyes meaningfully. Lucas grinned.
It was as the two men were disappearing through the archway that Lachlan turned and looked back. For a moment it seemed to Lucas as though Lachlan"s gaze shed its blurred drunkenness and focused on him, clear and hard, and then Lachlan turned away and stumbled off toward the house as though the moment had never been.
CHAPTER SEVEN.
ALLEGRA HEARD THE music as she came down the path toward the bay. It was the high, thin sound of the fiddle, s.n.a.t.c.hed on the breeze and tossed away out to sea. She hurried, the sand and pebbles slipping beneath the thin soles of her shoes. As she half ran, half stumbled down onto the beach the music stopped abruptly and strong arms seized her, pulling her behind a tumble of rocks.
They wasted no time on words. She was in his arms and he was kissing her like a man half starved. He tugged the ribbons of her bonnet and threw it aside. The wind had already whipped her hair into tangled strands and he gave a groan as he plunged one hand into the shining gold. She kissed him back eagerly, trembling helplessly, feeling as though her heart was bursting with relief and love and pleasure. When he held her she could forget all the barriers they faced. Nothing mattered other than that they were together again.
"You came for me," she whispered when he released her for a moment.
"Did you doubt me?" He sounded amused, but his brown eyes were dark with pa.s.sion. He kissed her again and her knees weakened. She clutched at his jacket and they sank down onto the sand. It was warm in the sun, and sheltered between the rocks, but when he slid the gown from her shoulders she still shivered at the nip of the sea air. The rock felt hot against her bare back, and the sunlight beat against her closed lids. She kept her eyes shut because although he had seen her naked before, she was still very shy. She liked the wickedness of it, the chill of the breeze and the warmth of the sun and his mouth now at her breast, but she was not ready to admit it yet. It was too new to her, each new intimacy as shocking as it was delicious.
She opened her eyes a sliver and looked down at his head at her breast. His hair, a rich chestnut in the sunlight, brushed the sensitive skin there, and she shivered in deep pleasure. His lips and his fingers worked magic on her. Her body was heating, melting. There was such a sweet ache in her belly. It made her moan. He licked her nipple, tasting her, and her entire body jerked in uninhibited response. Her eyes flew open. It was one of the things she loved about him, that he looked so cool, that he seemed so controlled, and yet beneath it he was all fire and he could make her burn, too. She was lost in the sensation, dizzy with it, disbelieving and enchanted.
"Take me."
She was naturally autocratic, and now the wickedness pushed her past her inhibitions. She was pulling up her skirts as she spoke, parting her thighs, loving the cold press of the air on her skin. She wore no drawers, and she heard the harsh catch of his breath as he saw her.
"Allegra..." He sounded shaken. It was gratifying. He had always been the one in control when they made love. It made it all the more exciting now to shock him, thrill him.
He was fumbling with the fastening of his trousers now, kneeling between her thighs. Impatience gripped her, and fierce hunger. She felt the tip of his c.o.c.k at her opening and then he was inside her and she gasped, arching back against the stone as he drove into her with such desperate need, almost out of control. She matched his desperation stroke for stroke, driven on by the ever-tightening spiral of excitement and desire. Blinding pleasure caught her hard and fast, and she cried aloud, the sound mingling with the relentless crash of the waves on the beach and the wild calls of the birds wheeling overhead.
Afterward he drew her into the curve of his shoulder. He was breathing hard, one arm shaded across his eyes.
She waited for him to say something sweet, something loving.
"You have to tell your mother," he said. He sat up, gripped her wrists. "Allegra, you have to tell your mother we are married."
She tried to pull away from him, feeling obscurely hurt and upset. She knew that he was right; she might be carrying his child. She had no idea how she would explain that. Yet her mind spun away from the thought of telling her family the truth. They would be angry with her, and for one terrible moment she was not sure if her love for Richard was strong enough to withstand that.
She freed herself, straightened her gown, drew her knees up and hugged them like a little girl, hunched, protective.
"It"s too soon, Richard."
He shook her, but gently. "No. It is not. We have been wed for a month now and the longer we go on like this the more difficult it will be."
There was silence. The pounding of the sea had dulled to a murmur. The high, plaintive call of the seabirds had faded. After a moment, Richard sighed.
"Perhaps your father-"
"No." Allegra was adamant. Of all the people likely to help her, her father was last on the list. Generally he had no interest in her at all, but he would be very interested to discover that she, the heir to all the unentailed Forres fortune and estates, had thrown herself away on a penniless government official with no connections and no prospects. Interested, outraged, furious. She shuddered.
"Then tell your aunt Christina." Richard sounded patient, coaxing. "I met her today. She seems very nice. I am sure she could help us."
Allegra considered it, watching the birds sail high and fast against the deep blue of the sky. She liked Christina best of all her aunts and uncles. Christina was ancient, of course, and she could have no idea what it felt like to be desperately, hopelessly in love, or to do anything wild and mad and pa.s.sionate. But Allegra knew that she cared about people and tried to help them. She had seen Christina"s kindness toward her father"s tenants and those who were sick or poor, lonely or desperate. Christina was a loving person where her own parents were cold and empty of humanity.
She considered telling Christina what she had done, and that felt safe enough. She could do that. But the thought of going with Christina to tell her mother made her tremble. Cold fear gnawed her gut.
Richard was talking. "Now that I have this job as riding officer I have more to offer you. Perhaps if I make a success of this commission to capture the Kilmory Gang, Sidmouth will reward me and your family will be more inclined to accept me-"
He broke off as though he had sensed just how pointless his words were. They both knew that nothing short of him inheriting a dukedom would make a difference to Allegra"s parents.
Allegra jumped to her feet. Her gown was crumpled and stained. Suddenly she felt grubby and ashamed and close to despair. She had not meant for it to be like this. She had met Richard and wanted him very much, and so she had run off and married him in secret. No one knew. It had all seemed simple then. "I must go," she said.
Richard swore under his breath. His hands were as clumsy fastening his trousers as they had been in unfastening them. The sight shot her through with love and misery and she had no idea why. She had not thought love would hurt so much.
"I"ll tell them," she said in a rush, wanting to make it better, wanting to make him happy. "I promise." She went to him, touched his arm. For a brief second his hand covered hers.
They both knew she was lying.
CHRISTINA CLOSED THE door of the bothy softly behind her and leaned back against it, feeling the wood rough against her palms. Here, in the warm, whisky-laden darkness, she finally felt some of the peace she had been seeking all day. She had worked her fingers to the bone for the past twelve hours, blocking out thoughts of Lucas.
She knew that attraction was no respecter of age or rank or status. Still, it disturbed her that she was so drawn to a man who was her junior by at least half a dozen years and was unsuitable in every way there was. She did not like it, she did not understand it and she did not want it. Yet part of her liked Lucas well enough; the part that she had been denying for years, the part that wanted to indulge her fantasies.
Madness. It could not happen. It would not happen.
She closed her eyes and inhaled the scent of the distilling whisky, letting it fill her senses, letting go of her thoughts. The air smelled heavy and rich, the whisky spirit mingled with the smoke of the peat fire. It was hot and heady, and Christina felt as though she could get drunk on the whisky fumes alone.
"Evening ma"am." Seumas Mor MacFarlane came in with water from the stream outside. It slopped over the side of the bucket and splashed onto the earthen floor. His was the task of keeping the fire burning and keeping the whisky distilling at precisely the right temperature. His brother, Niall, had the task of stirring the fermenting barley, another part of the process that required skill and delicacy. Each member of the gang had his role, whether it was in producing the spirit itself or shipping it out safely under the noses of the riding officers.
"I"ve distilled it four times," Seumas said. "It should be ready."
Christina nodded. Each batch of Kilmory peat-reek was normally distilled four times for the best flavor and purity. Known as the Uisge bea" ba"ol, it commanded a high price. Some they distributed locally, some was taken by boat from the cove to customers farther afield.
Seumas already had a new batch of the peat-reek distilling. She took the flask he proffered and poured some of the Uisge bea" ba"ol into a gla.s.s. His face was watchful as she held the liquid up to the light. The lamplight lit it with a deep glow, the color of old gold. She sniffed it; nodded. The flavor burst on her tongue, fierce and strong. The heat and power of it went to her head, making it swim. Suddenly her limbs felt weak and she wanted to drink the peat-reek down and lose herself in it.
"It"s perfect," she said, and saw Seumas Mor"s expression relax into pleasure. He was a man of few words, rough around the edges, yet with such a feel for the whisky, his trade learned from his father and grandfather before him.
"Thank you," she said. "That is ready to be put in the barrels and moved out. You got the last consignment away successfully?"
Seumas Mor"s expression darkened. "Just. The excis.e.m.e.n were sniffing around."
"When are they not?" Christina said tiredly.
Seumas Mor shook his head. "This time it"s bad, ma"am, worse than before. Mr. Eyre caught Niall down on the beach with his boy just after the boat had gone. Niall told him they were fishing but Eyre didn"t believe him. They took them both to Fort William to the jail."
Christina"s head jerked up. Horror closed her throat. "They took Callum, as well? But he"s only eight years old!"
Seumas Mor shrugged. "Nothing you can do, ma"am. Nothing any of us can do. They went straight to Niall"s cottage and burned it down."
Christina rubbed her eyes against the sting of tears. She felt wretched. She knew that Niall would not talk and that Callum knew nothing about the smuggling, but that was not the point. She thought of the boy locked up in a dark, dank cell, probably separated from his father, alone and afraid. She thought of their home destroyed and their possessions trampled. Eyre was a monster who would use anyone and anything to break the gang. He had no scruples.
Each time a man was taken, Christina thought about giving up the distilling, but stubborn determination always made her fight back. If they gave in to Eyre, the fierce pride the Highlanders had taken in brewing their peat-reek, the rights they had held in defiance of London laws and the money they had made to ward off the crippling poverty of their existence would all be destroyed. But this was too much. If Eyre started to wage war on women and children then she had no choice.
She filled the gla.s.s again and raised the peat-reek to her lips, draining half of it in one gulp. At this rate she would rival Lachlan as a drunkard, but she needed it. She was so tired of having to stand up alone for the people of Kilmory. No one else gave a d.a.m.n-her father, her brother, both out for what they could get from the land and the people rather than what they could give.
"I"ll speak to Eyre," she said. "They cannot ride roughshod over people"s lives like this."
Seumas shook his head. "You"re the one Eyre wants, ma"am," he said roughly. "He"ll go through any number of us to get to you."
A cold shard of shock and fear pierced Christina. She had known for a while that Eyre suspected she might be protecting the smugglers. But she had no notion that he believed her to be a part of the gang, and still less that he would seek to arrest her for it.
"Why on earth would they want me-" she began, but then she saw it so clearly she felt naive. Eyre was ambitious and he cared nothing for ingratiating himself with the n.o.bility. In fact, he hated the life of privilege that she had been born into. He hated her even more since she had complained of him to Sidmouth. It would be the greatest coup of his career to bring down the Kilmory Gang with her as its leader.
She drained the rest of the gla.s.s and set it down softly. Already the spirit, so strong, was starting to take the edge off her thoughts. She felt warm and a little dizzy. She would think about Eyre and the problem he posed in the morning. She nodded to Seumas, who was watching her dourly. "I"ll do what I can," she said.
"Aye, ma"am." He dipped his head. "We know you will." He pa.s.sed Christina a small stone bottle of the peat-reek. She knew it was to be left as a traditional gift for her father, the laird who turned a blind eye to the smugglers" activities. For once she felt bitter about it. The duke did nothing to help the smugglers. He turned a blind eye because he was utterly indifferent to their activities. He deserved no thanks.
Outside it was a mild night, starry, warm. The wind rifled the pines and played through the heather. The bothy was set along the edge of Loch Gyle, tucked away in the lee of a rise in the land where there was a running stream and where the smoke from the fires would not be seen. Christina carefully traced her path along the edge of the loch, its waters shining silver in the moonlight, and took the path down the valley to the castle. Along the way she took the stopper from the bottle of peat-reek and took a long swallow. Whisky was not really her sort of drink; apart from the tasting, she never normally touched it. Tonight, though, she rather thought she could get a craving for it. It took the edge off the pain of Niall and Callum"s capture, but beneath the dulling taste of the drink her heart ached.
She met no one on the walk home. She let herself into the castle grounds and wandered across the gravel to the door at the base of the west tower. Here she always hid a key for those occasions when she went out at night and the castle was locked up. She did not always like to ask Galloway to leave a door open or to wait up for her.
She bent down to search for the key amongst the tumble of stones at the base of the tower. It was a mistake. Her head swam suddenly from the combination of tiredness and drink. She put out a hand to steady herself and her fingertips grazed the rough stone of the wall. She fell over with as little grace as a collapsing balloon, and the whisky flagon rolled away from her across the gravel.
"d.a.m.nation!" She made a grab for it and missed, sitting down hard on the ground, her skirts billowing around her.
There was a sound behind her, a step. A shadow fell across her.