He turned, and his face was crimson as he looked at her. "It will be here soon. We can go out in April."
He had answered her dully, with a heavy sadness in his voice. It was her golden opportunity; and she took it.
"Splendid!" she cried--"splendid! I so want to get back to my husband. I am scarcely able to wait at all."
"I suppose," he said, "it seems a long time that you have been separated."
"Oh, so long," she answered, softly. "And I do so want him."
He walked on, slowly. "I shall miss you very much."
Her manner and expression were those of a pleased, frank child when she answered. "Really, I was so afraid I had been stupid company, and I owe so much to you. My husband will want to come clear back here to thank you for your winter"s hospitality."
"It would hardly be worth his while. The debt is more than paid."
"I shall be sorry--in a way," she went on. "We have become such good friends, such good comrades with not the least bit of unpleasantness to remember. I shall always be glad of that."
"Yes," he said. "I am glad, indeed, that you feel so."
"If any one had ever told me that I should find so rare a gentleman here"--she laughed--"I would have thought they were talking medieval gallantry."
"Thank you. A gentleman is always himself when a lady is a lady."
Claire flushed a little, and said nothing.
"I shall remember you with pleasure and regret," continued Philip, his head high.
Her eyes opened wide, like a child"s. "Oh, with regret, too?"
"Yes. Regret that you did not come to my cabin sooner, freer, and to stay longer."
"You are a consummate flatterer, Philip," she chided.
"I suppose it seems artificial; one can scarcely imagine that I should be in earnest," he said, a little bitterly.
Her conscience hurt her, though she did not know why. She could have said those things before and thought nothing of them. Why did she feel sorry now?
"I didn"t mean that," she said, earnestly. "Believe me, I did not."
"No," he replied, "you answered out of mere indifference."
"But I am not indifferent to you, Philip. I like you very much." She was afraid she had hurt his feelings, and she, herself, was so tense, so troubled, that she was uncertain of her emotional att.i.tudes these days.
She felt that somehow she had been cruel and very ungracious toward the man to whom she owed so much.
"I know," he said, "one is interested, of course, in a novel, foreign mountaineer."
She was beginning to feel achy, and tears were near the surface.
"Philip, why do you misunderstand me?" she cried. "It isn"t that at all.
I like you for the man you are."
He smiled sadly. "And did it ever occur to you that I might love you for the woman you are?" he said suddenly, his good resolutions all gone.
She stopped and her breath quickened. Over her rushed a tide of fear, regret, sorrow. Even then she wondered that it was pity and not anger which moved her.
"I do not believe that. How could you?" she said swiftly.
"You cannot even conceive of my loving you?"
"I--I can, Philip--it isn"t that, I--I"--she was floundering among her own emotions--"I can under other circ.u.mstances, different conditions.
Oh, don"t you see--think of"--she had almost said "Lawrence," but hastily subst.i.tuted--"my husband."
"I have thought of him. From the day you came, he has haunted my footsteps. But after all, he thinks you are dead."
"But I love him. Think of that, too."
"Oh, Claire, Claire, I have seen you when I felt perhaps you might--might learn to love me."
"Philip, it is impossible!" she cried. "Please don"t let"s spoil everything now. I so wanted to be just friends."
His faced kindled and his deep eyes glowed with a fire that both terrorized and fascinated her.
"We cannot be that, Claire." His voice vibrated with growing pa.s.sion.
They stood, facing each other, and she trembled like a reed in the wind.
"I saw you this morning in his arms," he was tense and speaking rapidly, "and I knew then that I loved you. Loved you with all the soul of me. I could have killed him, I tell you. Claire, Claire, I love you! You must not deny me love."
She did not, could not answer, her tongue refused to move, and her dry, hot mouth felt as if she would smother. She looked into his eyes and said nothing, while she shook violently.
"Claire!" he cried. "Claire! I love you!" His arms closed around her and he held her tightly. His eyes burned into her own with a flame that was contagious in its intensity. She gasped, trembled, and did not struggle, though in her mind she was crying, anguished, "Lawrence!
Lawrence!"
He pressed her more tightly, and his body against her own stirred in her a pa.s.sion beyond the control of will. Her eyes lighted warmly and then closed. She felt suffocated, weak, and her senses reeled. His head bent, and his lips were pressed fiercely against her own parted ones, stopping the cry that rose to her throat. He held her fast, keeping his lips against her own until she felt her strength giving. She half leaned against him, letting the weight of her body sink into his arms.
A savage joy sprang into his eyes. She opened her own and saw. Throwing up her hands wildly, she struck his face, twisted her body free, and shoving him from her, stood, white, defiant, and determined.
She was not angry with Philip, only with herself, but the storm of self-reproach that swept over her burst into bitter, scorching words against him.
"You, you coward! You dare to touch me, to take me that way! If I had only known what sort of a thing you were, you, you viper! Oh, to be here with you!"
His dark eyes flashed with sudden rage, and he moved to seize her. She stood defiantly before him, her white face cold as outraged chast.i.ty itself, and his anger died. Into his face came the dejected, suffering look of a man whose pa.s.sion ebbs before the compelling force of a woman"s scorn.
"Forgive me, Claire," he moaned, "forgive me. I was mad, mad."
She knew he was sincere, and she smiled sadly.
"I know, Philip," she said. "I understand, but you must realize that it is impossible. Won"t you see that? It was, perhaps, partly my fault.
Forgive me if it was, and let us be friends. Philip, I want a friend,"