"Perhaps that"s perfectly right. The green streaks--like the boiled carrot--may be just a little surprise by way of extra. Neither is included in the description of the dish."
"Morgan, I really don"t think I can eat this," she said faintly.
"Backsliding already?"
"Not at all. You forget I"m a bundle of "isms," and in practice one can only be true to one at a time. When that one begins to make me feel uncomfortable, I become true to another. Thus I am always true to myself. All the mutually contradictory "isms" unite in a higher synthesis. Am I not the most lovely higher synthesis you ever saw?"
"All of which Hegelian dialectics mean that I"d better tell them to take this stuff away."
"If you think they won"t maltreat us. They look terribly fierce; and they may have any number of myrmidons within call. That sort of people, you know, doesn"t like to have its cooking criticised."
"So long as we pay, we"ll not find them too sensitive."
The matter was soon arranged, they adopting the man"s suggestion of a "nice, juicy steak." And when it arrived they felt compelled to p.r.o.nounce it excellent.
"I shouldn"t be surprised if those green streaks were the proper thing after all," said Lady Thiselton.
"Doubtless we have missed some extraordinary delicacy," said Morgan.
"But please tell me which particular "ism" is in possession at the moment. I am not quite clear on the point."
"That is just my state of mind. But I fancy that, at the present moment, I am given over to emotion rather than to thought. This interior is affecting me artistically. I was just thinking what a lovely Dutch picture it would make. But I really am sincere about my "isms." The arguments in favour of any one "ism" are unanswerable, and I have to admit the truth of each, whenever I consider it. All human thought ends in the blind alley of Paradox. Hegel was a word-juggler.
Nice phrases are pleasing, but let us not take them seriously."
And Lady Thiselton proceeded to utter a good many "nice phrases,"
which Morgan found pleasing, and did not take seriously. Customers dropped in by ones and twos till at length all the other stalls were filled, everybody instinctively avoiding the stall where a tablecloth gleamed its white warning. When some men, having eaten, began smoking their clays, Lady Thiselton"s sharp ear detected some speculative remarks about herself and Morgan, tinged with facetiousness and gore.
She thereupon suggested she was pining for something mystic and spiritualistic, being quite tired of this realistic interior.
"I am trying to banish it by contemplating the Blessed Damozel," she said, and quoted whisperingly:
""The Blessed Damozel leaned out From the gold bar of Heaven; Her eyes were deeper than the depth Of waters stilled at even; She had three lilies in her hand, And the stars in her hair were seven.""
A moment later they stepped out into the afternoon light that nearly blinded them with its mournful glare. But a heavy sadness had descended on Morgan. The lines Lady Thiselton had whispered to him had set him thinking of Margaret.
CHAPTER II.
The same evening, Morgan, not feeling any alarming symptoms, had to carry out his promise to join Lady Thiselton"s little dinner party.
She received him with a formality that made him laugh inwardly--and almost outwardly. But the impulse died away as with a start he perceived that Robert Ingram was in the drawing-room. He reflected, however, that, though the encounter was an unexpected one, there was nothing very astonishing about it. Helen had herself told him she had made the novelist"s acquaintance, and to find him dining at her house was no matter for surprise. The position, nevertheless, was a most curious one, especially when their hostess unsuspectingly introduced the two men. Ingram"s manner was a little bit bewildered, as if--from his knowledge of Morgan--he feared the latter might make a scene by dramatically cutting him.
However, nothing of the kind happened, Morgan behaving with perfect gravity. He had to give his arm to Mrs. Blackstone--Helen"s dear friend, Laura, of whom she had spoken to him as the most stupid woman she knew. He would have welcomed the opportunity of talking to her--for he was sure her conception of Helen would be astonishingly amusing, but he had a feeling that something important was going to arise from his coming here to-night, and that there were possibilities of explosion in the position. This gave him a general sense of expectant excitement, so that at first he was a little bit impatient of Mrs. Blackstone"s remarks. He learnt that she admired intensely that sweet little poem of his, and that she had been longing to meet the writer; also that reading was a great blessing when one felt miserable. Did he not admire Mr. Ingram? She herself adored his work.
He was constrained to reply that Ingram was one of his literary heresies, whereupon she, with ready resource, supposed that tastes differed, and then, as the result of a luminous thought, she added that a poet would naturally not be so much interested in mere prose.
Of course poetry ranked the higher, but she was ashamed to confess--she made the confession without any sign of shame--she scarcely ever read any at all. She had several favourite novelists who each published so many books a year that it took all the time she could spare to keep pace with them.
"And indeed I"m glad they manage to write so much. They help to fight against the flood of nasty realistic works we get nowadays. I should like to see those all burnt."
Mrs. Blackstone went on to observe that she couldn"t make out why people went on writing such filth. She preferred books of a sound, moral tone.
Morgan, feeling himself called upon to make common cause against the Philistine, put in a tentative word of defence.
"That"s true," admitted Mrs. Blackstone.
He soon drew further admissions from her, she never suspecting the extent of the ground she was yielding till, just at the moment of rising, she apparently gave up her whole position with the nave statement:
"I always thought they had a reason for introducing that sort of thing. Thank you so much, Mr. Druce, for explaining it to me."
He was not quite sure whether he had been bored or amused. All the same he now felt glad he had come; he seemed to be so much more actively interested in what was to follow. Instinctively he looked at Ingram, and the novelist came to talk to him whilst the other men discussed the hygienic aspects of smoking.
"Well, have you got over your temper yet?"
The phrasing was unfortunate, though its conciliatory intention was obvious. Morgan felt he was being addressed as if he were a sulky child, and his resentment leapt up afresh.
"I beg you will not interest yourself further in me," he said.
"Suppose we omit some of the conversation," suggested Ingram, "and a.s.sume all that sort of thing to have been said. You are hurt because I showed your letter to a friend. Aren"t you taking a distorted view of the matter? Recollect that at the time you were an utter stranger, and your letter was a bolt from the blue. I cannot see that I committed so very great a crime."
"It is as great or as little as you feel it to be."
"And how may it be purged?" asked Ingram ironically.
"Ponder over it till you perceive its enormity, then apologize to me in the presence of the woman."
Morgan scarcely realised what he was saying till the words were out.
Apparently he had spoken without hesitating and without thinking, but he knew that his utterance was the result of all that had occupied his mind for many days past. He felt now he was on the road towards the realisation of that fantastic future, that poem in life that was to take the place of the poetry in words he had abandoned.
Ingram gave him a strange, piercing look. Morgan had never before seen in his face such an expression as he saw in it now. There was a pregnant pause before the reply came.
"Very well, then. We will go to her to-night. No doubt the others will now be glad to hear our views on tobacco smoke."
Morgan was conscious of a strange glow of pleasure, of a strange satisfaction. All his sense of romance and mystery was astir. How charming was the promise of the phantasy to come! The smiling, scented serpent-woman was holding her arms to him! And again those lines of Browning echoed through him, and his whole being seemed invaded as by a "faint sweetness from some old Egyptian"s fine, worm-eaten shroud."
He defended moderate smoking with vivacity.
Afterwards, the guests being disposed for conversation in the drawing-room, Helen managed to sit with Morgan a little apart.
"What do you think of Mr. Ingram?" she asked. "Did you talk to him at all?"
"He seems fairly intelligent," replied Morgan; "more intelligent, in fact, than his work would lead one to suppose. You told me the other day, did you not, that you have known him some little time?"
"It is only during the last few months that I have cultivated him or rather he me."
"I see Mrs. Blackstone has possession of him now. She must be very happy."
"She is his greatest confidante. That I am _her_ greatest confidante, you know already, _ergo_--well, I"ll leave you to make the deduction.
She is really a good soul, and a marked success as an ear trumpet."