"Five hundred pounds for falling off a ladder," Mr Cooksey said. "Ha! It"s as easy as falling off a log, ain"t it, Bess?"
Mrs Cooksey sighed. "That"s what the Labour has done to this country. They didn"t do a thing for the middle cla.s.s."
"Bent arm! Can"t go to the seaside! Pamperin", that"s what it is. You wouldn"t"ve found "Itler pampering that lot."
A motorbike lacerated the silence.
"Our happy honeymooners," Mr Cooksey said.
"They"ll soon be leaving," Mrs Cooksey said, and went out to meet them in the hall.
"Whose key are you using?"
"Eva"s," the footballer said, running up the stairs.
"We"ll see about that," Mrs Cooksey called.
Mrs Dakin said: "I went down to Mrs Cooksey and I said, "Mrs Cooksey, what do you mean by insulting my guests? It"s bad enough for them having their honeymoon spoilt without being insulted." And she said she"d let the flat to me and my "usband and not to my brother and his wife and they"d have to go. And I told her that they were leaving tomorrow anyway because my husband"s coming back tomorrow. And I told her I hoped she was satisfied that she"d spoiled their honeymoon, which comes only once in a lifetime. And she said some people managed to have two, which I took as a reference to myself because, as you know, my first husband died during the war. And then I told her that if that was the way she was going to behave then I could have nothing more to say to her. And she said she hoped I would have the oil from my brother"s bike cleaned up. And I said that if it wasn"t for my husband being so ill I would"ve given notice then and there. And she said it was because my husband was ill that she didn"t give me notice, which any other landlady would"ve done."
Three things happened the next day. The footballer and his wife left. Mrs Dakin told me that the firm had given her husband four hundred pounds. And Mr Dakin returned from hospital, no more noticed by the rest of the house than if he had returned from a day"s work. No sounds came from the Dakins" flat that evening except for the whine and rumble of conversation.
Two days later I heard Mrs Dakin racing down to my flat. She knocked and entered at the same time. "The telly"s coming today," she said.
Mr Dakin was going to put up the aerial himself. I wondered whether he was as yet strong enough to go climbing about the roof.
"They wanted ten pounds to do it. But my husband"s an electrician and he can do it himself. You must come up tonight. We"re going to celebrate."
I went up. A chromium-plated aeroplane and a white doily had been placed on the television set. It looked startlingly new.
Mrs Dakin emptied a bottle of Tio Pepe into three tumblers.
"To good "ealth," she said, and we drank to that.
Mr Dakin looked thin and fatigued. But his fatigue was tinged with a certain quiet contentment. We watched a play about a 400-year-old man who took certain drugs and looked no more than twenty. From time to time Mrs Dakin gave little cries of pleasure, at the play, the television set, and the quality of the sherry.
Mr Dakin languidly took up the empty bottle and studied the label. "Spanish sherry," he said.
Mr Cooksey waylaid me the following day. "Big telly they"ve got."
"Eighteen inch."
"Those big ones hurt the eyes, don"t you find?"
"They do."
"Come in and have a drink. BBC and Commercial?"
I nodded.
"Never did hold with those commercials. Ruining the country. We"re not going to have ours adapted."
"We"re waiting for the colour," Mrs Cooksey said.
Mrs Cooksey loved a battle. She lived for her house alone. She had no relations or friends, and little happened to her or her husband. Once, shortly after Hess had landed in Scotland, Mr Cooksey had been mistaken by a hostile crowd at Victoria Station for Mussolini, but for the most part Mrs Cooksey"s conversation was about her victories over tenants. In her battles with them she stuck to the rules. The Law of Landlord and Tenant was one of the few books among the many china animals in the large bookcase in her sitting-room. And Mrs Cooksey had her own idea of victory. She never gave anyone notice. That was almost an admission of defeat. Mrs Cooksey asked me, "You didn"t throw a loaf of stale bread into the garden, did you?"
I said I hadn"t.
"I didn"t think you had. That"s what the other people in this street do, you know. It"s a fight to keep this house the way it is, I can tell you. There"s the mice, d"you see. You haven"t any mice up here, have you?"
"As a matter of fact I had one yesterday."
"I knew it. The moment you let up these things start happening. All the other houses in this street have mice. That"s what the sanitary inspector told me. He said this was the cleanest house in the whole street. But the moment you start throwing food about you"re bound to get mice."
That evening I heard Mrs Dakin complaining loudly. She was doing it the way the Knitmistress did: talking loudly to her husband through an open door.
"Coming up here and asking if I had thrown a loaf of bread into "er "orrible little garden. And talking about people having too much to eat these days. Well, if it"s one thing I like, it is a warm room. I don"t wrap myself up in a blanket and "uddle in front of cinders and then come and say that somebody else"s room is like an oven."
Mrs Dakin left her kitchen door open and did the washing up with many bangs, jangles, and clatters. The television sound was turned up and in my room I could hear every commercial, every song, every sc.r.a.p of dialogue. The carpet-sweeper was brought into action; I heard it banging against walls and furniture.
The next day Mrs Cooksey continued her mice hunt. She went into all the flats and took up the linoleum and put wads of newspaper in the gaps between the floorboards. She also emptied Mrs Dakin"s dustbin. "To keep away the mice," she told us.
I heard the Dakins" television again that night.
The next morning there was a large notice in the hall. I recognized Mr Cooksey"s handwriting and style: WILL THE PERSON OR PERSONS RESPONSIBLE SEE ABOUT THE IMMEDIATE REMOVAL OF THE OIL STAINS ON THE FRONT STEPS. In the bathroom there was a notice tied to the pipe that led to the geyser: WILL THE PERSON OR PERSONS WHO HAVE BEEN TAMPERING WITH THIS TAP PLEASE STOP IT. And in the lavatory: WE NEVER THOUGHT WE WOULD HAVE TO MAKE THIS REQUEST BUT WILL THE PERSON OR PERSONS RESPONSIBLE PLEASE LEAVE THESE OFFICES AS THEY WOULD LIKE TO FIND THEM.
The Dakins retaliated at once. Four unwashed milk bottles were placed on the stains on the steps. An empty whisky bottle was placed, label outwards, next to the dustbin.
I felt the Dakins had won that round.
"Liquor and football pools," Mr Cooksey said. "That"s all that cla.s.s spends its money on. Pamperin"! You mustn"t upset yourself, Bess. We"re giving them enough rope to hang themselves."
The television boomed through the house that evening. The washing-up was done noisily, the carpet-sweeper banged against walls and furniture, and Mrs Dakin sang loudly. Presently I heard scuffling sounds and shrieks. The Dakins were dancing. This went on for a short time. Then I heard a bath being run.
There was a soft knock on my door and Mrs Cooksey came in. "I just wanted to find out who was having the bath," she said.
For some moments after she left the bath continued to run. Then there was a sharper sound of running water, hissing and metallic. And soon the bath was silent.
There was no cistern to feed the geyser ("Unhygienic things, cisterns," Mr Cooksey said) and the flow of water to it depended on the taps in the house. By turning on a tap in your kitchen you could lessen the flow and the heat of the water from the geyser. The hissing sound indicated that a tap had been turned full on downstairs, rendering the geyser futile.
From the silent bathroom I heard occasional splashes. The hissing sound continued. Then Mr Dakin sneezed.
The bathroom door opened and was closed with a bang. Mr Dakin sneezed again and Mrs Dakin said, "If you catch pneumonia, I know who your solicitor will have to be writing to next."
And all they could do was to smash the gas mantle in the bathroom.
It seemed that they had accepted defeat, for they did nothing further the next day. I was with the Cookseys when the Dakins came in from work that afternoon. In a few minutes they had left the house again. The light in the Cookseys" sitting-room had not been turned on and we stared at them through the lace curtains. They walked arm in arm.
"Going to look for a new place, I suppose," Mrs Cooksey said.
There was a knock and the Knitmistress came in, her smile brilliant and terrible even in the gloom. She said, "Hullo." Then she addressed Mrs Cooksey: "Our lights have gone."
"Power failure," Mr Cooksey said. But the street lights were on. The light in the Cookseys" room was turned on but nothing happened.
Mrs Cooksey"s face fell.
"Fuse," Mr Cooksey said briskly. He regarded himself as an electrical expert. With the help of a candle he selected fuse wire, went down to the fuse box, urged us to turn off all lights and fires and stoves, and set to work. The wire fused again. And again.
"He"s been up to something," Mr Cooksey said.
But we couldn"t find out what that was. The Dakins had secured their rooms with new Yale locks.
The Knitmistress complained.
"It"s no use, Bess," Mr Cooksey said. "You"ll just have to give them notice. Never did hold with that cla.s.s of people anyway."
And defeat was made even more bitter because it turned out that victory had been very close. After Mrs Cooksey asked them to leave, the Dakins announced that they had used part of the compensation money to pay down on a house and were just about to give notice themselves. They packed and left without saying goodbye.
Three weeks later the Dakins" flat was taken over by a middle-aged lady with a fat shining dachshund called Nicky. Her letters were posted on from a ladies" club whose terrifying interiors I had often glimpsed from the top of a number sixteen bus.
1957.
9 THE HEART.
WHEN THEY DECIDED that the only way to teach Hari to swim would be to throw him into the sea, Hari dropped out of the sea scouts. Every Monday afternoon for a term he had put on the uniform, practised rowing on the school grounds, and learned to run up signals and make knots. The term before he had dropped out of the boy scouts, to avoid going to camp. At the school sports the term before that he had entered for all the races for the under-elevens, but when the time came he was too shy to strip (the emblem of his house had been fancifully embroidered on his vest by his mother), and he didn"t run.
Hari was an only child. He was ten and had a weak heart. The doctors had advised against over-exertion and excitement, and Hari was unexercised and fat. He would have liked to play cricket, fancying himself as a fast bowler, but he was never picked for any of the form teams. He couldn"t run quickly, he couldn"t bowl, he couldn"t bat, and he threw like a girl. He would also have liked to whistle, but he could only make hissing noises through his small plump lips. He had an almost Chinese pa.s.sion for neatness. He wrote with a blotter below his hand and blotted each line as he wrote; he crossed out with the help of a ruler. His books were clean and unmarked, except on the fly-leaf, where his name had been written by his father. He would have pa.s.sed unnoticed at school if he hadn"t been so well provided with money. This made him unpopular and attracted bullies. His expensive fountain pens were always stolen; and he had learned to stay away from the tuck shop.
Most of the boys from Hari"s district who went to the school used Jameson Street. Hari wished to avoid this street. The only way he could do this was to go down Rupert Street. And at the bottom of that street, just where he turned right, there was the house with the Alsatians.
The house stood on the right-hand corner and walking on the other side would have made his cowardice plain, to dogs and pa.s.sers-by. The Alsatians bounded down from the veranda, barking, leapt against the wire fence and made it shake. Their paws touched the top of the fence and it always seemed to Hari that with a little effort they could jump right over. Sometimes a thin old lady with gla.s.ses and grey hair and an irritable expression limped out to the veranda and called in a squeaky voice to the Alsatians. At once they stopped barking, forgot Hari, ran up to the veranda and wagged their heavy tails, as though apologizing for the noise and at the same time asking to be congratulated. The old lady tapped them on the head and they continued to wag their tails; if she slapped them hard they moved away with their heads bowed, their tails between their legs, and lay down on the veranda, gazing out, blinking, their muzzles beneath their forelegs.
Hari envied the old lady her power over the dogs. He was glad when she came out; but he also felt ashamed of his own fear and weakness.
The city was full of unlicensed mongrels who barked in relay all through the day and night. Of these dogs Hari was not afraid. They were thin and starved and cowardly. To drive them away one had only to bend down as though reaching for a stone; it was a gesture the street dogs all understood. But it didn"t work with the Alsatians; it merely aggravated their fury.
Four times a day he went home for lunch Hari had to pa.s.s the Alsatians, hear their bark and breath, see their long white teeth, black lips and red tongues, see their eager, powerful bodies, taller than he when they leapt against the fence. He took his revenge on the street dogs. He picked up imaginary stones; and the street dogs always bolted.
When Hari asked for a bicycle he didn"t mention the boys in Jameson Street or the Alsatians in Rupert Street. He spoke about the sun and his fatigue. His parents had misgivings about the bicycle, but Hari learned to ride without accident. And then, with the power of his bicycle, he was no longer afraid of the dogs in Rupert Street. The Alsatians seldom barked at pa.s.sing cyclists. So Hari stopped in front of the house at the corner, and when the Alsatians ran down from the veranda he pretended to throw things at them until they were thoroughly enraged and their breath grew loud. Then he cycled slowly away, the Alsatians following along the fence to the end of the lot, growling with anger and frustration. Once, when the old lady came out, Hari pretended he had stopped only to tie his laces.
Hari"s school was in a quiet, open part of the city. The streets were wide and there were no pavements, only broad, well-kept gra.s.s verges. The verges were not level; every few yards there were shallow trenches which drained off the water from the road. Hari liked cycling on the verges, gently rising and falling.
Late one Friday afternoon Hari was cycling back from school after a meeting of the Stamp Club (he had joined that after leaving the sea scouts and with the large collections and expensive alb.u.ms given him by his father he enjoyed a continuing esteem). It was growing dark as Hari cycled along the verge, falling and rising, looking down at the gra.s.s.
In a trench he saw the body of an Alsatian.
The bicycle rolled down into the trench and over the thick tail of the dog. The dog rose and, without looking at Hari, shook himself. Then Hari saw another Alsatian. And another. Steering to avoid them he ran into more. They lay in the trenches and all over the verge. They were of varying colours; one was brown-black. Hari had not pedalled since he had seen the first dog and was now going so slowly he felt he was losing his balance. From behind came a low, brief bark, like a sneeze. At this, energy returned to him. He rode on to the asphalt and it was only then, as though they too had just recovered from their surprise, that the Alsatians all rose and came after him. He pedalled, staring ahead, not looking at what was behind him or beside him. Three Alsatians, the brown-black one among them, were running abreast of his bicycle. Calmly, as he pedalled, Hari waited for their attack. But they only ran beside him, not barking. The bicycle hummed; the dogs" paws on the asphalt sounded like pigeons" feet on a tin roof. And then Hari felt that the savagery of the Alsatians was casual, without anger or malice: an evening gathering, an evening"s pleasure. He fixed his eyes on the main road at the end, with the street lamps just going on, the lighted trolley-buses, the motor-cars, the people.
Then he was there. The Alsatians had dropped behind. He didn"t look for them. It was only when he was in the main road, with the trolley-poles sparking blue in the night already fallen, that he realized how frightened he had been, how close to painful death from the teeth of those happy dogs. His heart beat fast, from the exertion. Then he felt a sharp pain he had never known before. He gave a choked, deep groan and fell off the bicycle.
He spent a month in a nursing home and didn"t go to school for the rest of that term. But he was well enough again when the new term began. It was decided that he should give up the bicycle; and his father changed his hours of work so that he could drive Hari to and from the school.
His birthday fell early that term, and when he was driven home from school in the afternoon his mother handed him a basket and said, "Happy birthday!"
It was a puppy.
"He won"t bite you," his mother said. "Touch him and see."
"Let me see you touch him," Hari said.
"You must touch him," his mother said. "He is yours. You must get him used to you. They are one-man dogs."
He thought of the old lady with the squeaky voice and he held out his hand to the puppy. The puppy licked it and pressed a damp nose against it. Hari was tickled. He burst out laughing, felt the puppy"s hair and the puppy rubbed against his hand; he pa.s.sed his hand over the puppy"s muzzle, then he lifted the puppy and the puppy licked his face and Hari was tickled into fresh laughter.
The puppy had small sharp teeth and liked to pretend that he was biting. Hari liked the feel of his teeth; there was friendliness in them, and soon there would be power. His power. "They are one-man dogs," his mother said.
He got his father to drive to school down Rupert Street. Sometimes he saw the Alsatians. Then he thought of his own dog, and felt protected and revenged. They drove up and down the street with gra.s.s verges along which he had been chased by the Alsatians. But he never again saw any Alsatian there.
The puppy was always waiting when they got back home. His father drove right up to the gate and blew his horn. His mother came out to open the gate, and the puppy came out too, wagging his tail, leaping up against the car even as it moved.
"Hold him! Hold him!" Hari cried.
More than anything now he feared losing his dog.
He liked hearing his mother tell visitors about his love for the puppy. And he was given many books about dogs. He learned with sadness that they lived for only twelve years; so that when he was twenty-three, a man, he would have no dog. In the circ.u.mstances training seemed pointless, but the books all recommended training, and Hari tried it. The puppy responded with a languor Hari thought enchanting. At school he was moved almost to tears when they read the poem beginning "A barking sound the shepherd hears". He went to see the film La.s.sie Come Home and wept. From the film he realized that he had forgotten an important part of the puppy"s training. And, to prevent his puppy eating food given by strangers, he dipped pieces of meat in pepper-sauce and left them about the yard.
The next day the puppy disappeared. Hari was distressed and felt guilty, but he got some consolation from the film; and when, less than a week later, the puppy returned, dirty, scratched and thinner, Hari embraced him and whispered the words of the film: "You"re my La.s.sie my La.s.sie come home."
He abandoned all training and was concerned only to see the puppy become healthy again. In the American comic books he read, dogs lived in dog-houses and ate from bowls marked DOG. Hari didn"t approve of the dog-houses because they looked small and lonely; but he insisted that his mother should buy a bowl marked DOG.
When he came home for lunch one day she showed him a bowl on which DOG had been painted. Hari"s father said he was too hot to eat and went upstairs; his mother followed. Before Hari ate he washed the bowl and filled it with dog-food. He called for the puppy and displayed the bowl. The puppy jumped up, trying to get at the bowl.
Hari put the bowl down and the puppy, instantly ignoring Hari, ran to it. Disappointed, Hari squatted beside the puppy and waited for some sign of recognition. None came. The puppy ate noisily, seeming to catch his food for every chew. Hari pa.s.sed his hand over the puppy"s head.
The puppy, catching a mouthful of food, growled and shook his head.
Hari tried again.
With a sharper growl the puppy dropped the food he had in his mouth and snapped at Hari"s hand. Hari felt teeth sinking into his flesh; he could sense the anger driving the teeth, the thought that finally held them back. When he looked at his hand he saw torn skin and swelling blobs of blood. The puppy was bent over the bowl again, catching and chewing, his eyes hard.
Hari seized the bowl marked DOG and threw it with his girl"s throw out of the kitchen door. The puppy"s growl abruptly ended. When the bowl disappeared he looked up at Hari, puzzled, friendly, his tail swinging slowly. Hari kicked hard at the puppy"s muzzle and felt the tip of his shoe striking the bone. The puppy backed away to the door and looked at Hari with bewilderment.
"Come," Hari said, his voice thick with saliva.