"This writing," said she, addressing the latter, "does your eyes no good. Indeed they look as if you had been crying over your task."
"What writing?" I asked, looking at Julia, She blushed, but said nothing, and the blush pa.s.sed off, leaving the sadness more distinct than ever.
"Oh, she has been writing whole sheets for the last two mornings. I went in this morning to bring her out to a.s.sist me in entertaining Mr. Edgerton, who looked so lonesome; and I do a.s.sure you I thought at first, from the quant.i.ty of writing, that you had given her some of your law-papers to do. The table was covered with it."
"Indeed!" said I--"this must be looked into. It will not do for the wife to take the husband"s business from him. It looks mischievous, Mrs.
Porterfield--there"s something wrong about it."
"Indeed there must be, Mr. Clifford, for only see how very sad it makes her. I declare, she looks this last few weeks like a very different woman. She does nothing now but mope. When she first came here she seemed to me so cheerful and happy."
All this was so much additional wormwood to my bitter. The change in Julia, which had even struck this blind old lady, corresponded exactly with the date of Edgerton"s arrival. When I saw the earnest tenderness in his countenance as he watched her, while Mrs. Porterfield was speaking, I ceased to feel any sympathy for the intense sadness which I yet could not but see in hers. I turned away, and leaving the table soon after, went to our chamber, but the traces of writing were no longer to be seen. The voluminous ma.n.u.scripts had all been carefully removed. I was about to leave the chamber when Julia met me at the door.
"Come back; sit with me," she said. "Why do you go off in such a hurry always? Once it was not so, Edward."
"What! are you for the honeymoon again?"
"Do not smile so, and speak so irreverently!" she said, with a reproachful earnestness that certainly seemed to me very strange, thinking of her as I did. My evil spirit was silent. He lacked readiness to account for it. But he was not unadroit, and moved me to change the ground.
"But what long writing is this, Julia?"
"Ah! you are curious?"
"Scarcely."
"TELL me that you are?"
"What! at the expense of truth?"
"No! but to gratify my desire. I hoped you were; but, curious or not, it is for you."
"Let me see it, then."
"Not yet; it is not ready."
"What! shall there be more of it?"
"Yes, a good deal."
"Indeed! but why take this labor? Why not tell me what you have to say?"
"I wish I could, but I can not. You do not encourage me."
"What encouragement do you wish to speak to your husband?"
"Oh, much! Stay with me, dear husband."
"That will keep you from your writing."
"Ah! perhaps it will render it unnecessary."
"At all events it will keep me from mine;" and I prepared to go. She put her hand upon my shoulder--looked into my eyes pleadingly--hers were dewy wet--and spoke:--
"Do not go-stay with me dear husband, do stay. Stay only for half an hour."
Why did I not stay? I should ask that question of myself in vain. When the heart grows perverse, it acquires a taste for wilfulness. I, myself, longed to stay; could I have been persuaded that she certainly desired it, I should have found my sweetest pleasure in remaining. But there was the rub--that doubt! all that she said, looked, did, seemed, through the medium of the blind heart, to be fraudulent.
"She would disguise her anxiety, that you should be gone. Leave her, and in twenty minutes she and Edgerton will be together."
Such was the whisper of my demon. I did leave her. I went forth for an hour into the woods--returned suddenly and found them together! They were playing chess, Mrs. Porterfield, with all her spectacles, watching the game. I did not ask, and did not know, till afterward, that the express solicitation of the old lady had drawn her from her chamber, and placed her at the table. The conjecture of the evil spirit proved so far correct, and this increased my confidence in his whispers. Alas! how readily do we yield our faith to the spirit of hate! how slow to believe the pure and gentle a.s.surances of love!
Three days pa.s.sed after this fashion. Edgerton no longer expressed indisposition, yet he made no offer to depart. I took care that neither word nor action should remind him of his trespa.s.s. I gave the parties every opportunity, and exhibited the manner of an indifference which was free from all disquiet--all suspicion. The sadness, meanwhile, increased upon the countenance of Julia. She gazed at me in particular with a look of earnestness amounting to distress. This I ascribed to the strength of her pa.s.sions. There was even at moments a harshness in her tones when addressing me now, which was unusual to her. I found some reason for this, equally unfavorable to her fidelity. After dinner I said to Edgerton:--
"You are scarcely strong enough for a bout at the bottle. I take wine with Kingsley this afternoon. He has commissioned me to ask you."
"I dare not venture, but that should not keep you away."
"It will not," I said indifferently.
"Thank him for me, if you please, but tell him it will not do for one so much an invalid as myself."
"Very good!" and I left him, and joined Kingsley. The business of this friend being now in a fair train for final adjustment, he was preparing for his return to Texas. He had not been at my lodgings since Edgerton"s arrival in M--, but we had seen each other, nevertheless, almost every day at his or at my office. Our afternoon was rather merry than cheerful. Heaven knows I was in no mood to be a bon compagnon, but I took sufficient pains that Kingsley should not suspect I had any reasons for being otherwise. I had my jest--I emptied my bottle--I said my good things, and seemed to say them without effort. Kingsley, always cheerful and strong-minded, was in his best vein, and mingling wit and reflection happily together, maintained the ball of conversation with equal ease and felicity. He had the happy knack of saying happy things quietly--of waiting for, and returning the ball, without running after it. At another time, I should have been content simply to have provoked him.
Now, I was quite too miserable not to seek employment; and to disguise feelings, which I should have been ashamed to expose, I contrived to take the lead and almost grew voluble in the frequency of my utterance.
Perhaps, if Kingsley failed in any respect as a philosopher, it was in forbearing to look with sufficient keenness of observation into the heart of his neighbor. He evidently did not see into mine. He was deceived by my manner. He credited all my fun to good faith, and gravely p.r.o.nounced me to be a fortunate fellow.
"How?" I demanded with a momentary cessation of the jest. His gravity and--to me--the strange error in such an observation--excited my curiosity.
"In your freedom from jealousy."
"Oh! that, eh? But why should I be jealous?"
"It is not exactly why a man should be jealous--but why, knowing what men are, usually, that you are not. Nine men in ten would be so under your circ.u.mstances?"
"How, what circ.u.mstances?"
"With Edgerton in your house--evidently fond of your wife, you leave them utterly to themselves. You bring him into your house unnecessarily, and give him every opportunity. I still think you risk everything imprudently. You may pay for it."
I felt a strange sickness at my heart. I felt that the flame was beginning to boil up within me. The perilous turning-point of pa.s.sion--the crisis of strength and endurance--was at hand My eyes settled gloomily upon the table. I was silent longer than usual. I felt THAT, and looked up. The keen glance of Kingsley was upon me. It would not do to suffer him to read my feelings. I replied with some precipitation:--
"I see, Kingsley, you are not cared of your prejudices against Edgerton."
"I am not--I have seen nothing to cure me. But my prejudice against him, has nothing to do with my opinion of your prudence. Were it any other man, the case would be the same."
"Well, but I do not think it so clear that Edgerton loves my wife more than is natural and proper."
"Of the naturalness of his love I say nothing--perhaps, nothing could be more natural. But that he does love her, and loves her as no married woman should be loved, by another than her husband, is clear enough."
"Suppose, then, it be as you say! So long as he does nothing improperly, there is nothing to be said. There is no evil."
"Ah, but there is evil. There is danger."