In sheer despair, at last, I went out, taking my pistol-case, unperceived by her, under my arm. I went to my office where I locked it up. There I seated myself, brooding in a very whirlwind of thought, until after daylight.
When the sun had risen, I went to a man in the neighborhood who hired out vehicles. I ordered a close carriage to be at my door by a certain hour, immediately after breakfast. I then despatched a note to Kingsley, saying briefly that Edgerton and myself would call for him at nine. I then returned home. My wife had arisen, but had not left the chamber.
She pleaded headache and indisposition, and declined coming out to breakfast. She seemed very sad and unhappy, not to say greatly disquieted--appearances which I naturally attributed to guilt.
For--still she said nothing. I lingered near her on various small pretences in the hope to hear her speak. I even made several approaches which, I fancied, might tend to provoke the wished-for revelation.
Indeed, it was wished for as ardently as ever soul wished for the permission to live--prayed for as sincerely as the dying man prays for respite, and the temporary remission of his doom.
In vain! My wife said little, and nothing to the purpose. The moments became seriously short. Could she have anything to say? Was it possible that, being innocent, she should still lock up the guilty secret in her bosom? She could not be innocent to do so! This conclusion seemed inevitable. In order that she should have no plea of discouragement, I spoke to her with great tenderness of manner, with a more than usual display of feeling. It was no mere show. I felt all that I said and looked. I knew that a trying and terrible event was at hand--an event painful to us both--and all my love for her revived with tenfold earnestness. Oh! how I longed to take her into my arms, and warn her tenderly of the consequences of her error; but this, of course, was impossible. But, short of this, I did everything that I thought likely to induce her confidence. I talked familiarly to her, and fondly, with an effort at childlike simplicity and earnestness, in the hope that, by thus renewing the dearest relations of ease and happiness between us, she should be beguiled into her former trusting readiness of speech. She met my fondnesses with equal fondness. It seemed to give her particular pleasure that I should be thus fond. In her embrace, requiting mine, she clung to me; and her tears dropping warm upon my hands, were yet attended by smiles of the most hearty delight. A thousand times she renewed the a.s.surances of her love and attachment--nay, she even went so far as tenderly to upbraid me that our moments of endearment were so few;--yet, in spite of all this, she still forbore the one only subject.
She still said nothing; and as I knew how much she COULD say and ought to say, which she did not say, I could not resist the conviction that her tears were those of the crocodile, and her a.s.surances of love the glozing commonplaces of the harlot.
In silence she suffered me to leave her for the breakfast-table. She looked, it is true--but what had I to do with looks, however earnest and devoted? I went from her slowly. When on the stairs, fancying I had heard her voice, I returned, but she had not called me. She was still silent. Full of sadness I left her, counting slowly and sadly every step which I took from her presence.
Edgerton was already at table. He looked very wretched I observed him closely. His eye shrunk from the encounter of mine. His looks answered sufficiently for his guilt. I said to him:--
"I have to ride out a little ways in the country this morning, and count upon your company. I trust you feel well enough to go with me? Indeed, it will do you good."
Of course, my language and manner were stripped of everything that might alarm his fears. He hesitated, but complied. The carriage was at the door before we had finished breakfast; and with no other object than simply to afford her another opportunity for the desired revelation, I once more went up to my wife"s chamber. Here I lingered fully ten minutes, affecting to search for a paper in trunks where I knew it could not be found. While thus engaged I spoke to her frequently and fondly.
She did not need the impulse to make her revelation, except in her own heart. The occasion was unemployed. She suffered me once more to depart in silence; and this time I felt as if the word of utter and inevitable wo had been spoken. The hour had gone by for ever. I could no longer resist the conviction of her shameless guilt. All her sighs and tears, professions of love and devotion, the fond tenacity of her embrace, the deep-seated earnestness and significance in her looks--all went for nothing in her failure to utter the one only, and all-important communication.
Let no woman, on any pretext, however specious, deceive herself with the fatal error, that she can safely harbor, unspoken to her husband, the secret of any insult, or base approach, of another to herself!
CHAPTER XLVIII.
TOO LATE!
Edgerton announced himself to be in readiness, and, at the same time, declared his intention to withdraw at once from our hospitality and return to his old lodging-house. He had already given instructions to his servant for the removal of his things.
"What!" I said with a feeling of irony, which did not make itself apparent in my speech--"you are tired of our hospitality, Edgerton? We have not treated you well, I am afraid."
"Yes," he muttered faintly, "too well. I have every reason to be gratified and grateful. No reason to complain."
He forced himself to say something more by way of acknowledgment; but to this I gave little heed. We drove first to Kingsley"s, and took him up; then, to my office, where I got out, and, entering the office, wrapped up my pistol-case carefully in a newspaper, so that the contents might not be conjectured, and bringing it forth, thrust it into the boot of the carriage.
"What have you got there?" demanded Kingsley. "Something for digestion,"
was my reply. "We may be kept late."
"You are wise enough to be a traveller," said Kingsley; and without further words we drove on. I fancied that when I put the case into the vehicle, Edgerton looked somewhat suspicious. That he was uneasy was evident enough. He could not well be otherwise. The consciousness of guilt was enough to make him so; and then there was but little present sympathy between himself and Kingsley.
I had already given the driver instructions. He carried us into the loneliest spot of woods some four miles from M----, and in a direction very far from the beaten track.
"What brings you into this quarter?" demanded Kingsley. "What business have you here?"
"We stop here," I said as the carriage drove up. "I have some land to choose and measure here. Shall we alight, gentlemen?"
I took the pistol-case in my hands and led the way. They followed me.
The carriage remained. We went on together several hundred yards until I fancied we should be quite safe from interruption. We were in a dense forest. At a little distance was a small stretch of tolerably open pine land, which seemed to answer the usual purposes. Here I paused and confronted them.
"Mr. Kingsley," I said without further preliminaries, "I have taken the liberty of bringing you here, as the most honorable man I know, in order that you should witness the adjustment of an affair of honor between Mr.
Edgerton and myself."
As I spoke I unrolled the pistol-case. Edgerton grew pale as death, but remained silent. Kingsley was evidently astonished, but not so much so as to forbear the obvious answer.
"How! an affair of honor? Is this inevitable--necessary, Clifford?"
"Absolutely!"
"In no way to be adjusted?"
"In but one! This man has dishonored me in the dearest relations of my household."
"Ha! can it be?"
"Too true! There is no help for it now. I am dealing with him still as a man of honor. I should have been justified in shooting him down like a dog--as one shoots down the reptile that crawls to the cradle of his children. I give him an equal chance for life."
"It is only what I feared!" said Kingsley, looking at Edgerton as he spoke.
The latter had staggered back against a tree. Big drops of sweat stood upon his brows. His head hung down. Still he was silent. I gave the weapons to Kingsley, who proceeded to charge them.
"I will not fight you, Clifford!" exclaimed the criminal with husky accents.
"You must!"
"I can not--I dare not--I will not! You may shoot me down where I stand.
I have wronged you. I dare not lift weapon at your breast."
"Wretch! say not this!" I answered. "You must make the atonement."
"Be it so! Shoot me! You are right! I am ready to die."
"No, William Edgerton, no! You must not refuse me the only atonement you can make. You must not couple that atonement with a sting. Hear me!
You have violated the rites of hospitality, the laws of honor and of manhood, and grossly abused all the obligations of friendship. These offences would amply justify me in taking your life without scruple, and without exposing my own to any hazard. But my soul revolts at this. I remember the past--our boyhood together--and the parental kindness of your venerated parent. These deprive me of a portion of that bitterness which would otherwise have moved me to destroy you. Take the pistol.
If life is nothing to you, it is as little to me now. Use the privilege which I give you, and I shall be satisfied with the event."
He shook his head while he repeated:--
"No! I can not. Say no more, Clifford. I deserve death!"
I clapped the pistol to his head. He folded his arms, lifted his eyes, and regarded me more steadily than he had done for months before.
Kingsley struck up nay arm, as I was c.o.c.king the weapon.
"He must die!" I exclaimed fiercely.
"Yes, that is certain!" replied the other. "But I am not willing that I should be brought here as the witness to a murder. If he will fight you, I will see you through. If he will not fight you, there needs no witness to your shooting him. You have no right, Clifford, to require this of me."
"You are not a coward, William Edgerton?"