That night they supped together at the table, and when the dusk had fallen and Sabrina sat by the window breathing in the evening cool, she said shyly, like a bride:--
"Don"t you see, dear, sometimes we put off grief an" we don"t need to have it after all."
"I see about me," said the girl tenderly, "but I don"t see as anything pleasant has happened to you."
"Why," said Sabrina, in a voice so full and sweet that for the moment it seemed not to be her own hesitating note, "I"ve had more happiness than most folks have in their whole life. I"ve had all there is."
THE CHALLENGE
Mariana Blake, on her way home from Jake Preble"s in the autumn twilight, heard women"s voices sounding clearly at a distance, increasing in volume as they neared. She knew the turn of the road would hide her from them for a minute or two to come, and depending on that security she stepped over the wall and crouched behind the undergrowth at the foot of a wild cherry. They were only her neighbors, Sophronia Jackson and Lizzie Ann West, with whom she was on the kindliest terms; but for some reason she felt sensitive to the social eye whenever she was carrying Jake a basket of her excellent cookery or returning with the empty dishes. Other neighbors, it was true, contributed delicacies to his rudimentary housekeeping, though chiefly at festal times like Thanksgiving and Christmas; but Mariana was conscious that she had kept an especial charge over him since his sister died and left him alone.
Yet this she was never willing to confess, and though she treasured what she had elected as her responsibility, it was with an exceptional shyness.
The voices came nearer at a steady pace, accompanied at length by the steady tread of Sophronia"s low-heeled shoes and the pattering of Lizzie Ann on the harder side of the road. When they were nearly opposite the old cherry-tree, Sophronia spoke.
"Mercy! I stepped into a hole."
"Can"t you remember that hole?" Lizzie Ann inquired, with her inconsequent t.i.tter. "I"ve had that in mind ever since I went to school.
I always thought if I was one of the board o" selectmen, I guess I could manage to fill up that hole."
"I guess I shall have to set down here and shake the gravel out o" my shoe," said Sophronia. "You have this nice flat place, and I"ll set where I can get my foot up easy."
There was the softest accompanying rustle, and they had both sat down.
Mariana, over the wall, gripped her basket with a tenser hand, as if the dishes, of their own accord, might clink. She held her breath, too, smiling because she knew the need of caution would be brief. The instant they were settled, she told herself, they would talk down any such trifling sound as an unconsidered breath. She could foretell exactly what they would say, once they had exhausted the topic of gravel in the shoe. It would be either the new church cushions, or mock mince-pies for the sociable, or the minister"s daughter"s old canary that had ceased to sing or to echo the chirping of others, and yet was regarded with a devotion the parishioners could not indorse. Mariana had seen both her friends that day, and each of them had been more keenly alive to these topics than any.
"I don"t see what makes you so sure," said Sophronia, in a jerky fashion, accompanying the attempt to draw her foot into the position indicated for unlacing.
"Because I am," said Lizzie Ann. "So you are, too. Mariana Blake never"ll marry in the world. She ain"t that kind."
"I don"t know why she ain"t," said her friend, in an argumentative tone of the sort adopted to carry on brilliantly a conversation of which both partic.i.p.ants know the familiar moves. "Mariana"s a real pretty woman, prettier by far than she was when she"s a girl. I know she"s gettin"
along. She was forty-three last April, but age ain"t everything. Look at aunt Grinnell. She married when she"s fifty-three, and she was homely "s a hedge fence and hadn"t any faculty. Nor she didn"t bring him a cent, either."
"Well, n.o.body"d say Mariana was homely. But she won"t marry. Nor she wouldn"t if she was eighteen. She ain"t that kind."
"There, I"ve got it laced up," said Sophronia. She seemed to settle into an easier att.i.tude, and Mariana could hear the scratch of the heel as she thrust the rehabilitated foot afar from her on the lichened rock.
"Well, I guess you"re right, but I don"t know why it"s so, after all. If I was a man, seems if I should think Jake Preble, now, was a real likely fellow to marry."
"Jake Preble!" Such distaste animated the tone of that response that Mariana involuntarily raised herself from her listening posture, and the dishes clinked. "What"s that? Didn"t you hear suthin"? Why, Jake Preble"s a kind of a hind wheel. He goes rollin" along after t"others, never askin" why nor wherefore, and he thinks it"s his own free will. He never so much as dreams "tis the horse that"s haulin" him."
"Well, what is "t he thinks "tis that"s haulin" him?" asked Sophronia, who was not imaginative.
"Why, all I mean is, he don"t take things for what they"re wuth. He believes every goose"s a swan till it up and honks, and he"s jest as likely to think a swan"s a goose."
"You don"t mean he ain"t suited with Mariana?"
"No, no. I mean Mariana"s cosseted him and swep" his path afore him, carryin" his victuals and cleanin" up the house when he"s out hayin" or cuttin" wood, till he thinks it ain"t so bad to bach it after all. If she"d just let him alone after Hattie died, and starved him out, he"d ha"nted her place oftener"n she"s been over to his, and "twouldn"t ha"
been long before he learnt the taste of her apple-pies and where they ought to be made. Now he knows they"re to be picked mostly off"n his kitchen table when he comes in from work."
"Mercy, you don"t mean to say you think it"s all victuals, do you?"
inquired Sophronia, with her unctuous laugh. "You never had much opinion o" menfolks, anyways, Lizzie Ann."
"Well, they"ve got to eat, ain"t they?" inquired Lizzie Ann. "That"s all I say. Come, ain"t you got your shoe on yet? Why, yes, you have. Come along. There"s a kind of chill in the air, if "tis September."
Mariana heard them rising, Sophronia contributing soft thuds of a good-sized middle-aged body and Lizzie with a light scramble suited to her weight.
"Mercy!" said Sophronia, "ain"t you stiff?"
Then they went on together, and Mariana heard in the near distance the familiar patter dealing with Sophronia"s proficiency in mock mince-pies.
They were safely away, but she did not move. The cool September breeze rustled the blackberry-vines on her side of the wall, but it did not chill her. She was hot with some emotion she could not name,--anger, perhaps, though it hardly seemed like that, resentment that her friends could talk her over; and some hurt in the very centre of feeling because the shyness of her soul had been invaded. It seemed so simple to carry Jake Preble a pie of her own baking, as natural as for him to cut her wood and shovel paths for her in the worst winter weather. When it was a beautiful clearing-off day after a storm, she loved to sweep her paths herself, and Jake knew it; but he was always near to rescue her when the drifts piled too high. But then Cap"n Hanscom came, too, and he was a widower, and once Sophronia"s own husband had taken a hand at the snowy citadel. Angry maidenhood in her kept hurling questions into the deepening dusk. Mariana was learning that in a world of giving in marriage, no woman and no man who have not accorded hostages to fortune can live unchallenged.
When her ireful mood had worn itself away, she got up with the stiffness of the mind"s depression intensifying the body"s chill, and made her way swiftly toward home. She walked fast, because it seemed to her she could not possibly bear to meet a neighbor. Even through the dusk her tell-tale basket would be visible, the dishes in it clinking to the tune that Mariana was no sort of a woman to marry.
When she reached home, she fled up the path to the door, feeling at every step the friendliness of the way. The late fall flowers nodded kindly to her through the dark, and underfoot were the stones and hollows of the pathway familiar to her from a life"s acquaintanceship.
"My sakes," breathed Mariana.
A man was sitting on her steps, and because Jake was so vividly present to her mind, she almost spoke his name. But it was only Cap"n Hanscom, rising as she neared him, and opening the door gallantly.
"I says to myself, she"ll be along in a minute or two," he told her.
The cap"n had a soft voice touched here and there with whimsical tones.
When he was absent, Mariana often thought how much she liked his voice; but whenever she saw him she consumed her friendly interest in wishing he wouldn"t wear a beard. She was a fastidious woman, and a beard seemed to her untidy.
"You stay here in the settin"-room," said she. "I"ll get the lamp."
She slipped through the kitchen into the pantry and put her basket softly down, lest he should hear that shameful clink. Even Cap"n Hanscom could not be allowed, she thought, to know she had been carrying pies to a man who would not marry her because she was not the kind of woman to marry. When she came back, bearing the shining lamp, the cap"n looked at her in a frank approval.
Mariana was a round, pleasant body with pink cheeks, kindly eyes, and, bearing witness to her character, a determined mouth; but now she seemed to be enveloped by some transforming aura. Her auburn hair, touched with gray, had blown about her head in an unusual abandon, her cheeks were flaming, and her eyes had pin-points of light. She set the lamp down on the table with a steady hand and drew the shades. Then she became aware that the cap"n was looking at her. He had a fatherly gaze for everybody, the index of his extreme kindliness, but it had apparently been startled into some keener interest.
"Well," said Mariana, and found that she was speaking irritably. "What"s the matter? You look as if you never see anybody before."
She and the cap"n had been schoolfellows, though he was older, and often she treated him with scanty ceremony; now, after she had tossed him that aged formula of banter, she laughed to soften it. But she was still unaccountably angry.
"Well," said the cap"n slowly, "I dunno "s I ever did see just such a kind of a body before."
The words seemed to be echoing from the stolen conversation too warmly alive in her memory. He, too, she thought, was probably considering her a nice proper-looking woman, but one no man would think of marrying.
"Take a chair," she said, and the cap"n went over to the hearth where a careful fire was laid.
"Goin" to touch it off?" he inquired.
Mariana, with a jealous eye, noted that he was looking at the fire, not at her. She wondered if Lizzie Ann West would say a man had to be warmed as well as fed.
"Touch it off," she said, with a disproportioned recklessness. "There"s the matches on the mantel-tree."
The cap"n did it, kneeling to adjust the sticks more nicely; and when one fell forward with the burning of the kindling, lifted it and laid it back solicitously. Then with a turkey-wing he swept up the hearth, its specklessness invaded by a rolling bit of coal, put the wing in place, and stood looking down at what seemed to be his own handiwork.