He wriggled back to the end next the cabin and lay there very flat and very quiet, peeping out through a half-inch crack, too wise in the ways of silence to hold his breath until he must heave a sigh to relieve his lungs. It was hard to breathe naturally and easily after that swift dash, but somehow he did it. An Indian had swerved and ridden behind the cabin, and was leaning and peering in all directions to see if anyone had remained. Perhaps he suspected an ambush; Buddy was absolutely certain that the fellow was looking for him, personally, and that he had seen, Buddy run toward the creek.
It was not a pleasant thought, and the fact that he knew that buck Indian by name, and had once traded him a jackknife for a beautifully tanned wolf skin for his mother, did not make it pleasanter.
Hides-the-face would not let past friendliness stand in the way of a killing.
Presently Hides-the-face dismounted and tied his horse to a corner log of the cabin, and went inside with the others to see what he could find that could be eaten or carried off. Buddy saw fresh smoke issue from the stone chimney, and guessed that Step-and-a-Half had left something that could be cooked. It became evident, in the course of an hour or so, that his presence was absolutely unsuspected, and Buddy began to watch them more composedly, silently promising especial forms of punishment to this one and that one whom he knew. Most of them had been to the ranch many times, and he could have called to a dozen of them by name. They had sat in his father"s cabin or stood immobile just within the door, and had listened while his mother played and sang for them. She had fed them cakes--Buddy remembered the good things which mother had given these despicable ones who were looting and gobbling and destroying like a drove of hogs turned loose in a garden, and the thought of her wasted kindness turned him sick with rage. Mother had believed in their friendliness. Buddy wished that mother could see them setting fire to the low, log stable and the corral, and swarming in and out of the cabin.
Painted for war they were, with red stripes across their foreheads, ribs outlined in red which, when they loosened their blankets as the sun warmed them, gave them a fantastic likeness to the skeletons Buddy wished they were; red stripes on their arms, the number showing their rank in the tribe; open-seated, buckskin breeches to their knees where they met the tightly wrapped leggings; moccasins laced snugly at the ankle--they were picturesque enough to any eyes but Buddy"s. He saw the ghoulish greed in their eyes, heard it in their voices when they shouted to one another; and he hated them even more than he feared them.
Much that they said he understood. They were cursing the Tomahawk outfit, chiefly because the men had not waited there to be surprised and killed. They cursed his father in particular, and were half sorry that they had not ridden on in pursuit with the others. They hoped no white man would ride alive to Laramie. It made cheerful listening to Buddy, flat on his stomach in the roof of the dugout!
After a while, when the cabin had been gutted of everything it contained save the crude table and benches, a few Indians brought burning brands from the stable and set it afire. They were very busy inside and out, making sure that the flames took hold properly. Then, when the dry logs began to blaze and flames licked the edges of the roof, they stood back and watched it.
Buddy saw Hides-the-face glance speculatively toward the dugout, and slipped his hand back where he could reach his six-shooter. He felt pretty certain that they meant to demolish the dugout next, and he knew exactly what he meant to do. He had heard men at the posts talk of "selling their lives dearly ", and that is what he intended to do.
He was not going to be in too much of a hurry; he would wait until they actually began on the dugout--and when they were on the bank within a few feet of him, and he saw that there was no getting away from death, he meant to shoot five Indians, and himself last of all.
Tentatively he felt of his temple where he meant to place the muzzle of the gun when there was just one bullet left. It was so nice and smooth--he wondered if G.o.d would really help him out, if he said Our Father with a pure heart and with faith, as his mother said one must pray. He was slightly doubtful of both conditions, when he came to think of it seriously. This spring he had felt grown-up enough to swear a little at the horses, sometimes--and he was not sure that shooting the Indian that time would not be counted a crime by G.o.d, who loved all His creatures. Mother always stuck to it that Injuns were G.o.d"s creatures--which brought Buddy squarely against the incredible a.s.sumption that G.o.d must love them. He did not in the least mean to be irreverent, but when he watched those painted bucks his opinion of G.o.d changed slightly. He decided that he himself was neither pure nor full of faith, and that he would not pray just yet. He would let G.o.d go ahead and do as He pleased about it; except that Buddy would never let those Indians get him alive, no matter what G.o.d expected.
Hides-the-face walked over toward the dugout. Buddy crooked his left arm and laid the gun barrel across it to get a "dead rest" and leave nothing to chance. Hides-the-face stared at the dugout, moved to one side--and the muzzle of the gun followed, keeping its aim directly at the left edge of his breastbone as outlined with the red paint. Hides-the-face craned, stepped into the path down the bank and pa.s.sed out of range.
Buddy gritted his teeth malevolently and waited, his ears strained to catch and interpret the meaning of every soft sound made by Hides-the-face"s moccasins.
Hides-the-face cautiously pushed open the door of the cellar and looked in, standing for interminable minutes, as is the leisurely way of Indians when there is no great need of haste. Ruddy cautiously lowered his face and peered down like a mouse from the thatch, but he could not handily bring his gun to bear upon Hides-the-face, who presently turned back and went up the path, his shoulder-muscles moving snakishly under his brown skin as he climbed the bank.
Hides-the-face returned to the others and announced that there was a place where they could camp. Buddy could not hear all that he said, and Hides-the-face had his back turned so that not all of his signs were intelligible; but he gathered that these particular Indians had chosen or had been ordered to wait here for three suns, and that the cellar appealed to Hides-the-face as a shelter in case it stormed.
Buddy did not know whether to rejoice at the news or to mourn. They would not destroy the dugout, so he need not shoot himself, which was of course a relief. Still, three suns meant three days and nights, and the prospect of lying there on his stomach, afraid to move for that length of time, almost amounted to the same thing in the end. He did not believe that he could hold out that long, though of course he would try pretty hard.
All that day Buddy lay watching through the crack, determined to take any chance that came his way. None came. The Indians loitered in the shade, and some slept. But always two or three remained awake; and although they sat apparently ready to doze off at any minute, Buddy knew them too well to hope for such good luck. Two Indians rode in toward evening dragging a calf that had been overlooked in the roundup; and having improvidently burned the cabin, the meat was cooked over the embers which still smouldered in places where knots in the logs made slow fuel.
Buddy watched them hungrily, wondering how long it took to starve.
When it was growing dark he tried to keep in mind the exact positions of the Indians, and to discover whether a guard would be placed over the camp, or whether they felt safe enough to sleep without a sentinel.
Hides-the-face he had long ago decided was in charge of the party, and Hides-the-face was seemingly concerned only with gorging himself on the half-roasted meat. Buddy hoped he would choke himself, but Hides-the-face was very good at gulping half-chewed hunks and finished without disaster.
Then he grunted something to someone in the dark, and there was movement in the group. Buddy ground his growing "second" teeth together, clenched his fist and said "d.a.m.n it!" three times in a silent crescendo of rage because he could neither see nor hear what took place; and immediately he repented his profanity, remembering that G.o.d could hear him.
In Buddy"s opinion, you never could be sure about G.o.d; He bestowed mysterious mercies and strange punishments, and His ways were past finding out. Buddy tipped his palms together and repeated all the prayers his mother had taught him and then, with a flash of memory, finished with "Oh, G.o.d, please!" just as mother had done long ago on the dry drive. After that he meditated uncomfortably for a few minutes and added in a faint whisper, "Oh, shucks! You don"t want to pay any attention to a fellow cussing a little when he"s mad. I could easy make that up if you helped me out some way."
Buddy believed afterwards that G.o.d yielded to persuasion and decided to give him a chance. For not more than five minutes pa.s.sed when a far-off murmur grew to an indefinable roar, and the wind whooped down off the Snowies so fiercely that even the dugout quivered a little and rattled dirt down on Buddy through the poles just over his head.
At first this seemed an unlucky circ.u.mstance, for the Indians came down into the dugout for shelter, and now Buddy was afraid to breathe in the quiet intervals between the gusts. Just below him he could hear the occasional mutters of laconic sentences and grunted answers as the bucks settled themselves for the night, and he had a short, panicky spell of fearing that the poles would give way beneath him and drop him in upon them.
After a while--it seemed hours to Buddy--the wind settled down to a steady gale. The Indians, so far as he could determine, were all asleep in the cellar. And Buddy, setting his teeth hard together, began to slide slowly backward toward the opening through which he had crawled into the roof. When he had crawled in he had not noticed the springiness of the poles, but now his imagination tormented him with the sensation of sagging and swaying. When his feet pushed through the opening he had to grit his teeth to hold himself steady. It seemed as if someone were reaching up in the dark to catch him by the legs and pull him out.
Nothing happened, however, and after a little he inched backward until he hung with his elbows hooked desperately inside the opening, his head and shoulders within and protesting with every nerve against leaving the shelter.
Buddy said afterwards that he guessed he"d have hung there until daylight, only he was afraid it was about time to change guard, and somebody might catch him. But he said he was scared to let go and drop, because it must have been pretty crowded in the cellar, and he knew the door was open, and some buck might be roosting outside handy to be stepped on. But he knew he had to do something, because if he ever went to sleep up in that place he"d snore, maybe; and anyway, he said, he"d rather run himself to death than starve to death. So he dropped.
It was two days after that when Buddy shuffled into a mining camp on the ridge just north of Douglas Pa.s.s. He was still on his feet, but they dragged like an old man"s. He had walked twenty-five miles in two nights, going carefully, in fear of Indians. The first five miles he had waded along the sh.o.r.e of the creek, he said, in case they might pick up his tracks at the dugout and try to follow him. He had hidden himself like a rabbit in the brush through the day, and he had not dared shoot any meat, wherefore he had not eaten anything.
"I ain"t as hungry as I was at first," He grinned tremulously. "But I guess I better--eat. I don" want--to lose the--habit--" Then he went slack and a man swearing to hide his pity picked him up in his arms and carried him into the tent.
CHAPTER SIX: THE YOUNG EAGLE MUST FLY
"You"re of age," said Bob Birnie, sucking hard at his pipe. "You"ve had your schooling as your mother wished that you should have it. You"ve got the music in your head and your fingers and your toes, and that"s as your mother wished that you should have.
"Your mother would have you be all for music, and make tunes out of your own head. She tells me that you have made tunes and written them down on paper, and that there are those who would buy them and print copies to sell, with your name at the top of the page. I"ll not say what I think of that--your mother is an angel among women, and she has taught you the things she loves herself.
"But my business is with the cattle, and I"ve had you out with me since you could climb on the back of a horse. I"ve watched you, with the rope and the irons and in the saddle and all. You"ve been in tight places that would try the mettle of a man grown--I mind the time ye escaped Colorou"s band, and we thought ye dead "til ye came to us in Laramie.
You"ve showed that you"re able to hold your own on the range, lad. Your mother"s all for the music--but I leave it to you.
"Ten thousand dollars I"ll give ye, if that"s your wish, and you can go to Europe as she wishes and study and make tunes for others to play. Or if ye prefer it, I"ll brand you a herd of she stock and let ye go your ways. No son of mine can take orders from his father after he"s a man grown, and I"m not to the age where I can sit with the pipe from morning to night and let another run my outfit. I"ve talked it over with your mother, and she"ll bide by your decision, as I shall do.
"So I put it in a nutsh.e.l.l, Robert. You"re twenty-one to-day; a man grown, and husky as they"re made. "Tis time you faced the world and lived your life. You"ve been a good lad--as lads go." He stopped there to rub his jaw thoughtfully, perhaps remembering certain incidents in Buddy"s full-flavored past. Buddy--grown to plain Bud among his fellows--turned red without losing the line of hardness that had come to his lips.
"You"re of legal age to be called a man, and the future"s before ye.
I"ll give ye five hundred cows with their calves beside them--you can choose them yourself, for you"ve a sharp eye for stock--and you can go where ye will. Or I"ll give ye ten thousand dollars and ye can go to Europe and make tunes if you"re a mind to. And whatever ye choose it"ll be make or break with ye. Ye can sleep on the decision, for I"ve no wish that ye should choose hastily and be sorry after."
Buddy--grown to Bud--lifted a booted foot and laid it across his other knee and with his forefinger absently whirled the long-pointed rower on his spur. The hardness at his lips somehow spread to his eyes, that were bent on the whirring rower. It was the look that had come into the face of the baby down on the Staked Plains when Ezra called and called after he had been answered twice; the look that had held firm the lips of the boy who had lain very flat on his stomach in the roof of the dugout and had watched the Utes burning the cabin.
"There"s no need to sleep on it," he said after a minute. "You"ve raised me, and spent some money on me--but I"ve saved you a man"s wages ever since I was ten. If you think I"ve evened things up, all right. If you don"t, make out your bill and I"ll pay it when I can. There"s no reason why you should give me anything I haven"t earned, just because you"re my father. You earned all you"ve got, and I guess I can do the same. As you say, I"m a man. I"ll go at the future man fashion. And," he added with a slight flare of the nostrils, "I"ll start in the morning."
"And is it to make tunes for other folks to play?" Bob Birnie asked after a silence, covertly eyeing him.
"No, sir. There"s more money in cattle. I"ll make my stake in the cow-country, same as you"ve done." He looked up and grinned a little.
"To the devil with your money and your she-stock! I"ll get out all right--but I"ll make my own way."
"You"re a stubborn fool, Robert. The Scotch now and then shows itself like that in a man. I got my start from my father and I"m not ashamed of it. A thousand pounds--and I brought it to America and to Texas, and got cattle."
Bud laughed and got up, hiding how the talk had struck deep into the soul of him. "Then I"ll go you one better, dad. I"ll get my own start."
"You"ll be back home in six months, lad, saying you"ve changed your mind," Bob Birnie predicted sharply, stung by the tone of young Bud.
"That," he added grimly, "or for a full belly and a clean bed to crawl into."
Bud stood licking the cigarette he had rolled to hide an unaccountable trembling of his fingers. "When I come back I"ll be in a position to buy you out! I"ll borrow Skate and Maverick, if you don"t mind, till I get located somewhere." He paused while he lighted the cigarette. "It"s the custom," He reminded his father unnecessarily, "to furnish a man a horse to ride and one to pack his bed, when he"s fired."
"Ye"ve horses of yer own," Bob Birnie retorted, "and you"ve no need to borrow."
Bud stood looking down at his father, plainly undecided. "I don"t know whether they"re mine or not," he said after a minute. "I don"t know what it cost you to raise me. Figure it up, if you haven"t already, and count the time I"ve worked for you. Since you"ve put me on a business basis, like raising a calf to shipping age, let"s be businesslike about it. You are good at figuring your profits--I"ll leave it to you. And if you find I"ve anything coming to me besides my riding outfit and the clothes I"ve got, all right; I"ll take horses for the balance."
He walked off with the swing to his shoulders that had always betrayed him when he was angry, and Bob Birnie gathered his beard into a handful and held it while he stared after him. It had been no part of his plan to set his son adrift on the range without a dollar, but since Bud"s temper was up, it might be a good thing to let him go.
So Bob Birnie went away to confer with his wife, and Bud was left alone to nurse his hurt while he packed his few belongings. It did hurt him to be told in that calm, cold-blooded manner that, now he was of legal age, he would not be expected to stay on at the Tomahawk. Until his father had spoken to him about it, Bud had not thought much about what he would do when his school days were over. He had taken life as it was presented to him week by week, month by month. He had fulfilled his mother"s hopes and had learned to make music. He had lived up to his father"s unspoken standards of a cowman. He had made a "Hand" ever since his legs were long enough to reach the stirrups of a saddle. There was not a better rider, not a better roper on the range than Bud Birnie. Morally he was cleaner than most young fellows of his age. He hated trickery, he reverenced all good women; the bad ones he pitied because he believed that they sorrowed secretly because they were not good, because they had missed somehow their real purpose in life, which was to be wife and mother. He had, in fact grown up clean and true to type. He was Buddy, grown to be Bud.
And Buddy, now that he was a man, had been told that he was not expected to stay at home and help his father, and be a comfort to his mother. He was like a young eagle which, having grown wing-feathers that will bear the strain of high air currents, has been pecked out of the nest. No doubt the young eagle resents his unexpected banishment, although in time he would have felt within himself the urge to go. Leave Bud alone, and soon or late he would have gone--perhaps with compunctions against leaving home, and the feeling that he was somehow a disappointment to his parents. He would have explained to his father, apologized to his mother. As it was, he resented the alacrity with which his father was pushing him out.
So he packed his clothes that night, and pushed his guitar into its case and buckled the strap with a vicious yank, and went off to the bunkhouse to eat supper with the boys instead of sitting down to the table where his mother had placed certain dishes which Buddy loved best--wanting to show in true woman fashion her love and sympathy for him.