"That in my own house I persecuted a defenceless girl and "insulted her with my infamous proposals"--is that it? (I am antic.i.p.ating you.) But you"ve only to a.s.sume that I, too, am a man _et nihil humanum_... in a word, that I am capable of being attracted and falling in love (which does not depend on our will), then everything can be explained in the most natural manner. The question is, am I a monster, or am I myself a victim? And what if I am a victim? In proposing to the object of my pa.s.sion to elope with me to America or Switzerland, I may have cherished the deepest respect for her and may have thought that I was promoting our mutual happiness! Reason is the slave of pa.s.sion, you know; why, probably, I was doing more harm to myself than anyone!"
"But that"s not the point," Raskolnikov interrupted with disgust. "It"s simply that whether you are right or wrong, we dislike you. We don"t want to have anything to do with you. We show you the door. Go out!"
Svidrigalov broke into a sudden laugh.
"But you"re... but there"s no getting round you," he said, laughing in the frankest way. "I hoped to get round you, but you took up the right line at once!"
"But you are trying to get round me still!"
"What of it? What of it?" cried Svidrigalov, laughing openly. "But this is what the French call _bonne guerre_, and the most innocent form of deception!... But still you have interrupted me; one way or another, I repeat again: there would never have been any unpleasantness except for what happened in the garden. Marfa Petrovna..."
"You have got rid of Marfa Petrovna, too, so they say?" Raskolnikov interrupted rudely.
"Oh, you"ve heard that, too, then? You"d be sure to, though.... But as for your question, I really don"t know what to say, though my own conscience is quite at rest on that score. Don"t suppose that I am in any apprehension about it. All was regular and in order; the medical inquiry diagnosed apoplexy due to bathing immediately after a heavy dinner and a bottle of wine, and indeed it could have proved nothing else. But I"ll tell you what I have been thinking to myself of late, on my way here in the train, especially: didn"t I contribute to all that...
calamity, morally, in a way, by irritation or something of the sort. But I came to the conclusion that that, too, was quite out of the question."
Raskolnikov laughed.
"I wonder you trouble yourself about it!"
"But what are you laughing at? Only consider, I struck her just twice with a switch--there were no marks even... don"t regard me as a cynic, please; I am perfectly aware how atrocious it was of me and all that; but I know for certain, too, that Marfa Petrovna was very likely pleased at my, so to say, warmth. The story of your sister had been wrung out to the last drop; for the last three days Marfa Petrovna had been forced to sit at home; she had nothing to show herself with in the town. Besides, she had bored them so with that letter (you heard about her reading the letter). And all of a sudden those two switches fell from heaven! Her first act was to order the carriage to be got out.... Not to speak of the fact that there are cases when women are very, very glad to be insulted in spite of all their show of indignation. There are instances of it with everyone; human beings in general, indeed, greatly love to be insulted, have you noticed that? But it"s particularly so with women.
One might even say it"s their only amus.e.m.e.nt."
At one time Raskolnikov thought of getting up and walking out and so finishing the interview. But some curiosity and even a sort of prudence made him linger for a moment.
"You are fond of fighting?" he asked carelessly.
"No, not very," Svidrigalov answered, calmly. "And Marfa Petrovna and I scarcely ever fought. We lived very harmoniously, and she was always pleased with me. I only used the whip twice in all our seven years (not counting a third occasion of a very ambiguous character). The first time, two months after our marriage, immediately after we arrived in the country, and the last time was that of which we are speaking. Did you suppose I was such a monster, such a reactionary, such a slave driver?
Ha, ha! By the way, do you remember, Rodion Romanovitch, how a few years ago, in those days of beneficent publicity, a n.o.bleman, I"ve forgotten his name, was put to shame everywhere, in all the papers, for having thrashed a German woman in the railway train. You remember? It was in those days, that very year I believe, the "disgraceful action of the _Age_" took place (you know, "The Egyptian Nights," that public reading, you remember? The dark eyes, you know! Ah, the golden days of our youth, where are they?). Well, as for the gentleman who thrashed the German, I feel no sympathy with him, because after all what need is there for sympathy? But I must say that there are sometimes such provoking "Germans" that I don"t believe there is a progressive who could quite answer for himself. No one looked at the subject from that point of view then, but that"s the truly humane point of view, I a.s.sure you."
After saying this, Svidrigalov broke into a sudden laugh again.
Raskolnikov saw clearly that this was a man with a firm purpose in his mind and able to keep it to himself.
"I expect you"ve not talked to anyone for some days?" he asked.
"Scarcely anyone. I suppose you are wondering at my being such an adaptable man?"
"No, I am only wondering at your being too adaptable a man."
"Because I am not offended at the rudeness of your questions? Is that it? But why take offence? As you asked, so I answered," he replied, with a surprising expression of simplicity. "You know, there"s hardly anything I take interest in," he went on, as it were dreamily, "especially now, I"ve nothing to do.... You are quite at liberty to imagine though that I am making up to you with a motive, particularly as I told you I want to see your sister about something. But I"ll confess frankly, I am very much bored. The last three days especially, so I am delighted to see you.... Don"t be angry, Rodion Romanovitch, but you seem to be somehow awfully strange yourself. Say what you like, there"s something wrong with you, and now, too... not this very minute, I mean, but now, generally.... Well, well, I won"t, I won"t, don"t scowl! I am not such a bear, you know, as you think."
Raskolnikov looked gloomily at him.
"You are not a bear, perhaps, at all," he said. "I fancy indeed that you are a man of very good breeding, or at least know how on occasion to behave like one."
"I am not particularly interested in anyone"s opinion," Svidrigalov answered, dryly and even with a shade of haughtiness, "and therefore why not be vulgar at times when vulgarity is such a convenient cloak for our climate... and especially if one has a natural propensity that way," he added, laughing again.
"But I"ve heard you have many friends here. You are, as they say, "not without connections." What can you want with me, then, unless you"ve some special object?"
"That"s true that I have friends here," Svidrigalov admitted, not replying to the chief point. "I"ve met some already. I"ve been lounging about for the last three days, and I"ve seen them, or they"ve seen me.
That"s a matter of course. I am well dressed and reckoned not a poor man; the emanc.i.p.ation of the serfs hasn"t affected me; my property consists chiefly of forests and water meadows. The revenue has not fallen off; but... I am not going to see them, I was sick of them long ago. I"ve been here three days and have called on no one.... What a town it is! How has it come into existence among us, tell me that? A town of officials and students of all sorts. Yes, there"s a great deal I didn"t notice when I was here eight years ago, kicking up my heels.... My only hope now is in anatomy, by Jove, it is!"
"Anatomy?"
"But as for these clubs, Dussauts, parades, or progress, indeed, maybe--well, all that can go on without me," he went on, again without noticing the question. "Besides, who wants to be a card-sharper?"
"Why, have you been a card-sharper then?"
"How could I help being? There was a regular set of us, men of the best society, eight years ago; we had a fine time. And all men of breeding, you know, poets, men of property. And indeed as a rule in our Russian society the best manners are found among those who"ve been thrashed, have you noticed that? I"ve deteriorated in the country. But I did get into prison for debt, through a low Greek who came from Nezhin. Then Marfa Petrovna turned up; she bargained with him and bought me off for thirty thousand silver pieces (I owed seventy thousand). We were united in lawful wedlock and she bore me off into the country like a treasure.
You know she was five years older than I. She was very fond of me. For seven years I never left the country. And, take note, that all my life she held a doc.u.ment over me, the IOU for thirty thousand roubles, so if I were to elect to be restive about anything I should be trapped at once! And she would have done it! Women find nothing incompatible in that."
"If it hadn"t been for that, would you have given her the slip?"
"I don"t know what to say. It was scarcely the doc.u.ment restrained me. I didn"t want to go anywhere else. Marfa Petrovna herself invited me to go abroad, seeing I was bored, but I"ve been abroad before, and always felt sick there. For no reason, but the sunrise, the bay of Naples, the sea--you look at them and it makes you sad. What"s most revolting is that one is really sad! No, it"s better at home. Here at least one blames others for everything and excuses oneself. I should have gone perhaps on an expedition to the North Pole, because _j"ai le vin mauvais_ and hate drinking, and there"s nothing left but wine. I have tried it. But, I say, I"ve been told Berg is going up in a great balloon next Sunday from the Yusupov Garden and will take up pa.s.sengers at a fee. Is it true?"
"Why, would you go up?"
"I... No, oh, no," muttered Svidrigalov really seeming to be deep in thought.
"What does he mean? Is he in earnest?" Raskolnikov wondered.
"No, the doc.u.ment didn"t restrain me," Svidrigalov went on, meditatively. "It was my own doing, not leaving the country, and nearly a year ago Marfa Petrovna gave me back the doc.u.ment on my name-day and made me a present of a considerable sum of money, too. She had a fortune, you know. "You see how I trust you, Arkady Ivanovitch"--that was actually her expression. You don"t believe she used it? But do you know I managed the estate quite decently, they know me in the neighbourhood. I ordered books, too. Marfa Petrovna at first approved, but afterwards she was afraid of my over-studying."
"You seem to be missing Marfa Petrovna very much?"
"Missing her? Perhaps. Really, perhaps I am. And, by the way, do you believe in ghosts?"
"What ghosts?"
"Why, ordinary ghosts."
"Do you believe in them?"
"Perhaps not, _pour vous plaire_.... I wouldn"t say no exactly."
"Do you see them, then?"
Svidrigalov looked at him rather oddly.
"Marfa Petrovna is pleased to visit me," he said, twisting his mouth into a strange smile.
"How do you mean "she is pleased to visit you"?"
"She has been three times. I saw her first on the very day of the funeral, an hour after she was buried. It was the day before I left to come here. The second time was the day before yesterday, at daybreak, on the journey at the station of Malaya Vishera, and the third time was two hours ago in the room where I am staying. I was alone."
"Were you awake?"
"Quite awake. I was wide awake every time. She comes, speaks to me for a minute and goes out at the door--always at the door. I can almost hear her."