"We"d better rebuild your old shelter up by the loom," he told Adica that night, when they were in bed. She listened silently. She seemed so intent these past days, like an arrow already in flight.
"I didn"t like it up there," she said at last." I was in exile, a stranger to my own people."
"But now I"m with you. You"ll be safer there. We"ll ask the centaurs to bed down up on the ramparts as well, since their hearing is so keen. The old shelter is still there, most of it. It hasn"t fallen in so badly that I can"t fix if. We"ll bring our furs. Maybe the ground will seem a little hard at first- "Hush." She sighed sharply, then kissed him until he had no choice but to be silent as she worked on him the magic he most desired.
But she made no objection when he took Kel and Tosti up to rebuild her shelter. She even let him carry her holy regalia and her chest of belongings there, together with the furs and bedding, although he left her herbs and various small magical items in her house so she could fetch them during the day as she went about her duties.
She seemed to care little where she slept, as long as he lay beside her. Yet only at night did her warmth get turned on him like fire. In the day, even sometimes at night when they lay together, she grew more distracted, more distant, with each pa.s.sing day, as though the arrow receded farther and farther away, leaving him and all of them behind.
The moon waned. Frost laid a coat of ice on the ground. The stars pulsed in the clear sky. For days there had been no clouds at all, although occasionally he heard thunder rumbling in the distance. At the new moon Adica woke before dawn and with only the adult women made the ceremony for the new month, hidden to men"s eyes. Anxiety gnawed at Alain. Envy ate at him. He hated every moment she spent away from him, although he could not have said why. Had happiness made him jealous? Yet what had he to be jealous of, who had her all to himself in the nighttime? Urtan had released him from the duty of nighttime watch, and not one adult sent up to do extra duty in Alain"s place complained. Strange, too, how after so many months of easiness, all the villagers and especially their White Deer cousins had stopped looking at Adica. He recalled now how nervous they had seemed around her when he"d first come to Queens" Grave, but their uneasiness had waned and he"d forgotten about it as the months had pa.s.sed and they"d made a place for themselves in the village. Now they feared her again, unspoken, apologetic as they talked to her less and ignored her more but continued to ask for her help when a fungus got into their stores of emmer or a sore afflicted their baby. Even Weiwara turned her children"s faces away when Adica walked by.
"She"s gathering power for the great working," she said, looking shamefaced, when Alain confronted her one day." It"s dangerous for any of us to look upon a Hallowed One in the fullness of her power."
"What about me? I don"t fear her. I"ve taken no ill effects." "Oh." Her smile was taut, not really a smile." You"re her mate.
You"re different, Alain. You have the spirit guides to guard you against evil."
"It"s true that the Hallowed One"s power can bring evil spirits into the village," Urtan said, when Alain asked him. But he fidgeted, clearly uncomfortable." She doesn"t mean to. She"d do nothing to harm us. Not she, who is giving everything-but that"s her duty, isn"t it?"
"I can"t talk about it," said Kel, flushing bright red." I"m not married yet. I have to go help my uncle split logs."
Alain went to Beor finally, hoping the man who had once been his enemy might prove more frank. But Beor only said, "She"s a brave woman," and would not meet his gaze.
So it went, until the day came that she walked to each house in the village and made a complicated blessing over it, to insure good health and fortune over the coming winter. As if she wouldn"t be there to watch over them. He followed along with her with Rage and Sorrow at his side, staying out of her way. It took half the day, but he finally understood the depth of her fears. He understood the solemn feast laid out that night: haunches of pork basted in fat and served with a sauce of cream and crushed juniper berries, roast goose garnished with watercress, fish soup, hazelnut porridge, a stew of morels, and mead flavored with cranberries and bog myrtle.
He was woozy with mead by the time they walked the path up into the ramparts and ducked into their shelter. The cold night air stung. They snuggled into their furs, kissing and cuddling. Adica was silent and even more than usually pa.s.sionate.
"Is the great weaving tomorrow evening?" he asked softly.
per "Yes." Even holding her so close, he could barely hear her whis-r.
"You"ll be free after the weaving? No more demands made on you, beloved? You"ll be free to live your life in the village?" He heard his own voice rise, insistent, angry at the way Shu-Sha and the others had used her. She was so young, younger even than he was, and he thought by now he"d probably pa.s.sed his twentieth year. It wasn"t right the other Hallowed Ones had made her duty such a burden.
A few tears trickled from her eyes to wet his cheeks." Yes, beloved. Then I will be free." She drew in a shuddering breath, traced the line of his beard, touched the hollow of his throat, drew a line with her finger down to his navel and across the taut muscles of his belly." I don"t regret the price I must pay, I only regret leaving you. I"ve been so happy. So happy." She kissed him, hard, and rolled on top of him. She was as sweet as the meadow flowers and twice as beautiful.
"I don"t want to sleep," she whispered afterward." I don"t want ever to leave you."
The notion dawned hazily in his mead-fuddled mind." You"re afraid of the weaving."
"Yes." She broke off, then continued haltingly." I fear it."
"You"re afraid you"re going to die. I don"t like the sound of that."
"Every person fears death. You"re the only one I know who isn"t afraid of dying."
"I"ll come with you tomorrow." Obviously he should have thought of this before. The Cursed Ones might still attack. She and the other Hallowed Ones had to thread a weaving through the stones, a great working of magic. That much everyone knew, but the workings of sorcerers of course remained hidden from all but the Hallowed Ones themselves, just as only clerics could read the secret names of G.o.d. Knowledge was dangerous, and magic more dangerous still. But he would risk anything for her." I"ll stand beside you at the. working. You know I"ll never let any harm come to you. I swore it. I swear it."
"As long as we both live, I know you will never let any harm J come to me."
"I"ll never let you leave me." After a long while, after he made plain to her the depth of his feeling, she slept.
But he could not sleep. He dared not move for fear of waking her, who was so tired. He dared not move, but as he lay there his heart traveled to troubled lands. He kept seeing over and over again the dying child held in the arms of its starving mother, to whom he"d given his cloak that day he"d ridden out hunting with Lavastine. He kept seeing the coa.r.s.e old wh.o.r.e who had taken in Hathumod on the march east, to whom he"d given a kind word. He kept seeing the hungry and the miserable, the ones crippled by disease and the ones crippled by anger or despair. He kept seeing Lackling, the way he threw back his crooked head and honked out a laugh. He kept seeing the guivre, maggots crawling out of its ruined eye.
So much suffering.
Why did G.o.d let the Enemy sow affliction and grief throughout the world? Ai, G.o.d, didn"t the natural world bring trouble enough in its wake, floods and droughts, windstorms and lightning? Why must humankind stir the pot to roil the waters further?
Could magic ease war and bring peace? He had to hope so. He had to believe that Adica and the other Hallowed Ones knew a way to coax peace out of conflict and hostility. That was the purpose of the great weaving, wasn"t it? To end the war between the Cursed Ones and humankind?
In the morning, Adica carried her cedar chest out of the shelter, threw Alain"s few belongings out over the threshold and, before he realized what she was about, set the shelter on fire.
"Adica!" He grabbed her, pulling her back as flames leaped to catch in the crude thatched roof She was shaking, but her voice was steady, almost flat." It must be cleansed."
Sorrow and Rage whined, keeping their distance from the blaze. Up here on the highest point of the hill, with the stone circle a spear"s throw away, they stood alone as the flames licked up to catch in bundled reeds. The refugees from the other villages had built their shelters down among the ramparts, well away from the tumulus" height and the power of the stones. A few children scouted out the billow of rising smoke, but older children s.n.a.t.c.hed them away and vanished down the slope of the hill. No one dis turbed them. The shelter burned fiercely. A huge owl glided through the smoke, but when he blinked, it vanished.
Rage raised her head and loped away toward the lower ramparts. Many folk were climbing onto the walkway set inside the palisade, squinting toward the village below, pointing and murmuring.
Smoke rose from the village like an echo of the smoke beside them. It took him a moment to identify the house in the village that had caught on fire.
"That"s our house!" He tugged her forward to see.
She said nothing. She did not seem surprised.
"The only time people burn houses is when-" The knowledge caught as tinder did, burning as hot as the fire." You do think you"re going to die!"
"Nay, I don"t think it, love. I know it." She didn"t weep as she held his hands. She had gone long beyond weeping. She held his gaze, willing him not to speak." I could not bear to tell you before, my love. That I have been happy is only because of you. Everything that is good you"ve brought to me. I would never have it otherwise. But my duty was laid out long before. I will not survive the great weaving."
Panic and disbelief flooded him. Heat from the flames beat his face. It could not be true. He would not let it be true.
"I"ll never leave you, beloved." His voice broke over the familiar words, spoken so often. Had they been meaningless all along? He hated the fixed, almost remote expression that now molded her features into the mask of a queen far removed from her subjects." I"ll walk with you into death if I have to. I won"t let it happen. I won"t. I won"t lose you!"
"Hush," she said, comforting him, embracing him." No need to talk about what is already ordained."
But he would not give it up. He had stood by while Lavastine had died. He hated the grip of helplessness, a claw digging ever deeper into his throat." No," he said." No." But he remembered the words of Li"at"dano, that dawn when he had fallen, b.l.o.o.d.y, dying, and lost, at the foot of the cauldron. That morning when the shaman had healed his injuries and given him a new life in a place he did not know. He remembered what Adica had said, the first words he ever heard her speak.
"Will he stay with me until my death, Holy One?" Li"at"dano had answered: "Yes, Mica, he will stay with you until your death."
"Hush," she whispered." I love you, Alain. How could I wish for anything more than the time we were given together?" "I won"t let it happen!" he cried, anger bursting like a storm. Was that thunder in the distance, rolling and booming? There wasn"t a cloud in the sky. The shelter roared as flames ate it away. Smoke from the village, from their house, billowed up into the clear sky. The shrill cry of a horn cut the phantom calm lying over the scene. The adults stationed up on the palisade walkway, along the rampart, all began crying out, pointing and hollering. Rage, down at the cleft, began barking, and first Sorrow and then all the other dogs joined in until cacophony reigned.
"The Cursed Ones!" cried the people, clamoring and frightened." They have come to kill our Hallowed One!"
Alain ran down through the upper ramparts and clambered up onto the walkway to see for himself. The Cursed Ones had come on horseback, more than he could count. He recognized their feather headdresses, short cloaks, and beaded arm and shinguards flashing where the sun"s rays glinted off them. Many wore hammered bronze breastplates. Each warrior wore a war mask, so that animal faces hid their true features. He saw only lizards and guiv-res, snarling panthers and proud hawks. With shouts and signals, they spread out to make a loose ring first around the village and also around the tumulus; he quickly lost sight of two dozen outriders who swung around to the east. The largest group, perhaps ten score, formed up on the stretch of land lying between the village and the hill. The sun"s light crept down the western slope of the tumulus as the sun rose over the stones.
Adica, puffing slightly, clambered up beside him. Her expression had altered completely from only a few moments before. She no longer had any comfort left to give him. She no longer had any thought except for the task she had to complete when evening came." They"ll have to attack. Their only hope is to stop me from weaving my part of the working. They"ll be trying to strike at all seven of us, each in our own place." She glanced up at the sky." With the G.o.ds" blessing you and the others released the Holy One from the Cursed Ones" bondage so she could work her weather magic. The skies are clear. We have only to survive the day, and then we will be free of their curse forever."
He stared, trying to measure the force gathering in the village, where Beor, Urtan, Kel, and the others sheltered. Here, along the ramparts, even children armed themselves with clubs and staves. Hooves sounded below him as Sos"ka and her companions came up underneath the walkway. They had no way to get up the ladder to see over the palisade.
"What is the Hallowed One"s wish?" Sos"ka cried." We are here to protect her."
They had prepared for many things, but not for an army of hundreds. He faltered. How easy it was to be reckless with other people"s lives! But centaurs and human fighters watched him intently. They would not falter, no matter the cost. They had walked a harder road than he had, and for many more years. Determination would carry them forward.
Yet he had seen the Cursed Ones close up as well, and surely the Cursed Ones held determination close to their hearts, too. No wonder war was a curse.
One of the Cursed Ones rode within a bow"s shot of the village and loosed a burning arrow. It sailed over the palisade to land, sputtering, in the dirt. Another arrow flew, and a third and a fourth, then a shower. Children ran toward the safety of the houses, only to be driven back when the thatched roof of the men"s house caught and began to burn, twin to the fire that consumed Adica"s house, another funeral pyre.
Sorrow and Rage panted below, gazing loyally up at him. It was easy to think now that his heart had died of sorrow yet again. It was easy to act because he knew he, too, would die. It was simply not possible to go on living without her.
"Advca, you must go up to the stone loom. Their arrows can"t reach you there. I want ten adults to attend her. Make sure she"s covered and safe. You"ll have to lie low all day, beloved. Can you do that?" She nodded.
"What shall we do?" asked the woman called Ulfrega, war leader of the Four Houses warriors.
"We"ll need fighters all along the palisade. That"s our weakness."
o "Not the cleft and the ditch?"
"The planks are pulled back, so the Cursed Ones can"t charge through. Set a force with spears there, behind shields, and the best archers up along the palisade. That"s the first place they"ll try to break through. If somehow riders break through, you must brace the hafts of your spears in the dirt and hold them steady. Then they"ll drive their horses into the points."
She nodded. An arrow sailed lazily overhead and skittered along the opposite embankment, rolling downslope to end up at one of the centaur"s hooves." What of the villagers?" she asked.
"Beor can lead them well enough. He"ll let their archers use up their arrows as long as he can. It will help us that the Cursed Ones are caught between two pincers. They have to protect themselves from both sides. And we have a few tricks planned, things they can"t expect. Just pa.s.s the word along the palisade that none of you are to shoot arrows unless you come under direct attack. Have children pick up any arrow that falls in to us. We can shoot it back at them."
In the village, a third house had caught on fire.
"Sos"ka, you and your comrades must keep a perimeter watch all around the hill. If any place on the embankment is weakened, send one to alert me, and we"ll send reinforcements. If they break in behind us, we are lost. Ulfrega, you must remain here to command if I"m called away. Adica!"
She still watched the movements of the Cursed Ones and, farther, the smoke pouring up from the burning houses. A fourth house in the village caught fire, but people hurried to soak the thatch of the adjoining council house roof with water.
A line of Cursed Ones rode closer to examine the tumulus. One rash soldier with a fox mask rode in and, whooping, twirled a sling around his head. Stones peppered the palisade. A dozen archers rode close enough to shoot.
Alain took hold of her arm roughly and tugged her down, while folk around them gasped to see him handle her so." You must get back to safety."
"Where will you be?" A single tear snaked down her cheek.
"I will always be with you. I"ll follow when I can."
She climbed down the ladder. A dozen adults formed around her and hurried away up through the higher embankments, toward the stone circle.
"Shall we shoot at them?" cried one of the archers near Alain.
"Nay, they"re no threat to us yet. Let them waste their arrows."
Beor"s archers had begun to return arrow fire, and the archers of the Cursed Ones retreated to their main force, content evidently with the mischief their arrows caused in the village: five houses burned merrily now. Smoke boiled up into the sky, and ash fell everywhere. Yet the Cursed Ones waited as an unseen drum counted the pa.s.sing with a steady rhythm that seemed to reverberate up from the earth. Leaning against the palisade logs, Alain felt that throbbing rhythm, oddly soothing, drawing his mind away, causing memories to flower as his attention drifted, Up among the ruins near Lavas Holding, he sees the shadows of what had been, not the shadows of the ruins lying there now. The lantern"s pale light and the gleam of stone illuminate the shadows of the buildings as if they stand whole and unfallen. This filigree of arches and columns and proud walls stretching out as impossible shadows along the ground is the shade of the old fort, come alive as memories twist forward...
Liath stands in front of a heap of wood. Everything is damp. Even the air sweats moisture; in a moment it will start to rain. All at once, fire shoots up out of branches, licking and crackling. Falling to one knee, Liath stares at the fire as a gout of flame boils up toward the sky. Are those shadows dancing within the flame? She stares, intent, as distant then as Adica has become now, and draws from her tunic a brilliant gold feather.
Ai, G.o.d! He knows that feather, or knew one like it: a phoenix feather like the one he plucked from the cavern floor. In her hands, it glints fire. The veil concealing the shadows in the fire draws aside, burned away by its pure light, and he can see: An old man, tvisting flax into rope against his thigh.
Why does he look so familiar?
Rage barked, startling him. He rubbed his eyes as the folk around him murmured uneasily. Below, gra.s.s and stubbled fields bled a gauzy mist into the air. The enemy faded beneath the sun as if they had only been illusion all along, first darkening to shadow and then lost in a shrouding fog that seemed to drift up out of the earth itself. Mist boiled forward over the ground, spreading out in a broad front that would engulf both village and tumulus. Not a single rider could be seen beneath that veil of fog. The Cursed Ones had hidden themselves with magic.
The wind shifted sharply, blowing in from the east, and as it gained strength, the magical shroud shuddered and gave ground, catching out a handful of riders, the vanguard, who scrambled to return to the cover of the fog. A thud rang out from the village.
"The catapult!" cried Alain A large pot came sailing over the wall and vanished into the mist. Beor had unleashed the first surprise. Shrieks and panicked whinnying floated out of the drowning fog as bees, now free and agitated, took their vengeance upon the Cursed Ones. The mist rolled back to unveil one force advanced almost to the village gate and the other closing in on the tumulus. The enemy soldiers, their magic exposed and disrupted by the bees, fell back to regroup as the White Deer people showered the foremost riders with arrows. A third force of Cursed Ones could be seen circling around toward the east side of the crown.
"Sos"ka!" he called. She had sent eight of her comrades away along the tumulus already." Follow that group to see where they"re going!" She cantered away.
The vanguard nearest him, retreating, reversed itself suddenly and charged for the ramparts. Arrows rained down and, after them, a hail of stones from slings. Children screamed. The man standing next to Alain jerked backward, spun, and fell to hit the ground below with a smack. Blood pooled under his body. The Cursed Ones leaped off their horses and hit the embankment running, scrambling up toward the parapet.
"Don"t waste your spears!" Alain cried, but even so some threw away their spears by trying to strike at the enemy below them, in vain.
Yet what point did it serve the Cursed Ones to come up against the palisade, which they could not climb without ladders? The soldiers held their shields high, protecting one among their number, a woman dressed more lightly than the others, as she raced forward to throw herself against the wood. Where she touched the posts, wood flowered to life as fire.
"Water! Water!" The cry came down the line. Buckets of water were handed up to those on the walkway, who spilled them over even as the Cursed Ones continued to shoot arrows at the defend- ers. The villagers dropped rocks on top of the shields, battering them down, and a ragged cheer rose out of the ranks when the sorcerer was struck directly on the head with a big rock and went tumbling back down the slope.
"They"re bringing ladders and planks!" Ulfrega"s powerful voice rang out from the cleft, where she had taken charge of the defense." Spears, stand your ground. Archers, hold until they"re closer!"
The sorcerous mist rose as a cloud near the village. A second thump sounded; the second pot of bees arched up from the catapult and fell precipitously, but this time the Cursed Ones were ready for them as they charged out of the mist to escape the bees behind them. Fire bloomed in two more of the village houses. Cries and shouting and screams echoed everywhere. Tendrils of smoke obscured the fields. Thunder cracked, and clouds pushed in from the west, ominously dark.
"Alain!"
Sos"ka galloped up, sweat running all along her flanks, her expression grim." There was another force waiting in ambush apart from the one you saw. They"ve almost broken through on the eastern slope, by the sacred threshold to the queens" grave. Come quickly!"
He scrambled down the ladder, leaping off the fourth rung to the ground, almost landing on the corpse. He grabbed a pair of girls, not much younger than Adica, who were cowering under the walkway." You! Go to Ulfrega. Tell her she must hold the entrance now. You! Run up to the Hallowed One. She must find a way to counter their magic, if she can."
He jumped-up, got his belly over Sos"ka"s flank, and swung a leg over.
"Stay down," said the centaur.
He clutched her mane, head ducked low as she trotted along at a jarring rate, negotiating barrels of water and cider, stores of grain, shelters, and four wounded men who had crawled away from the palisade. At last she broke free of chaos and opened up to a gallop. The sounds of battle roared around them, shouts echoing behind and before. She knew her way well through the maze of the ramparts, blind alleys, and earthen mounds that made up the hill"s defenses. Fighters manned the palisade walkway, thrusting with spears or heaving rocks over the side. Now and again they pa.s.sed a zone of unexpected calm, where nervous guards waited, craning their necks to get a look down the palisade to knots of fighting.
He had heard these sounds before. Memory dizzied him.
The Lions hold the hill as Bayan "s army retreats across the river. The first cohort stands the rear guard, and Alain keeps step with his comrades as they retreat up the hill with their fellows. The ramparts lie in a maze around them, ancient embankments curling around the hill"s slopes.
He remembered these embankments, but when he had seen them last they had been so old that they had fallen in ruin and were half washed away under the brunt of time and wind and rain. He had fought in this place before. Yet the earthworks around him now were newly raised; any fool could see that.
He had fought here before in the time yet to come. This is where the Lady of Battles had killed him.
The curve of the ramparts brought them into sight of a ferocious fight. Cursed Ones had gotten over the palisade, and now Sos"ka"s centaurs and a score of White Deer warriors grappled hand to hand, pounding with clubs, thrusting with knives. A roan centaur parried a spear thrust with her staff, flipped her opponent to the ground, and stove in his head with a well placed kick. Fire licked up the palisade. A shout rose from the enemy, unseen on the other side as they pushed forward.
A woman with her animal mask torn free slid over the posts, dropping to the walkway. She braced herself, met the charge of a man with the cut of her bronze sword, then dropped to one knee as she lifted her other arm high and spun a sling briskly around her head. Let fly.
"Down!" cried Sos"ka.
He ducked. A kiss of air brushed an ear as the stone shot past his hair. The second bounced off his skrolin armband with a snap. But the third slammed into his temple without warning.
Pain stabbed through his head as he tumbled off Sos"ka"s back. The ground hit harder even than the stone.