That sounds well, doesn"t it, Daddy? But I don"t wish to mislead you.
The feeling often comes over me that I am not at all remarkable; it is fun to plan a career, but in all probability I shan"t turn out a bit different from any other ordinary person. I may end by marrying an undertaker and being an inspiration to him in his work.
Yours ever, Judy
19th August
Dear Daddy-Long-Legs,
My window looks out on the loveliest landscape--ocean-scape, rather--nothing but water and rocks.
The summer goes. I spend the morning with Latin and English and algebra and my two stupid girls. I don"t know how Marion is ever going to get into college, or stay in after she gets there. And as for Florence, she is hopeless--but oh! such a little beauty. I don"t suppose it matters in the least whether they are stupid or not so long as they are pretty? One can"t help thinking, though, how their conversation will bore their husbands, unless they are fortunate enough to obtain stupid husbands. I suppose that"s quite possible; the world seems to be filled with stupid men; I"ve met a number this summer.
In the afternoon we take a walk on the cliffs, or swim, if the tide is right. I can swim in salt water with the utmost ease you see my education is already being put to use!
A letter comes from Mr. Jervis Pendleton in Paris, rather a short concise letter; I"m not quite forgiven yet for refusing to follow his advice. However, if he gets back in time, he will see me for a few days at Lock Willow before college opens, and if I am very nice and sweet and docile, I shall (I am led to infer) be received into favour again.
Also a letter from Sallie. She wants me to come to their camp for two weeks in September. Must I ask your permission, or haven"t I yet arrived at the place where I can do as I please? Yes, I am sure I have--I"m a Senior, you know. Having worked all summer, I feel like taking a little healthful recreation; I want to see the Adirondacks; I want to see Sallie; I want to see Sallie"s brother--he"s going to teach me to canoe--and (we come to my chief motive, which is mean) I want Master Jervie to arrive at Lock Willow and find me not there.
I MUST show him that he can"t dictate to me. No one can dictate to me but you, Daddy--and you can"t always! I"m off for the woods.
Judy
CAMP MCBRIDE, 6th September
Dear Daddy,
Your letter didn"t come in time (I am pleased to say). If you wish your instructions to be obeyed, you must have your secretary transmit them in less than two weeks. As you observe, I am here, and have been for five days.
The woods are fine, and so is the camp, and so is the weather, and so are the McBrides, and so is the whole world. I"m very happy!
There"s Jimmie calling for me to come canoeing. Goodbye--sorry to have disobeyed, but why are you so persistent about not wanting me to play a little? When I"ve worked all the summer I deserve two weeks. You are awfully dog-in-the-mangerish.
However--I love you still, Daddy, in spite of all your faults.
Judy
3rd October Dear Daddy-Long-Legs,
Back at college and a Senior--also editor of the Monthly. It doesn"t seem possible, does it, that so sophisticated a person, just four years ago, was an inmate of the John Grier Home? We do arrive fast in America!
What do you think of this? A note from Master Jervie directed to Lock Willow and forwarded here. He"s sorry, but he finds that he can"t get up there this autumn; he has accepted an invitation to go yachting with some friends. Hopes I"ve had a nice summer and am enjoying the country.
And he knew all the time that I was with the McBrides, for Julia told him so! You men ought to leave intrigue to women; you haven"t a light enough touch.
Julia has a trunkful of the most ravishing new clothes--an evening gown of rainbow Liberty crepe that would be fitting raiment for the angels in Paradise. And I thought that my own clothes this year were unprecedentedly (is there such a word?) beautiful. I copied Mrs.
Paterson"s wardrobe with the aid of a cheap dressmaker, and though the gowns didn"t turn out quite twins of the originals, I was entirely happy until Julia unpacked. But now--I live to see Paris!
Dear Daddy, aren"t you glad you"re not a girl? I suppose you think that the fuss we make over clothes is too absolutely silly? It is. No doubt about it. But it"s entirely your fault.
Did you ever hear about the learned Herr Professor who regarded unnecessary adornment with contempt and favoured sensible, utilitarian clothes for women? His wife, who was an obliging creature, adopted "dress reform." And what do you think he did? He eloped with a chorus girl.
Yours ever, Judy
PS. The chamber-maid in our corridor wears blue checked gingham ap.r.o.ns. I am going to get her some brown ones instead, and sink the blue ones in the bottom of the lake. I have a reminiscent chill every time I look at them.
17th November
Dear Daddy-Long-Legs,
Such a blight has fallen over my literary career. I don"t know whether to tell you or not, but I would like some sympathy--silent sympathy, please; don"t re-open the wound by referring to it in your next letter.
I"ve been writing a book, all last winter in the evenings, and all the summer when I wasn"t teaching Latin to my two stupid children. I just finished it before college opened and sent it to a publisher. He kept it two months, and I was certain he was going to take it; but yesterday morning an express parcel came (thirty cents due) and there it was back again with a letter from the publisher, a very nice, fatherly letter--but frank! He said he saw from the address that I was still at college, and if I would accept some advice, he would suggest that I put all of my energy into my lessons and wait until I graduated before beginning to write. He enclosed his reader"s opinion. Here it is:
"Plot highly improbable. Characterization exaggerated. Conversation unnatural. A good deal of humour but not always in the best of taste.
Tell her to keep on trying, and in time she may produce a real book."
Not on the whole flattering, is it, Daddy? And I thought I was making a notable addition to American literature. I did truly. I was planning to surprise you by writing a great novel before I graduated.
I collected the material for it while I was at Julia"s last Christmas.
But I dare say the editor is right. Probably two weeks was not enough in which to observe the manners and customs of a great city.
I took it walking with me yesterday afternoon, and when I came to the gas house, I went in and asked the engineer if I might borrow his furnace. He politely opened the door, and with my own hands I chucked it in. I felt as though I had cremated my only child!
I went to bed last night utterly dejected; I thought I was never going to amount to anything, and that you had thrown away your money for nothing. But what do you think? I woke up this morning with a beautiful new plot in my head, and I"ve been going about all day planning my characters, just as happy as I could be. No one can ever accuse me of being a pessimist! If I had a husband and twelve children swallowed by an earthquake one day, I"d bob up smilingly the next morning and commence to look for another set.
Affectionately, Judy
14th December
Dear Daddy-Long-Legs,
I dreamed the funniest dream last night. I thought I went into a book store and the clerk brought me a new book named The Life and Letters of Judy Abbott. I could see it perfectly plainly--red cloth binding with a picture of the John Grier Home on the cover, and my portrait for a frontispiece with, "Very truly yours, Judy Abbott," written below. But just as I was turning to the end to read the inscription on my tombstone, I woke up. It was very annoying! I almost found out whom I"m going to marry and when I"m going to die.