He waved his gla.s.s casually at Noolan, who smiled and waved back as he went to join a small group standing by the bar. "Yes," he said, returning his attention to Marcus. "Yes. You were here all that night, weren"t you?" "I don"t recall," said Marcus, definitely a little ill at ease now. "Oh, you were. We checked. All night. Except for the two hours when you went out and drove round to Boundary Drive." Marcus went white. He pushed the beer away from him with his rather small girlish hand. "Don"t be stupid," he said. "I never went anywhere near Boundary Drive."
Dalziel laughed in a friendly fashion.
"Come off it, Marcus," he said. "Your car was seen. What"s the matter? It"s no crime, is it? That"s what they usually say to me." "I never went near Boundary Drive," repeated Marcus, a little recovered now. "You must be mistaken. It can"t have been my car." "No? Well, there"s a simple way to settle this, seeing as you"re so worried."
"What"s that?"
Dalziel leaned across the table, pushing Marcus"s gla.s.s back at him.
"Tell us where you really were, then."
"Why the h.e.l.l should I?" Oh dear, thought Dalziel resignedly. He"s going to start shouting. Time for us to go. "Listen, Marcus, my lad," he whispered confidentially. "There"s obviously some kind of misunderstanding here. We can"t discuss it properly here in the Club. Why don"t we take a drive down to the station to talk things out? Less embarra.s.sing than shouting at each other in front of all these people." He waved his hand airily around, realizing as he did so that all these people now included Connon. Connon didn"t acknowledge the greeting but just continued to stare at them. "Coming?" said Dalziel, smiling still for the benefit of the onlookers, but infusing a new grimness into his voice. "For G.o.d"s sake, Superintendent, sit down. Look, if it means that much to you where I was . . ."
"Oh, it does, it does," said Dalziel.
Marcus stared into his beer broodingly for a long minute. What"s he hatching? wondered Dalziel. Have I hit the jackpot? Jesus, that"d be a laugh, Connon"s best mate bashing his wife"s head in. But there was still a large doubt sitting hugely at the back of his mind. What possible motive could this round, friendly, most amiable of men have for murder? It was no use going by appearances, but a man who reminded him so strongly of Winnie the Pooh . . .
Marcus seemed to have made up his mind.
"Come on," said Dalziel. "It"s either the truth or a very complicated lie." "It"s the truth," said Marcus. "But first, I must have your a.s.surance that this is in the most absolute confidence."
"As long as it has no bearing on the case."
"It hasn"t."
Then you have my word."
The fingers he was scratching under his arm with were crossed. Dalziel preserved many of his old childhood superst.i.tions. "Well, look." He was almost whispering and Dalziel had to lean even further forward to catch the words.
"h.e.l.lo, Marcus, boy!"
Evans"s heavy hand smacked down on the small man"s shoulder. Marcus went white and jerked round sharply to look at the figure behind him. Even Dalziel, who was facing him, had not noticed his arrival, so intent had he been on catching Marcus"s words. "Give you a fright, did I? What"re you two hatching anyway? You"ve got to be careful who you drink with these days, Marcus. Might lose your good name." "Evening, Arthur," said Dalziel as unwelcoming as he could be in the limits of politeness. "Gwen not with you?" That should get rid of him, he thought with malice. He won"t fancy a needling match on these terms. But Evans merely grinned and helped himself to a stool from under a neighbouring table. "She"s in the loo making herself lovely for you, Bruiser. Marcus, boy, it"s you I wanted to see. Listen, I"m having a h.e.l.l of a job holding this team together. You know how important it is, a club"s known by the quality of its fourth side. Now you drop out, one of the regulars. It"s a big hole to fill. You should have seen us last Sat.u.r.day. Walking b.l.o.o.d.y wounded! Couldn"t you hang on till the end of the season?" He"s not listening to you, Arthur, thought Dalziel. He was going to tell me something, now he"s having another little think. He"s very worried. That"s how I like them, worried. You"ll have to go, Arthur. If you won"t take a hint, I"ll put it to you in terms even a thick-skinned Welshman can understand. But before Dalziel could begin his dismissal operation, Marcus forestalled him. "My round, I think," he said. "Arthur, will you have one? A pint? Right." He swept Dalziel"s gla.s.s from under his nose and set off to the bar at the quick march. Dalziel watched him go in amused exasperation. But it was merely a postponement. "Here, Arthur," he said. "When Marcus comes back, p.i.s.s off for a bit, will you? We"re having a bit of a serious talk." "Are you now? It can"t be more serious than the Fourths, can it? After all, this is a rugby club." Oh, they"re all getting in on the act, are they? thought Dalziel. All dropping their little words in the direction of my bosses. But yours don"t come from very on high, Arthur. "In any case," said Evans, "what makes you think he"s coming back? He seems to have b.l.o.o.d.y well disappeared altogether. And his round too!" Dalziel looked sharply round at the bar. Noolan and his group were still there. Connon was standing a little apart from them, still looking across at the superintendent"s table.
But of Marcus Felstead there was no sign.
Pascoe had pulled into the Club car park close behind the Evanses" car. He had not got out immediately, but sat and watched the broad Welshman and his wife pick their way carefully over the already frosted surface towards the clubhouse. They looked just like any other couple, he reflected. Comfortable. Affectionate. Evans had taken Gwen"s arm to help her circ.u.mnavigate a frozen puddle. She said something to him and he seemed to laugh. Then they disappeared through the door. Perhaps it was all a mistake, thought Pascoe. Perhaps it was just in Evans"s mind, this other man. It would be impossible to live with a woman like Gwen and not know that other men envied you, would like to fish in your pond. And a temperament a lot less volatile than Arthur"s could easily come to believe this was exactly what was happening. What would it prove anyway if it turned out that there was a man and that man was Connon? A motive, he had said earlier to Dalziel. It would prove a motive. Or rather it would give a possible base for the possible erection of two or three possible motives. Lots of possibles. No probables. Probables versus possibles. And a young man, certain of his own strength and skill, running with balanced ease round all opposition as he made for the line. I"m beginning to think in their imagery, he admonished himself, and lit a cigarette, somehow reluctant to leave his car and go in search of Dalziel. Or perhaps it was because Sheila Lennox might be there. He had had to stand her up on their second date. Nothing dramatically urgent to season an apology with; no startling new development, breathtaking chase, or a second murder. Just pressure of paper and organizational routine.
Her voice on the phone had been cold. His suggestion of another meeting ignored. Perhaps it was for the best. She was only a child. Nearly nineteen. That meant eighteen. And he was nearly twenty-nine. That meant thirty. But they grew up early these days. Or at least they seemed to. She had promised a wealth of experience on their exploratory first date. But it had been mostly verbal. What lay behind it he would probably never know. He opened the car door and dropped his cigarette end on to the concreted surface where it glowed with vulgar ruddiness on the silver sharpness of the frost till he ground it under his foot as he stepped out. Then, half in, half out of the car, he suddenly became very still. The club-house door had opened and a man came carefully out. He was unrecognizable at this distance, but the woman who followed him a moment later only had to take a couple of steps for Pascoe to know that this was Gwen Evans again. She had taken her coat off. He could see her bare arms gleam whitely for a moment as she too disappeared into the shadow down the side of the building. Pascoe watched them out of sight. Then he slipped his hand into the glove compartment of his car till his finger rested on the heavy rubber casing of a torch. With this in hand and keeping low, he now stepped out of his car and closed the door quietly behind him, certain he was un.o.bserved. He had long ago severed the connection between the door and the interior courtesy light. Three hours" extremely cold and tedious observation had been ruined by the sudden flash of this light several years earlier. Pascoe was a man who learned from his mistakes. Silently he moved across to the club-house and made his way along the side wall. At first in the shadow of the wall it seemed pitch black, but his eyes rapidly adjusted to the light, or lack of it.
There was no one there.
He moved swiftly down the line of the wall, slowing as he neared its end. It was lighter here. A faint glow came through an opaque window which must belong to one of the cloakrooms. He stopped beneath it. From round the corner came voices.
First Gwen"s. Anxious. Tense. An edge of panic.
"Darling, darling. What"re we to do? What"s going to happen?" Then a man"s. Rea.s.suring, but also anxious beneath. And familiar. "It"ll be all right, Gwen. I"ll have to tell him. He"ll want to talk to you. But we can still keep it quiet." "Quiet!" Almost a sob now. "Quiet! I"m tired of it all. I"m tired of being quiet. I can"t see where it"s leading. I can"t, I can"t!" The voices lowered to an indistinguishable mixture of near-sobbing and rea.s.suring murmurs.
Pascoe took another step forward.
And trod on something. A plastic coated cardboard cup, his trained ear told him. Or an empty ice-cream carton.
It cracked like a beechwood fire.
The talking stopped.
Oh dear, thought Pascoe. Well, here we go.
He switched on his torch and stepped round the corner. They were close in each other"s arms and the beam of the torch was enough to catch them both, "Good evening, Mrs Evans," he said apologetically trying to keep the note of astonishment out of his voice. "And good evening to you too, Mr Felstead. You"ll catch your deaths out here if you"re not careful." "I thought he"d made a bolt for it," said Dalziel. "He looked b.l.o.o.d.y scared." "I daresay he was," grinned Pascoe. "I mean, imagine you are about to confess you"re knocking off Arthur Evans"s wife and suddenly his great hand comes down on your shoulder. Anyone"d be scared. On the other hand he carried it off well. When he came back in, I mean. Did Evans notice anything?"
Dalziel nodded his great bull"s head.
"Oh yes. He noticed something. I mean, I moved quite quickly when I saw Felstead had gone. But Connon stopped me, said Marcus had asked him to order while he went to the bog, and thrust a pint into my hand. You can"t give pursuit under those conditions. Anyway, by the time he came back, Arthur was getting too impatient for his wife to put in an appearance to pay much attention to anyone else." "I told her to go into the other room and say she thought he was going to be in there. Not that I needed to coach her, she must have had plenty of practice. But what a turn up, eh?" "You"ve never said a truer word, Sergeant. She confirmed everything?" "Oh yes. They were at it in the house, then in Felstead"s car on the way to the Club, all the time he was away from the bar. The way they were hanging on to each other when I caught them, it"s very easy to believe." Easy to believe? Dalziel asked himself, thinking of Marcus Felstead and trying to revise his mental picture of him. The physical reality couldn"t be changed! Five feet four or five at the most, looking almost as round as he was high, with a balding pate that rose like a monk"s tonsure through an unruly and still retreating fringe. Then he thought of Gwen Evans. He had always felt he was a bit of an expert on Gwen Evans. He had spent many beery hours just a.s.sessing the value of all visible a.s.sets, and visualizing the invisible. That she should spare a first glance, let alone a second, on this man was almost incredible. But it all fitted. It had been Marcus who turned up at the Evans house on Sat.u.r.day afternoon when Pascoe was there. He"d played it very cool, they both had. He could imagine the facial contortions, the mouthed warnings, at the front door. It had also been Marcus who had phoned Connon with the news of Arthur"s visit to the police station. And he, of course, had had it direct from Gwen the minute Arthur left the house. "We were both very worried," Marcus had said. "We"ve got a very great respect for Arthur." Dalziel had laughed inwardly when he heard that. Tell that to him when the Celtic red mist"s before his eyes and he"s kicking your head in in a jealous rage, he thought.
But he hadn"t spoken, just gone on listening.
Marcus told everything, reluctantly at first, but more freely after a few minutes. Then when Evans went in to a selection committee meeting, the reason for Connon"s presence that night, Dalziel had had a long talk with Gwen. They were obviously telling the truth about themselves. Too many details fitted. The affair had been going on for nearly two years. "I bet he"s been dying for an audience," Dalziel said to Pascoe. "It must be h.e.l.l having a woman like Gwen and not to be able to strut around in public possession. Mark you, it might have worked both ways. Perhaps it was the secrecy that made Marcus acceptable to Gwen, eh? Christ, Arthur was no oil-painting, but he was like the Winged Victory compared with himV And where does that place you in the beauty stakes? thought Pascoe. But what"s it matter? h.e.l.l, in one day I"ve been jealous of a sour-faced moron like Dave Fernie and of a little tub of lard like Marcus Felstead! Dalziel shook his head finally in dismissive amazement at the inscrutability of woman. "It can"t be true," he said. "It"s a b.l.o.o.d.y lie all of it. Only, Marcus wouldn"t dare to tell a lie like that unless it was true."
"Irish," said Pascoe.
"You know what I mean," said Dalziel. "More important," said Pascoe, "is, where does it leave us? Does it put us any further forward?" "It teaches us humility," said Dalziel pompously. "No other revelation in this case can possibly surprise us after this." "Not even if it turns out to be an intruder?" asked Pascoe. "Not even if your intruder turns out to be Jack the Ripper. I"m off to my bed now. I might even go to church in the morning. Good night." He lumbered away shaking his head. Pascoe watched him go with a feeling he was disgusted to find almost resembled affection. But as he climbed into his own bed in his little tworoomed flat half a mile from the police station his mind was occupied still with the case. He wished he had one of those "feelings" which Dalziel had so efficiently mocked. But he hadn"t. All he had was the certainty that whatever steps had been taken that day had led them in one direction only.
Backwards.
He switched off the light and fell into an uneasy sleep troubled by dreams in which Gwen Evans, Sheila Lennox and Jenny Connon blended and merged into one.
Chapter 7.
There were three days left till Christmas. The weather was dark, misty. The sky was low and constantly shifting as different layers of grey and black cloud were dragged around by gusty winds. Guiding stars were rarely seen. In any case, no one had much time to look. The greatest money-spending compet.i.tion on earth was coming to its climax. The streets were thronged all day with compulsive shoppers, intermittently spattered with hard-driven rain and tinted by the glow of festive lighting. And a constant background to everything was the music: carols, pop, sentimental, cla.s.sical; now near, now far; on tape, on record, and occasionally even issuing from a real, live, human throat. It was a strange unsettling atmosphere. No one could remain unaffected by it.
Some were hardened by it.
"I haven"t given or received a Christmas present for more than a dozen years," said Dalziel. "b.l.o.o.d.y idiots."
Some were softened.
Should I have tried to go home this year? wondered Pascoe guiltily. Home meant a suburban semi, two hundred miles away, grossly overcrowded for the holiday by his grandmother, his two elder sisters, their unsympathetic husbands and their four even more unsympathetic children, in addition to the normal complement of his parents. He hadn"t spent a Christmas there for three years. It was nearly time to try it again.
But not this year.
Some were worried by it. "He"s looking worse than he did when it all happened/ said Jenny. "Perhaps it"s Christmas. I think they always made a special effort at Christmas. For my sake as well, I suppose. He looks awful."
"Is he seeing the doctor?" asked Antony.
"No. But I"m going to send for him. He had that knock on his head, I don"t think he"s recovered from that yet." "No," said Antony staring out of the window into the front garden.
Some were made hopeful by it.
"Look, girl," said Arthur Evans. "I know we"ve had some bad times recently and a lot of it"s been my fault. But let"s make an effort, shan we? It"s Christmas, eh? Let"s see what we can make of ourselves, eh?" "Yes," said Gwen. But her eyes did not shift from the book she was looking at. And the atmosphere of hectic unreality made some resolute. Marcus Felstead whistled a Christmas medley to himself as he carefully packed his suitcase. But in a house in the heart of the Wood field Estate there was no whistling as a man searched the streets for the fourth time for his child, then finally, belatedly, picked up a telephone and rang the police.
"It"s happened," said Dalziel.
"What?" said Pascoe, standing at the threshold of the room. "Mickey Annan. Aged eight. One hundred and three, Scaur Terrace, Wood field. Didn"t get home from school last night. They broke up yesterday, had a bit of a party. It"s the usual story. His parents thought he"d gone to a friend"s house in the next street. He usually does on that night. But this time it was different, they were all going off for Christmas as soon as their kid arrived. So Mickey wasn"t asked. So he wasn"t missed till nearly ten."
Pascoe raised his eyebrows. "That"s late."
They breed "em hard in Wood field. Anyway, they always kid themselves. Never admit that anything can be wrong until they"ve got to."
"What"s happening now?"
The usual. One of his mates thinks he said he might go up to the Common. Someone had told him there might be some snow there. He was mad keen on snow."
"Oh, Christ."
The Common was the local term used to describe an area of several acres on the western boundary of the Wood field Estate. It was unfit even for grazing purposes and its main function in human terms was that its near edges provided a useful if unofficial dumping ground for anything and everything. The Common contained a disused quarry, two ponds and a steep-sided stream, all of which had been fenced off after years of complaint. But not even a full-time repair unit could keep up with the constant breaching of the fencing. "We"ve got a full-scale search going on now. County are standing by with frogmen."
"House-to-house?"
"No point yet. We"re stretched as it is talking to every kid in the school now that they"re on holiday." "He might have just taken a walk and got lost," said Pascoe without conviction. "Fell asleep behind a wall or in a shed."
"He should have woken up by now."
"What would you like me to do?" "Look after the walking boys. It"ll take them all morning to cover the kids from the school. By then if nothing"s come out of the search, it"ll be time to start asking everyone questions."
"Anyone in particular? Streets, I mean?"
Dalziel looked surprised. "Why, you"ll start by asking everyone on the Wood field Estate, and if we still haven"t found him, we"ll work our way through the rest of town. There"s only eighty-five thousand of them."
"Thanks," said Pascoe.
Think yourself lucky," replied Dalziel, shaking a newspaper on his desk. "At least they had the plane crash in North Africa this year." Funny man, thought Pascoe as he went swiftly and efficiently to work. Is it just a cover like we all put up? Or does he really not feel these things? What a man to spend Christmas with! I"d be better off at home with all those kids! By midday the Common had been turned over with meticulous care, the pools dragged and the frogmen sent down. As far as Mickey Annan was concerned, the result was absolutely negative. But lots of other things were brought up. A list was always made on these occasions and Pascoe glanced quickly down it. A small part of his mind was still on the unidentified weapon in the Connon case. But there was nothing here which rang a bell. The usual household expendables, a suitcase containing some fairly valuable pieces of pewter (dumped by mistake? or stolen and dumped in fear?) and, an item which made Pascoe whistle slightly, two guns. But he had no time for idle speculation. A large-scale map of the Wood field Estate lay before him. He still had to complete his detectives" schedules. It was one-thirty before he had any lunch. He ate it alone in the police canteen. Mickey Annan now went to the back of his mind. He had taken part in the search that morning for a while, talked to some of the children from the school, as well as helping to organize the house-to-house. But he knew it was a routine, automatic business, none the less essential for all that, and nine times out of ten effective. Mickey Annan would probably be found very soon. It was after the finding that the real work began, and Pascoe was not a man given to antic.i.p.ating events. Except in the line of business. His thoughts drifted back to the Connons. The missing boy wasn"t really interfering with the progress of the Connon case, because the progress only existed in theory. Investigations were still proceeding, but unless Dalziel had some private little line well hidden from everyone else, the phrase was as empty as it sounded. The only thing that was any clearer to him now than it had been when he started was his picture of the murdered woman. It wasn"t a very complete one. She seemed to have been a reasonable kind of mother to Jenny; at least she hadn"t stimulated any of the strong resentments which seemed to lie uneasily dormant in most daughters, especially those very fond of their fathers. And she seemed to have made Connon a bearable kind of wife. But she had told him his daughter had been fathered by another man and she had tried to separate him from his main interest in life, the Club. Add to this that she was a vain woman with a streak of sn.o.bbery, but one who had made a friend of Alice Fernie (who herself was unlikely to pick her friends haphazardly); that she was a manhunting, high-life-loving girl who had shown no desire to keep up her connection with her old stamping-grounds; and finally, that she apparently received obscene letters with equanimity, merely folding them up and putting them away like love-letters sentimentally preserved; add all these things together and you had a woman who was as incomprehensible as women traditionally are. Over his coffee, Pascoe toyed with permutations of possibilities in which Felstead or Evans had written the letter (all the letters?), in which Mary Connon had a lover (someone at the Club? Noolan? Jesus! Or what about Bruiser Dalziel? Joke); in which Connon swung a metal bar held like a spear into his wife"s forehead (jealous rage? didn"t fit. Careful plan? but was he so cold-blooded a man as that"?). He"d been along all these paths before. They led nowhere yet, except to fantasy in which Gwen Evans held a crow-bar to Mary"s head and Alice Fernie struck it home with a sledge-hammer while Mary, unheeding, watched the television. He sighed and returned mentally to the canteen. There was other work to be done. Connon would have to wait. Mary was dead. There was still the faintest of chances that Mickey Annan might still be among the living. Connon was angry when the doctor arrived, but even in anger he didn"t lose the moderation of speech or manner which Antony now recognized as his main characteristic.
"I didn"t send for you, Doctor," he said.
"Just a checking-up call," replied McMa.n.u.s cheerily. "Just because you don"t send for me doesn"t mean you don"t need me any more."
"I"m fine," said Connon. "You"ve had a wasted journey."
"It"s a good way to waste it, then. But I"ll be the judge of how fine you are. You don"t look so hot to me." Connon did not look well. He seemed to be visibly losing weight. His cheek-bones were prominent and the paleness of the skin stretched over them was accentuated by the darkness which ran like a stain round his eyes. "Come along, then, and let"s take a look at you," said McMa.n.u.s. Connon had enough of himself left to give Jenny a sardonically accusing glance as he left the room with the doctor.
"He knows it was you," said Antony.
That doesn"t matter. As long as Doctor Mac can do something for him." "I"m sure he can," said Antony cheerfully. "He"ll come up with some witches" brew." But he could not feel so certain inside that Connon"s malady would respond to physical treatment.
"Do you think the police have given up?" asked Jenny.
"I don"t know. Do you want them to?" "I"m not sure. I don"t much care now whether they catch someone or not. But I"d just like everyone to know for Daddy"s sake that he had nothing to do with it. Do you think they took any notice of what you said about the telephone-box?" "They must have done. There"s a new directory there now. I had a look. But I don"t think my amorous rival Pascoe was too delighted to receive advice and a.s.sistance from me. As far as the police are concerned I suspect there"s a very thin line between public support and amateur interference." "As if you would interfere in what wasn"t your business!" said Jenny with mock indignation. "I see you"ve come to know me well," responded Antony. "Come and sit on my knee."
His hand stroked her leg as he kissed her.
I"ve been here before, thought Jenny. But she was very glad to be there again. Talking of interference," said Antony a little while later, removing his lips from the side of her neck.
"Don"t be disgusting," she said.
"I think I shan interfere once more. There"s something else which keeps on coming back to me which they might possibly be interested in."
Jenny sat upright. "What"s that, Sherlock?"
But they heard a footstep on the stairs and Jenny rose swiftly, smoothing down her dress.
The door opened and McMa.n.u.s came in.
"How is he, Doctor?" asked Jenny anxiously.
The old man carefully closed the door behind him.
"He"s just putting his shirt on. He"ll be down in a minute."
He looked enquiringly at Antony.
"It"s OK, Doctor," said Jenny. "How is he?" "Well, physically there"s nothing I can put my finger on. He complains of being listless, loss of appet.i.te, that kind of thing. But this we might expect. Also his head still pains him from time to time where he got that knock. But I think this is like his other symptoms. There"s nothing wrong. It"s purely nervous in origin." "But he seems to be getting worse, not better," protested Jenny. Antony put his arm comfortingly round her waist. "Yes. That"s true. It"s a delayed reaction, not uncommon. A kind of shock. He"s been living on his reserves of nervous energy for the past couple of weeks. It can"t go on for ever." He struggled into his overcoat which Antony brought him from the hall. "But don"t worry. I"ve been his doctor for many years, nearly all his life, I suppose. I"ve seen him like this before, before you were born, when he cracked his ankle the week before the final trial. He went as thin as a rake, and deathly pale then for a couple of weeks. You"d have thought the end had come. But it hadn"t. He got back to normal in no time. No, no, it hadn"t. It hadn"t." He shook his head and laughed softly to himself at the memory. Hadn"t it? wondered Antony. And in what way could the end come twice? "Well, I suppose you"ve told them three times as much as you"ve told me," said Connon from the door. "I long ago noted that to a doctor keeping confidences meant telling your patient nothing and his relatives everything. You should all be struck off."
McMa.n.u.s laughed as he picked up his bag.
"Goodbye, Jenny; and you, young man. I"ll call in again, Connie, if you don"t call to see me. Take your medicine now and stop worrying your friends." They watched him get into his car, then returned to the lounge. "Well," said Jenny, "time for lunch, I think. Antony, make yourself useful for once, love. You"ll find a tablecloth in the top drawer of the sideboard. Set the table, if it"s not beneath your dignity." She went out into the kitchen. Antony grinned in resignation at Connon and began searching for the tablecloth. "It"s good of you to stay on with us, Antony," said Connon. "I hope your parents are not too disappointed." "It would be foolishly modest of me to say they will not be disappointed at all," said Antony, "but they are both very understanding. I hope to introduce Jenny to them very soon, when I think they"ll be more understanding still." "Oh," said Connon. "Do I detect a note of serious intent creeping in?" Antony pulled out a table-cloth and shook it open with a fine flourish like a bull-fighter showing his cape. Something fluttered to the floor. "I think it highly probable," he said seriously, "that I shan marry Jenny eventually, with, of course, her consent and your permission." He bent down to pick up the photograph which was what had fallen. "In that case," said Connon with equal seriousness, "we must take an early opportunity of reviewing your prospects." Antony didn"t reply. He was looking closely at the picture in his hand. For one brief moment he had thought it was Jenny, absurdly garbed and with a ridiculously short haircut. Then he realized that the only thing of Jenny"s which was there was the familiar, wide, allilluminating grin on the face of the young man in muddy rugby kit who was walking alone in the picture.
Connon took the photograph from him.
"That"s the only picture of me playing rugby I ever kept," he said.
"Why this one?" asked Antony.
Connon stared down at the young man in the picture as if he was looking at a stranger and trying to a.n.a.lyse what made him seem vaguely familiar. "It was the first time I played for the County. I was nineteen. Still in the army, on a weekend pa.s.s. But nearly finished. There was a five-yard scrum. I was standing square over our own line ready for the pa.s.s back and the kick to touch. The pa.s.s came, I had plenty of time and shaped to kick to the near touch-line. Then I changed my mind. All their backs were coming up like the clappers. So I chipped it into a little s.p.a.ce over the scrum, ran round, picked it up and went up the middle of the field. I don"t recall beating the full-back. They told me after I ran through him as if he wasn"t there. All I could see was the posts and the exact spot centrally between them where I was going to touch down. Nothing else was real till I grounded the ball. Then I started walking back up the field. No one runs up and kisses you in a rugby match. In those days it was considered bad form even to slap you on the back. You just walked back to your position trying to look unconcerned and got your clap from the crowd. I could feel this smile on my face, feel it spreading out to a grin. The crowd all roared like mad. It was the biggest crowd I"d ever played in front of. I bent my head a bit, look, you can see on the picture, but I couldn"t stop grinning. It was a grin of pure happiness. It felt as if it was fixed on my face for ever. I think I believed it was." He stopped talking. Antony for once was stuck for words. He"s in the past, he thought, the poor devil"s anch.o.r.ed there beyond hope of release. What a state to get into. A wave of sympathy swept over him, some of which must have shown on his face, for Connon now smiled at him ironically. "I think you may be misunderstanding me, Antony," he said. "I don"t live down memory lane. What this photograph says to me is not that happiness is gone for ever, but that it"s repeatable. I"ve often felt like this since, mostly on occasions connected with Jenny. The picture reminds me of what"s possible again, that"s all, not of what"s gone for ever." "I"m sorry," said Antony, rather shame-faced. "I didn"t mean to ... you"re very lucky. I"ll go and set the table." He left the room with the cloth cast loosely over his shoulder like the end of a toga. It suits him, thought Connon. Then he returned his attention to the photograph. Repeatable? he asked himself. I wonder. Will it ever be possible again? From the kitchen Jenny"s portable radio began to play a selection of bra.s.s-band music. This faded almost at once, but then returned louder than before as though the set had been returned. Connie listened, then a smile moved slowly across his face.
I believe she"s leaving it on for me.
It was five o"clock and dark and cold and wet. The shops were still crowded. Inside them it was bright and warm. Too warm. The crowds who had jostled close to each other all day, shoulder to ruthless shoulder, thigh to strange thigh, had left their unexpungeable smell. Sweat, scent, tobacco and damp clothing all mistily merged into an observable haze. The best shop-a.s.sistants were growing irritable, the worst had long been downright rude. But the artefacts of good cheer had not yet lost their power, the music was as merry as ever, the colours as gay, and nearly everyone was going home. The festive spirit stalked abroad, reaching out to seize backsliders.
Mickey Annan had still not been found.
And Jacko Roberts was talking on the telephone to Dalziel.
"What the h.e.l.l do you want, Jacko? I"m busy."