"You are asking a lot of me, but I suppose for you, to keep you happy, I will find a way to get along with your provoking, impossible cousin."
She turned in his arms, found his face with her fingertips, moving her hands over it to take in every detail. She touched his lips, his teeth. "I choose you, Byron. I want to spend my life with you. So let"s get to it."
He leaned into her, kissed her on her mouth. Her lips were trembling beneath his. "I want you to be certain. There is no going back. Once we do this, I cannot undo it."
"I would never say yes if I didn"t mean it."
He kissed her again with such tenderness her heart somersaulted. He held her with such care, his enormous strength leashed.
Even in the throes of wild pa.s.sion, he was careful with her. She felt his breath, the soft velvet of his lips, the gentle tug of his teeth as they sc.r.a.ped back and forth in a mesmerizing rhythm over her skin. There was white-hot pain giving way immediately to pleasure. Whips of lightning danced in her veins. Antonietta wrapped her arms around Byron"s head, her fists tangling in his hair.
She felt his tongue, heard his soft whisper, words she didn"t catch.
She felt him shift her in his arms, hold her close to his chest. She ran her hands over his body. His hand moved to the nape of her neck, pressed her mouth just above his heart. There was power and heat. Her body flooded with energy. Fire blossomed in her belly, in her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, between her legs. His body was over hers, surging into hers with the same fire and power. There was a dreamlike quality to their lovemak-ing. The taste in her mouth was hot and tangy. Salty. His hands were gentle, shaping her body, holding her close. His lovemaking was tender and gentle, completely unlike his earlier pa.s.sion, making her feel cherished and precious. With every movement of his body, she felt the tension wind tighter and tighter, felt him rising with her. Their release rocked them both, yet left her exhausted, resting against him, limp and drained but filled with a strange peace.
She snuggled against him, burrowing against his shoulder, closing her eyes. I"m so tired, Byron. I don"t think I can stay awake.
If anything momentous is happening, don"t wake me up; just let me sleep through it. She wasn"t altogether certain if she had dreamt their joining. If she really had taken his blood. Her mind felt hazy, her body so limp she couldn"t move.
"Why did you say yes to me, Antonietta?" He kissed her eyelids, the corners of her mouth. "Why would you choose something so unknown over a life you enjoy that is familiar? Your courage is terrifying."
She rubbed her face against his shoulder like a contented cat. "I think everyone wants to be loved, Byron. All of my life I dreamt of meeting a man who would really love me and want to share his life with me. I need to be loved. I look into your mind and I see that same need in you. It isn"t so courageous to grab hold of life"s opportunities when they come your way. Life is meant to be lived. I don"t want to sit on the sidelines and watch it go by. I never have. Being blind has taught me to take the opportunities I can, the moment they"re offered. With you it is easy. I see into your mind, and the way you feel about me is shattering." Her soft laughter played over his skin. "It"s unrealistic, but if you want to view me as beautiful and wonderful, that"s okay with me."
He wrapped his arms more closely around her, his touch possessive. "You already have certain abilities, and you are extraordinarily sensitive. It will be interesting to see how your gifts develop over the coming years."
"But we will live at the palazzo," she reiterated, wanting rea.s.surance. "Nonno would not want me to leave. And no one understands Tasha."
"She never says what she means. Most of the time I would scan her mind and read her intentions, not paying any attention to her words, but your family and even some of your servants have those strange barriers."
"Will I be able to do that, too?"
"Yes. But in the case of your family, they would realize what was happening, and you would have to remove the memory.
You learn, over time, it is better, if possible, to allow people the privacy of their own thoughts."
"I found it intrusive and a bit frightening when I realized you could read my mind. Thoughts come and go randomly at times. I wasn"t sure I wanted you to see what I was really like."
He laughed softly, feathered little kisses into her hair. "I find it better to scan Josef at all times, and you might want to remember to do the same. He looks innocent enough, and sounds it, but in truth he is a holy terror."
"Do you think I"ll really be able to see?" She drew up her knees. There was a strange burning in her stomach. With each pa.s.sing minute it had increased until it was painful. Moving her legs didn"t seem to help.
Byron slid his hand to her belly, fingers splayed wide to take in the expanse. His touch should have been soothing, but sharp spears of pain shot through her abdomen and down her spine.
"Byron?" Sweat broke out on her body. Cramps gripped her muscles. "What"s happening to me?"
"The conversion is taking place." He merged fully with her, tried to shield her from the pain. No matter how hard he tried to block it, the burning ripped through her body. A convulsion lifted her up and slammed her back into the mattress, in spite of his restraining arms.
She felt something alive racing beneath her skin, itching horribly, trying to force its way out of her pores. She thought she screamed, but no sound emerged. A noise boomed in the room, annoying, hurting her ears. She couldn"t seem to adjust the volume.
Jacques. Jacques, what should I do? Byron reached for the one man who he knew had been through such an event. The one man who might aid him in helping to shield Antonietta from the worst of the pain. It was easy enough to allow Jacques to share knowledge of what was happening to Antonietta.
There is little you can do until her body is rid of all the toxins. Then you must send her to sleep and give her body time to heal in the earth. It is a difficult time, Byron. If you should need aid in any form, I am here.
Antonietta gasped as another wave of fire burned through her body, burst over her heart and lungs and gripped every muscle in her body. She forced air through her lungs, realized Byron was breathing for both of them. She reached out blindly for his hand.
Byron tightened his grip on her, wanting to hold her to him.
A thousand needles stabbed her eyes; fire burned her eye sockets. The ends of her fingers went numb, then burst, hooked claws emerging, then receding. Byron was forced to let her hands go to keep from being ripped open. Her body convulsed again, arcing, stretching, contorting. She was slammed back to the mattress.
"I had no idea, Antonietta. I would never have asked you to go through this."
She rode out another wave, tried a small smile, but her face felt like it was lengthening. "Labor should be a piece of cake to Carpathian women after this." Her voice was constricted, not her own. A soft growl accompanied her words. The noise in her ears increased to a deafening roar. "I"m going to be sick. Get me into the bathroom."
Byron scooped her up, moving quickly. Tears burned in his eyes. Guilt rode him hard. "I should have known about this.
Before I asked such a thing of you, I should have known what I was getting you into. I am sorry, cara." He held her hair out of her face as she vomited repeatedly.
Byron had no idea how much time pa.s.sed. It seemed hours. Endless. He was shocked at the pain, the terrible burning, a blowtorch a.s.saulting her insides. He was grateful she couldn"t see as something raised her skin rushing through her body time and again. Several times he was forced to restrain her when she would have ripped her skin from her bones or torn her own eyes from her face. He tried everything he could think of to lessen her suffering, but all he could really do was hold her to him and watch that she didn"t harm herself. Exhaustion helped more than anything so that she rested between the waves of pain, holding his hand, keeping her mind carefully blank.
Byron was grateful the moment he sensed it was safe to send her to sleep. He issued the merciful command ruthlessly, and she succ.u.mbed without a murmur.
Byron carried Antonietta from deep within the healing soil back to the bed in the villa. He made certain there was no evidence of having spent the day in the ground as he laid her on the sheets and curled up beside her. His heart was pounding, and he actually tasted fear in his mouth. Framing her face with his hands, he kissed her mouth. "Wake for me, Antonietta. Wake and embrace your new life."
She stirred, her lush body moving beneath his, her b.r.e.a.s.t.s pushing into his chest, her hips providing a cradle for his.
Antonietta stretched leisurely and opened her eyes.
She screamed and covered her eyes. "Something"s wrong, Byron. This can"t be right. Something went wrong."
Byron tried to read her mind, but panic was uppermost. "Let me see. I do not understand what is wrong, Antonietta. You just woke up, there should not be pain. Are you in pain?"
Her stomach churned. "I came awake all at once and could hear things outside the walls of the villa. I could feel you, your skin, your body, and I immediately wanted you. I was thinking of making love, how beautiful it would be and how wonderful it is to wake up in your arms. I opened my eyes, and everything went crazy."
Byron breathed for both of them, slow and steady until her wild heart was back in rhythm, and the chaos of her mind was under control. He examined the memories in her mind. The room tilting. His face shooting at her, distorted. Blurring. Light coming in from all directions. It was a dizzying kaleidoscope of images and color. Pain shot through his head, his stomach lurched.
"Can we fix it?" Antonietta wrapped her arms around Byron"s neck and hung on, her eyes closed tightly. "That was scary."
He kissed the corner of her mouth, nibbled at her chin, his mind racing as he sought answers. "My friend Jacques has a life mate, Shea, a doctor before her conversion, now a valued healer. Let me see if I can show him what is happening. She might be able to tell us what to do."
It was his continual display of affection, the little love bites, the way his lips feathered over her skin as absorbed as he was in the problem that provided her with rea.s.surance. Antonietta relaxed completely under him, the tension draining out of her. The moment she did, she became aware of the way his body was hard and thick and ready for hers. Sliding her hands over his back, she allowed her mind to become fully engaged in the definition of his muscles. With her eyes tightly closed, shutting out the unknown, she could concentrate on what she knew best, the texture and feel of Byron"s very masculine body.
Byron reached for Jacques. I need help once again. Have you seen this before? Has Shea? Antonietta cannot open her eyes.
He shared the dizzying vision with Jacques. Her conversion was difficult, and there were obvious signs of the Jaguar"s presence.
Her entire family has strange barriers, shields preventing scans. Is it possible her genes have in some way contributed to a vision problem?
There was a short silence while Jacques obviously conferred with Shea. It is so good to know you have found your life mate, Byron. Shea"s soft voice was in his mind. She seems a remarkable woman, and we are anxious to meet her. Do you have plans of a traditional human wedding? I caught glimpses in her mind of staying with her family.
She wants a wedding, and of course, we will have one. If Jacques can make it, I would want him to stand up for me.
That goes without saying. I think the problem with her eyes is twofold. She hasn"t seen in years. The connections to the brain aren"t there and in proper working order. Time will fix that. She should try to rely on her other senses and give her eyes a break.
Short practice without moving so she doesn"t add to the chaos she experiences. The heat images are more than likely her Jaguar genetics. She is far closer to the species than we"ve ever encountered. Cats, like us, have a layer of reflecting tissue which reflects back all external light. They also have binocular vision. Without moving their heads, cats can detect motion over a visual field of two hundred and eight degrees. The things happening to her that you shared with Jacques during her conversion were not normal.
Byron"s heart jumped. You should have told me.
It was too late to stop it. In truth, we have no idea what the conversion will do. Again, a guess would be the enhancement of her natural abilities. We know she is compatible. The eye problem is a drawback, Byron, but with time and practice, she should be able to reestablish connections. This is unknown territory.
We thank you both. Byron broke the connection, leaned down to kiss Antonietta"s throat. "Your skin is amazingly soft. I love the way you feel. Did you get all that? We are breaking new territory.""I just have to keep my eyes closed?"
Byron rolled over, bringing her on top of him. "That is the idea, although she said practice. Without movement. Maybe you should sit up there, just straddle me, and look around without moving."
She laughed softly. "You always make me feel beautiful, Byron. No matter what, around you, I feel happy." His hands cupped her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, his thumbs sending a shiver of excitement down her spine.
"Make me happy and give this a try."
She found his heavy erection, took her time settling over him, gasping as he filled her, her tight muscles giving way to allow him deep inside of her. "You think I can just sit here without moving?"
He laughed, lifting his head to lap at her nipple. "Just think of the rewards." He lay back and clasped her hands tightly in his.
"Just look at the wall. It is dark in here, very little light can penetrate through the heavy curtains."
Antonietta deliberately wriggled, tightening her muscles around him, and lifted her hips to ease back over him in a slow, teasing slide. "You want me to hold still?" She lifted herself again, used her muscles to contract around him, slid back and squirmed.
"Very still."
She had the impression of white teeth bared. "Well, if you really insist." She tightened her fingers around his, trying not to be afraid. Very cautiously, she opened her eyes. The room lurched and spun. Images leapt at her from every side. She concentrated on the way Byron felt, filling her with his thickness, stretching her muscles. The heat and fiery friction that could be hers with a simple thrust of her hips. She allowed the images in her mind to wash over her and retreat. Feeling mattered. Byron mattered. His body, so masculine, so hard. His mind with such wicked, erotic ideas. Just the thought of his fantasies flooded her body with a need for instant relief. She deliberately picked one out of his head, a particularly graphic picture of her exploring his body, her mouth wrapped tightly around him.
Byron groaned aloud. "You cannot think about things like that. Concentrate on your vision."
She laughed, careful of moving. She didn"t want to blink; too many images leapt at her. "You"re the one with all those pictures in your mind. I had no idea you were so set on that. I would have been most happy to oblige. I think it would have been far more fun than staring at the wall."
"Are you able to see anything? If you do not, I swear I might explode." He had no idea it could be so erotic to lie perfectly still, connected together, surrounded by heat and fire. Her b.r.e.a.s.t.s were tempting, begging for his attention, but all he could do was lie pa.s.sively while she stared at the opposite wall.
"I can"t judge how far away it is, but I can bring the Jacuzzi into focus." There was excitement in her voice. "I am seeing it through my own eyes, aren"t I?" She shifted, a slight, languorous movement that brought beads of sweat to his brow.
"Yes," he bit out between his teeth. Fire raced through his bloodstream. She was doing something with her muscles that wasn"t fair. "You are not supposed to be moving."
Antonietta closed her eyes. "I wasn"t moving." She leaned back slightly, her hair sliding over his thighs as she began to ride him. "This is moving. There"s a big difference. And let me show you this." She sped up, hard, fast strokes designed to ma.s.sage and caress. To drive him wild.
He reached up to capture her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, watching the sultry expression cross her face. She always gave herself completely to him, every bit as pa.s.sionate or more than he. It only added to the dark intensity of his s.e.xual hunger for her. His hands slipped lower to her waist, lifting her in time to his thrusting hips. He was close, so close. He caught her hair in his hand, dragged her to him as he half sat. "Take my blood, Antonietta. I feel your hunger beating at me." The idea of it excited him so mat he swelled even more, so that he throbbed and burned.
He felt her body ripple with life at his husky plea. Her arms circled his neck. Her tongue lapped at the seam of his lips.
Touched his throat. Found the spot on his chest. White-hot pain flashed through his body, whips of lightning broke over his skin.
His hips thrust wildly, over and over, pumping into her, his body exploding with pleasure so intense it shook him, left him trembling with the force of their combined o.r.g.a.s.m. Her mouth was a brand, claiming him, locking them together. The beauty of it took his breath away.
Byron wrapped his arms around her and simply cradled her to him. When her tongue closed the tiny pinp.r.i.c.ks, he rocked her gently. "Grazie, Antonietta, for your generosity. I cannot believe you are real at times. Years ago, I was captured by a vampire and given to humans so they could torture me and lure others of my kind into a trap. I tried to get past the pain by imagining what having a life mate would be like. I did not even come close to the real woman."
She kissed him. She had no other way to answer him, to show him what he meant to her. She poured her feelings into her kiss, came up for air laughing. "I can"t possibly keep my eyes closed all the time. What are we going to do about this?
I"m kissing you, lift my head, and accidentally open my eyes. You have three heads, and one of them is whirling around on your neck. Another appears to have some sort of strange bonelike thing running through the middle of your forehead. You don"t really look like that, do you? If so, you might have warned me that handsome man in the mirror you showed me was a complete figment of your imagination."Laughing, he rolled over so she was flat on her back. "We have to have very dark gla.s.ses that do not allow you to see at all."
"In the meantime, shall I wrap my head like a mummy?"
"I doubt your family will find the humor in it. Tasha would think I had you wrapped up to ship off to Egypt. I think you better wear your own gla.s.ses until we can get others. They should help." He handed her the familiar pair.
"Grazie," she murmured and slipped them on.
He stood up. "Picture being completely clean and showered. See if you can build the image."
She stood up, stretched, her arms over her head. "I can"t wait to see poor Celt. He must have been so lonely. Can he stay with us from now on? I know he didn"t like being alone." Antonietta did her best to hold a picture of herself, fresh from the shower, uppermost in her mind. "What do you do for clothes when you shape-shift?"
"I will make certain you have clothes, cara."
"Did you touch Paul this evening? Is he going to be all right?"
"Yes, he is weak and in pain, but he will heal. Tasha and Justine spent the night with him. At the moment he is resting. We will attend him when we reach the palazzo. We should go. We must tell Don Giovanni we are to be married immediately. I think it will be better if I ask him for your hand in marriage. While I am doing that, you can tell Tasha. I am certain she is bound to throw things, and it will be better if I am not present."
"Coward." The smile faded from her face. "Before we do anything else, we have to talk to Marita. I can"t have her in the house, even if she is Franco"s wife, if she"s involved in some sort of theft ring." Antonietta shook her head, touching her dark gla.s.ses to make certain they wouldn"t come off. "If she"s involved in some way, the children and Franco are going to be devastated."
"Marita is easy enough to read, Antonietta. And it is time we push past some of these barriers to see just who has been adding poison to your meals. It has to be someone in the house. As much as I know you want the culprit to be someone other than your family, few outsiders have access to your food."
Antonietta turned away from him. She couldn"t bear to think that a member of her family would try to kill her, let alone Don Giovanni. He could be stern and even at times seemed unforgiving, but she knew he was a loving, generous man whose life revolved around his family.
"Are you ready to try shape-shifting? Something easy. A bird, something familiar to you." Byron captured her hand, wanting to take her mind off her fears and give her something to antic.i.p.ate.
"I"ve been ready since I woke up."
Byron bent his head to kiss her. "I knew you would say that."
It was all she could do not to jump up and down on the bed like an eager child. She knew exactly how Josef felt. "Tell me what to do."
He led her out to the verandah overlooking the sea, "Merge completely with me. I will hold the image of the owl in your mind.
At first you will be caught up in the beauty of flying, but you have to work at remembering to hold that image yourself. It takes years of practice to perfect it. And the actual shifting feels strange. You are submerging yourself, the essence of who you are, into another creature, another form. You have to control that form and all of its urges."
"Do the other women who have been converted have help?"
"From what I understand they do, they just accept it without question. I am not certain they even realize the image and control is being held by their life mate. We stay merged so much, can you always tell who has the first thought?"
She nodded. "Let"s do it then."