Jaxon stared at his hand, not wanting to go with him, as if somehow by staying in the main part of the house she would remain human. She felt torn, wanting to remain, yet not wanting to hurt Lucian. Very slowly, hesitantly she put her hand in his. His fingers closed around hers, warm and sure. "You will always be safe with me, Jaxon. If you believe that, you will get through this."
He tugged until she was beneath the protection of his shoulder and he could wrap his arm around her. They moved together through the house, down the wide spiral staircase, through the kitchen, and into the bas.e.m.e.nt. He felt her hesitation as they entered the narrow corridor leading down to the sleeping chamber. It was there in her mind, the thought of running back up the stairs.
Lucian merely tightened his arm, bending his head to brush the warmth of his mouth against her temple in a small gesture of encouragement.
"In all the centuries of my existence, Jaxon, I have never met a woman such as you." His admiration and love for her was in the soft purity of his voice.
Deliberately he matched his breathing to hers, his heart to hers so that he could regulate her panicked pace to a calmer one. Easily he moved in her mind, stilling the chaos, a light touch to bring a measure of tranquillity, of acceptance, easing her into the difficult transition.
Lucian was careful not to take away her free will, but he could not bear her suffering. It moved him as nothing else in his life ever had. He would have done anything for her, anything to protect her. He had the ability to erase every terrible memory from her mind, wipe out her past entirely. He had the capacity to ensure she would accept being a Carpathian, believe she had always been one, yet he knew it was wrong. Still, the idea lingered in his mind. He despised himself for allowing her to suffer, for causing the physical pain of the conversion and now her agony of attempting to accept what he had wrought.
"I would hate that. Eventually you wouldn"t be able to live with the lie, Lucian," she said quietly.
He glanced down at her, his black gaze loving. She was looking up at him with wide brown eyes, a hint of laughter in their depths. "You didn"t think I would learn to read your mind so easily, did you?" She shook her head. "No, you didn"t think I would choose to read it." She was smug about catching that bit of knowledge.
He opened the door to the chamber and stepped back to allow her to enter first. It pleased him that she had chosen to read his thoughts. It was an intimacy between lifemates, the sharing of thoughts and feelings without words. A private path for two. "You continually astonish me," he admitted. And she did. She amazed him with her ability to adapt to every new situation. Just the fact that she could smile was astounding.
Jaxon held on to the towel, looking around rather desperately for something to put on so she wouldn"t feel so vulnerable. Lucian held out an immaculate white silk shirt, and she slipped her arms in it. Her long lashes swept down, veiling her expression as he began to b.u.t.ton up the front of the shirt, his knuckles brushing against her bare skin. "What was that creature that was throwing itself against the wall? It wasn"t a vampire, was it, because it seemed incredibly stupid."
"It was a ghoul. The walking dead. Not undead, like a vampire, but a minion of the vampire. A servant. A puppet. As I told you, the vampire can use a human to do his bidding during the day while he rests. The ghoul lives only to carry out the vampire"s wishes. He is fed by the blood of the vampire and the flesh of the dead."
Jaxon gasped and covered her mouth. "I don"t know why I ask you questions. You always say something wild. And it"s not as if I don"t know you"re going to do it. I just wade right in and ask anyway." She shoved a hand through her hair, sending damp tendrils in every direction.
Lucian automatically reached out to smooth her hair back into place. "A ghoul is dangerous because it never stops until it is completely destroyed."
She nodded, turning the information over and over in her mind. "What about the wall? What kind of security system do you have in it? Did it ever occur to you a child might try to climb on that wall?"
"If a child attempted to climb the wall, absolutely nothing would happen," he answered. "The wall only reacts to evil."
She nodded again, biting down on her lower lip. "Naturally. Of course. Why would I think anything else?"
"Come to bed, angel," he invited softly.
She wasn"t looking at him, her eyes carefully studying the surrounding walls.
He had been meticulous about the construction of this room, ensuring that it appeared to be a replica of a bedroom aboveground. Lightly he touched her mind, wanting to correct whatever might be wrong. It took great effort to prevent a smile from showing on his face. Her reaction had nothing to do with the room, nothing to do with her conversion, and everything to do with his naked body and the things they had done together.
Lucian glided to the bed and covered his lower body with a sheet. "Are you going to walk around the chamber for the entire day?"
"Maybe," she answered, touching the walls, running her fingertips over them to feel the texture. "How far underground are we?"
Lucian shrugged his powerful shoulders, a casual ripple of muscles, his eyes suddenly watchful. "Do you have a problem being beneath the earth?" He was a shadow in her mind and knew she had no anxiety over being underground. She was reluctant to get into bed, afraid of sleeping, of waking, afraid of facing the truth.
She glanced at him, more comfortable now that his nakedness was covered.
Her behavior made no sense to her. Why did she want to be with Lucian so desperately? It was so unlike her. He had been honest with her from the first about who and what he was, yet she had simply gone along with everything he said, everything he did.
"You are my lifemate, Jaxon. You were born the other half of my soul. Your body and mind recognized me. Your heart and soul cried out for mine. It is the way of our people."
"I"m not Carpathian." She said it defensively, her hand going protectively to her throat. "Why would it happen?"
"It is as much a mystery to me as it is to you. All I was told was that some human women with psychic powers are truly lifemates to our males." He softened his voice deliberately, evoking a soothing, tranquil calm. "Obviously it is so." He was once more merged fully with her, slowing her heart and lungs, allowing her to find the strength to cross the floor and slide into bed beside him.
Lucian wrapped his arms securely around her, pulling her small body into the shelter of his larger frame. She relaxed into him immediately, his touch calming the rising tide of terror sweeping through her. She felt battered emotionally and physically. She had so many questions but didn"t want them answered, afraid of her own reactions to what he might tell her.
"I just want to go to sleep, Lucian," she said, her head snuggled against his shoulder. "Can we just go to sleep?"
He felt her holding her breath. She didn"t want to sleep; she wanted to run away. He brushed the top of her head with a kiss, his fingers moving tenderly in her hair. "Sleep, angel. You will be safe with me." He took control, sending her into a deep sleep immediately so that she would have no chance of fighting the command.
They would not sleep in this chamber, or this bed, this night. Her body needed rejuvenation; it needed the healing only the soil of the earth could offer a true Carpathian. Lucian had no intention of forcing her to face that particular reality of their existence. He was her lifemate; as such, he could do no other than to see to her health, to her happiness. But he wanted to spare her the details he deemed unnecessary for her to learn at such an early stage.
He lifted her slight body into his arms, then concentrated on the wall to the left of them. The wall shifted to reveal the narrow stone pa.s.sage leading deeper into the heart of the earth. He followed it downward until he came to the rich, dark soil bed he had provided within the rock. Waving a hand, he opened it.
Then he floated into the bed, cradling Jaxon"s slender body to him. Safeguards in place, the wolves roaming free, he closed all doors so that his lair was secret from any intruders. Again he placed safeguards at each door, along the pa.s.sage itself, and above them in the rock bed. Only then did he send Jaxon into the deeper sleep of his people, stopping her heart and lungs so that she lay as still as death within the earth. As he waved a hand to command the soil to pour over them, he sent his own body into Carpathian sleep. His heart stuttered for a moment, then ceased to beat. The soil continued to pour over them until it was all in place, undisturbed as if it had lain there for centuries.
Chapter Nine
The sun moved slowly across the sky. The house up on the hill remained silent, the beautiful stained-gla.s.s windows reflecting the rays of light back toward the sun. Inside it was hushed, quiet, the air itself stilled, as if the house were alive and waiting for something. As the sun began to sink, deep within the earth a single heart began to beat. Lucian scanned the area around his estate even as he opened the soil above them. All was quiet. He floated from the earth back to the comfort of his sleeping chamber. He lay Jaxon on the bed, at the same time waving a hand to light the candles. The dancing flames lent soothing shadows and scented herbs to the room.
Lucian inspected Jaxon"s body carefully to ensure that not one speck of soil remained, that she would awaken clean and refreshed. He sent himself seeking outside his body and into hers so that he could examine her internal organs and see for himself that she was completely healed. Only when he was satisfied that all was well did he release her from the sleep of Carpathians into the lighter sleep of mortals. He felt her take her first breath, heard the first beat of her heart. His hands went to her small waist beneath the thin silk of the shirt so that he could feel her soft satin skin.
He felt the instant surge of heat racing through his own body in answer, and he stretched lazily. She was with him. She would be with him at each rising. He pushed the shirt from her stomach and bent his head to taste her skin. His hands followed the sweet curve of her hips. He was becoming very familiar with her delicate bone structure, the lines of her body. Her skin was warming beneath his wandering hands and mouth. He moved lower still, wanting to taste her, wanting her to awaken to the erotic pleasure only he could provide for her.
She was hot, flowing honey, so soft he wanted to crawl inside her. He knew the moment she woke, the moment she was fully aware of him, of what he was doing, of the rising tidal wave of hunger rushing through her body like a fireball to match the molten lava racing through his. Lucian! She cried out his name in the intimate way of their species, her body hot and restless and aching with need.
Burning for him. She needed him. Needed what he was doing to her, needed the feel of him hot and hard and thick inside her, relieving the terrible building storm.
Her body rippled with life, with such pleasure that she cried out his name again, her hands clutching at his hair to try to drag him up to her.
At once he blanketed her body with his own. Her entrance was a hot, creamy invitation to him. As he pressed against her, slipped inside her tight sheath, she gasped as her body reacted again and again, spiraling outward, contracting and gripping. Then he was driving into her, hard and fast, his hips riding her into a firestorm that kept building higher and higher.
Jaxon was clutching his arms, her face against his chest. She felt the beckoning heat of his skin, heard his heart beating, the inviting rhythm of his pulse. She nuzzled his chest almost helplessly. Her mouth moved over his skin.
Her body clenched around his, making more demands. Her teeth nipped his chest right over his pulse. She felt it leap in response, felt him thicken even more within her, hard and heavy, his hips surging forward to bury himself even deeper.
Her tongue swirled over his pulse. Once. Twice.
G.o.d, angel, do it. I need you like this. His voice whispered in her mind, over her skin, s.e.xy, low, pleading with aching need.
He was wild now, savage in his intensity, his body frantic for hers. All of hers. Her tongue swirled again, and he groaned, burying himself again and again in her fiery sheath. Jaxon. Please. His hands cupped her small hips like a cradle so he could drive forward in long, hard strokes.
There was so much pleasure, Jaxon allowed it to wash over her, to consume her. His pulse was fascinating. She heard his husky cry, felt his mind merge solidly with hers, so she felt the white-hot lance of lightning whipping through him as her teeth sank deep and the essence of his power, his ancient lifeblood, flowed into her. She felt what her body was doing to his, the hot fire surrounding him, gripping him tightly. She felt the intensity of his pleasure, so deep, so real, his desire for it to last for all time.
Her tongue stroked across his chest, closing the tiny pinp.r.i.c.ks, just as the muscles in his body tensed beneath her hands and her own body was fragmenting, taking his with hers. She heard her own voice, a sound in her throat, soft and husky. She tasted him, the terrible hunger in her sated as her body throbbed and burned, exploding into the night to become part of time and s.p.a.ce.
Jaxon found herself looking up at him, her dark eyes wide with shock. She couldn"t believe the things her body was capable of. She couldn"t believe what she had just done so willingly. She wanted her body to reject the nourishment, but it savored it, the taste of him in her mouth, on her lips, like an addictive nectar. She pushed at the wall of his chest, determined to get away from him so she could think. His gaze smoldered, black velvet, dark and dangerous, moving slowly over her face. There was stark possessiveness in his eyes. Hunger. Dark desire. He bent his head to trace the soft column of her neck with his tongue. "I am not certain this rising will be long enough to sate my hunger. Again. I want you again."
"You can"t possibly!" she gasped, but he was already stroking her body, keeping her restless and aching for his.
"We are not bound by any limitations," he whispered softly, seeking the creamy hollow of her throat. "I have much to teach you."
Hours later, Jaxon settled into a chair in Lucian"s den. Her body was deliciously sore, still sensitive from his endless possession. He had been in turns gentle and tender, and wild and untamed. Always looking at her with hungry eyes. Only when he realized she was exhausted did he carry her upstairs to the shower, where he washed her with far too caressing hands. Right now she wasn"t certain she would ever be able to look at him again. Trying to be nonchalant, she shook out the newspaper and glanced rather idly at the different headlines. Her eyes widened in surprise. "Samuel Barnes died yesterday."
Lucian paused in the act of working on the computer. He had been doing his best to give her some s.p.a.ce, accurately reading her mind. His Jaxon was shy with him even after the erotic hours they had spent together. One eyebrow shot up as he looked at her over his shoulder. "The banker?" His voice was strictly neutral. "Yes, the banker, Mr. International Grab-all-the-Headlines Banker. He just died in his house. An employee found him and tried CPR but wasn"t successful.
I suspected he was a major player in the drug trafficking going on in our city, but I could never get anything solid on him."
"And he died how?"
Jaxon"s enormous eyes regarded him steadily over the top of the newspaper.
"They don"t suspect foul play. There"s no evidence of that." All at once her voice was suspicious. "You didn"t know Barnes, did you?"
"Jaxon." He said her name softly, intimately, his voice wrapping her up in satin sheets, effectively stopping her heart. "You are not accusing me of anything, are you?"
She found herself blushing for no reason at all except the way he was looking at her. Lucian was synonymous with control. He might be deadly, but he was quiet about it. He never seemed to allow anything to affect him. Until he looked at her. She could see his terrible hunger smoldering just beneath the surface every time his dark gaze rested on her. He was so s.e.xy, merely looking at him stole her breath. Right now wasn"t the time to dwell too deeply on everything that had transpired between them. She felt she was doing fairly well, holding on to her sanity by her fingertips. She was effectively putting off facing the truth about what Lucian had done with his "conversion" and what she had done since then with him. Carpathian women must be s.e.x maniacs, because the real Jaxon was definitely not. She shook her head, determined to stay on track. Would Lucian have known Barnes"s connection with her? What was she thinking, anyway?
How could Lucian possibly know about Barnes? She couldn"t accuse him of anything. "No, of course not."
She watched him turn back to the computer screen. He seemed very intrigued by his work, although she had no clue what he was doing. Once she saw that he received e-mail from Gabriel, his twin. Two of them like this in the world! That was a scary thought.
She went back to her reading. On the second page was a small article about a car going off a cliff. The occupant did not survive. She stiffened when she read the name. This was too much of a coincidence. "Lucian."
Instantly she had his full attention. She loved that about him, as if everything she said and did was of the utmost importance to him.
It is. His voice whispered intimately in her mind, a caress of sound that brushed at her insides until she had to wrap her arms protectively around her stomach, where b.u.t.terfly wings seemed to be fluttering endlessly.
Jaxon gave him her most intimidating glare. "You stay out of my head, weird one. I"m the only one who gets to read my thoughts." She frowned suddenly.
"Can all you people read each other"s thoughts?"
He shrugged, a casual rippling of his muscles that seemed to make her stomach somersault even more. "Yes and no. It isn"t quite the same as with lifemates. There is a standard path of communication for our people, and more private ones are established if blood is exchanged. I can read Gabriel"s mind and always could, but who would want to do so now? All he thinks about is Francesca. Well, Francesca and the girls. Skyler is their ward, a young teenager once badly abused. She is human, a psychic. And they have a little daughter now, not yet a year old. Gabriel guards her with good reason, but still, he has turned into a fussy old man."
Jaxon burst out laughing. "I can"t imagine anyone looking like you acting like a fussy old man."
"I do not know how Francesca puts up with him." Lucian reveled in the fact that he actually experienced affection for his twin. It was not the memory of affection or wanting to feel affection, but actual deep emotion. Jaxon had done this to him. His Jaxon. His miracle. His gaze rested on her possessively. She was fast turning his world upside down.
Everything was different. Every time he looked at her, his heart melted around the edges, and he went soft and warm inside. He could watch her for all eternity and never tire of the sight. She had a dimple that appeared unexpectedly out of nowhere, then melted into her smile. Her eyes held laughter when she teased him.
She teased him. It was a miracle that anyone would dare to do so. She thought nothing of it, giving him as bad a time as possible at every opportunity. He loved the way she moved. She was small but perfectly proportioned. She was quiet and flowing, all grace and femininity, yet she thought she projected an image of toughness. Everything about her made him smile-everything, from the top of her head to the tip of her toes. Especially her sa.s.sy little mouth. He loved her mouth. Each time he looked at her, his body made instant, urgent demands. He reveled in that, in the hot, hard hunger one glance at her could produce.
A wadded-up newspaper came flying at him, and he picked it rather absently out of the air.
"Are you listening to me? I was just thinking how great it is that you hang on my every word, and now you sit there like a lump, staring off into s.p.a.ce. Where are you?" Jaxon asked.
"You were not saying anything."
"I was, too." She was not above telling a small lie just to prove he wasn"t listening. She looked at him indignantly.
He had been some distance from her, sitting at the computer, but now he was towering over her like some avenging angel. "You did not say a single word," he reiterated. He looked amused and tolerant. He looked like a lazy jungle cat stretching. He had that look that she knew was more dangerous to her than any other. He seemed to get around her defenses so easily. He turned her insides to molten lava and sent erotic images dancing in her head.
She sank back against the cushions and waved a hand at him to ward him off. "That speed thing you do has got to go."
He arched an eyebrow at her. She wanted to touch his beautiful face with her fingertip, trace each eyebrow and the shadow along his jaw. Very carefully Jaxon put her hands under her and sat on them, her eyes completely innocent. He had better not be reading her mind at that precise moment. She glared at him just in case he was reading her mind, to show him she meant business.
"You have such a way with words, honey."
She liked to watch his eyes. They could go from ice-cold obsidian to glittering jewels in a matter of seconds. "I do, don"t I?" She looked pleased.
"I am not certain I meant it as a compliment," he pointed out with a grin. "There was an accident reported in the paper." She changed the subject with a little sigh.
"So you said."
"Another accident. A man drove his car over a cliff. The state police think he just drove straight off the road. There were no skids marks at all."
"And the significance of this is?" he prompted.
"The man worked for Barnes. It"s just too much of a coincidence that they both died so suddenly. Maybe the drug cartel was annoyed with him over something. I"ll have to do some digging around. If I could just know for sure you"d be safe from Drake while I went out to work..." She trailed off, looking up at the ceiling as if she would find her answers there.
A slow grin softened his mouth and added warmth to his eyes. "So, you are the one keeping me safe. I thank you, lifemate, that my safety is always such a top priority with you. It shows how important I am to you." He had successfully ended any chance of insubordination on her part over the issue of safety. If she worried about him now, he would simply bask in the knowledge.
"You would think that. You have a most annoying arrogance about you." She sniffed indignantly. She had to pull her hands out from under her bottom to s.n.a.t.c.h up the newspaper. "I simply don"t want the publicity of some big shot like you getting murdered on my watch. I have my reputation to think about, you know."
"Speaking of reputations, who is Don Jacobson?"
She looked shocked. "How did you know about Don?"
"You were talking to him last evening on the phone, and this rising you were thinking of him."
"There really aren"t any secrets from you, are there?" She didn"t want to think about how often she had fantasized over Lucian. How right at this very moment she was thinking thoughts that brought a hint of color to her face.
Lucian wasn"t about to be distracted. "Who is he?"
"I grew up with him in Florida. Before Drake goes on one of his killing sprees, he always returns to where it all started. It"s some kind of ritualistic thing.
He goes over the entire training course several times, camps out, almost as if he"s playing hide and seek with the new recruits. No one has ever actually spotted him, and he"s never killed anyone there, but he leaves signs to taunt them all with how superior he is."
"Florida is clear across the country."
"It doesn"t matter. He always starts there. I was hoping maybe he was still there when I called Don. It was a long shot, but I had to try it. We might have caught him at an airport or stopped him in a car on his way here. No such luck.
Drake has scouted your royal palace, just as you expected him to. Now I have to stick around and protect you from your own arrogance."