"Mrs. Youngblood!" he cried happily. "You"re so healthy you"ve never been to see me before, in two years here, I see! Good for you! What can I do for you today?" Dr. Zelman caught sight of me trying to be un.o.btrusively solicitous, and patted me on the shoulder so heavily I almost went down. "Little Ms. Teagarden! Prettier than ever!" I smiled uneasily as he turned back to Angel.
Angel stoically recited her symptoms: occasional exhaustion, occasional queasiness, lack of energy. I winced when I thought of asking Angel to help me mow the yard the day before. Now quiet and intent, Dr. Zelman began examining her from head to toe, including a pelvic, which Angel clearly hadn"t expected (I hadn"t either) and which she barely endured.
"Well, Mrs. Youngblood," Dr. Zelman said thoughtfully, rooting for his pencil in his graying hair (it was stuck behind his ear), "it"s really too bad your husband didn"t come with you today, because we have a lot to talk about."
Angel and I both blanched. I reached out and grabbed her hand.
"Because, of course, Mrs. Youngblood, as I"m sure you guessed, you are are pregnant." pregnant."
Angel and I gasped simultaneously.
"I"m sure you knew, right? You must have missed two periods. You"re at least ten weeks along, maybe more. Of course, with your wonderful physique, you"re not showing."
"I"m not regular at all," Angel said in a stunned way. "I really didn"t notice, and it didn"t occur to me to wonder, because my husband . . . has had a vasectomy."
I sat down abruptly. Fortunately, there was a chair underneath.
For once, Dr. Zelman looked nonplused. "Has he had a recheck done recently?" he asked.
"Recheck? He got snipped! Why should he have a recheck?" For once, Angel"s voice rose.
"It"s wise, Mrs. Youngblood, wise indeed, to have that recheck. Sometimes the severed tubes grow back. I"m sorry I gave you the news so blithely, since it seems you and your husband had not planned to have any children. But a baby"s on the way, Mrs. Youngblood. Well on the way. You"re in such excellent condition and so slim that the baby may not show at all for another month or so, especially since this must be your first pregnancy."
Angel was shaking her head from side to side, disbelievingly.
"If your husband wants to talk to me," Dr. Zelman said gently, "I can explain to him how this happened."
"I"m pretty sure he"s going to think he knows already," Angel said dismally. "But I would never in this world .. ." She shook her head, finishing the rest of her sentence in her head.
I had to help Angel dress, she was so deeply shocked. I tried not to burble, since she was upset, but I was so excited by proxy that it was hard.
A baby.
"How can I work?" Angel said, but not as if she was really concerned.
"Pooh, as a bodyguard? I don"t need a bodyguard anymore, now that Martin"s out of-that mess," I said soothingly. "If you still want to help me out around the place, we"ll work something out. Maybe I could keep the baby for you? Some?"
She heard the yearning in my voice.
"This should be happening to you," she said with a faint smile on her thin lips.
"Oh, Martin"s worried about his age," I said, and thought right away of kicking myself: Shelby Youngblood was Martin"s age, forty-seven, and Angel was twenty-eight to my thirty-two and a half. "Anyway," I said bracingly, "you tell him to call Dr. Zelman, okay? He may get kind of upset, having had a vasectomy and all."
"Oh, I just bet he will," she said grimly.
Angel walked out to the car in a state of stunned silence. I made sure she was in the car and then I ran back in to get my purse, which I"d left in the examining room. You could tell I was excited and upset, since normally I"d be as likely to leave my arm as my purse. I explained to Trinity Zelman, who waved me on back, and Linda was waiting at the door to the examining room with the purse in hand.
"Knew you"d come back for it," she said. "Give me a call, now!" She hurried down the hall to the little lab, and I turned to go out, pa.s.sing the first examining room on one side and Dr. Zelman"s office on the other on my way to the waiting room. Dr. Zelman"s office door was typically ajar, and I heard Mr. Dryden"s pleasant accentless voice inside. He"d finally gotten his five minutes with the doctor.
"I see that the widow has urged me to talk with you about her husband"s condition," Dr. Zelman was saying without much enthusiasm. "So I"ll answer your questions."
I walked slower.
"In your opinion, was Jack Burns an alcoholic?" Dry-den asked directly.
"Yes," said Dr. Zelman. "Just this past two or three years, he came to me on several occasions with drink-related injuries. He"d hit his head when he fell, one time. Another time, his car had hit a tree. There were a couple more things like that."
"Did it seem to you, from what you knew of Jack Burns, that his judgment was impaired?"
"Yes, he . . ." and then I had no excuse to loiter, though I dearly wanted to, because Trinity came out of the reception area and started to go to the doctor"s office with some files.
I had more to think about than I could cram in my brain. I"d dropped Angel off at home, promising to take her prescription for maternity vitamins to the pharmacy on my way home from work. Angel clearly wanted some time to herself, and I could understand why. Telling your forty-seven-year-old vasectomied husband that he"s about to be a dad was not an enviable proposition. I wanted to talk the situation over with Martin, but of course I couldn"t tell him Angel was expecting until she told her own husband. So probably it was just as well I had to go to work.
The Lawrenceton Public Library is a large two-story block with a low addition to the rear of the building for offices. This brand-new addition, achieved mostly by a bequest from an anonymous patron, a few other donations, and matching community improvement funds, is easily the nicest part of the library, and it"s a pity I get to spend so little time in it. It consists of a large employee break room with a row of bright lockers for personal possessions, a microwave, refrigerator, table and chairs, and a stove; Sam Clerrick"s office (with s.p.a.ce outside for a secretary, though now he only has a volunteer part-time); and a "community interest" room, where various clubs can meet free of charge if they are careful to schedule it well ahead of time. And there"s a nice employee bathroom.
The rest of the library, where I get to spend my working hours, is a plain old creaky public building, with indoor-outdoor carpeting that resembles woven dead gra.s.s with trampled-in mustard, the usual row upon row of gray metal shelves, a two-story entrance and nice staircase up to the second floor, which has a gallery running all the way around with various Dewey Decimal categories lining it, and lots of table-and-chair sets for kids doing homework or genealogists doing research. There"s an area set aside by clever use of shelving and extra bulletin boards, and it"s designated as the Children"s Room.
Whatever its drawbacks, overall there is that wonderful smell of books, and the relaxing, intelligent feeling of being surrounded by generation after generation of thought.
I"ve got libraries in my blood.
Of course, there are a few things I have to put up with to work in this wonderful place, and one of them was bearing down on me. Lillian Schmidt, b.u.t.tons bulging and girdle creaking, had her eyebrows up in that "Hah! I caught you!" look.
"Late today, aren"t we?" Lillian fired as her opening shot.
"Yes, I"m afraid so. I had to take a friend to the doctor."
"Wonder what would happen if all of us did that? Guess the library just wouldn"t open!"
I took a deep breath.
"I"m late enough as it is," I said with a smile. "Excuse me, Lillian, but I can"t stand here and chat." I pulled out the little key to my locker, used it, and stuck my purse inside, pocketing the key in my khaki slacks. I was due to tell a story in two minutes.
The librarian I was replacing, at least temporarily, was the children"s librarian.
Perhaps ten preschoolers were already seated in an expectant semicircle when I plopped down in the big chair in the middle.
"Good morning!" I said with enough glee to raise a hot-air balloon.
"Good morning," the children chorused back politely. This was the First Church of G.o.d the Creator day-care group, with a couple of other loose kids thrown in, story-time regulars. The moms and the day-care providers sat in a little group over in one corner, their expression one of relief that someone else was shouldering the burden, at least for a few minutes.
"This morning, I"m going to tell you about Alexander"s bad day," I said, casting a covert glance at the book the volunteer for the morning, my friend Lizanne Sewell, had left by the chair: Alexander and the No-Good, Awful, Very Bad Day. Alexander and the No-Good, Awful, Very Bad Day. Most of the kids turned hopeful faces in my direction, though a few were looking anywhere but at me. Most of the kids turned hopeful faces in my direction, though a few were looking anywhere but at me.
"I"ll bet some of you have had bad days at one time or another, am I right? What happened on your bad day, Irene?" This to a little girl with a wonderful, large easy-to-read name tag. Irene pushed her s.h.a.ggy black bangs out of her eyes and squashed the slack in her T-shirt in one grubby fist.
"On my bad day my dad left my mom and me and went to live in Memphis," Irene said.
I closed my eyes.
It was only ten o"clock in the morning.
"Well, Irene, that was was a bad day," I said, nodding soberly to show I was giving due weight to her problem. "Has anyone else ever had a bad day?" I looked around the circle, hoping no one could top Irene"s. a bad day," I said, nodding soberly to show I was giving due weight to her problem. "Has anyone else ever had a bad day?" I looked around the circle, hoping no one could top Irene"s.
"I knocked over my cereal bowl one day," offered a little boy the color of ground coffee. I tried not to look relieved. His mother was not so guarded.
"That was a bad day, too," I acknowledged. "Now, let me tell you about Alexander"s bad day ... and if you sit still, you can see the pictures in the book as I tell the story."
Over to one side, Lizanne was shaking her head gently from side to side, her lips pursed to hold in a giggle. Not daring to glance again in her direction, I began the book, one of my favorites.
The rest of the story time went by without a hitch, and most of the children seemed to enjoy it, which was not always the case. Only one had to go to the bathroom, and only two whispered to each other, which was quite good. Irene was one of the day-care children, so her mother wasn"t there to upbraid me for traumatizing Irene with my probing interrogation.
"It would be better for Irene if he didn"t come back," one of the day-care workers murmured in my ear as they gathered up their flock to return to the church. "He drank like a fish." I thought briefly of Jack Burns driving his car into a tree, then forced myself back to the present.
I realized the woman was trying to make me feel better, and I smiled and thanked her. "Come back soon, kids!" I chirped, being perky all over the place.
The little ones all smiled and waved, even the ones who hadn"t listened to a word I said.
Lizanne was ready to help me change the bulletin board, and in fact she"d made most of the items to go on it. With construction paper and some contact sheets, we"d created b.u.t.terflies, hummingbirds, fish, books, baseb.a.l.l.s, and other signs of warm weather. Maybe we were being unduly optimistic about the books, but the summer reading program had always been one of the library"s best features, and Sam was counting on me to start plugging it early.
After we"d commented on the way story time had gone, Lizanne and I began to work together companionably, referring to our sketch of the finished product from time to time, handing each other push pins or border and so on. From time to time Lizanne would stop and press a hand to her protuberant stomach; the baby was moving a lot, since she was in her sixth month. Every time, Lizanne would smile her beautiful slow smile.
"Has Bubba made plans for what to do if the baby comes while the legislature"s in session?" I asked.
"At least ten plans," Lizanne said. "But maybe it"ll come before he reconvenes."
Bubba Sewell, Lizanne"s husband, was a state representative and a local lawyer. Bubba was ambitious and intelligent, and, I think, basically an honest person. Lizanne was beautiful and slow-moving and somehow almost always managed things so that they pleased her. I could hardly wait to see what the baby"s character would be.
Lizanne left to eat lunch with her mother-in-law, to whose opinions on the baby"s upbringing she was blandly indifferent, and I helped some preschool children pick out books. One mother of a nine-year-old boy with a stomach bug came in to get some books and videos to keep him amused, and I collected a few natural history books with plenty of gross pictures of frogs and snakes.
My stomach was growling inelegantly at one o"clock when the library aide came to the children"s room to take my place. The aide was a heavy woman with pecan-colored skin named Beverly Rillington, who couldn"t be more than twenty-one. Whether it was because of race, age, or income level, Beverly and I were having a hard time geeing and hawing together. She and the previous children"s librarian had also had personality conflicts, Sam Clerrick had warned me. But Beverly, hired under a job-training program, was efficient and reliable, and Sam had no intention of letting her go.
"How"s it going today?" Beverly asked. She looked down at me as though she didn"t really want to know.
In an attempt to break the ice, I told Beverly about the morning story hour and the disconcerting answer I"d gotten from Irene.
Beverly looked at me as though I should have known in advance I"d hear more than I bargained for. If Beverly made me anxious, terrified I might step on her many sensitive toes, I clearly waved a red flag in her face just by being who and what I was. Beverly never volunteered anything about her home life and did not respond to references to mine. Making contact with her was one of my projects for the year.
("I"m d.a.m.ned if I know why," Martin had said simply, when I"d told him.) As I told Beverly good-bye and prepared to go home to see my husband off and be interviewed by Mr. Dry-den, I found myself wondering why, too.
But the answer came to me easily enough, in a string of reasons. Beverly was naturally good with kids, any kids, a knack G.o.d had left out of my genetic makeup. Beverly was never late and always completed her work, i"s dotted and t"s crossed. And, oh happy day, Lillian Schmidt was so terrified of Beverly that she avoided the children"s area like the plague when Beverly was at work. I owed my aide thanks on many levels, and I was determined to put up with a certain gruffness of manner for those reasons, if no others.
Chapter Three
I"d forgotten Martin had decided to drive to the airport directly from work. He"d leave his Mercedes at the plant and pick it up when he came in three days from now. The higher-ups of Pan-Am Agra had scheduled one of those events that made Martin"s blood curdle: a seminar on s.e.xual hara.s.sment, recognition and avoidance thereof. All the plant managers were flying in to Chicago to attend, and since Martin had no particular friends among them and hated meetings he wasn"t chairing, his most positive att.i.tude was grim acceptance.
When he called me to say he was leaving for the airport, he reminded me over and over about setting the house security system every night. "How"s Angel?" he asked, just when he was about to hang up. "Shelby said she hadn"t been feeling well."
"Um. We"ll talk about it when you get back. She"s going to be fine."
"Roe, tell me. Is she well enough to help you if you have an emergency?"
I was the only librarian in Lawrenceton, quite possibly in all of Georgia-perhaps even America-to have her own bodyguard. I thought of Angel, stunned and scared, in the doctor"s office that morning, and I thought of calling her for help. "Sure, she"s okay," I said rea.s.suringly. "Oh, by the way, I saw one of the-well, I don"t know exactly who Dryden and O"Riley work for . . . they never said-well, I ran into him this morning, and he says he has to come out here to talk to me this afternoon."
I"d almost said I"d met him at the doctor"s, when I"d taken Angel; and then Martin would have asked what the doctor had said, and I didn"t want to lie about it.
"Why does he have to talk to you?" Martin asked.
"To tell you the truth, I"m not sure."
"Roe, have Angel in the house with you when he"s there."
"Martin, she"s not well."
"Promise."
Now Martin almost never pulled that string, and it was one we both honored.
"Okay. If she"s not actually throwing up, I"ll have her here."
"Good," he said. "Now, what can I bring you from Chicago?"
I thought of the big stores, the endless possibilities. I didn"t like that many choices myself.
"Surprise me," I said with a smile he could hear in my voice.
We said some personal good-byes, and then he went back to his work world, which I could hardly imagine.
I piffled around the house for a while, cleaning the downstairs bathroom and sweeping the front porch, the patio, and the steps that led up from the covered walkway running between the garage and the side kitchen door. Finally, I called Angel.
She said dutifully that she"d be over before four o"clock, and I apologized for disturbing her on such a day. "Martin made me promise," I explained.
"It"s my job," Angel said. "Besides, I don"t want to just sit here and wait for Shelby to come home."
The doorbell rang.
"There"s a florist"s van in the driveway," Angel said. She must have been on her portable phone, looking out the front window of the garage apartment. "I"m coming down."
She hung up unceremoniously, and I went to the front door and turned off the security system. I heard Angel unlocking the side door leading into the kitchen as the doorbell rang a second time. By the time I shot back the dead bolt, she was standing behind me.