It was time to talk to Kit.
Bracing myself for the conversation, I went to the guest room door and knocked.
Nothing.
I knocked harder.
"Kit?"
"Yo."
"It"s after one. I"d like to talk to you."
"Mmmm."
"Are you up?"
"Uhm. Hum."
"Don"t go back to sleep."
"Give me five."
"Breakfast or lunch?"
"Yeah."
Taking that as an affirmative for the latter, which was my preference, I made ham and cheese sandwiches and added deli dills. As I was consolidating Kate"s material to make s.p.a.ce at the table, I heard the bedroom door open, then activity in the bathroom.
When my nephew appeared I almost lost my resolve. His eyes were red-rimmed, his face the color of cooked oatmeal. His hair was doing Jim Carrey.
"Mornin", Aunt T."
When he raised both hands and rubbed them up and down over his face, the border of a tattoo peeked from the hem of his T-shirt sleeve.
"It"s afternoon."
"Sorry. I got in kind of late."
"Yes. Ham sandwich?"
"Sure. Got any c.o.ke?" he asked in a thick voice.
"Diet."
"That"s cool."
I got two sodas and joined him at the table. He was regarding the sandwich as one might a squashed c.o.c.kroach.
"You"ll feel better if you eat," I encouraged.
"I just need to wake up a little. I"m fine."
He looked as fine as a smallpox victim. Up close I could see tiny veins threading through the whites of his eyes, and smell the smoke that clung to his hair.
"This is me, Kit. I"ve been there."
I had, and I knew what he was going through. I could remember the feel of residual booze slugging through my bloodstream, churning my stomach and pounding the dilated vessels in my brain. The dry mouth. The shaky hands. The sense that someone had poured lead shot in the s.p.a.ce below my sternum.
Kit rubbed his eyes, then reached over and stroked Bird"s head. I knew he was wishing he were someplace else.
"Food will help."
"I"m fine."
"Try the sandwich."
He raised his eyes to me and smiled. But as soon as he relaxed the corners of his mouth hooked downward, unable to sustain the effort without conscious direction. He took a bite the size of a dime.
"Umm." He popped open the Diet c.o.ke, tipped back his head, and gulped.
It was obvious that he didn"t want to travel in the direction I was headed. Well, neither did I. Perhaps there was no issue. He was nineteen. He"d had a big night. He was hungover. We"d all been there.
Then I remembered the phone message. And the new tattoo.
There were issues, and we needed to discuss them.
I knew what I said would make little difference. Probably none. He was young. Invulnerable. And "born to boogie," according to Harry. But I owed it to him to try.
"Who"s the Preacher?" I asked.
He looked at me as he rotated his Diet c.o.ke can on the table.
"Just a guy I met."
"Met where?"
"At the Harley shop. When I went with Lyle."
"What kind of guy?"
He shrugged the question off.
"No one special. Just a guy."
"He left you a message."
"Oh?"
"You listen. I can"t translate it."
"Yeah. The Preacher"s kind of a head case."
That was an understatement.
"How so?"
"I don"t know. He"s just out there. But he rides this chopped "64 panhead that is truly righteous." He took a long swig of Diet c.o.ke. "I"m sorry I stood you up last night. Did you find my note?" He was looking for a new topic.
"Yes. What was this event that was so important?"
"A boxing match," he said without expression. His face had the consistency of bread dough. And about as much color.
"Do you follow boxing?"
"Not really. These guys do, so I went along."
"What guys?"
"Just these guys I met."
"At the Harley shop."
He shrugged.
"And the tattoo?"
"Pretty cool, eh?"
He raised his sleeve. A scorpion wearing some sort of helmet spread its legs across his left biceps.
"What is it supposed to mean?"
"It doesn"t mean anything. It just looks kick-a.s.s."
I had to agree.
"Your mother is going to kill me."
"Harry has a tattoo on her left b.u.t.tock." He p.r.o.nounced the last with a British inflection.
I am the lord of the dance, said he . . . . . .
For a while neither of us spoke. I ate my sandwich while Kit picked at his, nibbling off a gram at a time then washing each down with Diet c.o.ke.
"Do you want another?" he asked, pushing back his chair and wiggling his empty can.
"No thanks."
When he returned I plunged in again.
"How much did you drink last night?"
"Too much." He scratched his head roughly with both hands and the hair went from Carrey to Alfalfa. "But it was just beer, Aunt T. Nothin" hard. And I"m legal here."
"Just beer?"
He lowered his hands and looked at me, making sure he understood my meaning.
"If there"s one thing you can count on with this boy, it"s a negatory on pharmaceuticals. This body ain"t much, but I"m keeping it a drug-free zone."
"I"m very glad to hear that." I was. "What about the Preacher and his flock?"
"Hey. Live and let."
"It doesn"t always work that way, Kit."
Go ahead. Ask.
"Are these guys bikers?"
"Sure. That"s why it"s Disneyland for me. They all ride Harleys."
Try again.
"Are they affiliated with a club?"
"Aunt T, I don"t ask them a lot of questions. If you mean do they wear colors, the answer is no. Do they hang with guys that do? Yeah, probably. But I"m not going to sell my boat and strike for the h.e.l.ls Angels, if that"s what worries you."
"Kit. Outlaw bikers don"t draw lines between gawkers and those wanting charter memberships. If they perceive you as even the most minor of threats, or even a slight inconvenience, they"ll chew you up and spit you into tomorrow. I don"t want that to happen to you."
"Do I look like an idiot?"
"You look like a nineteen-year-old kid from Houston with a fascination for Harleys and a romanticized image of the Wild Ones Wild Ones."
"What?"
"The Stanley Kramer movie?"
A blank look.
"Marlon Brando?"
"I"ve heard of Brando."
"Never mind."
"I"m just feeling free. Having some fun."