I flip through the radio stations. "I never said you were."
She swats my hand away from the stereo and cranks up some song by Katy Perry. She sings along at the top of her lungs, waving her hands and bobbing her head. I rest my head back and watch the trees drift by. I"m almost asleep when she slows down the car.
I open my eyes and start to unbuckle my seatbelt. But we"re stopped in a line of cars, not at the store. "Where are we?" I rub my tired eyes.
"Stuck in traffic." She impatiently drums her fingers on the steering wheel.
"Wait, what... traffic?" I sit up. The town is too small for traffic. But there is a row of cars running each way over the bridge and down the road. Police cars barricade the street and policemen are sectioning off the middle of the bridge with tape and trying to detour everyone to the side.
"What"s going on?" I mumble, rolling the window all the way down to get a better look.
"Somebody probably did something stupid," she replies in a bored tone as she inspects her fingernails for chips.
The line of cars crawls forward. Raven presses on the gas and drives by slowly. In the middle of the taped off section, an X is spray-painted across the asphalt. Smashed into the cement barrier of the bridge is a rusted black Cadillac. The windows are broken, the hood is smashed in, and there is blood dripping from the back tire. And there are black feathers on the ground and on the hood.
"Isn"t that Laden"s?" I squint at the car. "Oh my G.o.d, it is."
"Hmm... I guess he must have got into some trouble last night." She smiles at the thought.
"This couldn"t have happened last night," I say. "I just saw Laden this morning."
"How can you be sure of what you saw?" She questions with a sparkle in her eye.
I eye her over questionably. "Is there something you"re not telling me?"
"There"s a lot of things I"m not telling you." She grins and blasts the stereo.
I turn back to the scene. There"s an hourgla.s.s painted on the back of the window in red and feathers all over the hood and the ground. It"s the exact scene of when the police found my dad"s car, just a different location. And I worry that, like with my dad"s disappearance, I"ll become the prime suspect.
Chapter 6.
When night falls, I don"t visit the cemetery. The news announced that Laden is considered a missing person and that there is evidence of foul play. My mom ended up skipping out on dinner and so Raven took her place at the table. She acted like a lunatic, like she was high on the news of Laden"s disappearance.
While Raven and I were shopping, I tried to press her about the details of last night, but she shifted the conversation to clothes every time. I end up going to bed early. But late during the night, I"m woken up by the sound of my mom"s voice.
"Ian," she yells up the stairs in a drunken slur. "I need your help."
Ian is locked away in the attic, with his "muse," a mysterious person that sneaks in every night so he can paint them. I climbed out of bed and pad to the top of the stairway.
"Mom, Ian"s in the attic," I say tiredly. "What do you need?"
She frowns up at me, disappointed. "I need help getting up the stairs."
I sigh and trot to the bottom. Her brown hair is disheveled and her eyes are bloodshot. She used to be pretty, but her lifestyle has aged her. She tugs down the hem of her dress and drapes her arm around my neck. She smells like tequila and cigarettes. Her death omen smothers me, like it always does: lying in a bed of pills and bottles, dying in her own flames. Holding my breath, I help her to her room, lie her down on the bed, and pull off her high heels.
She blinks at me through her blurry eyes. "You look so much like him," she mutters. "You have his eyes and everything."
She"s referring to my father. "Shhh... get some rest."
"I wonder if you"ll turn out like him," she says, rolling onto her side. "I bet you will... a killer...you did kill your grandma."
Her words stabbed at my heart, but it"s not the first time she"s uttered them. "Mom, Dad didn"t kill anyone."
"Yes he did... yes he did." She drifts off to sleep.
I force back the tears and rush out of my room. I don"t cry, but I can"t fall back asleep. So I read Cameron"s poem, over and over again until the words blur together and make no sense at all. Just like my life.
I"m running late the next morning. There are bags under my bloodshot eyes and I look pallid. I quickly get dressed in torn jeans, grey combat boots, and a black vest over a striped T-shirt. Raven texts me as I"m barreling down the stairs, pulling my hair into a ponytail.
Raven: Need 2 get ur own ride 2day.
I halt at the bottom of the stairs and text back.
Me: Why? Is something wrong?
It takes her a second to answer.
Raven: I got things 2 do 2day. Can"t b late.
Me: Just hold on. I"m almost out the door.
Raven: Already gone.
Raven: FYI the news said Laden disappeared the night of the party Me: ... that makes no sense. I saw him outside the house.
Raven: whateva u say. U would know how he died though. U saw it remember. It"s why I had 2 hang out with him Me: He"s not necessarily dead yet, only missing.
Raven: If you say so. But anyway gotta go. C u at skool ;) I throw my phone into my bag. I consider hitting Ian up for a ride, but then I"d have to explain what happened to dad"s car. And I"m not ready for that yet. The only other alternative is to ride the overly crowed bus that is br.i.m.m.i.n.g with unavoidable death omens.
"What"s up with you?" Ian asks, munching on a Pop-Tart in the kitchen doorway.
"Nothing." I s.n.a.t.c.h my house keys off the table. "I"m just tired."
"Did mom say anything to you last night?" he asks. "Like maybe why she hasn"t been taking her meds."
"Does she ever talk about anything?" I snap.
Ian holds up his hands. "Sorry. I was just asking a question. But I guess I"ll keep my mouth shut."
I open my mouth to apologize, but he turns back into the kitchen. I grab my jacket off the banister and step outside. I slip on my jacket and stare at the end of the street. Walk or ride the bus?
Cameron"s Jeep pulls up to the curb. He rolls down his window and crooks his finger at me. I hesitate.
"I promise I don"t bite." He dazzles me with an exquisite smile.
On their own accord, my feet trot down the steps and across the gra.s.s. I stop inches away from his door.
"Hop in." He nods at the pa.s.senger seat. "I"ll give you a ride."
I adjust the handle of my bag. "Who said I need a ride?"
"I noticed your friend leaving this morning without you." He slides his sungla.s.ses down the brim of his nose and gives me a look that makes me feel naked. "And then you walked out of your house, looking as if you were making the hardest decision of your life. So I"m guessing you don"t have a car, and you"re debating between walking and riding the bus."
"I was going to walk." I adjust the handle of my bag. "It"s really not that big of a deal."
He shakes his head and laughs. "Hop in, Ember. I don"t mind giving you a ride. Trust me."
I glance at the corner of the street where a line of people wait for the bus. "Fine. Thanks." I walk around the front and hop into the pa.s.senger seat. The inside of the car smells like vanilla mixed with a hint of earthy cologne. Cameron waits for me to buckle my seatbelt, then pushes up his sungla.s.ses, and drives down the road. He"s wearing dark blue jeans and a black b.u.t.ton-down shirt with the sleeves rolled to the elbows. His hand rests on the shifter and his fingers tap to the music murmuring through the stereo. The compulsion to reach over and entwine my fingers with his nearly devours me.
"So are you always this quiet?" he asks after minutes of silence drones by.
I turn my head away from the window. "I just don"t see the point of talking unless there"s something to say."
He widens his eyes. "Okay, sorry for asking."
I fidget with my leather bracelet. "Sorry. I didn"t mean for that to come out so b.i.t.c.hy. I"m just having a rough morning."
He nods and proceeds with caution. "But I"m pretty sure you and I do have something to say, so the question is do you want to say it or should I."
"I wasn"t expecting you to put it out there," I say, shocked. "But okay."
"The first thing you should know about me is that I hate secrets. They are pointless and request too much energy from an individual, unless the revelation of the secret brings pain to someone." His lips move like they are a poet"s pen on a sheet of paper.
"Okay, so why were you digging up a grave in the cemetery the other night?" I lay it all on the table.
His grin enhances with amus.e.m.e.nt. "To see if they really do put dead bodies in coffins."
I"m unsure how to respond. "I"m pretty sure they do."
"See, that"s why I think you and I can get along," he remarks cleverly. "Most people would have jumped out of the car with that response."
I tuck my bangs out of my eyes. "Most people wouldn"t have gotten in the car in the first place."
"Excellent point." He flips on the blinker and turns onto the school road. "I was doing my parents" dirty work. My grandfather-or Old Man Carey as your weird friend calls him-owned a jewel that had a lot of sentimental value to my family. It"s been pa.s.sed down from generation to generation. But no one can find where my grandfather put it, so they sent me to check in his coffin, just in case he requested to be buried with it and never told anyone except his friend who handled my grandfather"s funeral arrangements."
For some reason, his story reminds me of a 1980s Tom Hanks movie I watched once-The Burbs. "Did you find it?"
"Again, you"re not fazed." He grins, pleased and entertained. "No, I didn"t find it."
"Did you think to ask your grandfather"s friend, before you went rummaging around in his coffin?" I question. "It might have been an easier place to start."
"Hmm..." He rubs his chin thoughtfully. "I never thought of that." He laughs and smiles. "Of course I did, but it turns out my grandfather"s friend has already pa.s.sed away himself, only days after the funeral ended."
"That"s weird." I"m torn whether I believe him. "So who was that man doing the actual digging?"
His smile falters and his face reddens with anger. "You saw him?"
I nod slowly. "Yeah..."
His anger alarms me. "He"s my uncle."
"You don"t like him?" I ask.
He fiddles with the keychain and sadness hues eyes. "He"s... tolerable." He turns into the crowded school parking lot and everyone stares. The town is lowly populated and a new vehicle is big news. I can almost see the invisible stream of gossip move from car to car. "Wow, it"s like being a movie star," he comments as he parks in an empty spot.
A smile lurks at my lips. "Oh, it"s going to get a lot worse for you. Trust me. The new guy in school-it will be the headline of the newspaper. Well, maybe it won"t be quite that big. I think there might be someone else starting today too."
He takes the keys out of the ignition. "Do you know who it is?"
"Yeah, I met him at a party Sat.u.r.day night." I unbuckle the seatbelt. "His name"s Asher Morgan."
A dark shadow possesses his expression. "And you"ve already met him?"
"Yeah..." My eyebrows scrunch. "At the party, like I said."
He stares at the dashboard, jingling the keys with anxious energy. Then he opens the door and climbs out of the car. I hop out and meet him around the back.
"You said you don"t keep secrets," I say as we head for the front doors of the school. "But it kind of seems like you are."
"No, I said secrets were pointless unless they hurt someone." He picks up the pace and waves over his shoulder. "See you around, Ember."
The whole female student body watches him swagger up the sidewalk with hungry eyes. I roll my own and shift directions for the side entrance. By afternoon, he"ll probably be dating Mackenzie Baker and be swooned over by the entire cheerleading squad.
The side exit is the mellow area of the school. It enters through the art hallway, unlike the front entrance, which goes directly to the quad and is always abundant with people. I dig through my bag and pull out my cell phone and text Raven.
Me: U at skool yet?
I wander down the hall lined with fake spider webs and orange and black confetti, with my head tucked down, waiting for an answer.
Me: Hey, r u ok?
Again, no response. I put my phone back in my bag and decide to check in Mr. Morgan"s art room. Sometimes Raven goes there before and after school to work on projects, mainly so she can use the school"s supplies.
I poke my head inside, but the only person there is a guy painting in the far corner. I begin to back out.
"Ember," the guy calls out.
"Asher?" I step into the cla.s.sroom. "What are you doing in here?"