I shook my head.
"Looks like they broke the gla.s.s with the cinder blocks, then chucked that thing in." He walked over to the smoldering mound. "They must"ve soaked it in gasoline, lit it, and pitched it."
I heard his words but couldn"t speak. My body had locked up as my mind tried to rouse some shapeless notion sleeping in the core of my brain.
The firefighter slipped a shovel from his belt, snapped open the blade, and poked at the heap on my kitchen floor. Black flecks shot upward, then rejoined the rubble below. He slid the blade below the object, flipped it over, and leaned in.
"Looks like a burlap sack. Maybe a seed bag. d.a.m.ned if I can tell what"s inside."
He sc.r.a.ped the object with the tip of the shovel and more charred particles spiraled up. He prodded harder, rolling the thing from side to side.
The smell grew stronger. St-Jovite. Autopsy room three. Memory broke through and I went cold all over.
With trembling hands I opened a drawer and withdrew a pair of kitchen scissors. No longer concerned about my nightie, I squatted and cut the burlap.
The corpse was small, its back arched, its legs contracted by the heat of the flames. I saw a shriveled eye, a tiny jaw with blackened teeth. Antic.i.p.ation of the horror that the sack held made me begin to feel faint.
No! Please no!
I leaned in, my mind recoiling from the smell of burned flesh and hair. Between the hind legs I saw a curled and blackened tail, its vertebrae protruding like thorns on a stem.
Tears slid down my cheeks as I cut further. Near the knot I saw hairs, scorched now, but white in spots.
The half-full bowls.
"Nooooooooooooooooo!"
I heard the voice, but did not connect it to myself.
"No! No! No! Birdie. Please G.o.d, no!"
I felt hands on my shoulders, then on my hands, taking the scissors, gently pulling me to my feet. Voices.
Then I was in the parlor, a quilt around me. I was crying, shaking, my body in pain.
I don"t know how long I"d been sobbing when I looked up to see my neighbor. She pointed at a cup of tea.
"What is it?" My chest heaved in and out.
"Peppermint."
"Thanks." I drank the tepid liquid. "What time is it?"
"A little past two." She wore slippers and a trench coat that didn"t cover her flannel gown. Though we"d waved to each other across the lawn, or exchanged h.e.l.los on the walk, I hardly knew her.
"I"m so sorry you had to get up in the middle of the nigh-"
"Please, Dr. Brennan. We"re neighbors. I know you"d do the same for me."
I took another sip. My hands were icy, but trembled less.
"Are the firemen still here?"
"They left. They said you can fill out a report when you feel better."
"Did they take-" My voice broke and I felt tears behind my eyes.
"Yes. Can I get you anything else?"
"No, thank you. I"ll be fine. You"ve been very kind."
"I"m sorry about your damage. We put a board across the window. It"s not elegant, but it will keep the wind out."
"Thank you so much. I-"
"Please. Just get some sleep. Perhaps this won"t seem so bad in the morning."
I thought of Birdie and dreaded the morning. In desperate hope I picked up the phone and dialed Pete"s number. No answer.
"You will be O.K.? Shall I help you upstairs?"
"No. Thank you. I"ll manage."
When she"d gone I crawled into bed and cried myself to sleep with great, heaving sobs.
I awoke with the feeling that something was wrong. Changed. Lost. Then full consciousness, and with it, memory.
It was a warm spring morning. Through the window I could see blue sky and sunlight and smell the perfume of flowers. But the beauty of the day could not lift my depression.
When I called the fire department I was told the physical evidence had been sent to the crime lab. Feeling leaden, I went through the morning motions. I dressed, applied makeup, brushed my hair, and headed downtown.
The sack contained nothing but the cat. No collar. No tags. A hand-lettered note was found inside one of the cinder blocks. I read it through the plastic evidence bag.
Next time it won"t be a cat.
"Now what?" I asked Ron Gillman, director of the crime lab. He was a tall, good-looking man with silver-gray hair and an unfortunate gap between his front teeth.
"We"ve already checked for prints. Zippo on the note and blocks. Recovery will be out to your place, but you know as well as I do they won"t find much. Your kitchen window is so close to the street the perps probably pulled up, lit the bag, then threw everything in from the sidewalk. We"ll look for footprints, and we"ll ask around, of course, but at one-thirty in the morning it"s not too likely anyone was awake in that neighborhood."
"Sorry I don"t live on Wilkinson Boulevard."
"You get into enough trouble wherever you are."
Ron and I had worked together for years. He knew about the serial murderer who had broken into my Montreal condo.
"I"ll have recovery go over your kitchen, but since these guys never went inside, there won"t be any trace. You didn"t touch anything, I a.s.sume."
"No." I hadn"t gone near the kitchen since the night before. I couldn"t bear the sight of Birdie"s dishes.
"Are you working on anything that could p.i.s.s folks off?"
I told him about the murders in Quebec and about the bodies from Murtry Island.
"How do you think they got your cat?"
"He may have run out when Pete went in to feed him. He does that." A stab of pain. "Did that."
Don"t cry. Don"t you dare cry.
"Or . . ."
"Yes?"
"Well, I"m not sure. Last week I thought someone might have broken into my office at school. Well, not exactly broken in. I may have left the door unlocked."
"A student?"
"I don"t know."
I described the incident.
"My house keys were still in my purse, but I suppose she could have made an impression."
"You look a little shaken up."
"A little. I"m fine."
For a moment he said nothing. Then, "Tempe, when I heard about this I a.s.sumed it was a disgruntled student." He scratched the side of his nose. "But this could be more than a prank. Watch yourself. Maybe tell Pete."
"I don"t want to do that. He"d feel obligated to baby-sit me, and he doesn"t have time for that. He never did."
When we"d finished talking, I gave Ron a key to the Annex, signed the incident report, and left.
Though traffic was light, the drive to UNCC seemed longer than usual. An icy fist had hold of my innards and refused to let go.
All day the feeling was there. Through task after task I was interrupted by images of my murdered cat. Kitten Birdie sitting upright, forepaws flapping like a baby sparrow"s. Birdie, flat on his back beneath the sofa. Rubbing figure eights around my ankles. Staring me down for cereal leavings. The sadness that had plagued me in recent weeks was deepening into unshakable melancholy.
After office hours I crossed campus to the athletic complex and changed into running gear. I pushed myself as hard as I could, hoping physical exertion would relieve the ache in my heart and the tension in my body.
As I pounded around the track my mind shifted gears. Ron Gillman"s words replaced the images of my dead pet. Butchering an animal is cruel but it"s amateur. Was it merely an unhappy student? Or could Birdie"s death be a real threat? From whom? Was there a link to the mugging in Montreal? To the Murtry investigation? Had I been drawn into something far bigger than I knew?
I kicked it hard and with each lap the tightness drained from my body. After four miles I collapsed on the gra.s.s. Breath rasping, I watched a miniature rainbow shimmer in the spray of a lawn sprinkler. Success. My mind was blank.
When my pulse and breathing had slowed, I returned to the locker room, showered, and dressed in fresh clothes. Feeling better, I climbed the hill to the Colvard Building.
The sensation was short-lived.
My phone was flashing. I punched in the code and waited.
d.a.m.n!
I"d missed Kathryn again. As before, she"d left no information, only a statement that she"d called. I rewound the message and listened a second time. She sounded breathless, her words tense and clipped.
I played the message again and again, but could make nothing of the background noise. Kathryn"s voice was m.u.f.fled, as though she were speaking from inside a small s.p.a.ce. I imagined her cupping the receiver, whispering, furtively checking her surroundings.
Was I being paranoid? Had last night"s incident sent my imagination into overdrive? Or was Kathryn in real danger?
The sun through the venetian blinds threw bright stripes across my desk. Down the hall, a door slammed. Slowly, an idea took shape.
I reached for the phone.
22.
"THANKS FOR MAKING TIME FOR ME THIS LATE IN THE DAY. I"M surprised you"re still on campus." surprised you"re still on campus."
"Are you implying that anthropologists work harder than sociologists?"
"Never," I laughed, settling into the black plastic chair he indicated. "Red, I"d like to pick your brain. What can you tell me about local cults?"
"What do you mean by cult?"
Red Skyler slouched sideways behind his desk. Though his hair had gone gray, the russet beard explained the origin of the nickname. He squinted at me through steel-rimmed gla.s.ses.