The eighth niche was still empty, but was already bespoken.
For later comers there was room only in the ditch of the graveyard.
And there were still ten years left to think thereon! But ten years is a long time. Meanwhile that field might open where an honourable death, grasping a scythe in its two hands, cuts a way through the ranks of armed warriors:--where the children of weeping mothers are trampled to death by the hoofs of horses:--where they throw the first-born"s mangled remains into the common burying-pit: perhaps there the son will find what the father sought in vain:--those who fled from before the resting-chamber of that melancholy house, on the facade of which was to be read the inscription, covered by the creepers since days long gone by.
"Ne nos inducas in tentationem."
CHAPTER IX
AGED AT SEVENTEEN
How beautiful it is to be young! How fair is the spring! Yours is life, joy, hope; the meadows lavish flowers upon you; the earth"s fair halo of love surrounds you with glory: a nation, a fatherland, mankind entrusts to you its future; old men are proud of you; women love you: every brightening day of heaven is yours.
Oh, how I love the spring! how I love youth! In spring I see the fairest work of G.o.d, the earth, take new life; in youth I see the fairest work of man, his nation, reviving.
"In those days" I did not yet belong to the "youth:" I was a child.
Never do I remember a brighter promise of spring, than in that year; never were the eyes of the old men gladdened by the sight of a more spirited "youth" than was that of those days.
Spring began very early: even at the end of February the fields were green, parks hastened to bedeck themselves in their leafy wings, the blossoms hastened to bloom and fall; the opening days of May saw fruit on the apple-trees; and prematurely ripe cherries were "hawked" in the streets, beside bouquets of late blooming violets.
Of the "youths" of that year the historian has written: "These youths were in general very serious, very lavish in patriotic feeling, fiery and spirited in the defence of freedom and national dignity. The new tendency which manifested itself so vividly in our country was reflected by their impetuous and susceptible natures with all its n.o.ble yearnings, its virtues and excesses exaggerated. The frivolous pastimes, the senseless or dissolute amus.e.m.e.nts that were so fashionable in those days were abandoned for serious reading, gathering of information and investigation of current events. They had already opinions of their own, which not rarely they could utter with striking audacity."--I could only envy these lines of gold; not one word of them had any reference to me: for I was still but a child. During a night that followed a lovely May day, the weather suddenly changed: winter, who was during the days of his dominion, watching how the warm breezes played with the flower-bells of the trees, all at once returned: with the full vigor of vengeance he came, and in three days destroyed everything, in which man happened to delight. To the last leaf everything was frozen off the trees.
On this most inclement of the three wintry May evenings Lorand was standing alone at his window, and gazing abstractedly at the street through the ice-flower pattern of the window-panes.
Just such ice-flowers lay frozen before his soul. The lottery of fate has appointed his time: ten years his life would last; then he must die.
From seventeen to twenty-seven is just the fairest part of life. Many had made their whole earthly career during that period.
And what awaits him?
His ardent yearning for freedom, his audacious plans, his misplaced confidence; friends" treason, and the consequent freezing rigor, where were they leading to?...
Every leaf had fallen from the trees. Only ten years to live: the decree was unalterable.
From the opponent, whom he despised, it is not possible even to accept as a present, that to which chance has once given him the right.
And these ten years, with what will they begin? Perhaps with a long imprisonment? The time which is so short--(ten years are light!) will seem so long _there_! (ten years are heavy!) Would it not be better not to wait for the first day? To say: if it is time, take it away: let me not take the days on lease from thee! The hateful, freezing days.
Why, when nature dies in this wise, man himself would love to die after her.
If only there were not that weeping face at home, that white-haired head, mother and grandmother.
In vain Fate is inevitable. The eighth bed was already made;--but _that_ no one must know for ten years. Should someone learn, he might perpetrate the outrage of occupying earlier the eighth niche in the family vault; and then his successor would have nothing left but the church-yard grave.
What a thought, a youthful spring with these frozen leaves!
He did not think for the next few moments. Is it worth while to try to avoid the fate, which is certain? Let it come. The keystone of the arch had been removed, the downfall of the whole must follow. His room was already in darkness, but he did not light a lamp. The dancing flames of the fire-place gazed out sometimes above the embers, in curiosity, as if they would know whether any living being were there: and still he did not stir.
In this dim twilight Lorand was thinking upon those who had pa.s.sed away before him.
That bony-faced figure, whose death face he was painting,--his ordinary physiognomy was terrible enough: those empty eye-sockets, into which he fears to gaze:--suppose between these two hollows a third was darkling, the place of the bullet that pierced his forehead!
Lorand now knew what torture must have been theirs, who had left him this sorrowful bequest, before they could make up their minds to raise their own hands against their own lives! with what power of G.o.d they must have struggled, with what power of devils have made a compact! Oh, if they would only come for him now!
Who?
Those who picked the fruit that dared so early to ripen?
Yes, rather those, than these quiet, bloodless faces, in their b.l.o.o.d.y robes. Rather those who come with clank of arms, tearing open the door with drawn sword, than those who with inaudible step steal in, gently open the door, whisperingly speak and tremblingly p.r.o.nounce your name.
"Lorand."
"Ha! Who is that?"
Not one of the dead, though her robe is white: one far worse than they:--a beautiful woman.
It was Hermine who opened the door and entered Lorand"s room so silently, with inaudible steps. Her ball-robe was on her: she had dressed for the dance in her room above, and thus dressed had descended.
"Are you ready now, Lorand?"
"Oh, good evening: pardon me. I will light a candle in a moment."
"Never mind about that," whispered the woman. "It is quite light enough as it is. To-day no candle may burn in this room."
"You are going to a ball," said Lorand, masking the sorrow of his soul by a display of good spirits: "and you wish me to accompany you?"
"Fancy the thought of dancing coming into my head just now!" replied Hermine, coming so close to Lorand that she could whisper in his ear.
"Did you get my letter?"
"Yes, thank you. Don"t be alarmed, there is no danger."
"Indeed there is. I know it well. The danger is in the hands of Balnokhazy: therefore certain."
"What great harm can happen to me?"
Hermine placed her hand on Lorand"s shoulder and tremblingly hissed:
"They will arrest you to-night."
"They may do so."
"Oh no, they may not, kind Heaven! That they shall not do. You must escape, immediately, this hour."