The following days enlightened him.
Lorand, from that day, far from showing more familiarity, manifested greater deference towards the reputed lady of the house. Since she had confessed her true position to him, moreover he treated her as one who knew well that the smallest slight would doubly hurt one who was not in a position to complain. He was kind and attentive to the woman, who, beneath the appearance of happiness, was wretched, though innocent. To the uninitiated, she was the lady of the house; to the better informed, she was the favorite of her master, and that was nought but a maiden in the disguise of wife, and Lorand was able to read the riddle aright.
If Topandy watched him, he in his turn observed Topandy; he saw that Topandy did not watch, nor was jealous of the girl. He consented to her traveling alone, confided the greater part of his fortune to her, overwhelmed her with presents, but beyond this did not trouble about her. Still he showed a certain affection which did not arise from mere habit. He would not brook the least harm to her from anybody, making the whole household fear her as much as the master, and if by chance they hesitated as to their duty to one or the other, it was always Czipra who had a prior claim on their services.
Topandy at once perceived that Lorand did not run after a fair face, nor after the face of any woman, who was not difficult to conquer, because she was not guarded, and who might be easily got rid of, being but a gypsy girl. His heart was either fully occupied by one object only, or it was an infinite void which nothing could fill. Topandy led a boisterous life, when he fell in with his chums, but when alone he was quite another man. To fathom nature"s mysteries was a pa.s.sion with him.
In a corner of the bas.e.m.e.nt of the castle there was a chemical laboratory, where he pa.s.sed his time with making physical experiments; he labored with instruments, he probed the secrets of the stars, and of the earth; at such times he only cared to have Lorand at his side; in him he found a being capable of sharing his scientific researches, though he did not share in his doubts.
"All is matter!" such had for centuries been the motto of the naturalist, and therefore the naturalist had ever found a kindred spirit in the agnostic.
Often did Czipra come upon the two men at their quiet pursuits and watch them for hours together; and though she did not understand what in this higher science went beyond her comprehension, yet she could take pleasure in observing Cartesius" diving imps; she dared to sit upon the insulators, and her joy was boundless when Lorand at such a time, approaching her with his finger, called forth electric sparks from her dress or hands. She found enjoyment, too, in peering through the great telescopes at the heavenly wonders. Lorand was always ready to answer her questions; but the poor girl was far from understanding all. Yet how rapturous the thought of knowing all! Once when Lorand was explaining to her the properties of the sun-spectrum, the girl sighed and, suddenly bending down to Lorand, whispered blushingly:
"Teach me to read."
Lorand looked at her in amazement. Topandy, looking over his shoulder, asked her:
"Tell me, what would be the use of teaching you to read?"
The girl clasped her hands to her bosom:
"I should like to learn to pray."
"What? To pray? And what would you pray for? Is there anything that you cannot do without?"
"There is."
"What can it be?"
"That is what I should like to know by praying."
"And you do not know yourself what it is?"
"I cannot express what it is."
"And do you know anybody who could give it you?"
The girl pointed to the sky.
Topandy shrugged his shoulders at her.
"Bah! you goose, reading is not for girls. Women are best off when they know nothing."
Then he laughed in her face.
Czipra ran weeping out of the laboratory.
Lorand pitied the poor creature, who, dressed in silks and finery, did not know her letters, and who was incapable of raising her voice to G.o.d.
He was in a mood, through long solitude, for pitying others; under a strange name, known to n.o.body, separated from the world, he was able to forget the lofty dreams to which a smooth career had pointed, and which fate, at his first steps, had mocked. He had given up the idea that the world should acknowledge this t.i.tle: "a great patriot, who is the holder of a high office." He who does not desire this should keep to the ploughshare. Ambition should only have well-regulated roads, and success should only begin with a lower office in the state. But he whose hobby it is to murmur, will find a fine career in field labor; and he who wishes to bury himself, will find himself supplied, in life, with a beautiful, romantic, flowery wheat-covered cemetery by the fields, from the centre of which the happy dead creatures of life cheerfully mock at those who weary themselves and create a disturbance--with the idea that they are doing something, whereas their end is the same as that of the rest of mankind.
Lorand was even beginning to grow indifferent to the awful obligation that lay before him at the end of the appointed time. It was still afar off. Before then a man might die peacefully and quietly; perhaps that other who guarded the secret might pa.s.s away ere then. And perhaps the years at the plough would harden the skin of a man"s soul, as it did of his face and hands, so that he would come to ridicule a wager, which in his youthful over-enthusiasm he would have fulfilled; a wager the refusal to accept which would merely win the commendation of everybody.
And if any one could say the reverse, how could he find him to say it to his face? As regards his family at home, he was fairly at his ease. He often received letters from Dezso (Desiderius), under another address; they were all well at home, and treated the fate of the expelled son with good grace. He also learned that Madame Balnokhazy had not returned to her husband, but had gone abroad with that actor with whom she had previously been acquainted. This also he had wiped out from his memory.
His whole mind was a perfect blank in which there was room for other people"s misfortunes.
It was impossible not to remark how Czipra became attached to him in her simplicity. She had a feeling which she had never felt before, a feeling of shame, if some impudent jest was made at her expense by one of Topandy"s guests, in the presence of Lorand.
Once, when Topandy and Lorand were amusing themselves at greater length with optical experiments in the lonely scientific apartment, Lorand took the liberty of introducing the subject.
"Is it true that that girl has grown up without any knowledge whatever?"
"Surely; she knows neither G.o.d nor alphabet."
"Why don"t you allow the poor child to learn to know them?"
"What, her alphabet? Because in my eyes it is quite superfluous. A mad idea once occurred to me of picking some naked gypsy child out of the streets, with the intention of making a happy being therefrom. What is happiness in the world? Ease and ignorance. Had I a child of my own, I should do the same with it. The secret of life is to have a good appet.i.te, sound sleep, and a good heart. If I reflect what bitternesses have been my lot my whole life, I find the cause of each one was what I have learned. Many a night did I lie awake in agonized distraction, while my servants were snoring in peace. I desired to see before me a person as happy as it was my ideal to be; a person free from those distressing tortures, which the civilized world has discovered for the persecution of man by man. Well, I have begun by telling you why I did not teach Czipra her alphabet."
"And G.o.d?"
Topandy took his eyes off the telescope, with which he had just been gazing at the starry sky.
"I don"t know Him myself."
Lorand turned from him with a distressed air. Topandy remarked it.
"My dear boy, my dear twenty-year-old child, probably you know more than I do; if you know Him, I beg you to teach me."
Lorand shrugged his shoulders, then began to discuss scientific subjects.
"Does Dollond"s telescope show stars in the Milky Way?"
"Yes, a million twinkling stars o"erspread the Milky Way, each several star a sun."
"Does it dissipate the mist in the head of the Northern Hound?"
"The mist remains as it was before--a round cloudy ma.s.s with a ring of mist around it."
"Perhaps Gregory"s telescope, just arrived from Vienna, magnifies better?"
"Bring it here. Since its arrival there has been no clear weather, to enable us to make experiments with it."
Topandy gazed at the heavens through the new telescope with great interest.
"Ah," he remarked in a tone of surprise. "This is a splendid instrument; the star-mist thins, some tiny stars appear out of the ring."
"And the ma.s.s itself?"
"That remains mist. Not even this telescope can disperse its atoms."
"Well, shall we not experiment with Chevalier"s microscope now?"