"Perhaps I should make a failure of it. But--if you"d allow me--I would try to make a start with you."
"I can only say I shall be honoured," said Sir Seymour, with a touch of almost shamefaced modesty which he endeavoured to hide with a very grave courtliness. "Please let me know, if you don"t change your mind. I"m a good bit battered, but such as I am I am always at your service--out of work hours."
His last words to Garstin at the street door were:
"You"ve taught an old soldier how to take a hard knock."
CHAPTER XVI
Sir Seymour usually called on Lady Sellingworth about five o"clock in the afternoon when he was not detained by work or inevitable engagements. On the day of his visit to Garstin"s studio with the inspector he felt that he owed it to Adela to go to Berkeley Square and to tell her what had happened in connexion with Arabian since he had last seen her. She must be anxious for news. It was not likely that she had seen Miss Van Tuyn, that beautiful prisoner in Claridge"s hotel.
Miss Van Tuyn might have telephoned to her and told her of his visits to the hotel. But Adela would certainly expect to see him, would certainly be waiting for him. He ought to go to her. Since the morning he had been very busy. He had not had time to call again on Miss Van Tuyn, who could, therefore--so at least he believed--know nothing of the outrage in the studio. That piece of news which would surely be welcome to her if she understood what it implied, should rightly come to her from the woman who had been unselfish for her sake. Adela ought to tell her that.
But first it was his duty to tell Adela. He must go to Berkeley Square.
And he decided to go and set out on foot. But as he walked he was conscious of a strange and hideous reluctance to pay the customary visit--the visit which had been the bright spot in his day for so long.
He had interfered with the design of Arabian. But Arabian unconsciously had stabbed him to the heart with a sentence, meant to be malicious, about Adela, but surely not intended to pierce him.
Young Craven! Young Craven!
When he reached the familiar door and was standing before it he hesitated to press the bell. He feared that he would not be perfectly natural with Adela. He feared that he would be constrained, that he would be unable not to seem cold and rigid. Almost he was tempted to turn away. He could write his news to her. Perhaps even now young Craven was in the house with her. Perhaps he, the old man, would be unwanted, would only be in the way if he went in. But it was not his habit to recoil from anything and, after a moment of uneasy waiting, he put his hand to the bell.
Murgatroyd opened the door.
"Good day, Murgatroyd. Is her Ladyship at home?"
"Yes, Sir Seymour."
He stepped into the hall, left his hat, coat and stick, and prepared to go upstairs.
"Anyone with her Ladyship?"
"No, Sir Seymour. Her Ladyship is alone."
A moment later Murgatroyd opened the drawing-room door and made the familiar announcement:
"Sir Seymour Portman!"
Adela was as usual on the sofa by the tea-table, near to the fireplace in which ship logs were blazing. She got up to greet him, and looked at him eagerly, almost anxiously.
"I was hoping you would come. Has anything happened?"
"Yes, a great deal," he said, as he took her hand.
"Why do you look at me like that?" she asked.
"But--do I look at you differently from--"
"Yes," she interrupted him.
He lowered his eyes, feeling almost guilty.
"But in what way?"
"As if you wanted to know something, as if--have you changed towards me?"
"My dear Adela! What a question from you after all these years!"
"You might change."
"Nonsense, my dear."
"No, no, it is not! Anyone may change. We are all incalculable."
"Give me some tea now. And let me tell you my news."
She sat down again, but her luminous eyes were still fixed on him, and there was an almost terrified expression in them.
"You haven"t seen--him?" she asked.
"Yes."
"You have! I felt it! He has said something about me, something horrible!"
"Adela, do you really think I would take an opinion of you from a blackguard like that?"
"Please tell me everything," she said.
She looked painfully agitated, and something in her agitation made him feel very tender, for it gave her in his eyes a strange semblance of youthfulness. Yes, despite all she had done, all the years she had lived through, there was something youthful in her still. Perhaps it was that which persistently held out hands to youth! The thought struck him and the tenderness was lessened in his eyes.
"Seymour, you are hiding something from me," she said.
"Adela, give me a little time! I am going to tell you my news."
"Yes, yes, please do!"
"I want my tea," he said, with a smile.
"Oh, I beg your pardon!"
"How young you are!" he said.
"Young! How can you say such a thing?"
"Now really, Adela! As if I could ever be sarcastic with you!"
"That remark could only be sarcastic."
He sipped his tea.