That day, later on, he had not actually said, but had implied that some Spanish blood ran in his veins.
"But I belong to no country," he had added quickly. "I am a _gamin_ of the world."
"Not a citizen?" she had said.
"No; I am the eternal _gamin_. I shall never be anything else."
All very well! But at moments she was convinced that there was a very hard and a very wary man in Arabian.
Perhaps sitting under the singing palm tree there was a savage!
She wanted to know what Arabian was. She began to feel that she must know. For, in spite of her ignorance, their intimacy was deepening. And now people were beginning to talk. Although she had been so careful not to show herself with Arabian in any smart restaurants, not to walk with him in the more frequented parts of the West End, they had been seen together. On the day when she had brought him to Claridge"s some American friends had seen them pa.s.s through the hall, and afterwards had asked her who he was. Another day, when she was coming away with him from the studio, she had met Lady Archie Brooke at the corner of Glebe Place. She had not stopped to speak. But Lady Archie had stared at Arabian. And Miss Van Tuyn knew what that meant. The "old guard" would be told of Beryl"s wonderful new man.
She felt nervously sensitive about Arabian. And yet she had been about Paris with all sorts of men, and had not cared what people had thought or said. But those men had been clever, workers in the arts, men with names that were known, or that would be known presently. Arabian was different. She felt oddly shy about being seen with him. Her audacity seemed fading away in her. She realized that and felt alarmed. If only she knew something definite about Arabian, who he was, what his people were, where he came from, she would feel much easier. She began to worry about the matter. She lay awake at night. At moments a sort of desperation came upon her like a wave. Sometimes she said to herself, "I wish I had never met him." And yet she knew that she did not want to get rid of him. But she wished no one to know of her friendship; with this man--if it were a friendship.
Garstin was watching her through it all. She hated his eyes. He did not care what was happening to her. He only cared what appearance it caused; how it affected her eyes, her manner, her expression, the line of her mouth, the movements of her hands. He had said that she was waking up.
But--to what?
All this time she seemed to be aware of an almost fatal growing intention in Arabian. Nevertheless, he waited. She had never been able to forget the article she had read in the _Westminster Gazette_. When she had read about the woman in the play she had instinctively compared herself with that woman. And then something in her revolted. She had thought of it as her Americanism, which loathed the idea of slavery in any form. But nevertheless, she had been aware of alarming possibilities within her. She was able to understand the woman in the play. And that must surely be because she was obscurely akin to her. And she knew that when she had read the article the man in the play had made her think of Arabian. That, of course, was absurd. But she understood why it was.
That woman had been attracted by a man of whom she knew nothing. She, Beryl Van Tuyn, was in the same situation. But of course she did not compare poor Arabian in her mind with a homicidal maniac.
He was gentle and charming. Old f.a.n.n.y liked him immensely, said he had a kind heart. And f.a.n.n.y was sensitive.
Yet again she thought of the savage sitting under the palm tree and of d.i.c.k Garstin"s allusion to a king in the underworld.
She resented being worried. She resented having her nerves on edge.
She was angry with d.i.c.k Garstin, and even angry with herself. In bed at night, when she could not sleep, she read books on New Thought, and tried to learn how to govern her mind and to control her thought processes. But she was not successful in the attempt. Her mind continually went to Arabian, and then she was filled with anxiety, with suspicion, with jealousy, and with a strange sort of longing mysteriously combined with repulsion and dread. And underneath all her feelings and thoughts there was a basic excitement which troubled her and which she could not get rid of.
One morning she got up full of restlessness. That day d.i.c.k Garstin was not painting. It was a Sunday, and he had gone into the country to stay with some friends. Miss Van Tuyn had made no arrangement to see Arabian.
Indeed, she never saw him except on the painting days, for she still kept up the pretence that he was merely an acquaintance, and that she only met him because of her interest in Garstin"s work and her wish to learn more of the technique of painting. The day was free before her.
She went to the telephone and called up Alick Craven.
It was a fine morning, cold and crisp, with a pale sun. She longed to be out of town, and she suggested to Craven to join her in hiring a Daimler car, to run down to Rye, and to have a round of golf on the difficult course by the sea. She had a friend close to Rye who would introduce them as visiting players. They would take a hamper and lunch in the car on the way down.
Craven agreed with apparent eagerness. By ten they were off. Soon after one they were on the links. They played the full round, eighteen holes, and Craven beat her. Then they had tea in the house below the club-house on the left-hand side of the road as you go towards Camber Sands.
After tea Miss Van Tuyn suggested running a little farther on in the car and taking a walk on the sands before starting on the journey back to London.
"I love hard sands and the wind and the lines upon lines of surf!" she said. "The wind blows away some of my civilization."
"I know!" said Craven, looking at her with admiration.
He liked her strength and energy, the indefatigable youth of her.
"_En route!_"
Soon the car stopped. They got out, and over the sandy hill, with its rough sea-gra.s.ses, they made their way to the sands.
The tide was low. There was room and to spare on the hard, level expanse. Lines of white surf stretched to right and left far as the eyes could see. The piercing cries of the gulls floating on the eddying wind were relieved against the blooming diapason of the sea. And the solitude was as the solitude of some lost island of the main. They descended, sinking in the loose, fine sand of the banks, and the soft, pale sand that edged them, and made their way to the yellow and vast sands that extended to the calling monster, whose voice filled their ears, and seemed to be summoning them persistently, with an almost tragic arrogance, away from all they knew, from all that was trying to hold and keep them, to the unknown, to the big things that lie always far off over the edge of the horizon.
"Let us turn our backs on Rye!" said the girl.
They swung round with the wind behind them, and walked on easily side by side, helped by the firm and delicate floor under their feet.
She was wearing a wine-coloured "jumper," a short skirt of a rough heathery material, a small brown hat pinned low on her head, pressed down on her smooth forehead. Her cheeks were glowing. The wind sent the red to them. She stepped along with a free, strongly athletic movement.
There was a hint of the Amazon in her. On her white neck some wisps of light yellow hair, loosened by the wind"s fingers, quivered as if separately alive and wilful with energy.
Craven, striding along in knickerbockers beside her, felt the animal charm of her as he had never felt it in London. She had thrust her gloves away in some hidden pocket. Her right hand grasped a stick firmly. The white showed at the knuckles. He felt through her silence that she was giving herself heart and soul to the spirit of the place, to the sweeping touch of the wind, to the eternal sound in the voice of the sea.
They walked on for a long time into the far away. There was a dull lemon light over the sea pushing through the grey, hinting at sunset. A flock of gulls tripped jauntily on some wet sand near to them, in which radiance from the sky was mysteriously retained. A film of moving moisture from the sea spread from the nearest surf edge, herald of the turning tide. Miss Van Tuyn raised her arms, shook them, cried out with all her force. And the gulls rose, easily, strongly, and flew insolently towards their element.
"Let us turn!" she said.
"All right!"
Those were the first words they had spoken.
"Let us go and sit down in a sand-bank and see the twilight come."
"Yes."
They sat down presently among the spear-like blades of the spiky gra.s.s, facing the tides and the evening sky, and Craven, with some difficulty, lit his pipe and persuaded it to draw, while she looked at his long-fingered brown hands.
"I couldn"t sit here with some people I know," she said. "Desolation like this needs the right companion. Isn"t it odd how some people are only for certain places?"
"And I suppose _the_ one person is for all places."
"Do you feel at home with me here?" she asked him, rather abruptly and with a searching look at him.
"Yes, quite--since our game. A good game is a link, isn"t it?"
"For bodies."
"Well, that means a good deal. We live in the body."
"Some people marry through games, or hunting. They"re the bodily people.
Others marry through the arts. Music pulls them together, or painting, or literature. They are mental."
"Bodies--minds! And what about hearts?" asked Craven.
"The tide"s coming in. Hearts? They work in mystery, I believe. I expect when you love someone who hasn"t a taste in common with you your heart must be hard at work. Perhaps it is only opposites who can really love, those who don"t understand why. If you understand why you are on the ground, you have no need of wings. Have you ever been afraid of anyone?"
Craven looked at her with a dawning of surprise.
"Do you mean of a German soldier, for instance?" he said.
"No, no! Of course not. Of anyone you have known personally; afraid of anyone as an individual? That"s what I mean."
"I can"t remember that I ever have."