The friction ... his growls of pleasure ... the thick heat swelling within her.
Just watching his body move like this was about to send her over the edge. Her hands were drawn to him, palms caressing his sheening chest, then dipping down his torso.
With each of her strokes, with each of his relentless plunges, tension built inside her, spiraling, until she throbbed. "Demon!" she cried, desperate for release. Her head thrashed as the pressure within her gathered, readying to explode.
At last, the pleasure seized her. Scorching. Boundless. "Ah, G.o.ds! Malkom, yes!" Malkom, yes!" Her back arched, her nails digging into his hips, wanting more, wanting him even deeper. Her back arched, her nails digging into his hips, wanting more, wanting him even deeper.
"I feel you," he bit out between clenched teeth. "Feel you coming round me." At the last minute, when she was certain he"d remain within, he jerked his hips back.
With an agonized yell, he shoved his shaft over her belly, mindlessly grinding atop her for his final shuddering throes.
When he collapsed over her, she gazed above him at the misty sky, tears welling as she hurt for him-hurt with with him. him.
At her ear, he grated, "I"m still not done with you, wife." "I"m still not done with you, wife."
When Carrow woke just before dawn, a coc.o.o.n of fog had wrapped around her and Malkom. The last time she"d checked on Ruby, it"d been raining. Now all was still and soft.
Malkom remained asleep, which wasn"t surprising. He had to have exhausted himself in the previous hours of sweating, frenzied-and, she hoped, cathartic-s.e.x.
Yet never once had he hurt her.
And at the end of the night, he"d turned on his side so he could enfold her in his arms, clasping her tightly to him. His body still shuddering, his voice raw, he"d said, "A witch holds my life in her palm. Ara, I live or die for you." "A witch holds my life in her palm. Ara, I live or die for you."
Now she gazed down at him. His brows were drawn, his eyes moving behind his lids. His lean cheeks were covered in blond stubble.
So beautiful. Her wild, lost male. How could this demon who"d known so much hurt and shame be so proud and good? Her wild, lost male. How could this demon who"d known so much hurt and shame be so proud and good?
She grazed the backs of her fingers over his face, repeating his words, "Carrow is Malkom"s."
Wanting to get back to her own bed before Ruby woke, she reluctantly extricated herself from his arms, earning a soft growl, though he slept on.
She dressed in tattered clothes, then made her way to the cabin, reflecting on the secrets he"d confided, the revelations of all that had been done to him.
In the past, she"d wondered if hatred and abuse might be preferable to neglect and abandonment. At least then she might have found out why her parents hadn"t loved her.
After hearing Malkom"s tale, she knew how fortunate she"d been. She"d been able to find a new family-a mother, sister, daughter.
And now a husband.
Carrow was lost for him. She admired him, respected him, loved him.
She felt as if they"d turned a corner. He"d let out all his frustrations, told her his secrets. It had to have bonded them. She"d become certain that he could get over her betrayal.
But could he get over the rest-the four centuries of expecting and receiving duplicity-without breaking her heart first?
When he woke, she would tell him that things were going to be different. She wouldn"t tolerate him saying cruel things to her-or about himself. He was her husband, and she"d be d.a.m.ned if she let anyone call him those things, not even Malkom himself.
Going forward, she would show him that he was more than his past. Did Carrow believe that the love of a good woman would heal all his wounds? Counteract years of abuse?
No. But the love of a good woman and a new daughter, the respect and grat.i.tude of a witch coven, the eventual welcome into a community of immortals-well, these things couldn"t hurt.
She intended to fight his doubt, calling on all her available resources to kick its a.s.s to the curb. If he thought his past was stronger than their future, then he"d never seen a witch h.e.l.l-bent on saving her demonically proclaimed marriage.
Heartened by her decision, she rubbed her thumb over her ring.
Am I not more than my past as well? She was ready to fight his doubt, but not her own? She was ready to fight his doubt, but not her own?
Though the ring wasn"t as loose as it"d been, she realized it no longer fit her. She removed it, clasping it in her palm as she detoured to the beach.
Standing before the roaring surf, she peered down at it.
Carrow was done.
She"d made this resolution before, but invariably, as time went by, she would try to contact her parents. Always she"d held on to this d.a.m.ned ring, held on to unfounded hope.
Done. She threw the ring into the waves. She threw the ring into the waves.
At once, she gasped, tempted to dash into the water and find it. But she stopped herself. Tears welling, she raised her face to the mist. Good-bye. Good-bye.
Turning on her heel, she headed back to the cabin. With every step she took away from her past, she felt lighter, as if a crushing weight on her chest were dissolving. The longing, the bafflement, the desperation desperation-all ... ebbing.
She sighed, feeling as if she could finally breathe after so long.
In the bedroom, she tugged Ruby"s blanket higher, leaning down to brush a kiss over her forehead. I"m going to take care of you, Ruby. I always will. I"m going to take care of you, Ruby. I always will.
Satisfaction coursed through Carrow, a flare of power surging within her. Though doused by her torque, it had arisen...
From within me?
With a bewildered laugh, she climbed into the other bed. All her life, she"d been waiting for this answer. Carrow had always known she could feed her powers from anyone"s anyone"s happiness. She"d just never figured it could be her own-because she"d never been truly happy. happiness. She"d just never figured it could be her own-because she"d never been truly happy.
Not until she"d let go of her past and welcomed a new future.
She stared at the peeling ceiling, which looked so different from when she"d left it. Because I"m different now. Because I"m different now.
Then she smiled, smiled, was still smiling when she gradually drifted to sleep. was still smiling when she gradually drifted to sleep.
But not long after, she bolted upright in bed, just as Ruby did.
"Did you feel that, Crow?" the girl murmured. "Something bad"s coming."
Chapter 44
"What do you want with me, Mariketa?" Conrad Wroth said as he traced with his wife into Andoain"s great hall.
As soon as Mari had been able to locate them-a feat in itself-she"d asked them here to meet with her and Bowen. "I need a favor," she said, beholding the towering, red-eyed vampire. The key. The key.
Conrad was an immortal male, filled with evil-in the form of a vampire"s blood-borne memories-and he was obsessed with Neomi, his phantom Bride. Who was asintangible as smoke.
Fortunately, Conrad owed Mari big-time. The ballerina Neomi, now one of Mari"s friends, was alive only because of her.
"Name it, then," Conrad said, his Estonian accent p.r.o.nounced.
"Well, it"s like this," Mari began, "you know how Loreans have been abducted by this weird order of mortals? My best friend Carrow was among them. But I"ve located where they"re all being kept."
Though Mari had been able to sense a cataclysmic Lore disturbance, she could get no second opinion or reading from other witches. She couldn"t find Nix anywhere, so no backup from her.
In the eyes of the Lore, Mari"s mystical waypoint was only a baseless hunch.
She felt like the plucky seismologist who"d seen a blip of untold strength but couldn"t get anyone to believe the big one big one was coming. was coming.
"What does this have to do with me?" Conrad asked.
Bowen said, "We need someone to teleport me to Carrow."
"Us," Mari corrected. "Teleport Mari corrected. "Teleport us us to Carrow." to Carrow."
Clasping her upper arm, Bowen said, "d.a.m.n it, la.s.s! We have talked about this."
They"d been going round and round. Her wolf was nothing if not overprotective.
"And I will no" allow-"
"How did you find them?" Neomi interrupted, softly but sternly, her French accent coloring her words.
Mari said, "I detected the immortal energy within the place and was able to download the location into a mirror. Full disclosure: it felt like a freaking Lore world war was going on."
Conrad and Neomi both remained quiet. At length, Neomi said, "You know how deeply we are in your debt."
Not even a year ago, Conrad had brought a dying Neomi to Mari. She"d risked everything to save Neomi, using more power than she"d had to give to transform her into a phantom, an immortal who could become corporeal or intangible at will.
"But this sounds like a suicide mission," Neomi continued. "If he can somehow trace to this energy you speak of, what if it"s in the middle of the ocean, or in a sunny desert?"
"I firmly believe that it"s on an island."
Conrad asked, "Can"t someone fly over the coordinates first?"
"Nix told us it couldn"t be seen from a plane," Mari hedged, since, of course, there were no coordinates. Which had hardly helped her prove her case to her immortal allies.
"Vampire, we need someone to get us on the ground, on the ground," Bowen smoothly said, "so we can search the island on foot."
Mari added, "Conrad, it has to be you."
"How would he know where to go?" Neomi asked.
Mari carefully gazed away as she held up a small pocket mirror. Before this week, she"d never achieved so much magic with so little mirror. "I created a trail to the energy, like a portal, and stored the directions to it in this mirror. I believe if you gaze into the gla.s.s, it will act like a mystical GPS GPS system to guide your teleportation." system to guide your teleportation." Patent pending if this badboy works! Patent pending if this badboy works! "It"s possible you could trace directly there." "It"s possible you could trace directly there."
Conrad gripped Neomi"s small hand. "If something happens to me, who will take care of my Bride?"
Mari hated to pressure him, but this was for Carrow. "Conrad, you wouldn"t have a Bride right now if not for me."
The vampire gazed down at Neomi with such a consuming look that even Mari sighed. "I"ll do as you ask, witch." Just when Mari felt a welling of relief, he said, "But I go alone. I can trace across the area much faster. Can cover more ground."
Bowen shook his head. "We doona know exactly what you"d be tracing into. Did you no" hear the Lore world war Lore world war bit earlier? At the very least, you can expect those mortals to be there in full force." bit earlier? At the very least, you can expect those mortals to be there in full force."
"Alone," the vampire repeated. the vampire repeated.
"But how will Carrow know you are a friend?" Neomi asked him. "Your eyes are red."
Conrad was a true fallen vampire, his eyes bloodred from drinking victims to death. But he"d been brought back from the brink by Neomi and three stubborn Wroth brothers.
Mari said, "I could tell him something only Carrow would know. And show him pics so he"d recognize her."
"Are you certain, mon grand mon grand?" Neomi asked.
He nodded, saying simply, "Mariketa bids this."
"Very well." The dancer stood on her toes, reaching up her free hand to thread her fingers through his black hair. "Then bring Carrow back. And come home safely to me."
"I will return with her," he told Neomi. Then he faced Mariketa. "To pay on a debt so dear that it can never be settled."
Malkom woke late, blinking against a heavy bank of morning fog. He"d just dreamed a memory of Carrow"s, one that he hadn"t experienced before.
When he"d been in chains, humiliated in front of all the citizens of Ash, Carrow had looked up at him with realization. Malkom is n.o.ble, Malkom is n.o.ble, she"d thought. she"d thought.
He sat up, staring out into the gray mist, staggered yet again by her. In the past, he"d longed to be n.o.ble. He might not actually be, but for his lady to deem him so?
"Tis well enough for me.
Then his heart sank. She had thought that before before last night, when he"d proved he was anything but. last night, when he"d proved he was anything but.
Why could he not stop punishing her? Did he mean to take out all all his pain on her, centuries of it? his pain on her, centuries of it?
He sank back, throwing his arm over his face. The things he"d said to her, the things he"d done done. He"d revealed secrets he"d never told anyone-not even Kallen. And then he"d taken her in the dirt like a common wh.o.r.e.
He suffered from remorse so acute it physically pained him. Get to Carrow. Apologize. Make her understand. Get to Carrow. Apologize. Make her understand. With those thoughts in mind, he rose and dressed, hastening to her. With those thoughts in mind, he rose and dressed, hastening to her.
As he came upon the cabin, the fog burned off, the sun appearing for the first time since their escape. Already it"d begun burning his exposed skin.