"Drowndead," said Mr. Peggotty.
I was very much surprised that Mr. Peggotty was not Ham"s father, and began to wonder whether I was mistaken about his relationship to anybody else there. I was so curious to know that I made up my mind to have it out with Mr. Peggotty.
"Little Em"ly," I said, glancing at her. "She is your daughter, isn"t she, Mr. Peggotty?"
"No, sir. My brother-in-law, Tom, was _her_ father."
I couldn"t help it. "----Dead, Mr. Peggotty?" I hinted, after another respectful silence.
"Drowndead," said Mr. Peggotty.
I felt the difficulty of resuming the subject, but had not got to the bottom of it yet, and must get to the bottom somehow. So I said:
"Haven"t you _any_ children, Mr. Peggotty?"
"No, master," he answered, with a short laugh. "I"m a bacheldore."
"A bachelor!" I said, astonished. "Why, who"s that, Mr. Peggotty?"
Pointing to the person in the ap.r.o.n who was knitting.
"That"s Missis Gummidge," said Mr. Peggotty.
"Gummidge, Mr. Peggotty?"
But at this point Peggotty--I mean my own Peggotty--made such impressive motions to me not to ask any more questions, that I could only sit and look at all the company, until it was time to go to bed.
Mrs. Gummidge lived with them too, and did the cooking and cleaning, for she was a poor widow and had no home of her own. I thought Mr. Peggotty was very good to take all these people to live with him, and I was quite right, for Mr. Peggotty was only a poor man himself and had to work hard to get a living.
Almost as soon as morning shone upon the oyster-sh.e.l.l frame of my mirror I was out of bed, and out with t.i.ttle Em"ly, picking up stones upon the beach.
"You"re quite a sailor I suppose?" I said to Em"ly. I don"t know that I supposed anything of the kind, but I felt it proper to say something; and a shining sail close to us made such a pretty little image of itself, at the moment, in her bright eye, that it came into my head to say this.
"No," replied Em"ly, shaking her head, "I"m afraid of the sea."
"Afraid!" I said, with a becoming air of boldness, and looking very big at the mighty ocean. "I ain"t."
"Ah! but it"s cruel," said Em"ly. "I have seen it very cruel to some of our men. I have seen it tear a boat as big as our house all to pieces."
"I hope it wasn"t the boat that--"
"That father was drowned in?" said Em"ly. "No. Not that one, I never see that boat."
"Nor him?" I asked her.
Little Em"ly shook her head. "Not to remember!"
Here was something remarkable. I immediately went into an explanation how I had never seen my own father; and how my mother and I had always lived by ourselves in the happiest state imaginable, and lived so then, and always meant to live so; and how my father"s grave was in the churchyard near our house, and shaded by a tree, beneath the boughs of which I had walked and heard the birds sing many a pleasant morning. But there were some differences between Em"ly"s orphanhood and mine, it appeared. She had lost her mother before her father, and where her father"s grave was no one knew, except that it was somewhere in the depths of the sea.
"Besides," said Em"ly, as she looked about for sh.e.l.ls and pebbles, "your father was a gentleman and your mother is a lady; and my father was a fisherman and my mother was a fisherman"s daughter, and my Uncle Dan is a fisherman."
"Dan is Mr. Peggotty, is he?" said I.
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"Uncle--yonder," answered Em"ly, nodding at the boat-house.
"Yes. I mean him. He must be very good, I should think."
"Good?" said Em"ly. "If I was ever to be a lady, I"d give him a sky-blue coat with diamond b.u.t.tons, nankeen trousers, a red velvet waistcoat, a c.o.c.ked hat, a large gold watch, a silver pipe, and a box of money."
I said I had no doubt that Mr. Peggotty well deserved these treasures.
Little Em"ly had stopped and looked up at the sky while she named these articles, as if they were a glorious vision. We went on again picking up sh.e.l.ls and pebbles.
"You would like to be a lady?" I said.
Em"ly looked at me, and laughed and nodded "yes."
"I should like it very much. We would all be gentlefolks together, then.
Me, and uncle, and Ham, and Mrs. Gummidge. We wouldn"t mind then, when there come stormy weather. Not for our own sakes, I mean. We would for the poor fishermen"s, to be sure, and we"d help "em with money when they come to any hurt."
I was quite sorry to leave these kind people and my dear little companion, but I was glad to think I should get back to my own dear mamma. When I reached home, however, I found a great change. My mother was married to the dark man I did not like, whose name was Mr.
Murdstone, and he was a stern, hard man, who had no love for me, and did not allow my mother to pet and indulge me as she had done before. Mr.
Murdstone"s sister came to live with us, and as she was even more difficult to please than her brother, and disliked boys, my life was no longer a happy one. I tried to be good and obedient, for I knew it made my mother very unhappy to see me punished and found fault with. I had always had lessons with my mother, and as she was patient and gentle, I had enjoyed learning to read, but now I had a great many very hard lessons to do, and was so frightened and shy when Mr. and Miss Murdstone were in the room, that I did not get on at all well, and was continually in disgrace.
Let me remember how it used to be, and bring one morning back again.
I come into the second-best parlor after breakfast, with my books, and an exercise-book and a slate. My mother is ready for me at her writing-desk, but not half so ready as Mr. Murdstone in his easy-chair by the window (though he pretends to be reading a book), or as Miss Murdstone, sitting near my mother stringing steel beads. The very sight of these two has such an influence over me that I begin to feel the words I have been at infinite pains to get into my head all sliding away, and going I don"t know where. I wonder where they _do_ go, by-the-by?
I hand the first book to my mother. Perhaps it is a grammar, perhaps a history, or geography. I take a last drowning look at the page as I give it into her hand, and start off aloud at a racing pace while I have got it fresh. I trip over a word. Mr. Murdstone looks up. I trip over another word. Miss Murdstone looks up. I redden, tumble over half a dozen words and stop. I think my mother would show me the book if she dared, but she does not dare, and she says softly:
"Oh, Davy, Davy!"
"Now, Clara," says Mr. Murdstone, "be firm with the boy. Don"t say, "Oh, Davy, Davy!" That"s childish. He knows his lesson, or he does not know it."
"He does _not_ know it," Miss Murdstone interposes awfully.
"I am really afraid he does not," says my mother.
"Then you see, Clara," returns Miss Murdstone, "you should just give him the book back, and make him know it."
"Yes, certainly," says my mother; "that is what I intend to do, my dear Jane. Now, Davy, try once more, and don"t be stupid."
I obey the first clause of my mother"s words by trying once more, but am not so successful with the second, for I am very stupid. I tumble down before I get to the old place, at a point where I was all right before, and stop to think. But I can"t think about the lesson. I think of the number of yards of net in Miss Murdstone"s cap, or of the price of Mr.
Murdstone"s dressing-gown, or any such ridiculous matter that I have no business with, and don"t want to have anything at all to do with. Mr.
Murdstone makes a movement of impatience which I have been expecting for a long time. Miss Murdstone does the same. My mother glances submissively at them, shuts the book, and lays it by, to be worked out when my other tasks are done.