Chapter 235:1 Blamed You
Translator: Nyoi-Bo Studio Editor: Nyoi-Bo Studio
“After 1 went down the mountain, 1 didn’t see you anymore. I thought I was mistaken.”
She remembered this small detail because she had seriously searched for the figure after she went down the mountain.
“You know what? At that time, I blamed you in my heart. I thought that my grandmother was so good to you, but you didn’t even come to see her one last time when she left.” Jin Nian’s voice was a little dry because she was sad. “1 actually dreamed of you that night. 1 dreamed that you were wearing a black shirt and came to send my grandmother off.”
“Don’t be sad.” Lu An hugged Jin Nian tightly.
Jin Nian suddenly whispered into his ear, “What should I do, Lu An? 1 really want to kiss you now. It’s not the gentle kiss but a crazy one.”
Lu An was stunned for a moment. The next second, he lowered his head and wanted to kiss Jin Nian, but she turned her head and reminded him softly, “The chauffeur is here.”
Knowing that Jin Nian was shy, Lu An didn’t kiss her. He just smiled and said, “How about we kiss when we get back?”
He thought that Jin Nian would reject him shyly, but she nodded. “Alright…”
Lu An knew how enthusiastic Jin Nian was when she was pa.s.sionate. Even so, he was still full of antic.i.p.ation. When Jin Nian intended to treat someone well, she would put in all her effort to fill up the other person’s heart.
Lu An was filled with intense antic.i.p.ation even before he reached home.
However, he couldn’t do anything in the car at the moment and he didn’t want to do it in front of outsiders. It wasn’t that Lu An was being conservative, but he knew that his self-control was always weak in front of Jin Nian. If he started to do something, the fire in his heart would spread. In the end, it wouldn’t be just accept a simple kiss.
Outside the car window, the bustling streets were crowded with people. Jin Nian saw the scene quickly rewinding to the back of the car window. She looked at the signboards outside the window and felt that it was novel.
Lu An held Jin Nian in his arms. He rubbed her hand and pecked her on the cheek, asking her if she was feeling uncomfortable.
After finding out that Jin Nian had been to Hong Kong alone and had an unpleasant experience, Lu An always wanted to make up for her.
This time, he was by her side. He wanted to give her the most sufficient sense of security and not let her wander alone and helpless on the streets of Hong Kong again.
After so many years, Jin Nian was no longer the naive and ignorant girl she was when she graduated from high school. She even felt that she was stupid back then.
“Lu An, if only you had received my call back then.”
A faint sour feeling crept into Lu An’s heart and he let out a soft grunt to hide his low mood.
Jin Nian wasn’t satisfied with Lu An’s response. “You don’t sound enthusiastic at all. Didn’t you welcome me to come to Hong Kong to find you back then?”
“Definitely not the case.” Lu An suddenly felt that his throat was extremely dry and itchy. He cleared his throat.
“Then why?”
“1 feel terrible.” Lu An pulled Jin Nian’s hand and pressed it against his chest. “It’s especially uncomfortable here.”
Lu An never easily took off the calm mask on his face. His hesitation and sadness were almost invisible to outsiders. He had formed a thick mask with his casual and nonchalant att.i.tude. After wearing the mask for a long time, it was as if he was the person the mask was acting.
Jin Nian’s heart ached when she saw Lu An like this. She gently patted Lu An’s back as if she was coaxing a child and said softly, “Don’t be sad. It’s already over.”
Yes. These were all things of the past.
The past could no longer be changed.
Ever since Teacher Tan accidentally mentioned that Jin Nian had come to Hong Kong alone to look for him, Lu An felt extremely guilty.
He and Jin Nian had missed their first meeting ten years ago. He could not change the past, and his heart was filled with satisfaction and regret.
Gradually, Lu An’s eyes were filled with tears.
It was said that Lu An’s heart was as cold as iron as if nothing in the world could touch him. That was indeed the case. Growing up in an environment of mutual deception, Lu An had always been more distant and guarded against others. Only Jin Nian could see and even touch the softest and most hidden place in his heart.
That night, Lu An had a dream. In the dream, he returned to ten years ago.
The summer sun hung in the sky, scorching the earth. He received Jin Nian’s call. On the other end of the phone, Jin Nian sounded a little hesitant. “Lu An, I’m at the airport now..”