"She"s in her room--she"s been there ever since it happened. Suzette"s seen her--n.o.body else. n.o.body else will go near her. Of course, while there was a doubt about Sophy--well, the doctor made it a condition that she should confine herself to her room till the thing took a definite turn. I hope she"s frightened at last. I don"t know what to do. The woman ought to be hanged, Grantley."
But wrath and horror at his wife were not the only feelings in Tom"s mind; the way the thing had happened raised other thoughts. He was prostrate under the sense that the fury which had smitten poor little Sophy had been aimed at him; his acts had inspired and directed it. He had made his children"s love for him a crime in their mother"s eyes. All his excuses, both false and real, failed him now. His own share in the tragedy of his home was heavy and heinous in his eyes.
"I ought to have remembered the children," he kept repeating desperately. He ought to have stayed and fought the battle for and with them, however hard the battle was. But he had run away--to Mrs. Bolton, and left them alone to endure the increased fury of Harriet"s rage.
"I"ve been a d.a.m.ned coward over it," he said, "and this is what comes of it, Grantley."
It was all true. Tom had not thought of the children. Even though he loved them, he had deserted them treacherously, because he had considered only his own wrongs, and had been wrapped up in his personal quarrel with his wife. What he had found unendurable himself he had left those helpless little creatures to endure. All the arguments which had seemed so strong to justify or to palliate his resort to the Bolton refuge sounded weak and mean to him now--and to Grantley too, who had been used to rely on them, lightly accepting them with a man of the world"s easy philosophy. His friends had almost encouraged Tom in his treacherous desertion of his children; they too had looked at nothing but the merits of his quarrel with Harriet, putting that by itself in a false isolation from the total life of the family, of which it was in truth an integral indivisible part. So Grantley meditated as he listened to Tom"s laments; and the meditation was not without meaning and light for him also.
Tom had a request to make of him--that he would go round to the house and spend the evening there.
"I daren"t trust myself near Harriet," he said, "and I"m uneasy with only the servants there. They"re all afraid of her. She was cowed, Suzette says, while there was danger; but she may break out again--anything might start her again. If you could stay till she"s safely in bed----"
"I"ll stay all night, if necessary, old fellow," said Grantley promptly.
"It"ll take a weight off my mind--and I"ve got about enough to bear. I"m going to stay here, of course; so you"ll know where to find me if I"m wanted, though I don"t see what can happen now."
Terror brooded over the Courtlands" house. Grantley rejoiced to see how his coming did something to lift the cloud. The two children left Suzette"s side (they loved her, but she seemed to them a defence all too frail), and came to him, standing on either side of his knee and putting their hands in his. The listening strained look pa.s.sed out of their eyes as he talked to them. Presently little Vera climbed up and nestled on his knee, while Lucy leant against his shoulder, and he got them to prattle about happy things, old holidays and bygone treats, to which Tom had taken them. At last Lucy laughed merrily at some childish memory.
The sound went straight to Grantley"s heart; a great tenderness came upon him. As he kissed them, his thoughts flew to his own little son--the child who had now begun to know love, to greet it and to ask for it. How these poor children prized even a decent kindness! Grantley seemed to himself to have done a fine day"s work--as fine a day"s work as he had ever done in his life--when he sent them off to bed with smiling lips and eyes relieved of dread.
"You won"t go away to-night, will you?" Lucy whispered as she kissed him good-night.
"Of course he"s not going!" cried little Vera, bravely confident in the strength of her helplessness.
"No, I"ll stay all night--all the whole night," Grantley promised.
He made his camp in the library on the ground floor, and there presently Suzette Bligh came to see him. She gave a good account of the wounded child. Sophy slept; the capable cheery woman who had come as nurse gave her courage to sleep.
"We must get her away to the seaside as soon as possible, and she"ll get all right, I think; though there must be a mark always. And of course the permanent question remains. Isn"t it all hopeless, Mr. Imason?"
"It"s a terrible business for you to be involved in."
"Oh, I can only thank heaven I was here! But for me I believe she"d have killed the child."
"What state is she in now?"
"I really don"t know. She won"t speak to me. She sits quite still, just staring at me. I try to stay with her, but it"s too dreadful. I can"t help hating her--and I think she knows it."
Grantley had some experience of coming to know what people felt about him.
"I expect she does," he nodded.
"What will happen, Mr. Imason?"
"I don"t know--except that the children mustn"t stay with her. Is she afraid of being prosecuted, do you think?"
"She hasn"t said anything about it. No, she doesn"t seem afraid; I don"t think that"s her feeling. But--but her eyes look awful. When I had to tell her that the doctor had forbidden her to come near the children, and said he would send the police into the house if she tried to go to them--well, I"ve never seen such an expression on any human face before.
She looked like--like somebody in h.e.l.l, Mr. Imason."
"Ah!" groaned Grantley with a jerk of his head, as though he turned from a fearful spectacle.
"I"ve just been with her. I persuaded her to go to bed--she"s not slept since it happened, I know--and got her to let me help her to undress.
Her maid won"t go to her; she"s too frightened. I hope she"ll go to sleep, or really I think she"ll lose her senses." She paused and then asked: "Will this make any difference in--in the proceedings?"
"Well, it gives Tom something to bargain with, doesn"t it? But you can"t tell with her. The ordinary motives may not appeal to her, any more than the natural feelings. I hope it may be possible to frighten her."
"Anyhow the children won"t have to stay--you"re sure of that?"
"We must try hard for that," said Grantley.
But Tom had made even that more difficult, because he had considered only his own quarrel, and, not thinking of the children, had run away to refuge with Mrs. Bolton, saving his own skin by treacherous flight.
Suzette bade Grantley good-night. She too must sleep, or her strength would fail.
"You"ll keep the door open?" she asked. "And her room is just over this.
You"ll hear if she moves, though I don"t think she will. It is good of you, Mr. Imason. We shall all sleep quietly to-night. Oh, but how tired you"ll be!"
"Not I!" he smiled. "I"ve often sat up till daylight on less worthy occasions. You"re the hero! You"ve come through this finely."
Suzette"s cheeks flushed at his praise.
"I do love the poor children," she said, as Grantley pressed her hand.
He sat down to his vigil. The house became very still. Once or twice steps pa.s.sed to and fro in the room above; then there was silence. In a quarter of an hour, perhaps, there were steps again; then another interval of quiet. This alternation of movement and rest went on for a long time. If Harriet Courtland slept, her sleep was broken. But presently Grantley ceased to mark the sound--ceased even to think of the Courtlands or of the house where he was. Led by the experiences of the day and by the feelings they had evoked, his thoughts took their way to Milldean, to his own home, to his wife and son. How nearly tragedy had come there too! Nay, was it yet gone? Was not its shadow still over the house? And why? He looked back again at the Courtlands--at Harriet"s unhallowed rage, at Tom"s weakness and desertion, at the fate of the children--not thought of and forgotten by the one, ill-used and put in terror by the other. He recollected how once they used to joke about the Courtlands" being at any rate useful as a warning. That joke had taken on too keen an edge to sound mirthful now. But the serious truth in it came home to him, making plain what he had been groping after ever since that night at the Sailors" Rest at Fairhaven, ever since Sibylla had opened her mouth against him and spoken the bitterness of her heart.
Yes, he thought he saw where the truth lay now. Calamity held up a torch to light his wandering feet.
No borrowed light had made plain the steps of the woman upstairs. The glare of her own ruin had been needed to illuminate the way she trod, so dense was the turbid darkness of her spirit. She saw now where she stood--and there seemed no going back. She had fallen into fits of remorse before--she had called herself cursed over her betrayal of Christine: that was nothing to this; yet she remembered it now, and it went to swell the wave of despair which overwhelmed her. Well might her eyes look like the eyes of one in h.e.l.l, for she was cut off from all love and sympathy. She herself had severed all those bonds whereby a human being becomes other than a roving solitary brute. There was no re-binding them. n.o.body would come near her; n.o.body could endure her presence; she was a thing of hatred and of fear. Even Suzette Bligh shrank while she served, and loathed while she ministered. Her husband could not trust himself in the house with her, and she could not be trusted in the room with her children. By the narrowest luck she was not a murderess; in the hearts of all, and in her own heart, she seemed a leper--a leper among people who were whole--an unclean thing--because of her b.e.s.t.i.a.l rage.
These thoughts had been in her mind all the night before and all the day. They did not consort with sleep nor make terms with peaceful rest.
Sometimes they drove her to wild and pa.s.sionate outbursts of weeping and imprecation; oftener they chained her motionless to her chair, so still that only her angry eyes showed life and consciousness. They left little room for fear of any external punishment, or for shame at any public exposure. They went deeper than that, condemning not the body but the soul, p.r.o.nouncing not the verdict of the world, but of herself and of nature"s inexorable law. They displayed the procession of evil--weakness growing to vice, vice turning to crime, crime throttling all the good--till she had become a thing horrible to those about her, horrible and incredible even to herself. And there was no going back, no going back at all. Her will was broken, and she had no hope in herself. The weights were on her feet, and dragged her down the abyss which now lay open and revealed before her eyes.
Suzette had persuaded her to undress and go to bed. She must sleep--yes, or she would go mad with the thoughts. But where was sleep with the agony of their sting? She had her chloral--an old ally--and had recourse to it. Then she would fling herself on the bed and try to think she could sleep. Exasperation drove her up again, and she paced the room in wrathful despair, cursing herself because she could not sleep, battling against the remorseless thoughts, exclaiming against their tortures, refusing the inquisition to which they subjected her. Then--back to bed again for another futile effort, another cry of despair, to be followed by another outburst of wild impatience, another fierce unavailing struggle against her tormentors, new visions of what she was and of what her life must be.
This was not a thing that she would endure; n.o.body could endure it and keep sanity. It should be ended! Her fierce defiant fury rose yet once more; the temper which had wrought all the calamity was not tamed by it in the end. She turned to her drug again. She knew there was danger in that, but she put the notion behind her scornfully. Why, the stuff would not even make her sleep! Could it hurt her when it could not even give her sleep? That was nonsense, stupid nonsense. She would have sleep!
Nature fell victim to her rage now; she would beat nature down by her fury, as she had been wont to beat down all opposing wills. She had listened to nothing in her tempests. Now she rose again to the whirlwind of pa.s.sion, denying what she knew, refusing to look at it. Kill herself?
Not she! Yet if she did, what matter? Had she anything to look for in life? Would anybody grieve for her? It would be a riddance for all of them if she died. But she wouldn"t die. No danger of that--and no such luck either! Each dose left her more pitiably wide-awake, more gruesomely alert in mind, more hideously acute to feel the sting of those torturing thoughts. An over-dose indeed! No dose, it seemed, could serve even to dull the sharpness of her mordant reflections. But she would have sleep--at all costs, sleep! She cursed herself vilely because she could not sleep.
Thus came, as of old, now for the last time, the madness and blindness of her rage, the rage which forgot all save itself, merged every other consciousness, spared n.o.body and nothing. It was turned against herself now, and neither did it spare herself. She drugged herself again, losing all measure, and then flung herself heavily on the bed. Ah! Yes, surely there was a change now? The horrid pictures grew mercifully dim, the sting of the torturing thoughts was drawn, the edge of conscience blunted. Her rage had had its way, it had beaten down nature. For a moment she grasped this triumph, and exulted in it in her old barbarous gloating over the victories of her fury. All things had been against her sleep. But now it came; she had won it. She ceased to move, to curse, even to think. The blessed torpor stole over her. Her life and what it must be pa.s.sed from her mind; a compa.s.sionate blankness spread over her intellect. She was at peace! To-morrow--yes, to-morrow! All things could wait now till to-morrow. She would be better able to face them to-morrow--after a good night"s sleep. Who had dared to say she could not sleep? Her eyes closed, and her heavy breathing sounded through the room. She stirred no more. Her rage had its way with her, as with all others. It had demanded sleep. She slept.
Dawn had broken when a hand laid on his shoulder roused Grantley Imason from an uneasy doze. He found Suzette by him in her dressing-gown and barefooted. Instinctively he listened for an instant to hear if there were any sound from the room above. There was none, and he asked her:
"Is anything wrong?"
"Yes," whispered Suzette, "Come upstairs!"
Not knowing what the evil chance might be, he followed her, and she led him into Harriet Courtland"s room. She had already opened one of the shutters, and the early light streamed in on to the bed. Harriet lay on her side, with her head thrown back on the pillow and her eyes turned up to the ceiling. She lay above the clothes of the bed, and her nightgown was torn away from her throat. Suzette had thrown a dressing-gown over her body from breast to feet. She looked wonderfully handsome as she lay there, so still, so peaceful, like some splendid animal in a reaction of exhaustion after savage grand exertion. He drew near. The truth came home to him at once. The two stood and looked at Harriet. At last he turned to Suzette. He found her very pale, but quite calm.
"She"s dead, Mr. Imason," Suzette said.