CHAPTER XIV
FOR HIS LOVE AND HIS QUARREL
Jeremy Chiddingfold had established himself in London greatly to his satisfaction. He had hired a bedroom in Ebury Street, an attic, and had made friends with one Alec Turner, a journalist, who lodged in the same house. Alec Turner took him often to the Metropolitan Radical Club, and had proposed him for membership. Here he could eat at moderate charges, play chess, smoke, and argue about all things in heaven (a.s.suming heaven) and earth (which, anyhow, was full of matter for argument). And at Ebury Street he was not only within easy reach of the Imasons in Sloane Street, but equally well in touch with the Selfords in Eccleston Square, and the Raymores in Buckingham Gate. A third-cla.s.s on the Underground Railway from Victoria carried him to Liverpool Street, whence he proceeded to the dyeing-works near Romford, in Ess.e.x. For the dyeing-works project was taking shape. Jeremy had been down to Romford several times to look round and see what the processes were like. He had digested the article on dyeing in the _Encyclopaedia Britannica_, and had possessed himself of the _Dictionary of Dyeing_ and the _Manual of Dyeing_. His talk both at the Metropolitan Radical Club and at the houses he frequented was full of the learning and the terminology of dyeing--things you dyed, and things you dyed the things with, and the things you did it in, and so forth. He fascinated Eva Raymore by referring airily (and at this stage somewhat miscellaneously) to warm vats, and copperas, and lime vats, to insoluble basic compounds, to mordants and their applications, to single and double muriate of tin.
You could go so far on the article without bothering about the _Dictionary_ or the _Manual_ at all; but then Eva did not know that, and thought him vastly erudite. In fact Jeremy was in love with dyeing, and rapidly reconsidered his estimate of the Beautiful--the Beautiful as such, even divorced from Utility--in the scheme of nature and of life.
On Alec Turner"s recommendation he read Ruskin and William Morris, and thought still better of the Beautiful.
He soon made himself at home both at the Selfords" and at the Raymores", dropping in freely and casually, with an engaging confidence that everybody would be glad to see him and pleased to allow him to deposit his long angular body in an armchair, and talk about dyeing or the Social Armageddon. He was, however, interested in other things too--not so much in pictures, but certainly in dogs. He had country lore about dogs and their diseases, and so won Mrs. Selford"s respect. He found Anna Selford"s keen mind an interesting study, and delighted to tease the pretty innocence of Eva Raymore. In neither house was there a young man--no son at the Selfords", and the Raymores" house was empty of theirs; and Jeremy, in his shabby coat, with his breezy jollity and vigorous young self-a.s.sertion, came like a gust of fresh wind, and seemed to blow the dust out of the place. Mrs. Raymore, above all, welcomed him. He went straight to her heart; she was for ever comparing and contrasting him with her own boy so far away--and only just the inevitable little to his disadvantage. Jeremy, in his turn, though unconsciously, loved the atmosphere of the Raymores" house--the abiding sense of trouble, hard to bear, but bravely borne, and the closeness of heart, the intimacy of love which it had brought. Being at the Selfords"
amused him; but being at the Raymores" did more than that.
And what of his broken heart? Anna Selford had heard the story and asked him once in her mocking way.
"You seem so very cheerful, Mr. Chiddingfold!" said she.
Jeremy explained with dignity. His heart was not broken; it had merely been wounded. Not only did he consider it his, and any man"s, duty to be cheerful, but as a fact he found no difficulty in being cheerful, occupied as he was with the work of life, and sustained by a firm purpose and an unshaken resolve.
"Only I don"t care to talk about it," he added, by which he meant, really, that he did not care to talk about it to persons of a satirical turn. Mrs. Raymore could get him to talk about it very freely, while to Eva he would sometimes (usually for short times) be so moody and melancholy as to excite an interest of a distinctly sentimental nature.
It is to be feared that, like most lovers, Jeremy was not above a bit of posing now and then. He was having a very full and happy life, and, without noticing the fact, began gradually to be more patient about the riches and the fame.
None the less, affairs were in train. Selford"s working partners were disposed to be complaisant about Jeremy and the dyeing-works; they were willing to oblige Selford, and found themselves favourably impressed by the young man himself. But business is business. They could give him a pittance for ever, no doubt. If he wanted that very different thing--an opening--other considerations came to the front. Good openings are not lightly given away.
In fine, Jeremy could come and try his hand at a nominal salary. If he proved his apt.i.tude, they would be willing to have him for a junior partner; but in that case he must put five thousand pounds into the business. The sum was not a large one to ask, they said; and with all their good opinion of Jeremy and all their desire to oblige Selford, they could not, in justice to themselves, their wives, and their families, put the figure any lower.
It was rather a shock to Jeremy, this first practical ill.u.s.tration of the pervading truth that in order to get money you must have some first.
He might give all he had in the world, and not realise five thousand pounds. He went to tea at the Raymores" that evening with his spirits dashed. He had consulted Alec Turner, but that young man had only whistled, implying thereby that Jeremy might whistle for the money too.
The journalistic temperament was not, Jeremy felt, naturally sympathetic; so he laid the question before Mrs. Raymore.
To her it was the opening of the sluice-gates. She was full of maternal love, dammed up by distance and absence. She was tender and affectionate towards Eva, but her love for her daughter was pale and weak beside her feeling for her only son; and now a portion of the flow meant for far-off Charley was diverted to Jeremy. She loved and could have wept over his brave simplicity, his sincere question as to how he could speedily make five thousand pounds. He was not a fool; he knew he could not break the bank at Monte Carlo, or write a play or a novel, or get the desired sum thereby if he did; but he had the great folly which clings to men older than he was--the belief that blind impartial fortune may show special divine favour. Kate Raymore smiled and sighed.
"Have you no friends who would guarantee it--who would advance it? You could pay interest, and pay off the capital gradually," she suggested.
That was not at all Jeremy"s idea.
"No, I don"t want to do that. I don"t want to be indebted to anybody."
"But it"s a pity to let the chance slip, from a feeling of that sort,"
she urged.
"Besides there"s n.o.body in our family who ever had such a lot of money to spare," said Jeremy, descending to the practical. He sighed too, and acknowledged the first check to his ardent hopes, the first disillusionment, in the words: "I must wait."
When a man says that he must wait, he has begun to know something of the world. The lesson that often he must wait in vain remains behind.
"But I shall find out some way," he went on (the second lesson still unlearnt). "I"ve got a fortnight to give my answer in. They"ll keep it open for me till then."
Eva came in, with her large learning eyes, and her early charming girl"s wonder at the strength and cleverness of the young men she liked. In a very few minutes Jeremy was confident and gay, telling her how he had the prospect of a partnership in quite a little while. Oh, yes, a junior partnership, of course, and a minor share. But it ought to be worth four or five hundred a year anyhow--yes, to start with. And what it might come to--in vigorous hands, with new blood, new intellect, new energy--well, n.o.body could tell. Mr. Thrale"s casks and vats were not really--as a potentiality of growing rich beyond the dreams of avarice--comparable to Jeremy"s vats and mordants and muriates. Eva was wonderfully impressed, and exclaimed, in childish banter:
"I hope you"ll know us still, after you"re as rich as that?"
Jeremy liked that. It was just the sort of feeling which his wealth was destined to raise in Dora Hutting. Meanwhile, pending the absence and obduracy of Dora, it was not unpleasant to see it reflected in Eva"s wondering eyes. Mrs. Raymore listened and looked on with a fixed determination to lose no time in telling Grantley Imason that for a matter of five thousand pounds the happiness of a life--of a life or two--was to be had. The figure was often cheaper than that, of course; less than that often meant joy or woe--far less. Witness Charley in Buenos Ayres, over youthful folly and a trifle of a hundred and fifty!
But Grantley was rich--and she did not know that he had recently lent John Fanshaw fifteen thousand pounds.
In requital for services rendered at the Metropolitan Radical, Jeremy had introduced his friend, Alec Turner, to the Selfords. Alec had come up to town from the staff of a provincial journal, and found very few houses open to him in London, so that he was grateful. He had a native, although untrained, liking for art, and could talk about pictures to Selford, while Jeremy talked about dogs to Mrs. Selford; and both the young men sparred with Anna, whose shrewd hits kept them well on their defence. Alec went about his avocations in a red tie, a turned-down collar, and lively mustard-coloured clothes. A dress suit he a.s.sumed reluctantly when he was sent to report the speeches of prosperous Philistine persons at public dinners. He hated prosperous Philistine persons, especially if their prosperity (and consequent Philistinity) came from art or letters, and delighted in composing paragraphs which should give them a little dig. He was, however, not really ill-natured, and would not have hurt the prosperous persons seriously, even if he could have; he was anxious to declare that neither he nor anybody else could, in fact, hurt them seriously, owing to the stupidity of the public--which was incalculable. He was a decided a.s.sistance to Jeremy in enlivening the Selford household and in keeping Anna"s wits busy and bright.
"I suppose nothing would induce you to be successful?" she said to him with malicious simplicity.
"Success for me means something quite different," Alec explained. "It lies in influencing the trend of public opinion."
"But the public"s hopelessly stupid! It seems to me rather foolish to spend your time trying to influence hopelessly stupid people."
Jeremy chuckled. He did not see how Alec was going to get out of that.
"I spoke of the bulk. There is a small intelligent minority on whom one can rely."
"If you can rely on them already, why do they want influencing?"
objected Anna.
"On whom one can rely for a hearing and for intelligent appreciation, Miss Selford."
"Then the fewer people who care what you say, the more successful you really are?"
"That"s hardly the way I should put it----"
"No, I don"t suppose you would," interrupted Anna. "But it comes to that, doesn"t it, Jeremy?"
"Of course it does," agreed Jeremy. "The fact is, writing about things is all rot. Go and do something--something practical."
Dyeing was doing something practical.
"Oh, yes, go into business, of course, and get rich by cheating.
Trading"s only another name for cheating."
"Well, you"re right there for once," said Anna.
"Right?" cried Jeremy fiercely. "Well, then, why isn"t it cheating when he" (he pointed scornfully at Alec) "charges a ha"penny for his beastly opinion about something?"
"Oh, it"s not for me to say! You must ask Mr. Turner that."
In fact the discussions were of a most spirited order, since everybody was always quite wrong, and each in turn could be rapidly and ignominiously refuted, the other two uniting in a warm but transient alliance to that end.
This young and breezy society was good for Selford and for his wife too.
It gave them something to think about, and did not leave each so much time to consider the unreasonableness of the other. Tiffs became less frequent, the false sentimentalism of their reconciliations was less in demand; and as they watched Anna"s deftness and brightness, they began to ask whether they had been as proud of her as they ought to be.
"She"s got brains, that girl of ours," said Selford, nodding his head complacently.
"And a taking manner, don"t you think, d.i.c.k?"