"If you have any thought of freedom, of obtaining your soul"s wish to leave this world, you will answer me."
When he did not, she clasped her hand around the medallion she wore at her throat.
"Just tell her!" Dalamar hissed at him. "What does it matter? A simple search of the kender will reveal that they don"t have the device. Save your defiance for something truly important."
Palin"s corpse shook its head.
Mina released her hold on the medallion. The kender, most of them protesting that they were too The Ta.s.slehoff Burrfoot, were marched away.
Watching them go, Palin wondered how Ta.s.slehoff-the real one-had managed to evade capture for so long. Mina and her G.o.d were both growing increasingly frustrated.
Ta.s.slehoff and his device were the bedbugs keeping the Queen from having a really good night"s sleep. The knowledge of her vulnerability must nip at her constantly, for no matter how powerful she grew, the kender was out there when and where he should not be.
If anything happened to him-and what kender ever lived to a ripe old age?-Her Dark Majesty"s grand schemes and plans would come to naught. That might be a comforting thought, but for the fact that Krynn and its people would come to naught, as well.
"All the more reason to remain alive," Dalamar stated with vehemence, speaking to Palin"s thoughts. "Once you join that river of death, you will drown and be forever at the mercy of the tide, as are those poor souls who are out there now. We still have a modic.u.m of free will, as you just discovered. That is the flaw in the experiment, the flaw that Takhisis has yet to correct. She has never liked the concept of freedom, you know. Our ability to think and act for ourselves has always been her greatest enemy. Unless she somehow finds a way to deprive us of that, we must cling to our one strength, keep fast hold of it. Our chance will come, and we must be ready to seize it."
Our chance or yours? Palin wondered. He was half-amused by Dalamar, half-angry at him, and on reflection, wholly ashamed of himself.
As usual, he thought, I"ve been sitting around feeling sorry for myself while my self-serving, ambitious colleague has been out and doing. No more. I will be just as selfish, just as ambitious as any two Dalamars. I may be lost in a foreign country, hobbled hand and foot, where no one speaks my language and they are all deaf, dumb, and blind to boot. Yet, some way, some how, I will find someone who sees me, who hears me, who understands me.
Your experiment will fail, Takhisis, Palin vowed. The experiment itself will see to that.
12.
In the Presence of the G.o.d.
The day Gerard spent in the cell was the worst day of his life. He hoped he would grow used to the smell, but that proved impossible, and he caught himself seriously wondering if breathing was actually worth it. The guards tossed food inside and brought buckets of water for drinking, but the water tasted like the Smell, and he gagged as he swallowed. He was gloomily pleased to note that the day gaoler, who appeared none too intelligent, was, if possible, more hara.s.sed and confused than the night man.
Late in the afternoon, Gerard began to think that he"d miscalculated, that his plan wasn"t as good as he"d thought and that there was every possibility he would spend the rest of his life in this cell. He"d been caught by surprise when Mina had entered the cells, accompanying the kender. She was the last person he wanted to see. He kept his face hidden, remained crouched on the floor until she had gone.
After a few more hours, when it appeared that no one else was likely to come, Gerard was beginning to have second thoughts about this mission. Suppose no one came? He was reflecting that he wasn"t nearly as smart as he"d thought he was, when he heard a sound that improved his spirits immensely-the rattle of steel, the clank of a sword.
Prison guards carried clubs, not swords. Gerard leaped to his feet. Two members of the Dark Knights of Neraka entered the prison cells. They wore their helmets with the visors lowered (probably to keep out the smell), cuira.s.ses over woolen shirts, leather breeches, and boots. They kept their swords sheathed but their hands on the hilts.
Immediately the prisoners set up a clamor, some demanding to be freed, others pleading to be able to talk to someone about the terrible mistake that had been made. The Dark Knights ignored them. They headed for the cell where the two mages sat staring at the walls, oblivious to the uproar.
Lunging forward, Gerard managed to thrust his arm between the bars and seize hold of the sleeve of one of the Dark Knights. The man whipped around. His companion drew his sword, and Gerard might have lost his hand had he not s.n.a.t.c.hed it away.
"Captain Samuval!" Gerard shouted. "I must see Captain Samuval."
The Knight"s eyes were glints of light in the shadow of his helm. He lifted his visor to get a better view of Gerard.
"How do you know Captain Samuval?" he demanded.
"I"m one of you!" Gerard said desperately. "The Solamnics captured me and locked me up in here. I"ve been trying to convince the great oaf who runs this place to set me free, but he won"t listen. Just bring Captain Samuval here, will you? He"ll recognize me."
The Knight stared at Gerard a moment longer, then snapped his visor shut and walked over to the cell that held the mages. Gerard could do nothing more but hope that the man would tell someone, would not leave him here to die of the stink.
The Dark Knights escorted Palin and his fellow mage out of the cellblock. The prisoners fell back as the mages shuffled past, not wanting anything to do with them. The mages were gone for more than an hour. Gerard spent the time wondering if the Knight would tell someone. Hopefully, the name of Captain Samuval would spur the Knight to action.
The clanking of swords announced the Knights" return. They deposited their catatonic charges back on their cots. Gerard hastened forward to try to talk to the Dark Knight again. The prisoners were banging on the cell bars and shrieking for the guards when the commotion suddenly ceased, some swallowing their cries so fast that they choked.
A minotaur entered the cells. The beast-man, who had the face of a bull made even more ferocious by the intelligent eyes that looked out of the ma.s.s of s.h.a.ggy brown fur, was so tall that he was forced to walk with his head bowed to avoid raking his sharp horns against the low ceiling. He wore a leather harness that left bare his muscular torso. He was armed with numerous weapons, among them a heavy sword that Gerard doubted if he could have lifted with two hands. Gerard guessed rightly that the minotaur was coming to see him, and he didn"t know whether to be worried or thankful.
As the minotaur approached his cell, the other prisoners scrambled to see who could reach the back fastest. Gerard had the front of the cell all to himself. He tried desperately to remember the minotaur"s name, but it eluded him.
"Thank goodness, sir," he said, making do. "I was beginning to think I"d rot in here. Where"s Captain Samuval?"
"He is where he is," the minotaur rumbled. His small, bovine eyes fixed on Gerard. "What do you want with him?"
"I want him to vouch for me," said Gerard. "He"ll remember me, I"m sure. You might remember me, too, sir. I was in your camp just prior to the attack on Solanthus. I had a prisoner-a female Solamnic Knight."
"I remember," said the minotaur. The eyes narrowed. "The Solamnic escaped. She had help. Yours."
"No, sir, no!" Gerard protested indignantly. "You"ve got it all wrong! Whoever helped her, it wasn"t me. When I found out she was gone, I chased after her. I caught her, too, but we were close to the Solamnic lines. She shouted, and before I could shut her up"-he drew his hand across his throat-"the Solamnics came to her rescue. They took me prisoner, and I"ve been locked here ever since."
"Our people checked to see if there were any Knights being held prisoner after the battle," said the minotaur.
"I tried to tell them then," said Gerard, aggrieved. "I"ve been telling them ever since! No one believes me!"
The minotaur said nothing in reply, just stood staring. Gerard had no way of knowing what the beast-man was thinking beneath those horns.
"Look, sir," said Gerard, exasperated, "would I be in this stinking hole if my story wasn"t true?"
The minotaur stared at Gerard a moment longer. Turning on his heel, he stalked off to the end of the corridor to confer with the gaoler. Gerard saw the jailer peer at him and then shake his head and fling up his hands helplessly.
"Let him out," ordered the minotaur.
The gaoler hurried to obey. Fitting the key in the lock, he opened the cell door. Gerard walked out to the tune of muttered curses and threats from his fellow prisoners. He didn"t care. At that moment, he could have hugged the minotaur, but he thought his reaction should be one of indignation, not relief. He flung a few curses himself and glowered at the gaoler.
The minotaur laid a heavy hand on Gerard"s shoulder. The hand was not there in the spirit of friendship. The minotaur"s nails dug painfully into Gerard"s shoulder.
"I will take you to Mina," said the minotaur.
"I plan to pay my respects to Lord of the Night Mina," said Gerard, "but I can"t appear before her like this. Give me some time to wash up and find some decent clothes-"
"She will see you as you are," said the minotaur, adding, as an afterthought, "She sees all of us as we are."
This being precisely what he feared, Gerard was not in the least eager to be interviewed by Mina. He had hoped to be able to retrieve his knightly accoutrements (he knew the storehouse where the Solamnics had stashed them) and blend in with the crowd, hang about the barracks with the other Knights and soldiers, pick up the latest gossip, discover who"d been given orders to do what, then leave to make his report.
There was no help for it, however. The minotaur (whose name was Gaidar, Gerard finally remembered), marched Gerard out of If the prison. Gerard cast a last glance at Palin as he left. The mage had not moved.
Shaking his head, feeling a shiver run through him, Gerard accompanied the minotaur through the streets of Solanthus.
If anyone would know Mina"s plans, it was Gaidar. The minotaur was not the talkative type, however. Gerard mentioned Sanction a couple of times, but the minotaur answered only with a cold, dark glower. Gerard gave up and concentrated on seeing what he could of life in Solanthus. People were out in the streets, going about their daily routine, but they did so in a fearful and hurried manner, keeping their heads down, not wanting to meet the eyes of the numerous patrols.
All the taverns were closed, their doors ceremoniously sealed by a band of black cloth that had been stretched across them. Gerard had always heard the saying about courage being found at the bottom of a jug of dwarf spirits, and he supposed that was why the taverns had been shut down. The black cloth was stretched across other shops, as well-most notably mageware shops and shops that sold weapons.
They came within sight of the Great Hall, where Gerard had been brought to trial. Memories came back to him forcibly, particularly memories of Odila. She was his closest friend, his only friend, really, for he was not the type to make friends easily. He was sorry now that he hadn"t said good-bye to her and at least given her some hint of what he planned.
Gaidar steered Gerard past the Great Hall. The building teemed with soldiers and Knights, for it had apparently been taken over as a barracks. Gerard thought they might stop here, but Gaidar led him to the old temples that stood near the hall.
These temples had been formerly dedicated to the G.o.ds most favored by the Knights-Paladine and Kiri-Jolith. The temple of Kiri-Jolith was the older of the two and slightly larger, for Kiri-Jolith was considered the Solamnics" special patron. Paladine"s temple, constructed of white marble, drew the eye with its simple but elegant design. Four white columns adorned the front. Marble steps, rounded so that they resembled waves, flowed down from the portico.
The two temples were attached by a courtyard and a rose garden. Here grew the white roses, the symbol of the Knighthood. Even after the departure of the G.o.ds and, subsequently, the priests, the Solamnics had kept up the temples and tended the rose gardens. The Knights had used the temples for study or for meditation. The citizens of Solanthus found them havens of peace and tranquility and could often be seen walking here with their families.
"Not surprising this One G.o.d looks on them with covetous eyes," Gerard said to himself. "I"d move here in a minute if I were out wandering the universe, searching for a home."
A large number of the citizens stood gathered around the outer doors of the temple of Paladine. The doors were closed, and the crowd appeared to be awaiting admittance.
"What"s going on, sir?" Gerard asked. "What are all these people doing here? They aren"t threatening to attack, are they?"
A tiny smile creased the minotaur"s muzzle. He almost chuckled. "These people have come to hear about the One G.o.d, Mina speaks to crowds like this every day. She heals the sick and performs other miracles. You will find many residents of Solanthus worshiping in the temple."
Gerard had no idea what to say to this. Anything that came to mind would only land him in trouble and so he kept his mouth shut. They were walking past the rose garden when a brilliant flash of sunlight reflecting off amber caught his eye. He blinked, stared, then stopped so suddenly that Gaidar, irritated, almost yanked off his arm.
"Wait!" Gerard cried, appalled. "Wait a minute." He pointed. "What is that?"
"The sarcophagus of Goldmoon," said Gaidar. "She was once the head of the Mystics of the Citadel of Light. She was also the mother of Mina-her adopted mother," he felt compelled to add. "She was an old, old woman. Over ninety, so they say. Look at her. She is young and beautiful again. Thus does the One G.o.d grant favor to the faithful."
"A lot of good that does her if she"s dead," Gerard muttered, his heart aching, as he looked at the body encased in amber. He remembered Goldmoon vividly, remembered her beautiful, golden hair that seemed spun with silver moonbeams, remembered her face, strong and compa.s.sionate and lost, searching. He couldn"t find the Goldmoon he had known, though. Her face, seen beneath the amber, was the face of no one, anyone. Her gold and silver hair was amber-colored. Her white robes amber. She"d been caught in the resin, like all the rest of the insects.
"She will be granted life again," said Gaidar. "The One G.o.d has promised to perform a great miracle."
Gerard heard an odd tone in Gaidar"s voice and he glanced, startled, at the minotaur. Disapproving? That was hard to be believe. Still, as Gerard thought back over what he knew of the minotaur race, he had always heard them described as devout followers of their former G.o.d, Sargonnas, who was himself a minotaur. Perhaps Gaidar was having second thoughts about this One G.o.d. Gerard marked that down as a hunch he might be able to make use of later.
The minotaur gave Gerard a shove, and he had to continue walking. He looked back at the sarcophagus. Many of the citizenry were standing around the amber coffin, gaping at the body inside and sighing and ooohing and aahing. Some were on their knees in prayer. Gerard kept twisting his head to look around, forgot to watch where he was going, and tripped over the temple stairs. Gaidar growled at him, and Gerard realized he had better keep his mind on his own business or he"d end up in a coffin himself. And the One G.o.d wasn"t likely to perform any miracle on him, The temple doors opened for Gaidar, then shut behind him, to the great disappointment of those waiting outside.
"Mina!" they called out, chanting her name. "Mina! Mina!"
Inside, the temple was shadowed and cool. The pale light of the sun, that seemed to have to work hard to shine through the stained gla.s.s windows, formed weak and watery patterns of blue, white, green, and red on the floor, criss-crossed with black bars. The altar had been covered with a cloth of white velvet. A single person knelt there. At the sound of their footfalls in the still temple, the girl raised her head and glanced over her shoulder.
"I am sorry to disturb you in your prayers, Mina," said Gaidar in a subdued voice that echoed eerily in the still temple, "but this is a matter of importance. I found this man in the prison cells. You may remember him. He-"
"Sir Gerard," said Mina. Rising, she moved away from the altar, walked down the central aisle. "Gerard uth Mondar. You brought that young Solamnic Knight to us. Odila was her name. She escaped."
Gerard had his story all ready, but his tongue stuck firmly to the roof of his mouth. He had not thought he could ever forget those amber eyes, but he had forgotten the powerful spell they could cast over any person caught in their depths. He had the feeling that she knew all about him, knew everything he had done since they last parted, knew exactly why he was here. He could lie to her, but he would be wasting his time.
Still, he had to try, futile as it might be. He stumbled through his tale, thinking all the while that he sounded exactly like a guilty child lying to avoid the strap and the woodshed.
Mina listened to him with grave attention. He ended by saying that he hoped that he would be permitted to serve her, since he understood that his former commander, Marshal Medan, had died in the battle of Qualinesti.
"You grieve for the Marshal and for the Queen Mother, Laurana," said Mina.
Gerard stared at her, dumbfounded.
She smiled, the amber eyes shone. "Do not grieve for them. They serve the One G.o.d in death as they both unwittingly served the One G.o.d in life. So do we all serve the One G.o.d, whether we will or no. The rewards are greater for those who serve the One G.o.d knowingly, however. Do you serve the One G.o.d, Gerard?"
Mina came nearer to him. He saw himself small and insignificant in her amber eyes, and he suddenly wanted very much to do something to make her proud of him, to win her favor.
He could do so by swearing to serve the One G.o.d, yet in this, if in nothing else, he must speak the truth. He looked at the altar, and he listened to the stillness, and it was then he knew for a certainty that he was in the presence of a G.o.d and that this G.o.d saw through to his very heart.
"I ... I know so little of this One G.o.d," he stammered evasively. "I cannot give you the answer you want, Lady. I am sorry."
"Would you be willing to learn?" she asked him.
"Yes" was all he needed to say to remain in her service, yet the truth was that he didn"t want to know anything at all about this One G.o.d. Gerard had always done very well without the G.o.ds. He didn"t feel comfortable in the presence of this one.
He mumbled something unintelligible, even to himself. Mina seemed to hear what she wanted to hear from him, however. She smiled.
"Very well. I take you into my service, Gerard uth Mondar. The One G.o.d takes you into service, as well."
At this, the minotaur made a disgruntled rumbling sound.
"Gaidar thinks you are a spy," said Mina. "He wants to kill you. If you are a spy, I have nothing to hide. I will tell you my plans freely. In two days time, an army of soldiers and Knights from Palanthas will join us, adding another five thousand to our number. With that army and the army of souls, we will march on Sanction. And we will take it. Then we will rule all of the northern part of Ansalon, well on our way to ruling all of this continent. Do you have any questions?"
Gerard ventured a feeble protest. "Lady, I am not-"
Mina turned from him. "Open the doors, Gaidar," she ordered. "I will speak to the people now." Glancing back at Gerard, she added, "You should stay to hear the sermon, Sir Gerard. You might find my words instructive."
Gerard could do nothing but acquiesce. He glanced sidelong at Gaidar, caught the minotaur glowering back at him. Clearly, Gaidar knew him for what he was. Gerard must take care to keep out of the minotaur"s way. He supposed he should be thankful, for he"d accomplished his mission. He knew Mina"s plans- always provided she was telling the truth-and he had only to hang about for a couple of days to see if the army from Palanthas showed up to confirm it. His heart was no longer in his mission, however. Mina had killed his spirit, as effectively as she might have killed his body.
We fight against a G.o.d. What does it matter what we do?
Gaidar flung wide the temple doors. The people streamed inside. Kneeling before Mina, they pleaded with her to touch them, to heal them, to heal their children, to take away their pain. Gerard kept an eye on Gaidar. The minotaur watched a moment, then walked out.
Gerard was about to sidle out the door when he saw a troop of Knights marching up the stairs. They had with them a prisoner, a Solamnic, to judge by the armor. The prisoner"s arms were bound with bowstrings, but she walked with her head held high, her face set in grim determination.
Gerard knew that face, knew the expression on that face. He groaned softly, swore vehemently, and hastily drew back into the deepest shadows, covering his face with his hands as though overcome by reverence.
"We captured this Solamnic trying to enter the city, Mina," said one of the Knights.
"She"s a bold one," said another. "Walked right in the front gate wearing her armor and carrying her sword."
"Surrendered her sword without a fight," added the first. "A fool and a coward, like all of them."
"I am no coward," said Odila with dignity. "I chose not to fight. I came here of my own accord."
"Free her," said Mina, and her voice was cold and stern. "She may be our enemy, but she is a Knight and deserves to be treated with dignity, not like a common thief!"
Chastened, the Knights swiftly removed the bindings from Odila"s arms. Gerard had stepped into the shadows, afraid that if she looked around and saw him, she might give him away. He soon realized he could spare himself the worry. Odila had no eyes for anyone except Mina.