But even as the hope was born, it died within him. One look at her face as she bent over the candles and he knew he was wasting his time.
He was suddenly reminded of an old poacher"s trick for snaring a bird. You attach berries at intervals to a long, thin cord tied to a stake. The bird eats the berries, one by one, ingesting the cord at the same time. When the bird reaches the end of the cord, it tries to fly away, but by now the cord is wound up inside its vitals, and it cannot escape.
One by one, Odila had consumed the berries attached to the lethal cord. The last was the power to work miracles. She was tied to the One G.o.d, and only a miracle-a reverse miracle-would cut her free.
Well, perhaps friendship was that sort of miracle.
"Odila-" he began.
"What do you want, Gerard?" she asked, without turning around.
"I have to talk to you," he said. "Please, just a moment. It won"t take long."
Odila sat down on a bench near the amber sarcophagus. Gerard would have been happier sitting farther back, out of the light and the heat, but Odila wouldn"t move. Tense and preoccupied, she cast frequent glances at the door, glances that were half-nervous, half-expectant.
"Odila, listen to me," said Gerard. "I"m leaving Sanction. Tonight. I came to tell you that and to try to convince you to leave with me."
"No," she said, glancing at the door. "I "I can"t leave now. I have too much to do here before Mina comes." can"t leave now. I have too much to do here before Mina comes."
"I"m not asking you to go on a picnic!" he said, exasperated. "I"m asking you to escape this place with me, tonight! The city is in confusion, what with soldiers marching in and out. No one knows what"s going on. It"ll be hours before some sort of order is established. Now"s the perfect time to leave."
"Then go," she said, shrugging. "I don"t want you around anyway."
She started to rise. He grabbed her arm, gripped her wrist tightly, and saw her wince with pain.
"You don"t want me around because I remind you of what you used to be. You don"t like this One G.o.d. You don"t like the change that"s come over you anymore than I do. Why are you doing this to yourself?"
"Because, Gerard," Odila said wearily, as if she"d gone over the same argument again and again, "the One G.o.d is a G.o.d. A G.o.d who came to this world to care for us and guide us."
"Where? Off the edge of a precipice?" Gerard demanded. "After the Chaos War, Goldmoon found her guide in her own heart. Love and caring, compa.s.sion, truth, and honor did not leave with G.o.ds of light. They are inside each of us. Those are our guides or they should be."
"At her death, Goldmoon turned to the One G.o.d," said Odila, glancing at the still, calm face entombed in amber.
"Did she?" Gerard demanded harshly. "I wonder about that. If she really did embrace the One G.o.d, why didn"t the One G.o.d keep her alive to go around shouting her miracle to the world? Why did the One G.o.d feel it necessary to stop her mouth in death and lock her up in an amber prison?"
"She will be freed, Mina says," said Odila defensively. "On the Night of the New Eye, the One G.o.d will raise Goldmoon from the dead, and she will come forth to rule the world."
Gerard released her hand, let go of her. "So you won"t come with me?"
Odila shook her head. "No, Gerard, I won"t. I know you don"t understand. I"m not as strong as you are. I"m all by myself in the dark forest, and I"m afraid. I"m glad to have a guide, and if the guide is not perfect, neither am I. Goodbye, Gerard. Thank you for your friendship and your caring. Go on your journey safely in the name of the-"
"One G.o.d?" he said grimly "No, thanks."
Turning, he walked out of the altar room.
The first place Gerard went was to the army"s central command post, located in the former Souk Bazaar, whose stalls and shops had been replaced by a small city of tents. Here, the contents of the strongboxes were being distributed.
Taking his place in line, Gerard felt a certain satisfaction in taking the Dark Knights" steel. He"d earned it, no question about that, and he would need money for his journey back to Lord Ulrich"s manor or wherever the Knights were consolidating their forces.
After receiving his pay, he headed for the West Gate and freedom. He put Odila out of his mind, refused to let himself think about her. He removed most of his armor-the braces and greaves and his chain mail, but continued to wear the cuira.s.s and helm. Both were uncomfortable, but he had to consider the possibility that sooner or later Gaidar might grow tired of shadowing Gerard and just stab him in the back.
The bulk of the two towers of the West Gate loomed black against the red light that shone from the lava moat surrounding the city. The gates had been shut. The gate guards weren"t about to open them until they"d had a good look at Gerard and heard his story-that he was a messenger dispatched to Jelek with word of their victory. The guards wished him a good journey and opened a wicket gate to let him ride through.
Glancing back to see the walls of Sanction lined with men, Gerard was once more profoundly and grudgingly impressed with Mina"s leadership and her ability to impose discipline and order on her troops.
"She will grow in strength and in power every day she remains here," he remarked gloomily to himself as his horse cantered through the gate. Ahead of him was the harbor and beyond that the black expanse of New Sea. A whiff of salt air was a welcome relief from the continuous smell of sulfur and brimstone that lingered in the air of Sanction. "And how are we to fight her?"
"You can"t."
A hulking figure blocked his path. Gerard recognized the voice, as his horse recognized the stench of minotaur. The horse snorted and reared, and Gerard had his hands full trying to remain on the animal"s back, during which frantic few moments he lost any opportunity he might have had to either run the minotaur down or gallop away and leave him standing in the dust.
The minotaur drew closer, his b.e.s.t.i.a.l face faintly illuminated by the red glow of the lava that made Sanction"s night perpetual twilight. Gaidar grabbed hold of the horse"s bridle.
Gerard drew his sword. He had no doubt that this was going to be their final confrontation, and he was not in much doubt about how it would end. He"d heard tales of how Gaidar had once cut a man in two with a single stroke of his ma.s.sive sword. One glance at the knotty muscles of the arms and the smooth, sleek muscles of the minotaur"s hairy chest attested to the veracity of the storyteller.
"Look, Gaidar," Gerard said, interrupting the minotaur as he was about to speak, "I"ve had a bellyful of sermons, and I"m fed up with being watched day and night. You know that I"m a Solamnic Knight sent here to spy on Mina. I know you know, so let"s just end this right now-"
"I would like to fight you, Solamnic," said Gaidar, and his voice was cold. "I would like to kill you, but I am forbidden."
"I figured as much," said Gerard, lowering his sword. "May I ask why?"
"You serve her. You do her bidding."
"Now, see here, Gaidar, you and I both know that I"m not riding to do Mina"s bidding-" Gerard began, then stopped, growing confused. Here he was, arguing for his own death.
"By her, her, I do not mean Mina," said Gaidar. "I mean the One G.o.d. Have you never thought to find out the name?" I do not mean Mina," said Gaidar. "I mean the One G.o.d. Have you never thought to find out the name?"
"Of the One G.o.d?" Gerard was becoming increasingly annoyed by this conversation. "No. To be honest, I never really gave a rat"s-"
"Takhisis," said Gaidar.
"-a.s.s," said Gerard, and then fell silent.
He sat on his horse in the road in the darkness, thinking, it all makes sense. It all makes b.l.o.o.d.y, horrible, awful sense. No need to ask him if he believed the minotaur. Deep inside, Gerard had suspected this truth all along.
"Why are you telling me this?" he demanded.
"I am not allowed to kill you," Gaidar said dourly, "but I can kill your spirit. I know your plans. You carry a message from that wretched elf king to his people, begging them to come save him. Why do you think Mina chose you to take the elf to prison, if not to be his "messenger"? She wants wants you to bring his people here. Bring the entire elven nation. Bring the Knights of Solamnia-what is left of them. Bring them all here to witness the glory of Queen Takhisis on the Night of the New Eye." you to bring his people here. Bring the entire elven nation. Bring the Knights of Solamnia-what is left of them. Bring them all here to witness the glory of Queen Takhisis on the Night of the New Eye."
The minotaur released the horse"s bridle. "Ride off, Solamnic, Ride to whatever dreams of victory and glory you have in your heart and know, as you ride, that they are nothing but ash.
Takhisis controls your destiny. All you do, you do in her name. As do I."
Giving Gerard an ironic salute, the minotaur turned and walked back to the walls of Sanction.
Gerard looked up at the sky. Clouds of smoke rolling from the Lords of Doom obliterated the stars and the moon. The night was dark above, fire-tinged below. Was it true that somewhere out there, Takhisis watched him? Knew all he thought and planned?
"I have to go back," Gerard thought, chilled. "Warn Odila." He started to turn his horse"s head, then halted. "Maybe that"s what Takhisis wants wants me to do. If I go back, perhaps she"ll see to it that I lose my chance to talk with Samar. I can"t do anything to help Odila. I"ll ride on." me to do. If I go back, perhaps she"ll see to it that I lose my chance to talk with Samar. I can"t do anything to help Odila. I"ll ride on."
He turned his horse"s head the other way, then stopped. "Takhisis wants me to talk to the elf. Gaidar said as much. So maybe I shouldn"t! How can I know what to do? Or does it even make any difference?"
Gerard stopped dead in his tracks.
"Gaidar was right," he said bitterly. "He would have done me a favor by sticking a plain, ordinary, everyday sword in my gut. The blade he"s left there now is poisoned, and I can never rid myself of it. What do I do? What can can I do?" I do?"
He had only one answer, and it was the one he"d given Odila.
He had to follow what was in his heart.
12.
The New Eye
As he stalked back toward the West Gate, Gaidar was disappointed to find that he didn"t feel as pleased with himself as he should have. He had hoped to infect the confident and self-a.s.sured Solamnic with the same sickness that infected him. He"d done what he"d set out to accomplish - the angry, frustrated expression on the Solamnic"s face had proven that. But Gaidar found he couldn"t take any satisfaction from his victory.
What had he hoped? That the Solamnic would prove him wrong?
"Bah!" Gaidar snorted. "He"s caught in the same coil as the rest of us, and there"s no way out. Not now. Not ever. Not even in death."
He rubbed his right arm, which had begun to ache persistently, and found himself wishing he could lose it again, so much did it pain him. Once he"d been proud of that arm, the arm that Mina had restored to him, the first miracle she"d ever performed in the name of the One G.o.d. Now he caught himself fingering his sword with some vague notion of hacking off the arm himself. He wouldn"t, of course. Mina would be angry with him and, worse, she would be hurt and saddened. He could endure her anger, he"d felt its lash before. He could never do anything to hurt her. Most of the pent-up fury and resentment he felt toward Takhisis was based not on her treatment of him but the way she treated Mina, who had sacrificed everything, even her life, for her G.o.ddess.
Mina had been rewarded. She"d been given victory over her enemies, given the power to perform miracles. But Gaidar knew Takhisis of old. The minotaur race had never thought very highly of the G.o.ddess, who was the consort of the minotaur G.o.d, Sargas, or Sargonnas, as the other races called him. Sargas had remained with his people to fight Chaos until the bitter end, when-so legend had it-he had sacrificed himself to save the minotaur race. Takhisis would never dream of sacrificing herself for anything. She expected sacrifices to be made to her, demanded them in return for her dubious blessings.
Perhaps that is what she has in mind for Mina. Gaidar grew uneasy listening to Mina"s constant talk of this "great miracle" Takhisis was going to perform on the Night of the New Eye. Takhisis never gave something for nothing. Gaidar had only to feel the throbbing pain of the G.o.ddess"s displeasure with him to know that. Mina was so trusting, so guileless. She could never understand Takhisis"s deceitfulness, her treacherous and vindictive nature.
That, of course, was why Mina had been chosen. That and because she was beloved of Goldmoon. Takhisis would not pa.s.s up a chance to inflict pain on anyone, most especially on Goldmoon, who had thwarted her in the past.
I could tell all this to Mina, Gaidar thought as he entered the temple. I could tell her, but she wouldn"t hear me. She hears only one voice these days.
The Temple of the Heart, now the Temple of the One G.o.d. How Takhisis must revel in that appellation! After an eternity of being one of many, now she was one and all powerful.
He shook his horned head gloomily.
The temple grounds were empty. Gaidar went first to Mina"s quarters. He did not truly expect to find her there, although she must be exhausted after the day"s battle. He knew where she would be. He wanted to check to make certain that everything was prepared for her when she finally chose to go to bed.
He glanced into the room that had once been the room for the head of the Order, probably that old fool who"d scowled all through Mina"s sermon. Gaidar found all in readiness. Everything had been arranged for her comfort. Her weapons were here, as was her armor, carefully arranged on a stand. Her morning star had been polished, the blood cleaned from it and from her armor. Her boots were free of dirt and blood. A tray of food stood on a desk near the bed. A candle burned to light her way in the darkness. Someone had even thought of placing some late-blooming wildflowers in a pewter cup. Everything in the room attested to the love and devotion her troops felt for her.
For her. Gaidar wondered if she realized that. The men fought for her, for Mina. They shouted her name when she led them forth to battle. They shouted her name in victory.
Mina . . . Mina . . .
They did not shout, "For the One G.o.d." They did not shout, "For Takhisis".
"And I"ll wager you don"t like that," Gaidar said to the darkness.
Could a G.o.d be jealous of a mortal?
This G.o.d could, Gaidar thought, and he was suddenly filled with fear.
Gaidar entered the altar room, stood blinking painfully while his eyes became accustomed to the light of the candles blazing on the altar. Mina was alone, kneeling before the altar in prayer. He could hear her voice, murmuring, halting, then murmuring again, as if she were receiving instructions.
The other Solamnic, the female Knight turned priestess, lay stretched out on a bench, asleep. She slept soundly on her hard bed. Mina"s own cloak covered the female. Gaidar could never remember her name.
Goldmoon, in her amber coffin, slept as well. The two mages sat in the back of the chamber, where"d they"d been planted. He could see their forms, shadowy in the candlelight. His gaze flicked over them quickly, went back to Mina. The sight of the wretched mages gave him the horrors, made the hair rise on his spine, ripple down his back.
Someday perhaps his own corpse would sit there quietly, staring at nothing, doing nothing, waiting for Takhisis"s orders.
Gaidar walked toward the altar. He tried to move quietly, out of respect for Mina, but minotaurs are not made for stealthy movement. His knee b.u.mped a bench, his sword clanked and clattered at his side, his footfalls boomed, or so it seemed to him.
The female Solamnic stirred uneasily, but she was too deeply drowned in sleep to waken.
Mina did not hear him.
Walking up to stand behind her, he spoke to her quietly, "Mina."
She did not lift her head.
Gaidar waited a moment, then said, "Mina" again and placed his hand gently on her shoulder.
Now she turned, now she looked around. Her face was pale and drawn with fatigue. Smudged circles of weariness surrounded her amber eyes, whose bright gleam was dimmed.
"You should go to bed," he told her.
"Not yet," she said.
"You were all over the battlefield," he persisted. "I couldn"t keep up with you. Everywhere I looked, there you were. Fighting, praying. You need your rest. We have much to do tomorrow and in the days following to fortify the city. The Solamnics will attack us. Their spy rides to alert them even now. I let him go," Gaidar growled, "as you commanded. I think it was a mistake. He"s in league with the elf king. The Solamnics will make some deal with the elves, bring the might of both nations down on us."
"Most likely," said Mina.
She held out her hand to Gaidar. He was privileged to help her rise to her feet. She retained his hand-his right hand-in her own, looked up into his eyes.
"All is well, Gaidar. I know what I am doing. Have faith."
"I have faith in you, Mina," Gaidar said.
Mina cast him a disappointed glance. Releasing his hand, she turned away from him to face the altar. Her look and her silence were her rebuke, that and the sudden gut-twisting pain in his arm. He clamped his lips shut, ma.s.saged his arm, and stubbornly waited.
"I have no more need of you, Gaidar," Mina said. "Go to your bed."