Dream Star

"Kiryu, you know. It"s not like I hate you, but whenever I think about our relations.h.i.+p, I"m filled with so much pain. If you ask me that question again, I"ll tell you no. That"s why" Lila murmured.

"Don"t ask," Kiryu already knew what Lila would say. If he was going to continue loving her, then he shouldn"t ask that question. Fate really enjoys toying with their emotions.

"Kiryu, um, um sorry to ask but can I have a hug? I feel cold."

His gaze turned soft, "You never had to ask," Kiryu laid down on the bed with her and Lila snuggled up to him. Kiryu gently caressed her hair, "Hurry up and get better Lila."

"When I get better, can we go to the planetarium?"

"Yes."

"And I want to go to some other places too."

"You don"t want to go with Karas.h.i.+ma?"

"I want to go with you," Lila murmured, "Places where we have memories. I want to go back."

So that"s what she meant, "Do you need to ask Karas.h.i.+ma?"

"It"s okay, Haruka won"t mind. He is too busy for me to ask, anyway."

It pained Kiryu hearing these words; he didn"t let Lila go for her to say such things.

....

Y Stadium Hall

He can remember thinking how he wanted nothing to do with them. To continue remaining in the shadows and live his life how it"s supposed to be. In the years since that incidence happened things had changed; but what convinced him to stop being a bystander, maybe the words he said to Rosalia on the night he ended things with her. "I will live for that girl. So you live your life however you like now. Because I really want to help her. "

Kiryu sticks with Lila and when he does his idea of helping is watching from the shadows and only stepping up when something endangers her life. Only when she is suffering. He"s supposed to be a shadow, someone who stays in the background. However, Kiryu found his plans quickly crumbling, not only did his resolve crumble in terms of her. The wall he had built around himself and other people also crumbled away.

He can remember the feeling of excitement when Lila declared to him that she would motivate him, how he couldn"t push away the guys in G.o.d5 who were desperately trying to get close to him. At first, Kiryu thought they only approached him with the purpose of the "center. "As amazing of a group those four were back then, they"d eventually reach their end if they didn"t have a center.

Let"s see now, Etoile4. Kiryu comes to a halt when he spots bright blue hair.

"s.h.i.+chiro."

"This is a surprise; I didn"t think you"d come to Etoile4 live."

He didn"t either. But because of the dream from last night, he pondered on everything that"s happened since then. Since things changed between him and Lila, s.h.i.+chiro must have read his thoughts since he doesn"t ask anymore but instead goes on to say, the reason why he came here.

"I drooped by Lila"s and heard that you came here, so," s.h.i.+chiro pulled something out of his bag.

"Letter?" he said

"Yeah, it was one of the a.s.signments when you were absent a lot. To write a letter to your most beloved person. When I was clearing up my belongings, I found them and realized that I hadn"t returned them to the others. So I sent them all out today. Seeing how I won"t be able to get hold of that guy, I gave it to Hanazo."

He went all this way for that? It"s clear s.h.i.+chiro was interested in the concert too.

"I"m pretty sure they"ll all either crumble it away because of embarra.s.sment," Kiryu said. Anything written when they are in school as an a.s.signment is embarra.s.sing after all.

"Well, that"s certainly true."

"a.s.sistant, trainees, did the task too I"m guessing?" It sounds like one of those cla.s.sical literature tasks, meaning everyone must have done it. For an idol school, they sure made them do strange a.s.signments.

"Stop there; I"ll admit it was for Lila. But I destroyed it."

"You didn"t have to go that far."

"No, I had to."

He wonders why s.h.i.+chiro can say that with such conviction despite his feelings for her. Out of all the guys in their group, isn"t he the one who...

"So if you sent them all out. Why are you giving one to me? Or is this somebody else"s?"

"No, you doofus. It"s addressed to you."

"For me?" and this handwriting is, Kiryu flipped the envelope at the back to see the name. "Lila . ."

"Bingo. She wrote it for you before you two got together. So it will be interesting to read, wouldn"t it?" Interesting you say, from that tone it"s clearly that you know the contents already. "I will head back now. Take care of Lila, Kiryu."

Once s.h.i.+chiro left, Kiryu leaned on the wall and opened the letter. He might as well look at it now. He doubts he will have any time to read it once he gets back to work.

Dear Austin Kiryu

I might be careless writing this letter to you, especially considering the nature of our current relations.h.i.+p. Then again, it"s hard to call us friends. But we aren"t lovers either? Lately, we"ve been crossing a lot of boundaries. But even then we can"t define our relations.h.i.+p.

Everything happens for a reason. The daily tragedies and misfortunes are all meaningful events, leading toward an ideal conclusion. With that in mind, there probably isn"t really any meaningless misfortune. Our meeting - was fate. I"ve always believed that just like how everything in this world happens for a reason. There is a saying that people exist in this world for another person. For me, that person was always you.Find authorized novels in Webnovel，faster updates, better experience，Please click for visiting.

Did you know that while at the start I wanted to bring my family back together and that"s why I became a singer? But, at some point, that changed. I only stayed on because I liked it, singing with you, creating music with you as long as we are together. I appeared in this world because you exist. I have so many dreams, so so many of them. But my biggest dream is that I can be with you forever. I want to stay by your side and grow old with you.

I"m clumsy with words, but I just want you to know that no matter what happens, I"ll always love you. Ever since I met you, I discovered how beautiful the world is. But the reason why I find the world this beautiful is because of the love and kindness you showed me.

Teras.h.i.+ma Lila

"So stupid," he murmurs. Really, how stupid is she? Even though he hadn"t properly resolved everything with Ichinose then. Why is it, that despite all those things she could conjure up this letter? From the very start, he didn"t have anyone else but Lila. But she has always had others, that"s why he always stepped aside. He didn"t think for one second that she ever thought of him in this manner.

Despite the conflicting feelings Lila had then. The fact that she could write this just goes to show how deep her feelings for him have always been. "I"ve decided already. "Lila said those words countless times when they got together, but Kiryu always told her to think it through more. Kiryu, is it okay for him to believe that the words in this letter aren"t just for show? That even now, this letter is a reflection to the feelings in her heart.

Still, he recalled the words she said earlier, and a deep sigh escaped her lips. Things aren"t that simple anymore, huh?

...

Teras.h.i.+ma Household

So, he came back here. But Kiryu wondered if it was such a good idea. His gaze flickered onto the girl who was beside him, she wore a thick cardigan, and her hair was loose. She looks so beautiful with her hair down, and with her natural black hair. For some reason, it made him nervous.

"Um, Kiryu? Did you take me out here so we could cuddle?"

"Kinda. I wanted to thank you for this. ." Kiryu took out the letter out of his pocket.

"Uwaahhh wait where did you get that?"

"a.s.sistant s.h.i.+," Kiryu stated flatly when he saw her questioning gaze. He definitely doesn"t want her to think those strange thoughts about him breaking in. The rare occasions where he refers to s.h.i.+chiro as an a.s.sistant, is occasions where he"s saving himself from getting in trouble.

"Eep, why?"

"He said he just found them."

"s.h.i.+chiro, that guy I"m blocking him on social media," Lila said, taking her phone out, and quickly going on twitter. Hey hey..

"That"s kinda petty."

"But but this is so embarra.s.sing," Lila hid her face with her hands. But Kiryu reached over and moved them away, the girl"s cheeks were stained red.

Kiryu pulled Lila into arms, nuzzling his head on her black locks. "It may be embarra.s.sing. But I"m happy Lila," he really is happy, to know the depth of her feelings for him were that strong before they started going out with each other.

In the first place, the reason they started dating was rather lackl.u.s.ter. During her weakest moment, kissing her like that and embracing her like that. It"s only because he was the for her then -no if he were to say that to her despite having read the letter she would get mad. He misunderstood completely.

"I"m embarra.s.sed Kiryu. But," a bright smile appears on her face, "I"m glad that my real feelings got to you. So um, now that they have. .." she trails off and fiddles with her fingers nervously. "Is it okay to cuddle?"

She asks him for cuddles with those rosy red cheeks of hers and bright violet eyes, and he feels human again. Even though he"s a monster who does not deserve such happiness, whenever she asks to be close to him, he feels like there"s something worth living for despite being so tainted.

He understands that the two of them aren"t dating anymore. What Lila needs the most now is friends.h.i.+p, somebody who she can talk too whenever she gets into a fight with Karas.h.i.+ma. Kiryu is sure that she doesn"t have anybody like that now, and that he ought to step up for the role and yet it"s difficult for him.

He still loves her so much, Kiryu"s hold on the girl tightened. Can he really let her leave his side permanently and go to Karas.h.i.+ma?