Ruka found herself awkwardly following behind him and noticed it. The distressed look, he wore on his face. His rus.h.i.+ng footsteps. She did hear rumours, but she also heard the rumours of how intimate the two are with each other. Karas.h.i.+ma Haruka being serious about women?There"s one person that fits that description. Her gaze darted towards the charm hanging out of his pocket, where his phone was. He supposedly likes Teras.h.i.+ma Lila and treated her differently.
But, how is one still able to act how he does despite having someone he loves deeply? For quite some time, he didn"t fool around and everyone really thought he changed.
As of late, however... she"s been wondering about it a lot. Ruka exhaled deeply, why on earth is she a.n.a.lyzing this in so much detail? But, she really does want to know; can a man and woman be connected, can be together and be affectionate with each other.
Without feelings of love? Without even knowing much about each other? If it"s really like that, then it explains everything. It explains why Takahiro wouldn"t look at her. The two of them, aren"t suited for "love", and that"s why she has always restrained her feelings. The relations.h.i.+p they have now is okay, she"s never wanted anything more.
The moment they entered the room, the girl had sensed them coming and flung her arms around Karas.h.i.+ma.
"Why didn"t you tell me you felt this bad?"
"Haruka?"
"Swallow this.." Ruka watched as he takes out a strange looking pill and slips it inside the girl"s mouth.
"Got it?"
...he didn"t make her drink any water. Is it drugs? If so she should say something but -- she really can"t intervene. Such complicated emotions. As of late, she"s been rather restless. How strange.
"Her fever should go down, but still.....Hey, bring her here."
.
.
Ruka didn"t need him to clarify who he meant by her. After all, she has been around Yumeko for so long now. So she had seen the two"s interactions by now. When she fetched Yumeko, for some reason, the girl didn"t seem surprised and it didn"t take long before they were in the infirmary. It"s not the first time Ruka has seen Yumeko use her abilities. She"s already seen it on more than one occasion.
However, this is the first time she"s heard about someone outside of the guys in RAY knowing about her powers. "I"ve always kept it hidden..." When Ruka first saw it, she understood why. She"s never seen an ability like this before. If others were to lay their hands on it, for sure they"d want it. The moment they see it, they will desire it. . .. Yumeko, doesn"t mention it in detail. She wondered exactly how deep Yumeko"s past with Karas.h.i.+msenpai is... It"s probably not something she can comprehend properly.
"You won"t understand."
Indeed, it really is like that. She doesn"t understand anything. Even now, all she can do is, stand here. Stand, watch and silently observe. Exactly, what can she do?
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"Ari-chan. Are you okay?!"
"Uka...Haruka.."
Lila repeated his name over and over.
"..."
"Leave."
He"s grateful that she doesn"t kick up a fuss. Or maybe ...she already knows. If it"s like that then, it would be better. Even though they"ve been on bad terms this whole time. Haruka understands. That girl still cares. He bends down and Lila wrapped her arms around his neck.
Her lips grazed against his neck.
"Why are you so careless?"
he asked, as he caressed her hair.
"Haruka...I just want to be with you more."
…..
So she wants him to stop seeing the others. She"s even destroying her health and getting emotionally worked up about it. Does she really want him beside her? Does he actually play such an important role in her life?
"Do you want to date me?"
he asked.
No response.
"That"s the only way…"
Still nothing.
She"s not evading it. But she isn"t answering.
She"s too complicated.
.
.
Her fevers down. Good.
"Haruka?" Lila murmured.
"...I have to leave soon."
"Oh.," Lila said, disappointed.
"But, I won"t go."
"Ah?"
"Hey, tell me straight. What do you want from me?"
At that, the girls face turned a bright shade of red. Why is she red all of a sudden? Seeing that though, he exhaled deeply. Well, at least she"s self-conscious around him. "Have this." he replaced something in small wrapping in the girl"s hands.
It didn"t feel right for him to give her something another girl made for him. But she needs proper food.
"Haruka, um, what about you?" she suddenly asked.
"I ate the lunch you made me."
"Ah! Was it tasty?"
"Then I"ll make you lunch everyday…".
She doesn"t have to though. But if she wants to so much, he managed a nod and her expression brightened. It doesn"t take the girl long to finish eating and when she does. He loosened his tie slowly and found her gaze on him.
"Um…"
"Take it off for me." he urged, Lila shyly does so and averted her gaze. He wanted nothing more than to destroy it, whatever she was thinking. He isn"t the prince charming type, so your reaction is..so stupid.
"Your sleeping beside me?"
"For a bit."
Seeing her look at him, half curious. Half wondering. He exhaled deeply and urged her over. "Just come here already."
Lila immediately rushed over, as she replied with a single, "Yay!"
….she"s cute.
Feeling her calm breathing and heartbeat as she laid her head on his chest, he paused... Why.. Why does she want to be close to him? Is she using him as a subst.i.tute for Austin Kiryu? He really doesn"t understand.
He probably shouldn"t leave her alone. But, the list of appointments. The boss is out of town anyway. If it"s just for a little while, he wants to, stay by her. After all, she got this way because of him. "Haruka, I"m getting sleepy."
"Go, to sleep."
"Okay."
.
.
"Hey...leave."
Rather, how on earth did she get in here? How annoying, he isn"t in the mood.
"Stingy, I won"t tell the boss. But let"s have a bit of fun, isn"t she sleeping?"
". ."
He doesn"t even know which woman this is anymore.
They all look the same to him, every single one of them. They all sound the same. To his surprise though, he felt someone suddenly clings to his arm; and found. Lila desperately holding on to him. Haruka"s eyes widened.
The woman was about to hit her but he stopped her, and with a cold gaze said one word, "Leave."
"You better make it up to me another time."
He doesn"t respond and carefully picked up the girl, and placed her back on the bed inside the inner room. "Ari…"
"..."
Seeing her tears, he paused. Geez.
His gaze softened, "Hey, don"t cry...soon. I"ll sort this out soon, and then I"ll always be with you."
"Haruka...Haruka."
It pained him, hearing her call out his name repeatedly. Almost as though she really needs him. Almost as though, she likes him.
…
Don"t look at him like that.
Don"t say his name like that…..
He won"t be able to control himself…
He already can"t. She"s...become so important to him.