He fell asleep…Lila gathered up her clothing and slipped it back on. There"s no time to take a bath. She ought to leave quickly before he wakes up. But. .. .seeing his arms wrapped around her so lovingly, she felt a tug in her heart. But, if he woke up and doesn"t see her. Won"t he be sad? She doesn"t want to hurt him and yet. .. He said he would wait for her. But this is the second time already that he"s taken her without permission. No, she lost count of the other times.
She"s become so filthy, Kiryu. Kiryu will hate her. She doesn"t want to keep doing this. Haruka might like her but her heart, her body and soul have always been Kiryu"s. But now she has been tainted.
Now that she has been tainted, will Kiryu still love her? Kiryu always said to her before that he liked it, the fact that she"s only ever loved him, the fact that she isn"t used to any guys. She liked that idea too, that she"s solely Kiryu"s. But now that"s disappeared. Now that"s disappeared, Kiryu won"t like her anymore? That thought frightened her, she ought to call him.
Lila picked up her phone but once again it was lead to voicemail, she sighed deeply. He said before that it"s okay to call whenever but he hasn"t picked up her calls even once. What"s more, even though Haruka did this to her, he didn"t notice.
Did their connection break?
If their connection broke, is it because of her or is it because Kiryu has somebody else more important now...
"Don"t cry…"
Realizing he was awake, Lila tried to wipe her tears, "Haruka...Oh, I"m sorry I woke…"
"Don"t cry, I can"t near it. I won"t say I"m sorry. But, I can say….I won"t do it much...Just once in a while."
But she doesn"t..doesn"t want to betray Kiryu. Or has she already been doing so? Kiryu said it"s up to her. If he finds out what"s been happening, will he hate her? He already heard that time and she told him honestly the things Haruka did. He seemed upset. Of course, he would be. If he finds out about the--her thoughts broke off when she felt Haruka"s lips on her neck, "Don"t be so uneasy...please.."
"Haruka...you know I…"
"I have someone special already."
"I get it. I do, but please. You"re the only one. Your the only one I"ll allow to hurt me like this."
….Ahh, it"s no use. Why can"t she get angry?
"Haruka, I want to take a bath…"
Haruka nodded and slowly got up.
…. .. . . . .
Bathroom, 2:00PM
"Har--har.."
"Just relax."
Relax? How can she in this situation? She forgot to bring the curtain...
"Are you really not angry at me?" he murmured against her ear.
Lila shook her head as she sensed the pain in his voice. She is angry, but she can"t tell him that.
"These bubbles are in the way."
Lila laughed, "Um, that"s the point."
It"s difficult to be around him now. But she can still force herself to smile.
"You"re really not afraid of me. I find that strange."
"Um, you"re a bit weird Haruka but not scary."
"Weird huh?"
Lila nodded.
His lips trailed against her ear and she shuddered, "I don"t want you to be afraid of me…"
"Haruka.."
"Don"t be afraid…" he murmured.
She hesitantly turned around and hugged him, "I"m not afraid of you…"
That"s a lie, she"s afraid.
"Really?" Haruka asked.
"Yes.."
"Your trembling again…"
"I-I…"
"You"re so beautiful.."
Lila looked away, she really wanted to hide. She isn"t used to being flattered in this manner. However, Haruka grabbed hold of her hands and slowly started to kiss her wounded fingers. "Unngh."
"I won"t, let you get hurt again...trust me…"
….
He placed her down on the bed and opened up her bathrobe. For a split second, Lila was worried that he would...do it again when she sees him tracing the marks he made. "Um…"
"Did it hurt?"
"Um, a little…" Lila replied puzzled.
Even though….he touched her against her will. He"s so gentle….So kind to her still…. Haruka stood up and proceeded to search for some medicine. Why, is he still so kind? He"s already slept with her..shouldnt he be tired of her already?
Before she knew what she was doing, she was tugging on his hand.
"...What?" he asked.
"Um..um I…"
"Shall we relax?"
Lila shyly nodded.
Haruka lays her down and joins her. Due to the embarra.s.sment, Lila wasn"t facing him. But she could feel his breath on her neck, sniffling her. "Turn around."
She can"t…
"Ari…"
Lila turned around.
"So, will you at least tell me if you liked it?"
….. Why is he asking that?
"Ari, I really do love you…"
Ah…
"Well, it may be hard to believe since I did take you without permission. But, I"ve never been so serious about another girl before…"
"Um, so you"d attack the girl you"re interested in?"
Seeing him pause, she laughed softly. Ah, that"s right. He"s clumsy, even clumsier than she and Kiryu were at love... "Haruka, you don"t know how to pursue a girl?"
A deep sigh escaped his lips, "You got me there, this is all new to me…"
"I see!"
"..I want to pursue you though, so I probably shouldn"t give away I"m clueless."
"Um, why me?"
"Why not you?"
Right, why not her? As far as Haruka is concerned, she isn"t really in a relations.h.i.+p with anyone..and even when she was. That didn"t stop him from pursuing her. "Well, I"m going to take a nap, you do the same."
"Um, cla.s.s…" Lila reminded him.
"You"re free for 2 hours."
...He knows her schedule...
Her gaze softened. She extended her hand out, she wondered if it"s okay to touch him? As she was thinking this, Haruka opened his eyes and her hand jolts back, he doesn"t say anything but pulled her into his arms. "Go to sleep."
"Y--yes.."
Even though she"s frightened, why can"t she leave this person"s side?
How contradictory.