The more Haruka told her of the past, the fonder his expression grew. At some point, she just stopped listening to the story and focused on his expression. Though Haruka smiles, there is something different about his current smile. She likes it when he smiles like this. Ah, Lila wonders since when? Since when did she think of only Haruka. Her thoughts previously were all consumed with just Kiryu and music are now solely about Haruka.When Lila first started this journey, there were many things she didn"t know. She was uncertain and confused about many things. A world without Kiryu, it felt like her whole life was falling apart. Soichiro locking her up the way he did, did not make it better for her. It only made her weaker. From time to time whenever she"s in a particular place for too long alone with n.o.body in sight. Lila panics and has a breakdown.
It left a mental scar on her heart, that"s one thing added to the list of why the man named Soichiro is not a good person. Even after she enrolled into Light Academy, Lila still felt lonely. The only thing she felt sure of was Haruka. Haruka was the only thing that kept her sane. Initially, she was using him, using him as a means to get rid of her loneliness. But that changed, Lila slowly realized the reason why she wanted to be by his side was because she loved him.
The only thing she knew when she started this journey was Karas.h.i.+ma Haruka. Despite how rocky their relations.h.i.+p was at the start, despite the pain he caused her. Lila noticed that whenever she needed him by her side, he was always there for her.
The change in her feelings was gradual, for the longest time she convinced herself that she only wanted to fill her loneliness and his. Lila convinced herself that her heart constantly beating like that was merely an irregular heartbeat, that it meant nothing. It quietly crept up on her until one day she woke up, and she is no longer able to look at him in the eye.
The warmth he gives her is different, it makes her feel safe, and yet at times, it feels possessive and restricting. Sometimes whenever he holds her it brings tears to her eyes--- Lila"s thoughts broke off when Haruka brushed his fingers against her eyes, "Your crying already, and I"m not even at the sad part yet."
"Haruka.."
"I"ll tell you the rest of it another time. Let"s rest for a while," Haruka said.
Lila looked at him doubtfully, "Can I ask you one more thing?"
"Go ahead."
"Did you propose to me back then?" Lila asked.
Haruka sighed deeply, "You not having your memories is inconvenient after all. The one who proposed is you stupid not me."
Eh? Was it her? But Haruka was already pulling up the blanket around her, so Lila knew she couldn"t ask any more questions. He did tell her that he would continue this another time. It"s okay; she can still ask him then. It"s not like she"s in a rush.
…....
Lila scooped some miso soup out of the pot with a ladle and poured it into the white bowl. This would do her good for she felt like her body could not handle anything heavy like meat or flour. Brother told her to be careful, but he didn"t give her any specific details. So Lila was unsure of what she ought to be cautious about.
Just in case Haruka wanted something heavy to eat, Lila also prepared him some griffin steak with some vegetables. She brought the bowl to her mouth and took a sip. Warmth filled her body, ah this is tasty.
Lila hummed happily, "I"m getting better," she said to herself. Indeed, if it were the past her, she would have at least screwed up a few more times. But that"s not the case here.
She sensed a familiar presence behind her and glanced over her shoulder.
"Ah, Haru-" her sentence fell short when she noticed his red eyes. But what surprised Lila was his purple hair. Ah.
When Haruka reaches her, she"s on the ground in a matter of seconds.
"Lila," Haruka murmured softly against her neck. Thump thump. "You know I don"t think I"ve taken your blood like this before… The last time on my birthday didn"t count."
That"s true; she feels a bit embarra.s.sed which is stupid. Haruka and her have done many intimate things before. So what is she doing acting like an idiot for and getting all fl.u.s.tered? So ridiculous.
Lila gently caressed his hair with her hands, "Don"t drink until I"m unconscious, I want to experience a proper moment with you. ...After all, for hanyou"s the act of taking blood from the person you love is important," Lila murmured the last line quietly.
How many days have pa.s.sed since they started dating? She is acting stupid. But she genuinely loves Haruka, so everything he does makes her nervous. Lila felt Haruka gently suck on her neck, "Unngh…"
"Lila, for me you"ve always been the only one. That"s why even back then I could never drink from you. You were special to me, I never wanted to hurt you in any way," Haruka trailed off, "But I guess I ought to have."
"Haruka.."
"You have a connection with him already; I can"t change it. But, I will make sure you experience something equally as amazing." Haruka said.
"Amazing?"
Haruka chuckled, "Why are you still innocent dear?"
Ah? But Lila"s words are lost as she felt him bite her.
...…
A few hours later
When Lila wakes up, the skies are already pitch black, "Haruka?" she murmured. Lila looked at the spot beside her and found him sleeping peacefully. Soft laughter pa.s.sed her lips seeing how tightly he was clinging to her. He"s like a little kid like this.
Like a little kid but the memory of early burned in her mind. She turned to the mirror above the bed and looked at her reflection. The person she saw in the mirror didn"t look like her, at least the old her. Before she could scan her appearance more, Haruka hugged her from behind, "Aha, um were you pretending to sleep again?
"Well, I woke up before you but figured I"d try to sleep more."
"I"m sorry for waking you; it"s still late. Please get some rest."
As for her, she"s going to do some training for the upcoming official second round. Pa.s.sing the preliminaries under those conditions, Lila knew she didn"t perform to her best ability. That"s why she wants to make up for that time. Haruka shook his head and paused. She noticed him staring at her and immediately understood. Her cheeks grew hot, as she covered the marks with her hands.
"It"s not like I was staring because I liked it or anything, it"s just.." Lila trailed off; she was curious to know what kind of marks Haruka made. That"s equally an embarra.s.sing reason though.
Her sentence fell short when she felt Haruka"s hot and hungry lips on her neck again, Lila froze for a moment, "Please rest."
"Why?" his lips curve to an amused smile and Lila felt herself growing restless.
"H-Haruka, I told you. You can"t drink me dry."
Even though she managed to get up, Lila fully understood the state of her body. If she allowed Haruka to do anything else to her, then she would surely faint.
Haruka didn"t reply as he pushed her down on to the bed, " ...So tonight, you will be my wife."