Lila liked it whenever Haruka smiled or joked around. His smile wasn"t like Kiryu"s or senpai"s, maybe because he isn"t used to smiling a lot, but his smiles end up coming across as a smirk. Either way, whenever she sees the corners of his lips tug upwards, Lila felt very warm. Though the majority of the times he really is smirking and teasing her. However, Lila never minded it; it was a way for Haruka to convey his emotions. It was just another method to express his feelings like sleeping together. Lila did not mind that either and yet when it turned out to be the cause of them not speaking about important matters, it leads to her budding complicated feelings.But his smile? It made her feel like all the broken pieces were coming together, and everything broken could be fixed. Lila stared deeply into Haruka"s eyes, unlike Kiryu, Haruka did not have a distinct eye color. His eyes were dull in comparison, but even then she loved his eyes. His smile, his eyes - everything. Lila loved everything about the man named Karas.h.i.+ma Haruka. She stared deeply into his eyes because she wanted to find where the source of the pain was.
Where was it? If Lila could figure out the source, then she would be able to put an end to it. Mission or no mission. For the longest time she has always wanted to help Haruka, she has always wanted to see him smile, and make sure he lives a life filled with happiness. The more she thought about this, the closer Lila inched towards Haruka.
Haruka must have snapped out of his daze, and Lila noticed since she was watching his face.
Their noses were a hair away from touching. Before Haruka could say or do anything, Lila blinked, sighed, and shook her head and murmured, "no good," as she moved away from him. Lila guessed that would not work. This case calls for the power of words. Even though the two of them are bad at it, it won"t do any harm in trying. Lila carefully debated to herself, as she carefully considered how to phrase her thoughts. Lila no longer wanted him to misunderstand.
"Are you going to kiss me or not?"
Lila shook her head, "No," she knew her answer angered him since Haruka stood up.
"Where are you going?"
"Out."
That"s his reaction to what she just said? This man is unbelievable. Lila quickly got up, ignoring the weak feeling in her body and hugged him. Honestly, she wanted them to speak properly without them touching each other. Lila didn"t want their relations.h.i.+p to rely too much on physical actions. But, "Physical actions convey a lot more than words," that was something she understood all too well after dating Haruka. While it may look cowardly and people may regard it as a means of escape. For their relations.h.i.+p, it"s just perfect. Lila knew she made a mistake pus.h.i.+ng away his advances earlier. If she accepted, then maybe he would be more inclined to listen to her. She knew how stupid that sounded. There is a voice in the back of her mind that is telling her, "Why does she have to make such exceptions for him?"
Lila didn"t give him a chance to speak as her lips came cras.h.i.+ng on his, fingers tugging on his clothes. When Haruka regained control, the two of them were fl.u.s.tered and sweaty, "d.a.m.n you, you...I love you too much," Haruka murmured.
Yes, yes she knows that and the same goes for her.
....
When Lila woke up, Haruka is gently caressing her hair, "I"m sorry for las.h.i.+ng out at you, I do understand everything you"re concerned out. Even if we don"t talk it out, I already know. That"s one of the main reasons why I don"t see the need to be vocal about everything,"
Ah, "But I can"t read minds Haruka, should I learn?"
Haruka chuckled, "You don"t have to," he trailed off, and Lila noticed that his gaze looked distance, "Tell me something, about what you just said. Does that mean you"ll come with me?"
"I"ll come with you Haruka; I want to be with you forever,"
Haruka ran his free hand through his hair and sighed, "Really? You"re going to accept my proposal just like that?" Lila nodded, and his lips are on her neck again in seconds, "I love you so much, so you better not be messing around with me now. If you say those words and genuinely mean it, I will never let you go. Though that was the case before, even more so - I won"t let you leave me. Even then you won"t take your words back?"
Lila nodded, "Yes, I"m serious," to her surprise instead of continuing he suddenly sat up and tossed some clothes at her, "Haruka?" she was very confused.
"Get changed, let me take you somewhere,"
....
Ireland
"By somewhere, you mean Ireland?" Lila exclaimed. It took all her will not to curse. Though she had quite the foul month in contrast to her docile and frail appearance, it had been quite some time since she last showed this side to her — one of the reasons being Haruka. Lila wanted to look her best for him, that thought has increased even more now that they are dating.
Haruka smiled, "Yeah."
Yeah he says, Lila sighed deeply as she wrapped her hands around herself. She should have checked the clothes Haruka tossed her. The weather in this place is very cold. Her thoughts broke off when Haruka wrapped his jacket around her, "My bad,"
"Haruka, hug me instead."
Laughter, "If I do that I will attack you here."
Lila raised her eyebrows at this comment, here? The two of them were still in the airport; the plane had landed moments ago. Though the place wasn"t busy, there were still a lot of people here. She knew even if it were Haruka he wouldn"t be so unreasonable, at least Lila was so confident in that. Lila did not think that thought would backfire on her so quickly. Haruka grabbed hold of her hand and lead her to a pillar by the seating area where people were charging their phones. Some onlookers looked at them, curious what this couple was up too. Curious about the gorgeous looking couple that looked like they are movie stars. Before Lila could get any words out, Haruka"s lips were on hers.
Her eyes widened when she felt how intense the kiss was getting. While she was still trying to process the current events, Haruka hands were already on her clothes. Lila felt her mind go blank and for a split moment, she forgot where she was. Instead, she focused on the feeling of Haruka"s lips on hers, and his hands are tugging on the thin material of her s.h.i.+rt. When she felt his other hand on her b.u.t.t, she froze. He works too fast, when did his hands get there? Lila always had reservations about public displays of affections; it"s not like she had a proper grudge or belief about it like most people. But Lila does believe that there are certain things that cannot be shown in public. There ought to be a limit on the level of affection shown. What she and Haruka are doing now is stepping on a dangerous line. While Lila was still able to think in that manner, she could not act on it.
Whenever he kissed her or doing anything affectionate, Lila cherished the feeling of his lips. The feeling of his hands running all around her body and marking places that she would be too ashamed to show anybody else. Is she acting too shamefully? The past her would not have done something like this in public, while she still had her morals.
Lila pushed the voice to the back of her mind and cheris.h.i.+ng every single moment of this l.u.s.tful and messy situation, "Nngh," continuously pa.s.sed her lips. Though Lila tried to hold her voice back, it did her no good. Haruka, she already made her mind up. She wants to be with him forever, no matter what happens. That"s why Lila hoped he would stop touching her like he was in a rush all the time. Previously she did not think much of it, but now she understood after their fight. The reason Haruka rushed all the time.
Haruka did not believe they could be together forever.