It came cras.h.i.+ng onto them like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. Before Lila could react, Haruka did, and just in a matter of seconds, her world turned red. It was a bright red - her surroundings dyed with the color a.s.sociated with her kind. So beautiful and yet at the same time, it was frightening. In the center of all this stood Haruka. Haruka just now protected her from the beam they dropped from the top of the building. There Haruka stood, bloodshot eyes red. A deadly appearance, "even in his hanyou state, he looks so handsome."Lyn called the mists to her; she was never afraid of it. Sure the voice inside her made her afraid. But after she remained by Haruka"s side, Lila started to understand those voices. Like herself, they are alone; they just want to find warmth. The reason why she loved the darkness when she was younger was because she understood. Without darkness, there is no light, and without light, there is no darkness.
People have always separated the two, but Lila slowly learned. They are both the same, aren"t they? They both act as each other"s s.h.i.+eld. The darkness brought her the same kind of feeling that the light would. But people were afraid of the darkness. The people surrounding her all thought she was an unusual child. Indeed, why would anybody accept the darkness? During her Mother"s time, it brought so many people pain and sadness. It caused so much conflict and hate. It"s only reasonable that people would stray away from it, only natural for them to feel disgusted looking at her.
A child of darkness, at first it didn"t bother her too much. She loves the darkness no matter what anyone says. But before Lila knew it, it became an unfortunate burden to her. She was shouldering this feeling all by herself. She felt hurt, sad, and alone.
Those feelings increased the darkness inside her. It sometimes led to her losing control of herself.
She hated it; she hated it. But no matter how much she disliked it, she couldn"t do anything to stop it. ...and thus she was all alone. But over the last few years, Lila slowly understood it. Even during the start of the darkness where her
She was just far too weak to control her emotions and to control it, that"s all. Lila couldn"t figure out the answer.
Yet things changed after she met them, she met them all, and everything became clear. The guys in the G.o.d5, everyone in the G.o.ddess4, her dear friend - the people she met on her journey and then him. Haruka showed her the answer. He told her that it would be okay. He gave her the courage to learn. And now it"s her turn to save him.
"Unlike me, you can make a choice Lilchan, will you use the darkness to harm people, or will you use it to protect?"
Her Mother"s words rang in her head.
Lila took a deep breath as she took a few steps forward. Those few steps felt like an eternity, but eventually, she was close enough. The darkness around Haruka looked similar to flames. It looked like it would harm somebody. But that didn"t matter at all, Lila wrapped her arms around him and held him tightly.
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The dark look on his eyes seemed to fade slightly, "Lila?"
"En, it"s me, your wife."
"My wife," Haruka repeated, he gently caressed her cheeks with her hands, "I"m sorry if you hadn"t stopped me. I would have killed those bystanders. And to think I promised you that I"d never let you use your powers again. That I"d be the one to protect you."
Lila shook her head. "It"s okay."
"No, I have to apologize. Before, even without using my powers, I was strong. At least that"s what I thought. But just now when I saw those people who tried to harm you, I lost control in an instance. Whenever I"m with you, I can"t control myself."
"I really do respect you Haruka."
A trace of confusion appeared in Haruka"s eyes as he repeated her words, "Respect?"
Lila beamed happily, "Yes, I respect you. Unlike most people who run away when they find a fault in themselves. You try to find a solution, you try to resolve it," that"s right, even back then when they first met. He was always making mistakes and yet doing his best to get back on his feet, "But it was different with me, I always ran away. I escaped if I sing. I can forget it, the painful moments."
She would escape into the world of music because if it is this place, they will not harm her. Even now, she is trying to run away. Still, Lila took a deep breath, "You don"t have to blame yourself for everything. We"ve all gone through a lot, we"ve commuted many mistakes. But that does not mean we cast aside our own lives. Our own selves and our own heart. Feigning ignorance is one thing, but purposely hurting yourself is wrong," her gaze softened as she lightly kissed his lips.
"Lila?" Haruka called out. His voice sounded so feeble, so meek like a little child.
"Getting hurt, feeling pain, and yet getting back on their fleets. That"s how people learn to get stronger. Experiences make a person grow stronger because, after each experience, people grow stronger. They learn from their mistakes."
That"s right, no matter how many times a person falter or break down, what"s important is that the person can get back up on your feet.
Her thoughts broke off when she felt Haruka"s lips on hers, "I want to move on, but with you, my dear wife."
"En, me too."
...
While Haruka was injured, apparently her injuries were more important. After what happened, Lila was unsure of what to say. It was a first for her to see him that way. Haruka always kept his mouth shut whenever it came to his hanyou side after all. When Haruka suggests a.s.signing Myou to her, Lila frowned, "I am perfectly capable of defending myself."
"This isn"t the time to be stubborn. Just now, you saw how b.l.o.o.d.y this side of the world is. If a normal person something like that. Can you not imagine what those of higher levels are capable of?" Haruka"s voice was sharp, and yet there was no sort of demand in his tone. In fact, there was something about it that was almost sad.
Lila couldn"t deny the words he just said too. Just now she really was frightened, a wave of fear washed across her. One that she didn"t know existed before.
"Why?" Lila questioned.
Haruka closed shuts his eyes momentarily before opening them, as he began to tend to the wound on her leg, she flinches slightly as he applied the ointment, " I am worried about your well being."
Her eyes widened
Huh? How come he"s suddenly saying this stuff? Suddenly saying stuff about being worried about her. With those eyes that are so similar to when they first met each other again.
"My dear?"
"Don"t look at me," Lila brought her hands to her face. Don"t look.
He shouldn"t look at her, right now she can"t stop her tears from flowing. A clattering sound was heard that belonged to the first aid kit instruments. Lila felt Haruka lift her, "Let go of me," Lila protested. " I said unhand me," yet those words fell on deaths ears.
Just now, when she saw that sight. Lila understood. No matter what she does, Haruka is her enemy. Until Haruka himself breaks his connection with those people, nothing will change.
She has to protect her friends from him.
He"s her enemy.
It"s exactly like what he said, the two of them have changed so much that it is hard to stay with him. That"s why she has to move and push him away right now. But for some reason, Lila cannot do so. Lila knew she could have just walked away and done something.
Because she couldn"t move away.
Because they were finally this close with each other, it all came spilling out. The feelings she would typically hide. The more she spoke, the more tears came spilling out. Lila felt his arms tighten around her.
"My love, I"m so sorry."
It was small and barely audible. However, with their bodies pressed against each other like this, she heard it loud and clearly.
Idiot, Haruka is such a fool.
"Why are you apologizing? I love you so much."
After she calmed down, Lila was quite embarra.s.sed. So she remained silent for a while.
It was dark, and yet Lila could see the expression on his face. A rather dark one, those eyes. It seems as though there"s nothing there.
" You think you can change? Fool."
A familiar voice rang in her head, and she saw it. A very lonely look on her beloved"s face
Lila wonders how long it has been since such an expression has made its way on to that usually cheerful face. Thinking back when she first met Haruka again before she recalled who he was. She really misunderstood him from day 1; she really thought he was one of those people. Fools who would smile without having a single care in the world. However, that quickly changed. Quickly as in three seconds afterward...
"You don"t pretend with me.
I want to be someone you can talk to, okay?
You don"t have to act."
Ah, strange enough he said something like that to her. Usually, she wouldn"t even with such words open up. But after he said those words, the idiotic smile that was often plastered on his face was replaced with something different.
Lila wanted to find out exactly what that difference was.
To do so, she had to get so much closer.
"You know I believe we are quite alike. There are still some things you don"t know about me either, but given more time I"m sure you"ll realize it also our similarity. Maybe it"s cause were similar, maybe it"s cause we"re not. But whatever it is I surely don"t want to lose it. I want to understand and know more about you. Is that alright, Lila?"
Wanting to get to know her more, huh, instead of getting to know each other through words. They explored the meaning through a much more physical attraction. That in itself was not wrong, and yet at the same time, it didn"t make it right either. Sometimes a person cannot express their feelings through words, only through actions you can get the message across.
She and Haruka are those kind of people. Even if people see it as something socially unacceptable, even if it"s considered wrong by the rest of the world. It was the only way that they could understand each other.
Lila had to get close, Lila had to get close to Haruka to understand and find the meaning behind that difference. But who would have thought that by paying attention to him such an extent, a gorgeous melody would appear in her head? That"s right, she saw it then. A different sort of light then before and yet it seemed to flow into her memory gently. Something so beautiful.