Haruka exhaled deeply, what is he doing? Staying like this with her? He turned back to the girl. Though she had woken up; her fever was high again, so he made her lay down again. He walked back over and extends his hand out towards her forehead, a burning sensation filled his palm. Hot. Normal fever or not, he should buy some regular cold medicines. What he gave her before will only be effective for a short amount of time. With this in mind, he proceeded to leave; however, the girl suddenly shot her hand out."Haruka I think I might like…"
...what is she saying...
This girl…
....
After hearing what she said, it didn"t take him long to lose control. Haruka doesn"t hesitate to tear the s.h.i.+rt from her.
"Haruka, you too. Please."
Her voice sounded so desperate, so needy. Needy for him. Haruka removed his s.h.i.+rt and finds her, staring at him with flushed cheeks. What an idiot. Noticing her gaze darken slightly, he pauses. Oh, right. There are other markings left by the girls he saw earlier. To his surprise her fingers simply grazed over the marks, "These don"t look nice...they did it wrong."
"Then, you fix it."
"..."
She simply stared at him with flushed cheeks, and he understands immediately. Even if she suddenly gets caught up in the flow, it need not mean he can trick her. It"s fine though, with this atmosphere. They"ll probably be able to do it.
See? It doesn"t matter whom she likes. He"s good at s.e.x, she"ll definitely agree to it. She"s just like any other woman. He needs to convince himself that. She isn"t any different.
Lila seemed startled, however, and uncomfortable.
". .Take deep breaths." He instructed.
"Deep breathes?"Lila repeated puzzled.
"It"ll help you."
Lila nodded. Laughter suddenly escaped her lips as she murmured that he must be worried about her. Haruka looked away slightly. What is he doing? Normally with this atmosphere, he simply goes ahead and does it. Words that have nothing to do with pleasure are unnecessary. This girl, at this stage they"ll do it. Why isn"t she stopping him? She was so against it before. Or maybe it was all an act.
Oh, it probably isn"t. She"s still sick.
He almost forgot. The reason he has her like this too is to give her treatment. He almost got carried away. The fever is probably making her act this way too. Haruka isn"t stupid to think that she"s doing this consciously; especially considering how cold her gaze is whenever he touched her as of late.
"Haruka... Haruka. It feels... kinda... good "
Still, what on earth is she saying? No, she"s sick. She"s not thinking straight. He lifts her s.h.i.+rt slightly and frowned, seeing the deep marks. You"d think after after awhile they"d disappear by now but traces still firmly remained.
" …." Marks from another man. He did figure it was like that but huh, they met up. Haruka then puts medicine on his fingers and shoves it inside her mouth.
"Suck it." he murmured in her ear.
"Nnnngh. .."
"...."
"Haruka, I"m dizzy... "
He removed his fingers, "Ah...Uh .."
G.o.d... This sort of atmosphere is bad.
"uk...ma. Ah...Haruka."
. .. He gulps down the rest of the medicine, and bends down, parting the girl"s lips once his lips were on hers was quite simple, especially in her present state. "Nngh ..unngh."
She belongs to another guy. He knows that better than anyone and yet... Once he stops kissing her, he noticed how flushed she was. He saw it earlier but didn"t comment. But seeing how her face colour was changing several hues, he pauses. Is it simply because of the fever? "For a while...you haven"t been embarra.s.sed around me.." he mumbled.
"Ah-huh...it was weird.."
"That"s different now?"Haruka asked, but he wasn"t expecting a proper response.
She shyly nodded, "I"m embarra.s.sed."
. . . .
So, what? She"s back to normal? It"s only been a short amount of time. Can he delude himself again, into thinking that she feels self-conscious around him because her feelings are changing? Can he keep pretending, that he"s not the one forcing her into this?
What"s more her singing is fixed now too. Was he hindering her rather than help? Lila, he only wanted to show you that he loves you. But as it stands, these feelings of his; are only causing you trouble.
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May 8th, 2035 Light Academy.
"Remember, even if you have a boyfriend. A fiance, you"re already mine…"
Lila shook her head, after hearing such words from him three days ago. How could she possibly think anything of it? Thump. Thump. The places he touched still burn. They were close to having s.e.x, that much was certain. She wasn"t sure what happened in the end since she pa.s.sed out. But she understood that he stopped at some point. In all honesty, she still felt terrible. But if she stayed there any longer, it would have been bad for her.
.
.
In the end, she found herself entering an empty cla.s.sroom. Haruka was fast asleep on the sofa.
His face seems flushed. That person, Umi, Sonodsenpai told her that Haruka had a fever. Lila walks over and brushes her hand on his forehead. Hot. Did he catch it from her? She can"t say she"s completely steady herself, but she should help him.
"...Nnmmghhhmmm…"
"Lila..…"
!!
Hearing her name leave his lips, startles her.
Lila turned away, she really ought to get some medicine at least. Before she could do so though, she found herself on the couch, with Haruka hovering over her. He was kissing her so feverishly. She somehow manages to get him off, and he snaps out of it.
"You...why are you here?"
"I just..um wanted some um..help."
"Give it here."
Lila hands the doc.u.ments, and he started explaining from the start. From time to time, she foundj herself peeking at him.
"Haruka…"
"What?"
"...N--nothing."
She"s somewhat nervous. After all, that"s happened recently. She has yet to forget the sensation of his touch too; and yet even that will be painted over by the memories she shared with Kiryu. Haruka, she cannot accept your feelings. But why, can"t she leave you alone?
.
.
Lila didn"t think she would be pushed down since the atmosphere was so awkward. But, it seems like she was being too naive again.
Haruka murmured huskily in her ear, "You want this right?"
"U---um.."
"Well, whatever. I guess I can start."
In the surrounding area, Lila sees the state of the room and several torn women"s garments.
"No. Let me go!"
"Let you go huh? Didn"t I tell you, that"s not possible."
"You..um already.."
"Because I touched other girls? What"s wrong with that? Your not anything to me yet.."
!!!
Nothing.
Oh.
Oh.
Oh.
Oh.
She says the words, "oh" repeatedly in her mind. Her chest tightening up due to the sudden pain. Haruka, she isn"t important to him in any way. She"s simply n.o.body, and yet, whenever he touched her. Whenever he holds her, she can feel his affection overflowing.
Her hands wrapped around his back, as he made quick work of her neck. The previous markings from before had yet to leave.
He"s become so precious to her. When was it? Was it during that moment when he gave her the phone charm...
Or...
)
"I can only lend you little support now. But next year, I will give you a proper answer.."She doesn"t know if she can be the one to lead him to a place of light. But she wants to try.
When she thinks of light, she sees your figure.
You may get angry, at her for saying this.
But for her, you were another light. A different sort of light than the one belonging to her beloved. But something equally important. What she"s been avoiding this entire time. What people saw in us then. She wonders if ...it will all come spilling out soon.
(
The moment she first found out how fragile he really was? She said it then, Harukkun is a different sort of light than the one belonging to her precious Kiryu.