*UNEDITED*Lila decided to leave the two alone too talk. So she occupied herself with studying. However she was worried about them. Her brother said that stuff about Haruka after all. So Lila thought of an excuse to interrupt them. Before she knew it she headed to the kitchen and cooked a lot. Only an hour and a half had pa.s.sed since then, but Lila felt very restless. "How come she hasn"t heard from them in so long?"
"Someone who never wavers isn"t necessarily strong."
"To question what"s right to worry and search."
"To have the courage to do that…is the mark of true strength."
Even now your words are so so very dear to her and as of late, it appears as though you"ve been appearing a lot more in her dreams. Aha, she laughs softly to herself. It"s because of what you did then isn"t it? The reason why even now she can still feel your voice like your right there beside her.
Haruka brought up that lecture like speech of his again. " I told you " I won"t live my life by another person"s script. I don"t know how many years it will take. but I"ll write and act my own ending". Even now that"s still the case. I won"t allow myself to be pushed around by that so called destiny and I"ll change my fate as many times as I like. That"s why, let me change your destiny too Lila."
He said he would change her destiny. This blood shed destiny that he one told her to accept, the one he told her not to run from. The sin she bears and everything else, even now she hasn"t forgotten it. How could she forget?
However, hearing those words certainly made her happy. He"s become such a fool and ever since he came back he"s been so very kind to her. So very kind and gentle, though he"s always been that way he never openly showed it. But recently, Lila started seeing this side of him again. It made her feel happy and yet at the same time it"s so very scary.
It"s so very scary. It"s painful and Lila occasionally felt like she is suffocating. That feeling like she is being surrounded by darkness and will fall in a endless pit of abyss.
Yet, right now she isn"t the only one in pain and suffering. Haruka has become so very gentle and so very kind. While Haruka always possessed that trait, something has changed. Lila isn"t stupid, she sensed it because they are so closer to each other. And she knew he knew that too.
Her gaze fell on the tray of food she finished preparing, and exited the kitchen.
She quietly made her way down the hallway, the kitchen was nearby the meeting room. Lila knew the two must of had a serious discussion since they chose to meet there. She recalled Haruka"s serious expression, and his injuries. It didn"t sit well with her, what happened with Zane.
But, she knew with the way he was he wouldn"t tell her right away. It would be easy for her to find out, but
When he is sad, Lila wants him to cry. She will be there for him. When he is happy, and wants to meet with her, she will be there. But because she is a girl , there are times that he gets tired. There are times that he holds back his tears. So in times like that, she is going to come flying down to him and hold her in his arms gently.
If he does do that, then maybe something will change. Changes that won"t cause more pain with every action.
Kiryu, Haruka is completely different from him..
Though Soijiro comments how similar the two are. She never once thought that way. Both Kiryu and Haruka...
Ah, those two differ a lot, despite being so close. That may be the reason why lately Lila can"t stop thinking about Kiryu. Her thoughts broke off when her phone started beeping.
"This ring tone.."
Lila scanned the hallway and found a small table on the corner. She placed the tray down, "h.e.l.lo, Kiryu?"
"Hey, can I ask you out for dinner?"
"Dinner?" Lila looked at the clock in the hallway. It was already quite late, but it seemed like Kiryu just finished up at the ball.
"Yes, dinner."
"Just us two?"
Kiryu chuckled, "No with the others."
Ah, he must be doing this because of Kasumi. Kiryu knows what happened with Kasumi earlier. While Lila rushed over since she was worried, she also understood something.
Those people are a bunch of fools. But they will be fine, even if she doesn"t do anything.
They are different from herself and Kiryu - those people. They differ entirely and that may be the reason why she can watch over them so warmly without interfering.
"You know, I"m not just asking because of Kasumi…" Kiryu trailed off and mumbled. "I want to invite you…"
"I can"t, sorry," Lila refused. "But thank you for calling, goodnight." She didn"t wait for a reply and closed her phone.
She wanted to agree and yet..it won"t do her any good, getting attached anymore.
Is she still trying to cling to him? To Kiryu? Lila laughs softly, " That won"t do, will it?" she mumbled to herself.
She has to take over, and guide everyone. Isn"t that why they age? Though she isn"t exactly " old just yet. In a few years she would be eighteen and in two years it would be her coming of age ceremony.
Kiryu won"t see her. Lila had many concerns about Zane. She knew her future would be with Haruka.
Too bad for him, he won"t see her in that kimono. Such an idiot, Kiryu is an idiot. If he her away that time then the situation wouldn"t be so complicated. But if he did that then she wouldn"t have made such strong connections.
"Kiryu, I haven"t forgotten. What you were saying that time. … I wonder how you plan on giving me your answer now. But since it"s you, you"ll find away."
Lila is thankful they didn"t hire any servants, otherwise people would hear her mumbling to herself.
…. ..
She stayed in the halls for quiet awhile lost in thought. But the sight of the food caught her attention and she resumed.
Lila quickly reentered the room with a tray in her hand. She noticed however that her brother was no longer alone. Haruka was smoking, a heavy scent filled the air causing her to cough. He glanced over, "Sorry, I"ll stop."
She shook her head, "I"m just surprised, it"s stronger than usual," Lila placed the tray down on the nearby table.
"Come here," Haruka urged her.
She walked over but before she could get over there. She noticed the look in his eyes, "Wait, I"m not ready…"
"Lila," Haruka said sharply, "Come here."
"He suddenly seems strange…" Lila increased her pace until she stood directly opposite him. Haruka extended his hand out and pulled her onto his lap. He buried his face on the nape of her neck. Ah…
"Are you tired hubby? Should we take a nap together?"
"It"s fine, I want to relax with you."
"Maybe we can play some games…"
She felt Haruka place gentle kisses on her neck and she laughed. "Are you fooling around with me hubby?"
"Zane said from now on Lila he won"t hold back anymore. He will do whatever he can to block us, and stop us from being together."
Lila immediately sensed his change in tone. Ah, so that"s why he is doing this. He doesn"t want to let her out of his sight for a second. Her gaze softened. He must be very worried about it. She understood his feelings all too well. For a long time Lila felt the same. She felt anxious and worried every single day.
What will Zane do? She kept an eye out on the man"s actions for a long time. However, he is way too carefully. Lila turned around so she could face Haruka. He raised his face up from her neck.
"Something wrong?"
Lila extended her hand out and traced his lips.