Hotel - 2 hours later -"We stopped by here because it suddenly started raining. But, I dont think we can go back out."
"Then lets spend the night here." Lila suggested.
"Spend the night?" Haruka repeated. "Here?"
When she heard his suggestive tone, Lila averted her gaze from him. It is embarra.s.sing for her whenever he talks like that. Does he not know that it is bad for her heart? Then again it does seem like her husband is oblivious to most things.
"Is it bad?"
They have stayed overnight in a hotel before. But then again whenever they do, they end up doing things. After that recent talk, Lila understood what her husband was thinking.
Haruka shook his head and sat down on the bed beside her. For the next few minutes n.o.body spoke. She occasionally fet him playing with her hair.
" W---why are you taking your tie of? "
. . . . She"s really freaking out isn"t she? But Lila could not help it, whenever she ends up alone with this person it ends up like this.
"Lil-- "
"Ah!"
They won"t be able to talk like this and she won"t be able to relax. Maybe Haruka understood this since she watched as he walks over to the door and unlocks it.
"Go ahead. "
"What?"
"I mean, it"s not like I"m trying to do anything but if you"re scared, I don"t want you to feel like your stuck in here. "
"N--o, that"s not it. I mean...I know you"d never take advantage of the moment. But.." Lila trailed off. She did not know how to say it so for a moment she was a bit lost.
"But, I get nervous when I"m alone with you. "
Lila watched as Haruka averts his gaze. For the next few minutes n.o.body spoke, no Haruka was muttering something strange. It took her a few minutes to realize what he was saying.
"Why are your murmuring pi? "
"You really want to know why?"
Maybe it"s because he spoke in a somewhat serious tone, that she hides behind the book shelf.
"I get nervous when I"m with you too. "
Lila peeked from the shelves when she heard him say that. He gets nervous too? Even though he never shows it. She watched the look on his face. He looked nervous and uncomfortable somehow. He is so clumsy but this is one of the reasons why she trusts him. Despite what others say about him.
She nervously made her way across the room again and sat back down.
Haruka looked over at her and scratches his head."You know I was thinking if I broke my promise you would hate me."
"Uhh." Lila looked at him confused. "I told you repeatedly that I wouldnt."
"Who knows? You cried when I first drank your blood."
"That was because you were being so forceful."
"I suppose."
Lila felt nervous but she didnt pull his hand away. "So after thinking it through, I guess we could."
"Haruka.."
In the next moment she was laying down on the bed with Haruka hovering over her. He was kissing her pa.s.sionately. She couldnt believe this was happening again. After so much trial and error, to think they are once again going to do this.
For couples, this is normal. It is an act of affection even for those who do it because of l.u.s.t. For the two of them this was a method to communicate the things they could not say. The two of them have come a long way since then, things are no longer like they were before. They do not need to do this to communicate their feelings.
Haruka parted their lips and sat up. He removed his s.h.i.+rt and slowly unbuckled his belt. Lila watched him the entire time and felt her emotions and imagination run wild. Is it too late to back out? Even if this is some false moment of bravery, she needs to have more self-restraint.
No, if this was a false moment of bravery she would have backed out a long time ago.
"Lila." Haruka suddenly spoke. "Do you want me to do it? Or you?"
It took her a moment to understand what he was talking about. He was referring to her clothes. "Y--you can--"
Haruka nodded and tugged on her s.h.i.+rt. "I guess it is a good thing you didnt wear a dress today."
This situation is so embarra.s.sing, she cant seem to talk. She must be an idiot. How many times have they done this already? How could she possibly get embarra.s.sed over something like this? Indeed quite some time has pa.s.sed since they last did it. But did she really have to act like a child for?
She is no longer a child soon she will be eighteen, when she is twenty she will officially be an adult. But in the next two years, what will happen? Lila did not want to think of the worse case scenario, but in the event that something does happen.. She wants to make some more memories.
Lila covered her face with her hands when she realized Haruka was slowly looking at everything as he removed her clothing. How did his feel again? She does not know what to think right now.
Haruka suddenly paused. "Are you okay?" He brushed his hands across her cheeks. "I don"t want to hurt you Lila."
"I--I know."
He wont hurt her… Why would it hurt anyway? This isnt her first time. But Haruka is acting so cautious that it is making her feel nervous too.
Haruka gently kissed her. "Please relax. I love you so much and I"ve missed this."
"O--o-k-"
She felt his hands on her sides and she jolted. "Kiss me please." Lila requested. So she can focus on the sensation of his lips.
Haruka nodded and kissed her pa.s.sionately.
This is the first night they will spend together after so long, she feels so overwhelmed with everything.
"Relax, I love you." He mumbled against her lips. "I love you Lila."
Oh, no-- she feels like crying. Haruka makes her so happy.