Pa.s.sing the bakery, half way down the block, he dropped in, ordered a chocolate ice-cream soda, and chose a seat near the window. As he had expected, it was not long before he saw Rose go across the courthouse yard toward her office on the north side of the square. He liked the swift, easy way in which she walked. She had been walking the first time he had ever seen her, thirteen years before, when her father had led his family uptown from the station, the day of their arrival in Fallon.
Patrick Conroy had come from Sharon, Illinois, to perform the thankless task of starting a weekly newspaper in a town already undernourishing one. By sheer stubbornness he had at last established it. Twelve hundred subscribers, their little printing jobs, advertisers who bought liberal portions of s.p.a.ce at ten cents an inch--all had enabled him to give his children a living that was a shade better than an existence. He had died less than a year ago, and Martin, like the rest of the community, had supposed the Fallon Independent would be sold or suspended. Instead, as quietly and matter-of-factly as she had filled her dead mother"s place in the home while her brothers and sisters were growing up, Rose stepped into her father"s business, took over the editorship and with a boy to do the typesetting and presswork, continued the paper without missing an issue. It even paid a little better than before, partly because it flattered Fallon"s sense of Christian helpfulness to throw whatever it could in Rose"s way, but chiefly because she made the Independent a livelier sheet with double the usual number of "Personals."
Yes, decidedly, Rose had force and push. Martin"s mind was made up. He would drop into the Independent ostensibly to extend his subscription, but really to get on more intimate terms with the woman whom he had now firmly determined should become his wife. He drew a deep breath of relaxation and finished the gla.s.s of sweetness with that sense of self-conscious sheepishness which most men feel when they surrender to the sticky charms of an ice-cream soda. A few minutes later he stood beside Rose"s worn desk.
"How-do-you-do, once more, Miss Rose of Sharon. You"re not the Bible"s Rose of Sharon, are you?" he joshed a bit awkwardly.
"If I were a rose of anywhere, I"d soon wilt in this stuffy little office of inky smells," she answered pleasantly. "A rose would need petals of leather to get by here."
"A rose, by rights, belongs out of doors,"--Martin indicated the direction of his farm--"out there where the sun shines and there"s no smells except the rich, healthy smells of nature."
A merry twinkle appeared in Rose"s eyes. "Aren"t roses out there"--and her gesture was in the same direction--"rather apt to be crowded down by the weeds?"
"Not if there was a good strong man about--a man who wanted to cultivate the soil and give the rose a pretty place in which to bloom."
"Why, Martin," Rose laughed lightly, "the way you"re fixed out there with that shack, the only thing that ever blooms is a fine crop of rag-weeds."
At this gratuitous thrust a flood of crimson surged up Martin"s magnificent, column-like throat and broke in hot waves over his cheeks.
"Well, it"s not going to be that way for long," he announced evenly.
"I"m going to plant a rose--a real rose there soon and everything is going to be right--garden, house and all."
"Is this your way of telling me you"re going to be married?"
"Kinda. The only trouble is, I haven"t got my rose yet."
"Well, if I can"t have that item, at least I can print something about the selling of your coal rights. People will be interested because it shows the operators are coming in our direction. Here in Fallon, we can hardly realize all that this sudden new promotion may mean. From that conversation I heard at the bank I guess you got the regulation hundred an acre."
"Yes, and a good part of it is going into a first-cla.s.s modern house with a heating plant and running hot and cold water in a tiled-floor bath-room, and a concrete cellar for the woman"s preserved things and built-in cupboards, lots of closets, a big garret, and hardwood floors and fancy paper on the walls, and the prettiest polished golden oak furniture you can buy in Kansas City, not to mention a big fireplace and wide, sunny porches. A rose ought to be happy in a garden like that, don"t you think? Folks"ll say I"ve gone crazy when they see my building spree, but I know what I"m about. It"s time I married and the woman who decides to be my wife is going to be glad to stay with me--"
"See here, Martin Wade, what ARE you driving at? What does all this talk mean anyway? Do you want me to give you a boost with someone?"
"You"ve hit it."
"Who is she?" Rose asked, with genuine curiosity.
"You," he said bluntly.
"Well, of all the proposals!"
"There"s nothing to beat around the bush about. I"m only thirty-four, a hard worker, with a tidy sum to boot--not that I"m boasting about it."
"But, Martin, what makes you think I could make you happy?"
Martin felt embarra.s.sed. He was not looking for happiness but merely for more of the physical comforts, and an escape from loneliness. He was practical; he fancied he knew about what could be expected from marriage, just as he knew exactly how many steers and hogs his farm could support. This was a new idea--happiness. It had never entered into his calculations. Life as he knew it was hard. There was no happiness in those fields when burned by the hot August winds, the soil breaking into cakes that left crevices which seemed to groan for water. That sky with its clouds that gave no rain was a hard sky. The people he knew were sometimes contented, but he could not remember ever having known any to whom the word "happy" could be applied. His father and mother--they had been a good husband and wife. But happy? They had been far too absorbed in the bitter struggle for a livelihood to have time to think of happiness. This had been equally true of the elder Malls, was true today of Nellie and her husband. A man and a woman needed each other"s help, could make a more successful fight, go farther together than either could alone. To Martin that was the whole matter in a nutsh.e.l.l, and Rose"s gentle question threw him into momentary confusion.
"I don"t know," he answered uneasily. "We both like to make a success of things and we"d have plenty to do with. We"d make a pretty good pulling team."
Rose considered this thoughtfully. "Perhaps the people who work together best are the happiest. But somehow I"d never pictured myself on a farm."
"Of course, I don"t expect you to make up your mind right away," Martin conceded. "It"s something to study over. I"ll come around to your place tomorrow evening after I get the ch.o.r.es done up and we can talk some more."
So far as Martin was concerned, the matter was clinched. He felt not the slightest doubt but that it was merely a question of time before Rose would consent to his proposition.
After he had left, she reviewed it a little sadly. It wasn"t the kind of marriage of which she had always dreamed. She realized that she was capable of profound devotion, of responding with her whole being to a deep love. But was it probable that this love would ever come? She thought over the men of Fallon and its neighborhood. There were few as handsome as Martin--not one with such generous plans. She knew her own domestic talents. She was a born housekeeper and home-maker. It had been a curious destiny that had driven her into a newspaper office, and at that very moment, there lay on her desk, like a whisper from Fate, the written offer from the rival paper to buy her out for fifteen hundred dollars, giving herself a position on the consolidated staff. She had been pondering over this proposal when Martin interrupted her.
It wasn"t as if she were younger or likely to start somewhere else.
She would live out her life in Fallon, that she knew. There was little chance of her meeting new men, and those established enough to make marriage with them desirable were already married. Candidly, she admitted that if she turned Martin Wade down now, she might never have another such opportunity. If only she could feel that he cared for her--loved her. But wasn"t the fact that he was asking her to be his wife proof of that? It was very strange. She had never suspected that Martin had ever felt drawn to her. With a sigh she pressed her large, capable hands to her heart. Its deep piercing ache brought tears to her eyes. She felt, bitterly, that she was being cheated of too much that was sweet and precious--it was all wrong--she would be making a mistake.
For a moment, she was overwhelmed. Then the practical common sense that had been instilled into her from her earliest consciousness, even as it had been instilled into Martin, rea.s.serted itself. After all, perhaps he was right--the busy people were the happy people. Many couples who began marriage madly in love ended in the divorce courts. Martin was kind and it would be wonderful to have the home he had described. She imagined herself mistress of it, thrilled with the warm hospitality she would radiate, entertained already at missionary meetings and at club. At least, she would be less lonely. It would be a fuller life than now.
What was she getting, really getting, alone, out of this world? She and Martin would be good partners. Poor boy! What a long, hard, cheerless existence he had led. Tenderness welled in her heart and stilled its pain. Perhaps his emotions were far deeper than he could express in words. His way was to plan for her comfort. Wasn"t there something big about his simple cards-on-the-table wooing? And he had called her his rose, his Rose of Sharon. The new house was to be the garden in which she should blossom. To be sure, he had said it all awkwardly, but Rose, who was devout, knew the stately Song of Solomon and as she recalled the magnificent outburst of pa.s.sion she almost let herself be convinced that Martin was a poet-lover in the rough.
And all the while, giving pattern to her flying thoughts, the contents of a letter, received the day before, echoed through her mind. Her sister, Norah, the youngest of the family, had told of her first baby.
"We have named her for you, darling," she wrote. "Oh, Rose, she has brought me such deep happiness. I wonder if this ecstasy can last. Her little hand against my breast--it is so warm and soft--like a flower"s curling petal, as delicate and as beautiful as a b.u.t.terfly"s wing.
I never knew until now what life really meant." As Rose reread the throbbing lines and pictured the eager-eyed young mother, her own sweet face glowed with reflected joy and with the knowledge that this ecstasy, this deeper understanding could come to her, too--Martin, he was vigorous, so worthy of being the father of her children. He would love them, of course, and provide for them better than any other man she knew. Had not Norah married a plain farmer who was only a tenant? The new little Rose"s father was not to be compared to Martin, and yet he had brought the supreme experience to her sister. So Rose sat dreaming, the arid level of monotonous days which, one short hour ago, had stretched before her, flowering into fragrant, sun-filled fields.
Meanwhile, Martin congratulated himself upon having found a woman as sensible, industrious and free from foolish notions, as even he could wish.
III. DUST IN HER HEART
SIX weeks later Martin and Rose were married. Martin had let the contract for the new house and barn to Silas Fletcher, Fallon"s leading carpenter, who had the science of construction reduced to utter simplicity. He had listened to Martin"s description of what he wished and, after some rough figuring, had proceeded to draw the plans on the back of a large envelope. Both Rose and Martin knew that those rude lines would serve unfailingly. For three thousand dollars Fletcher would build the very house Martin had pictured to Rose: a two-story one with four nice rooms and a bath upstairs, four rooms and a pantry downstairs, a floored garret, concrete cellar, an inviting fireplace and wide porches. For two thousand dollars he would give a substantial barn capable of holding a hundred tons of hay and of accommodating twenty cows and four horses.
Rose had been deeply touched by the thoroughness of Martin"s plans, by his unfailing consideration for her comfort. True, there had been moments when her warm, loving nature had been chilled. At such times, misgivings had clamored and she had, finally, all but made up her mind to tell him that she could not go on--that it had all been a mistake.
She would say to him, she had decided: "Martin, you are one of the kindest and best men, and I could be happy with you if only you loved me, but you don"t really care for me and you never will. I feel it. Oh, I do! and I could not bear it--to live with you day in and day out and know that."
But she had reckoned without her own goodness of heart. On the very evening on which she had quite determined to tell Martin this decision he also had arrived at one. As soon as he had entered Rose"s little parlor he had exclaimed with an enthusiasm unusual with him: "We broke the ground for your new garden, today, Rose of Sharon, and Fletcher wants to see you. There are some more little things you"ll have to talk over with him. He understands that you"re the one I want suited."
Rose had felt suddenly rea.s.sured. Why, she had asked herself contritely, couldn"t she let Martin express his love in his own way? Why was she always trying to measure his feelings for her by set standards?
"I"ve been wondering," he had gone on quickly, "what you would think of putting up with my old shack while the new house is being built? It wouldn"t be as if you were going to live there for long and you"d be right on hand to direct things."
"Why, I could do that, of course," she had answered pleasantly. "If you"ve lived there all these years, I surely ought to be able to live there a few months, but Martin--"
"I know what you"re going to say," he had interrupted hastily. "You think we ought to wait a while longer, but if we"re going to pull together for the rest of our lives why mightn"t we just as well begin now? Why is one time any better than another?"
There had been a wistfulness, so rarely in Martin"s voice, that Rose had detected it instantly. After all, why should she keep him waiting when he needed her so much, she had thought tenderly, all the sweet womanliness in her astir with yearnings to lift the cloud of loneliness from his life.
Rose had always believed love a breath of beauty that would hold its purity even in a hovel, but she had not been prepared for the sordidness that seemed to envelop her as she crossed the threshold of the first home of her married life. Martin, held in the clutch of the strained embarra.s.sment that invariably laid its icy fingers around his heart whenever he found himself confronted by emotion, had suggested that Rose go in while he put up the horse and fed the stock. "Don"t be scared if you find it pretty rough," he had warned, to which her light answer had lilted back, "Oh, I shan"t mind."
And, as she stood in the doorway a moment later, her eyes taking in one by one, the murky windows, the dirty floor, the unwashed dishes, the tumbled bed, the rusty, grease bespattered stove choked with cold ashes, she told herself hotly that it was not the dirt nor even the desperate cra.s.sness that was smothering her joy. It was the fact that there was nowhere a touch to suggest preparation for her home-coming. Martin had made not even the crudest attempt to welcome her. It would have been as easy for Rose to be cheerful in the midst of mere squalor as for a flower to bloom white in a crowded tenement, but at the swift realization of the lack of tenderness for her which this indifference to her first impressions so clearly expressed, her faith in the man she had married began to wither. He had failed her in the very quality in which she had put her trust. Already, he had carelessly dropped the thoughtfulness by which he had won her. She wondered how she could have made herself believe that Martin loved her. "He has tried so hard in every way to show me how much I would mean to him," she justified herself. "But now he has me he just doesn"t care what I think."
As Rose forced herself to face this squarely, something within her crumpled. Grim truth leered at her, hurling dust on her bright wings of illusion, poking cruel jests. "This is your wedding day," it taunted, "that tall figure out there near the dilapidated barn feeding his hogs is your husband. Oh, first, sweet, most precious hours! How you will always like to remember them! Here in this dirty shanty you will enter into love"s fulfillment. How romantic! Why doesn"t your heart leap and your arms ache for your new pa.s.sion?" Tears pushed against her eyelids.
Her new life was not going to be happy. Of this she was suddenly, irrevocably certain.
Rose struggled against a complete break-down. This was no time for a scene. What was the matter with her, anyway? Of course, Martin had not meant to disappoint her, nor deliberately hurt her. He probably thought this first home so temporary it didn"t count. She simply would not mope.
Of that she was positive, and a brave little smile swimming up from her troubled heart, she set about, with much energy, to achieve order, valiantly fighting back her insistent tears as she worked.
Meanwhile, Martin, totally oblivious of any cause for storm, was making trips to and from the barrel which contained shorts mixed with water"