Oh, well, you see where all those paltry subterfuges ended. It was the easiest thing in the world to remember something I wanted to tell Westbury--something important--and our telephone lines were not yet connected. It would be about five when I got back, and of course one could not start a piece of work late in the day when one was all worn out. To-morrow, bright and early, would be the time.
Then, just as likely as not, to-morrow would be one of those bad-luck days. In a diary which I kept at the time I find a record of a day of that sort.
Began this morning by breaking a lamp chimney before I was dressed.
I continued by stepping on Pussum"s tail on the way down-stairs in the dark, which caused me to slide and sc.r.a.pe the rest of the way.
Elizabeth came to the head of the stairs with a fresh lamp and the remark that she thought I had given up using such language. In applying the liniment I upset the greasy stuff on the living-room rug and it required an hour"s brisk rubbing to get it out. Not being satisfied with this, I turned over a bottle of ink when I sat down after breakfast to dash off an important note before mail-time. n.o.body could think consecutively after a series like that, so I went out for some fresh air and decided to clean up a rough corner by the brook. I scratched my nose, strained my wrist, and mashed my finger with a stone. Only a 100-per-cent. Christian could remain calm on such a day. To-morrow I shall go warily and softly, and really begin work.
I did, in fact, against all intention and good judgment, begin one evening just about bedtime, and worked until quite late. It was not a bad beginning, either, as such things go--at least, I have tried harder and made worse ones. After that the condensing process went better. I could any time find excuses for not working, but I did not hunt for them so anxiously. I was pretty fairly under way by Christmas, and the room behind the chimney had all at once become the most alluring place in the world.
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CHAPTER SIX
I
_The magic of the starlit tree_
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We have always had a tree for Christmas. Long ago, far back in our early flat-dwelling days, we had our first one, and I remember we shopped for it Christmas Eve among the bright little Harlem groceries where they had them ranged outside, picking very carefully for one symmetrical in shape and small of size and price, to fit our tiny flat and, oh yes, indeed, our casual income. I remember, too, that when it was finally bought I put it on my shoulder with a proud feeling, and we drifted farther, picking up the tr.i.m.m.i.n.gs--the tinsel and gay ornaments, the small gifts for the one very small person who had so recently come to live with us, discussing each purchase with due deliberation, going home at last with rather more than we could afford, I fear, for I recall further that we did not have enough left next morning to buy b.u.t.ter for breakfast. How young we were then, and how poor, and how happy! and Christmas morning, with its twinkling mystery, was the most precious thing of the whole year.
It still remained so. Time could not dim the magic of the starlit tree.
Another little person had come, and another. A larger tree and more decorations were needed, and the presents grew in number and variety, but the old charm of secret preparation, and morning gifts, and the lights that first twinkled around a manger, did not fade.
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We did not buy a tree at Brook Ridge. There was no need. Across the road, partway up the slope, was a collection of green and shapely little cedars--a regular Santa Claus grove--and on the afternoon before Christmas, a gray, still afternoon, heavy with mystic portent, Elizabeth and I took a small ax and climbed up there, and picked and selected, just as we had done in those earlier years, and came home with our tree, stealthily carrying it in the back way, to the wood-house, and fitting it to the small green stand that we had used and preserved from year to year. The little girl for whom we had bought the first tree was the Pride, now aged twelve, and no longer without knowledge of the Christmas saint, but the romance of not knowing, of still believing in it all, was too precious to be put away yet, and she was off to bed with the others to bring more quickly the joyous morning. Alone, as heretofore, Elizabeth and I tied and marked the tissue packages, and in some of the books wrote rhymes, such as only Santa Claus can think of when he has finished his remote year of toil and has started out with his loaded sleigh to strew happiness around the world.
I suppose there is no more delightful employment than to watch the thing that will give a splendid joy to one"s children grow and glisten under one"s hands--to view it at different angles during the process; to note how it begins to look "Christmasy," to add a touch here, a brightness there, to see it at last radiant and complete, ready for the morning illumination. On the topmost branch each year there was always the same little hanging ornament, a swinging tinseled cherub that we had bought for the very first little tree and the very first little girl, in the days when we had been so young, so poor, and so happy.
It was midnight when the last touch was given and the cherub was swinging at the top, and it was only a wink or two afterward, it seemed, that there were callings back and forth from small beds and a general demand for investigation. A hurried semi-dressing, a fire blazing up the chimney, a door thrown open upon a sparkling, spangled tree. Eager exclamations, moments of awed silence, after which the thrilling distribution of gifts. Human life holds few things better or happier than such a Christmas morning. Whatever else the Christ-child brought to the world, that alone would make his coming a boon to mankind.
On our wall hung a quaint framed print of the first Christmas family, and under it some verses by the now all-but-forgotten poet, Edwin Waugh.
In those days it was our custom, when the distribution was over and the morning light filled the room, to gather in front of the picture and sing the verses to a simple tune of our own. It was a poor little ceremony, but, remembering it now, I am glad that we thought it worth while. The verses are certainly so, and I want to preserve them here--they are so little known.
CHRISTMAS CAROL
BY EDWIN WAUGH
Long time ago in Palestine, Upon a wintry morn, All in a lowly cattle-shed The Prince of Peace was born.
The clouds fled from the gloomy sky, The winds in silence lay, And the stars shone bright with strange delight To welcome in that day.
His parents they were simple folk And simple lives they led, And in the ways of righteousness This little child was bred.
In gentle thought and gentle deed His early days went by, And the light His youthful steps did lead Came down from heaven on high.
He was the friend of all the poor That wander here below; It was His only joy on earth To ease them of their woe.
In pain He trod His holy path, By sorrow sorely tried; It was for all mankind He lived, And for mankind He died.
Like Him let us be just and pure, Like Him be true alway, That we may find the peace of mind That never fades away.
II
_Westbury dropped in_
So came the deeps of winter--January in New England. With the Pride and the Hope back at school, Elizabeth and I, with the Joy, shut away from most of the sounds and strivings of men, looked out on the heaping drifts and gathered about blazing logs, piled sometimes almost to the chimney throat.
It was our refreshment and exercise to bring in the logs. We were told that in a former day they had been dragged in by a horse, who drew them right up to the wide stone hearth. But we did not use Lord Beaconsfield for this work. For one thing, he would have been too big to get through the door; besides, we were strong, and liked the job. We had two pairs of ice-tongs, and we would put on our rubber boots, and take the tongs, and go out into the snow, and fasten to a log--one at each end--and drag it across Captain Ben"s iron door-sill, and lift it in and swing it across the stout andirons with a skill that improved with each day"s practice. They were good, l.u.s.ty sticks--some of them nearly two feet through. These were the back-logs, and they would last two or three days, buried in the ashes, breaking at last into a ma.s.s of splendid coals.
In New England one builds a fire scientifically, if he expects to keep warm by it. There must be a fore-stick and a back-stick, and a pyramid of other sticks, with proper draught below and flame outlets above. And he must not spare fuel--not if he expects heat. Westbury dropped in one afternoon just when we had completed a masterpiece in fire-building. He went up to warm his hands and regarded the blazing heap of hickory with critical appraisal.
"That fire cost you two dollars," he remarked, probably recalling the number of days it had taken Old Pop and Sam to cut and cord the big hickory across the brook.
"It"s worth it," I said. "I"ve paid many a two dollars for luxuries that weren"t worth five minutes of this."
Westbury dropped into a comfortable chair, took out his knife, and picked up a piece of pine kindling.
"You think this beats city life?" he observed, whittling slowly.
"Well, that depends on what you want. If you like noise and action, the city"s the place. We once lived in a flat where there was a piano at one end of the hall and two phonographs at the other. Then there was a man across the air-shaft who practised on the clarinet, and a professional singer up-stairs. Besides this, when the season was right, we had a hand-organ concert every few minutes on the street. When everything was going at once it was quite a combination. The trolley in front and the Elevated railway behind helped out, too, besides the automobiles, and the newsboys and more or less babies that were trying to do their part. Some people would be lonesome without those things, I suppose."
Westbury whittled reflectively.
"I like to be where it"s busy," he commented, "but I guess a fellow could get tired of too much of it. It"s pretty nice to live where you can look out on the snow and the woods, and where you can hear it rain, and in the spring wake up in the night and listen to the frogs sing."
Westbury"s eye ranged about the room, taking in the pictures and bric-a-brac and the bookshelves along the wall. "I wonder what Captain Ben Meeker would think to see his old kitchen turned into a library,"
he went on, thoughtfully. "Not many books in his day, I guess; maybe one or two on the parlor table, mostly about religion. They were pretty strong on religion, back in that time, though Captain Ben, I guess, didn"t go in on it as heavy as his wife. Captain Ben was more for hunting, and horses, and dogs, and the man that could cut the most gra.s.s in a day. The story goes that when Eli Brayton, the shoemaker, wanted to marry Molly Meeker, Captain Ben wouldn"t give her to him because he said Eli hadn"t proved himself a man yet. Brayton was boarding in the family and working in the little shop that used to stand across the road. Aunt Sarah Meeker, Captain Ben"s wife, wanted the shoemaker in the family because he was religious; but Captain Ben said, "No, sir, he"s got to prove himself a man before he can have Molly." Well, one day Eli Brayton saw a fox up in the timber, and came down to the house and told Captain Ben about it. "Let me have your gun," he said, "and I"ll go up and get that chap that"s been killing your chickens lately." "All right," says Captain Ben, "but you won"t get him." Eli didn"t say anything, but took the old musket and slipped up there, and by and by they heard a shot and pretty soon he came down the hill with Mr. Fox over his shoulder. They went out on the step to meet him, and he threw the fox down in front of Molly Meeker. "There"s some fur for you," he said, "and I guess he won"t catch any more chickens." Captain Ben went up to Eli and slapped him on the shoulder. "Now you"ve proved yourself a man," he says, "and you can have Molly." That was my wife"s grandmother. She was an only child and the Meekers and the Braytons lived here together. Eli Brayton grew to be quite a character himself. When they came around to him to collect money for the church he"d contribute some of his unpaid shoe accounts. He knew the people that owed them would pay the church, because they"d be afraid not to. Old Deacon Timothy Todd used to do the collecting. He had a high-keyed voice and no front teeth, and always chewed as he talked.
He"d pull out the bill and shake it at the man that owed it and say: "A debt to the church is registered above. Not to pay it is a mortal sin.
To perish in sin is to be burned with brimstone and eaten by the worm that dieth not." Before Deacon Todd got through that sinner was ready to come across."
Westbury in childhood had seen Deacon Timothy Todd and could imitate his speech and manner. He enjoyed doing it as much as we enjoyed hearing him.
"Deacon Todd had two boys," he went on, "Jim and Tim, and he used to say, "My Jim is a good boy, but Tim proved himself a bad one when he slapped his mother with an eel-skin." Deacon Todd married a second time.
He lent some money to a woman to set up a business in Westport, and a little while after his wife died he went down to collect it. Somebody met him on the road and asked him where he was going. "Well," he said, "I"m just going down to Westport to collect a little money I loaned a young woman, and I"ll bring back the money or the young woman, one of the two," and he did. He was back with her next day. Timothy Todd was a great old chap. When the Civil War broke out he didn"t want to go. He was getting along pretty well, then--forty or so--and had already lost two of his front teeth and claimed he couldn"t bite off the ca"tridges.
They used to have to bite off the paper ends of them for muzzle-loading guns. Then the draft came and he was scared up for fear they"d get him.
They didn"t, though, but they got about all the others that were left, and Deacon Todd went down to see them off. When the train came and he saw them all get on, and the train starting, he forgot all about not wanting to go, and jumped on with them, and went. "I saw all my friends was goin"," he said, "an" th"d be n.o.body left in the country but me. "I reckon I can bite them ca"tridges off with my eye-teeth, if I really want to do it," I says, an" I was on the train an" half-way to Danbury before I recollected that Mrs. Todd had told me to bring home a dime"s wuth o" coffee an" a pound o" sugar. I didn"t get back with "em fer two years, an" then I come in limpin" with a bullet in my left hind leg.
"Here"s that pound o" coffee and dime"s wuth o" sugar," I says. "I waited fer "em to git cheaper."""
Westbury"s visits did much to brighten up the somber days, while our blazing hearth and the st.u.r.dy little furnace down-stairs kept us warm and cozy. Looking out on a landscape that was like a Christmas card, and remembering the drabble and jangle of the town, we were not sorry to be among the clean white hills.
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