"I don"t--I don"t seem to care to smoke nowadays, d.i.c.k."
"Rot! Just because I am dead! You that pretend to be plucky! I won"t have it, you know. You get your pipe, and look slippy about it."
"Yes, d.i.c.k," the old man says obediently. He fills his pipe from a jar on the mantelshelf. We may be sure that d.i.c.k is watching closely to see that he lights it properly.
"Now, then, burn your thumb with the match--you always did, you know.
That"s the style. You"ve forgotten to c.o.c.k your head to the side. Not so bad. That"s you. Like it?"
"It"s rather nice, d.i.c.k. d.i.c.k, you and me by the fire!"
"Yes, but sit still. How often we might have been like this, father, and weren"t."
"Ah!"
"Face. How is Fido?"
"Never a dog missed her master more."
"Oh," frowning. "She doesn"t want to go and sit on my grave, or any of that tosh, does she? As if I were there!"
"No, no," hastily; "she goes ratting, d.i.c.k."
"Good old Fido!"
"d.i.c.k, here"s a good one. We oughtn"t to keep a dog at all because we are on rations now; but what do you think Fido ate yesterday?"
"Let me guess. The joint?"
"Almost worse than that. She ate all the cook"s meat tickets."
They laugh, together, but when d.i.c.k says light-heartedly, "That dog will be the death of me." his father shivers. d.i.c.k does not notice this; his eyes have drawn him to the fishing-rods.
"Hullo!"
"Yes, those are your old fishing-rods."
"Here"s the little hickory! Do you remember, father, how I got the seven-pounder on a burn-trout cast? No, you weren"t there. That was a day. It was really only six and three-quarters. I put a stone in its mouth the second time we weighed it!"
"You loved fishing, d.i.c.k."
"Didn"t I? Why weren"t you oftener with me? I"ll tell you a funny thing, When I went a soldiering I used to pray--just standing up, you know--that I shouldn"t lose my right arm, because it would be so awkward for casting." He cogitates as he returns to the ingle-nook. "Somehow I never thought I should be killed. Lots of fellows thought that about themselves, but I never did. It was quite a surprise to me."
"Oh, d.i.c.k!"
"What"s the matter? Oh, I forgot. Face!" He is apparently looking down at his father wonderingly. "Haven"t you got over it yet, father? I got over it so long ago. I wish you people would understand what a little thing it is."
"Tell me," very humbly; "tell me, d.i.c.k."
"All right." He is in the chair again.
"Mind, I can"t tell you where I was killed; it"s against the regulations."
"I know where."
Curiously, "You got a wire, I suppose?"
"Yes."
"There"s always a wire for officers, even for 2nd Lieutenants. It"s jolly decent of them."
"Tell me, d.i.c.k, about the--the veil. I mean the veil that is drawn between the living and the----."
"The dead? Funny how you jib at that word."
"I suppose the veil is like a mist?"
"The veil"s a rummy thing, father. Yes, like a mist. But when one has been at the Front for a bit, you can"t think how thin the veil seems to get; just one layer of it. I suppose it seems thin to you out there because one step takes you through it. We sometimes mix up those who have gone through with those who haven"t. I daresay if I were to go back to my old battalion the living chaps would just nod to me."
"d.i.c.k!"
"Where"s that pipe? Death? Well, to me, before my day came, it was like some part of the line I had heard a lot about but never been in. I mean, never been in to stay, because, of course, one often popped in and out."
"d.i.c.k, the day that you----"
"My day? I don"t remember being hit, you know. I don"t remember anything till the quietness came. When you have been killed it suddenly becomes very quiet; quieter even than you have ever known it at home. Sunday used to be a pretty quiet day at my tutor"s, when Trotter and I flattened out on the first shady spot up the river; but it is quieter than that. I am not boring you, am I?"
"My boy!"
"When I came to, the veil was so thin that I couldn"t see it at all; and my first thought was, Which side of it have I come out on? The living ones lying on the ground were asking that about themselves, too. There we were, all sitting up and asking whether we were alive or dead; and some were one, and some were the other. Sort of fluke, you know."
"I--I--oh, d.i.c.k!"
"As soon as each had found out about himself he wondered how it had gone with his chums, I halloo"d to Johnny Randall, and he halloo"d back that he was dead, but that Trotter was living. That"s the way of it. A good deal of chaff, of course. By that time the veil was there, and getting thicker, and we lined up on our right sides. Then I could only see the living ones in shadow and hear their voices from a distance. They sang out to us for a while; but just at first, father, it was rather lonely when we couldn"t hear their tread any longer. What are you fidgeting about? You needn"t worry; that didn"t last long; we were heaps more interested in ourselves than in them. You should have heard the gabbling! It was all so frightfully novel, you see; and no one quite knew what to do next, whether all to start off together, or wait for some one to come for us. I say, what a lot I"m talking!"
"What happened, d.i.c.k?"
"Oh!" a proud ring coming into the voice, "Ockley came for us. He used to be alive, you know--the Ockley who was keeper of the fives in my first half. I once pointed him out to mother. I was jolly glad he was the one who came for us. As soon as I saw it was Ockley I knew we should be all right."
"d.i.c.k, I like that Ockley."
"Rather. I wish I could remember something funny to tell you though.
There are lots of jokes, but I am such a one for forgetting them."
He laughs boisterously. We may be sure that he flings back his head. You remember how d.i.c.k used to fling back his head when he laughed?--No, you didn"t know him.
"Father, do you remember little Wantage who was at my private and came on to Ridley"s house in my third half? His mother was the one you called Emily."
"Emily Wantage"s boy."