"Sasha was fragile, like a gla.s.s doll." She smoked a little more, contemplating. "If a man did this thing to
me, I would not kill myself. I would cut off his p.e.n.i.s and feed it to the pigs."
"Very effective."
"Then I would kill him."
"A little luckier in your aim with that horseshoe and you might have," I said.
Irina poured another three fingers of the Stoli and sipped at it. I thought about Van Zandt abusing his
authority over a young girl that way. Most adults would have had a difficult time dealing with his mercurial temperament. An eighteen-year-old girl would have been in way over her head. He deserved exactly what Irina had imagined for him.
"I"d like to say I"ll hold him down while you kick him," I said. "But Sean will expect you to apologize, Irina."
"He can kiss my Russian a.s.s."
"You needn"t be sincere." She thought about that. If it had been me, I would still have told Sean to kiss my a.s.s. But I couldn"tafford to alienate Van Zandt, especially not in the light of what Irina had told me. Her friend Sasha wasdead. Maybe Erin Seabright was still alive.
"Come on," I said before she could have a chance to set her mind against it. "Get it over with. You can
kill him on your day off."
I led the way out. Sean and Van Zandt were standing on the gra.s.s near the mounting block. Van Zandt was still red in the face, rubbing his arm where the horseshoe had struck him.
Irina unhooked Tino from the grooming stall and led the gelding out.
"Sean, I apologize for my outburst," Irina said, handing him the reins. "I am sorry to have embarra.s.sed
you." She looked at Van Zandt with cold disdain. "I apologize for attacking you on Mr. Avadon"sproperty." Van Zandt said nothing, just stood there scowling at her. The girl looked at me as if to say, See what a swine he is? She walked away, climbed the stairs to the gazebo at the end of the arena, and drapedherself on a chair. "The czarina," I said. Van Zandt sulked. "I should call the police." "But I don"t think you will."
"She should be locked up."
"Like you locked up her friend?" I asked innocently, wishing I could stick a knife between his ribs.
His mouth was trembling as if he might cry. "You would believe her lies about me? I have done nothing wrong. I gave that girl a job, a place to live-"
Herpes . . .
"She stole from me," he went on. "I treated her like a daughter, and she stole from me and f.u.c.ked me in the a.s.s, telling lies about me!"
The victim yet again. Everyone was against him. His motives were always pure. I didn"t point out to him that in America if a man treated his daughter the way he had treated Sasha, he would go to prison and come out a registered s.e.x offender.
"How ungrateful," I said.
"You believe her," he accused.
"I believe in minding my own business, and your s.e.x life is not and never will be my business."
He crossed his arms and pouted, staring down at his ta.s.seled loafers. Sean had mounted and was in the arena warming up.
"Forget about Irina," I said. "She"s only hired help. Who cares what grooms have to say? They should be like good children: seen and not heard."
"These girls should know their place," he muttered darkly as he unzipped his camera case and took out a video camera. "Or be put in it."
A shiver ran down my spine like a cold, bony finger.
As we stood and watched Sean work the horse, I knew neither of us had our mind on the quality of the animal. Van Zandt"s mood had gone to a very dark place. He had to be thinking about damage control to his reputation, probably believing Irina-and maybe I-would spread the Sasha story around Wellington and he would lose clients. Or maybe he was simply fantasizing about strangling Irina with his bare hands, the bones in her throat cracking like small dry twigs. Irina sat in the gazebo smoking, one long leg swinging over the arm of the big wicker chair, never taking her glare off Van Zandt.
My thoughts were running in another direction. I wondered if Tomas Van Zandt had thought Erin Seabright should be glad to accept his advances, or if he had "put her in her place." I thought about my feeling that Erin had dumped Chad, and wondered if Van Zandt or someone like him might have made her promises, then broken them in the most terrible way. And I wondered again if all these terrible possibilities had been made possible by Bruce Seabright.
Erin hadn"t fit his idea of the perfect daughter, and now she was out of his way. If she turned up dead, would he feel a moment"s guilt? If she never turned up at all, would he feel a second"s responsibility? Or would he be pleased for a job well done?
I thought about my own father and wondered if he would have been relieved to have his ungrateful daughter simply disappear. Probably. I had loudly opposed everything he was, everything he stood for. I" d thumbed my nose at him and taken up a profession putting away the people he defended in court, the people who provided for the lifestyle I"d grown up in. Then again, maybe I had disappeared for him. I hadn"t seen or spoken to him in years. For all I knew, I had ceased to exist in his mind.
At least my father hadn"t set me up for doom. That had been my own doing entirely.
If Bruce had set Erin up with Trey Hughes, and Hughes had set her up with Jade, and via Jade she had been exposed to Van Zandt, Erin had never really had any say in her destiny. The irony was that she had thought she was gaining independence, taking control of her life. But the longer she was missing, the longer the odds were she would come out of this with a life at all.
By the time Sean had finished showing Tino, Sean"s coach had arrived to teach him, leaving me to see Van Zandt off the property.
"Do you think your client from Virginia will be interested?" I asked.
"Lorinda Carlton?" He gave the Continental shrug. "I will tell her to be, so she will be," he said. The word of Van Zandt, amen. "She"s not a talented rider, but she has a hundred thousand dollars to spend. All I have to do is convince her this horse is her destiny and everyone will live happily ever after."
Except the woman who bought a horse she couldn"t handle. Then Van Zandt would convince her to sell that one and buy another. He would make money on both deals, and the cycle would begin again.
"You shouldn"t reveal your trade secrets," I said. "You"ll disillusion me."
"You are a very smart woman, Elle. You know the ways of this horse world. It"s a hard business. People are not always nice. But I take care of my clients. I am loyal to them and I expect them to be loyal to me. Lorinda trusts me. She gives me the use of her townhouse while I am here for the season. See how grateful my friends are to me?"
"That"s one word for it," I said dryly.
And he would blithely betray the trust of his grateful friend so he could foster a more lucrative relationship with Sean Avadon. He told me without batting an eye, as if it were nothing to him, and in the next breath he spoke of loyalty as if he were the poster boy for personal virtue.
"Are you free for dinner, Elle?" he asked. "I"ll take you to The Players. We can talk about what kind of horse I want for you."
I found the suggestion revolting. I was exhausted and in pain and fed up to my eyeb.a.l.l.s with this nauseating character and his bipolar mood swings. I wanted to do what Irina had done, jump on him and pummel him and call him every vile name I could think of. Instead, I said, "Not tonight, Z. I have a headache."
He looked hurt and angry again. "I am not a monster. I have integrity. I have character. People in this business, they get angry, they spread rumors. You should know better than to believe them."
I held up a hand. "Stop. Just stop, will you? Jesus. I"m tired. My head hurts. I want to spend my evening in the Jacuzzi with no one talking at me. As impossible as this might be for you to grasp, it"s not about you."
He didn"t believe that, but he changed tack at least. He stood straighter and nodded to himself. "You will see, Elle Stevens. I will do for you. I will make you a champion," he said. "You will see what kind of man I am."
In the end, that was the one prophecy he made that actually came true.
Jill stood in front of the cheap full-length mirror wearing nothing but makeup, a black lace bra, and a thong. She turned this way and that, practicing her various looks. Shy, coy, s.e.xy. She liked s.e.xy best. It went with the bra.
The bra was too small by a couple of sizes and dug into her sides, but it made her b.o.o.bs look all the bigger, which she thought was a good thing. Like the women in Hustler, her t.i.ts seemed to swell up out of the cups. She could easily imagine Jade burying his face in her cleavage. The idea gave her a tingle between her legs, which drew her attention to the thong.
It also was too small for her, the skinny little straps cutting into the fat on her hips. Pubic hair sprouted out on either side of the sc.r.a.p of black lace at the front. She twisted around and looked at her b.u.t.t, bare and white, wide and dimpled. She didn"t like the way the thong felt going up her crack, but she thought she"d better get used to it. The thong was s.e.xy. Men went for a thong. She just wished that b.i.t.c.h Erin hadn"t been so f.u.c.king skinny. Maybe if the thong was for a normal-sized person it wouldn"t be so uncomfortable.
Oh, well. It was free. And it kind of turned her on that it belonged to someone else. She was taking Erin" s place-in the barn, in the world. With Erin gone, Jill could be the flirty one. Jill could be the clever one.
But she would still be in the shadow of Paris Montgomery.
That c.u.n.t.
Jill scowled at the reminder. It was not a pretty reflection that looked back at her.
She hated Paris. She hated her smile, hated her big eyes, hated her blond hair. She hated Paris more than she had hated Erin. And she had hated the two of them together more than anything. Together they had been like the popular girls in school: too cool to be friends with someone like Jill, full of private jokes and catty looks. At least she didn"t have to put up with that s.h.i.t anymore. But there was still Paris.
Men fell all over themselves for Paris. She could get anybody to do anything for her. n.o.body seemed to see that she was just a big phony. Everyone thought she was so funny and sweet and nice. She wasn"t nice at all. When people weren"t looking she was bossy and b.i.t.c.hy and mean. She was always making snide remarks about Jill eating too much and Jill needing to exercise and Jill not knowing how to dress.
Jill looked at herself head to toe in the mirror and suddenly saw exactly what Paris Montgomery saw. Not a s.e.xy woman in s.e.xy lingerie, but a fat face with small, piggy eyes and a sour, downturned mouth; arms inflated with fat; fat legs with dimpled knees; a body she hated so much she often fantasized taking a knife and slicing off big slabs of it. Ugly and pathetic in her stolen, too-small underwear.
Tears squeezed out of her eyes and her face turned mottled red. It wasn"t her fault she was fat. Her mother had let that happen when she was a kid. So she couldn"t help it now that she ate the wrong things. And it wasn"t her fault she didn"t exercise. She was tired at the end of the day-never mind that b.i.t.c.h Paris was always accusing her of not working hard enough.
Why would she work any harder for Paris? Paris didn"t give her any incentive to work hard, so if she wasn"t getting as much done as Paris wanted, it was Paris"s fault. And it wasn"t her fault she didn"t have nice clothes. She didn"t get paid enough to buy nice things. She had to shoplift to get nice things. And she deserved them as much as anybody-more, really, considering people were so mean to her.
Well, she would show Paris Montgomery, she thought, digging through the pile of clothes tangled in the sheets of the unmade bed. She was going to take Paris Montgomery"s place, just like she"d taken Erin"s place.
Jill knew she could be just as good a rider as Paris if only someone would give her the chance. She had never had a good enough horse, that was all. Her father had bought her a crummy, cheap Appaloosa to ride. How was she supposed to get anywhere in the jumping world on that? She had once written a letter to her mother"s brother to see if he wouldn"t buy her a real horse. She couldn"t see why he wouldn"t. He was rich, after all. What was seventy or eighty thousand dollars to him? But she had never heard a thing from him. Cheap b.a.s.t.a.r.d.
She"d show him too. She"d show everybody. She was going to be rich, and she was going to ride the best horses and go to the Olympics. She had it all planned. All she needed was a break, and she knew right where she was going to get it.
She pulled a see-through white stretch lace blouse out of the pile of clothes Erin had left behind. Jill had claimed the stuff for herself. Why not? It wasn"t even stealing if the other person just left it. She struggled into the top. Even with the stretch, the front gapped open between the b.u.t.tons. She undid the top three, showing cleavage and black bra. That helped. And it was s.e.xy. It was just the kind of thing Britney Spears wore all the time. That was why Erin had bought it. Erin always dressed that way: crop tops and hip huggers. And guys had always had their eyes on her-including Don.
Jill rummaged through another pile. She came up with a purple stretch miniskirt she"d stolen from Wal-Mart. It had been on clearance, anyway. The store wasn"t out that much. She stepped into it and wriggled and pushed and pulled until she had it in place. She had a serious panty line from the too-small thong, but she figured that was a good thing. It was like advertising.
A pair of big hoop earrings and a necklace from the pile of jewelry that had belonged to Erin, and the bangle bracelets she"d lifted from Bloomingdale"s, and she was set. She squeezed her feet into a pair of platform sandals, grabbed her purse, and left the apartment. She was going to show everybody, and she was going to start tonight.
L andry sat at his desk feeling like an a.s.shole, scrolling through pages on the computer screen. Friday night, and this was what he had going on in his life.
It was Estes" fault, he thought, scowling. He had let that become his mantra for the day. Like a thorn, she "d gotten under his skin to irritate him. Because of her he was sitting at his desk reading old newspaper stories.
The squad room was mostly empty. A couple of the night-shift guys were doing paperwork. Landry"s shift was long over, and the other four guys he worked with had gone home to girlfriends or wives and kids, or were sitting in the usual watering hole drinking and b.i.t.c.hing, as cops are wont to do.
Landry sat at his desk trying to dig something up on the horse people. Neither Jade nor his a.s.sistant had a criminal record. The groom who was allegedly f.u.c.king Jade had been picked up a couple of times for shoplifting, and once on a DUI. She had struck him as trouble, and he"d been right about that. He didn"t believe she"d been with Jade Thursday night, but she"d felt compelled to give the guy an alibi just the same. Landry had to wonder why.
Did the girl know Jade had been involved in letting Michael Berne"s horses loose? Had she done the job herself, and by giving Jade an alibi, given herself one as well? Maybe Jade had put her up to it. He seemed too sharp to risk pulling a stunt like that himself. If the girl got caught, he could always deny knowledge of what she"d been up to. He could say it was a misguided attempt to gain his approval.
Michael Berne certainly believed Jade had been behind the incident. Landry had interviewed him in the afternoon, and he"d thought Berne was going to cry or choke as he blamed Don Jade for all the problems in his life. What had Paris Montgomery said? That Berne blamed Jade for everything except his own lack of talent. Berne seemed to think Jade was the Antichrist, responsible for all evil in the horse business.
Maybe he wasn"t all wrong.
Estes had told Landry about Jade"s past the first time she"d come in, the schemes to kill horses for the insurance money. No one had touched the guy for any of that. Jade had slipped out from under it all like a greased snake.
Insurance fraud, killing horses-what might Erin Seabright know about any of that, Landry wondered. And why wasn"t she around to ask?
He had put a call in that afternoon to the Ocala authorities to see if they could locate the girl up there, and he had put out an alert for all law enforcement officers in Palm Beach County to be on the lookout for her car. She had probably split town for a new job or a new boyfriend, but in case she hadn"t, it wouldn"t hurt to cover the bases.
And if anyone asked him what the h.e.l.l he was doing, he would say it was all Estes" fault, he thought irritably.
He sipped his coffee and glanced over his shoulder. The night guys were still into their paperwork. Landry tapped a couple of keys and brought up a newspaper account of the Golam brothers" bust, two years prior. He had read it earlier in the day, knew what was in it, knew exactly the paragraph his eyes would go to: the paragraph that described narcotics detective Elena Estes hanging on the door of Billy Golam"s truck, then falling beneath it. She had been dragged fifty yards down Okeechobee Boulevard, and was hospitalized in critical condition at the time the story had been written.
He wondered what she must have gone through since that day, how many weeks, months she"d lain in a hospital bed. He wondered what had possessed her to jump on that truck and try to wrestle control of it from Billy Golam.
Narcs. Cowboys, every last one of them.
Two years had pa.s.sed. He wondered what she"d been doing all that time, and why she"d come out of the shadows for this case. He wondered why her life was crossing paths with his.
He sure as h.e.l.l didn"t want the trouble that came with her. But there it was. He"d taken the bait. He was on the case now.
It was all Estes" fault.
J ill ran out the front door of The Players, huffing and hiccuping, fat tears spilling down her cheeks with a dirty stream of black mascara. She swiped the back of her hand under her running nose, then sc.r.a.ped a stringy strand of hair back out of her eyes.
The valets stood off to the side, staring at her, saying nothing. They didn"t ask if they could get her car, because they knew by looking at her, she wouldn"t have a car worth letting them park. They parked cars for beautiful people, rich people, thin people.
"What are you looking at?" Jill snapped. They looked at each other, smirking. "f.u.c.k you!" she shouted and ran, crying, across the parking lot, falling off one platform sandal and turning her ankle. Stumbling, she dropped the beaded handbag she"d stolen at Neiman Marcus, and the contents spewed out of it across the pavement.
"G.o.ddammit!" Crawling on her hands and knees, she broke a fingernail as she sc.r.a.ped at a tube of lipstick and a pack of condoms. "f.u.c.k! f.u.c.k!"
Spittle and tears and snot ran from her face onto the concrete. Jill folded herself over into a ball and sobbed, a wrenching, ugly noise. She was ugly. Her clothes were ugly. Even her crying was ugly. Pain swelled inside her like a blister and burst with another wave of tears.
Why? She had asked the question a million times in her life. Why did she have to be the fat one, the ugly one; the one n.o.body liked, much less loved? It wasn"t fair. Why was she supposed to have to work hard to change herself when b.i.t.c.hes like Erin and Paris just had it all?
She wiped her face on the sleeve of the white lace blouse, gathered her stuff together, and struggled to her feet. An elegant older couple walking away from a Jaguar stared at her with something like horror. Jill gave them the finger. The woman gasped and the man put his arm around her protectively and hustled her toward the building.
Jill opened her car and flung her purse and the things that had come out of it in the direction of the pa.s.senger"s seat. She flung herself behind the wheel, slammed the door, and burst into tears again. She pounded her fists on the wheel, then against the window, then hit the horn by accident and startled at the blast of sound.
Her big plan. Her big seduction. What a f.u.c.king joke she was.